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Posted: Sat, 21/12/2024 00:00 (1 Month ago)
- hihi! (* ' ‿ ' *) -
* please do NOT post in here! *
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this is probably my first time posting in the diary forum,
so please bear ( 🐻 ) with me! ( ' _ ' ")
names i go by :
jackie / jamie / melon (from my second username) / momo (current username)
race :
haitian-american
pronouns :
she / her / hers
my past usernames here :
~Jackie~
~melonpiee~
rosalina_x
jackiiee~
~neptune
jacki1ie
seraphiim
momobami (current)
- what i might post here -
maybe shiny hunt logs, straight up yap (lol), and mayyybe an oc storage? we'll see
...
i might post in here a few hours later or tomorrow,
but i don't want to post a lot lot,
since i'm not super sure how much i'm supposed to post at a time
...
but, yeahh! stay tuned i guess! ( - 3 -)
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Posted: Sat, 21/12/2024 02:33 (1 Month ago)
awkward moment (at walmart)
you ever had those awkward moments where you think someone is talking with/to you,
but it turns out they're actually focused on/chatting with the person behind you? 🤦🏾♀️
basically, i was in a line at a walmart near my house (this was a few months ago),
since my mom wanted me to go out and get her stuff,
because she decided it would be cool if i could spend more money on things for her when i originally needed some stuff for myself
i was texting my boyfriend about random things and he sent a funny gif so i giggled about it
the girl in front of me in the line asked, "why are you smiling?"
and i thought it was towards me, so i just told her that my boyfriend sent a funny message
... until i hear another girl talk behind me 😭
i turn around and see her, and would you look at that, she's also smiling!
then i look back and the two girls start having a full on conversation.
i literally looked so dumb so i just quickly checked out and left, as i watched them walk out the store together
told my boyfriend about it on the drive home and he wouldn't stop making fun of me
moral of the story : if you think someone's talking to you, ask if they're taling to you or not 🥲
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Posted: Sat, 21/12/2024 04:19 (1 Month ago)
the desatvanyages of being a fast typer
oh my goodness i spelled that wrong didn't i?
or a little asterisk next to the word that is now spelled correctly, right?
sigh ...
i have waaaaay too many moments with my words being incorrectly spelt or not being spaced,
or somehow numbers appear in the words??
typying fast is literally a hobby for me,
until i realize that i indeed spelt something wrong /made a mistake,
now i have to go back and fix it ( > _ >)
its been getting so bad to the point where i literally accept my fate as my friends cackle and giggle,
quoting and repeating my words 😒
basically:
your "help" is my "hrlp"
your "my" is my "mu"
your "need" is my "n33d" 😭
the list sadly goes on, most of my friends here have seen my spelling errors
and we all made jokes and laughed about it all the time, so all is well at the end!
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Posted: Sat, 21/12/2024 12:10 (1 Month ago)
possible theme - green?? ...
not a green fan but i like to explore different colors
but thanks to someone super sweet who taught me how to make my profile look cute and aesthetic-y,
here we are!
posts like these will just contain stuff like what i'm going to use on my profile,
my possible avatar, colors i'll just for my panels and stuff like that
my current theme is a mix of light blue and gray (mostly gray tbh) and i might change it soon! to a dark or lighter green
some people here know that i LOVE changing my profile layout almost all the time
but i think ive slowed down on it a little?
anyways enough of me, this post will be a wip until i get everything sorted out!
please don't steal my profile layouts!
( finished - already used )
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Posted: Sat, 21/12/2024 13:41 (1 Month ago)
the horrors of role-playing as a beginner
(+ cringe moments)
cringe moments that we have as beginners really get to us,
don't they? seeing old roleplays that you've made/been apart of,
and just looking back makes you want to scream into a pillow?
okay so boom, i'm now 11 months into the game after i joined pokeheroes,
one of my close friends introduced me to the world of role-playing!
and oh man, i immediately fell in love
here's where the love stops, cause now you're looking back at the way you used to write
and now you suddenly find yourself screaming and leaving the face of the earth forever 🥲
but yeah, when i started off, i would do all of the cringe things as a newbie like posting one-liners,
creating random and weird plot twists that didn't make sense,
rushing into certain parts of a roleplay that were supposed to be held until the right moment,
trying to give my character spotlight, etc..
its all just a total mess when you think about it,
but you can improve! i do believe i improved as well,
but of course i also think that i can make some room for more improvement!
i still roleplay though! pretty rarely too, since now and days ive sort of stopped,
but i do wish my passion was still (sort of) there because even though i used to be all over the place,
i just loved being super creative and turn my ideas into stories or just act them out into the "final cut!"
but currently, me and my bestie [ super sweet + my #1 (❁´◡`❁) ]
are doing a 1x1 in the private rp section in the roleplay forum!
check it out if you'd like to!
anyways, that's enough of this! *runs away cutely*
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Posted: Sat, 21/12/2024 20:36 (1 Month ago)
here is a list of my close friends (not in order) !
( ily guys /p )
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Posted: Sun, 22/12/2024 02:16 (1 Month ago)
when your music taste is all over the place
literally all genres in my playlist
listening to music has been apart of my life for a while now,
and it has carried me during my darkest and happiest moments of my life
personally to me i don't see how one can live without listening to music AT ALL
i love listening to music that expresses how i currently feel,
or when i think of a song in my head i'll dig through my playlist and look for that exact song
whenever my earbuds die i'll just hum the tune as people around me give me strange looks /j
but ...
if you were to ever ask me for my favorite song, you'd probably get :
"uhhhhhhh ... i have too many favorites ..."
i have over 4,000+ ish songs if you combine all of my music playlists together,
and man once you hit over at least 1,000 songs in my opinion,
i feel like it's possible to have multiple favorites instead of one
but let's talk about my music taste... yikes
one moment you'll hear a sad song play and then you'll hear :
"LET'S GO TO THE BEACH BEACH LETS GO GET AWAY-"
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im in love with multiple songs from different genres, like i'll listen to the most upbeat song known to man
and then now you have tears in your eyes to the most gut wrenching and saddening song
but if i did have at least a main favorite artist, he's pretty common but i have to say tyler, the creator 😚
i just really love music
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Posted: Sun, 22/12/2024 13:50 (1 Month ago)
future theme - pink !
a little cutesy color i had in mind (* ' _ ' *)
please don't steal my profile layouts!
(finished!)
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Posted: Sun, 22/12/2024 19:33 (1 Month ago)
... siblings.
the title explains itself 😒 /j
blessings you can have in my personal opinion!
... but i am so close to crashing out whenever my brother has a fun time annoying me
having a love and hate relationship with my brother
that leans mostly towars hate is probably the most normal thing to me
i could just be in my room chilling/on a call with some friends, then suddenly-
*door opens*
my smile will literally drop so fast
because that's when i know that he has nothing better to do than to annoy me.
he'll do stupid things like scream in the background while im on a call,
randomly walk into my room and mess with my stuff and then leave,
ask me questions that he knows will piss me off, etc ...
but, honestly, there isn't really anyone else who gets me more than he does
sure he's a jerk, but me and my brother are pretty close, pushing the hate aside
my other older brother is more mature and sweet, but i don't see him that often
since he's busy most of the time, but we still keep in touch
growing up with 2 brothers, it made me wonder, what would it be like if i had a sister?
when i was younger this question i had in mind would make me upset sometimes,
but luckily i have a super close best friend of mine who's stuck with me since kindergarten,
and she's the closest thing to that 😚💟
i better finish this post before my brother decides to plan some tomfoolery
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Posted: Mon, 23/12/2024 13:35 (1 Month ago)
a messy-ish secret santa
... at a christmas church party
we'll have people singing, children would be dancing, there would be a play,
we would do secret santas, enjoy food, then return home! sounds fun so far, right?
yesterday, last night, i was attending at the party with the fam
i was doing a solo (singing wise) so i was a bit nervous but i got it out of the way
everyone was super supportive, and after that, the day went by and we closed off
with a secret santa gift exchange
when i bought my gifts for my person, i found it ironic that i had her
after she had me last year
... here's where things get awkward
when i went to the stage to announce that i had her,
a look of confusion was on her face, so i could immediately tell that there was some sort of error
she handed me the gift she had bought for her secret santa and told me
"i got you again, girl"
although this may seem like it's not an "error" at all, we would usually get different people
other than each other
but it would've been crazy if two people got the same person 😭
i was also confused but i shrugged it off and smiled,
then we exchanged our gifts and gave each other a hug
she got me a bath & body works gift card + a box of chocolates 🥹
looking forward to next year's secret santa, though!
happy holidays y'all 🎄
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Posted: Mon, 23/12/2024 21:28 (1 Month ago)
tyler, the creator
tyler songs that i genuinely enjoy listening to (+ instrumentals)
hope you can enjoy them as much as i do! | d–(^ ‿ ^ )z
some of these songs include swearing, so be aware of that!
- whoville
(official beat he made inspired by dr seuss's "the grinch" + illumination)
- cindy lou's wish
(another beat he made inspired by dr seuss's "the grinch" + illumination)
- number, number
(unofficial song - the snippet sounded great on call me if you get lost)
- treehome95
- best intrest
- sweet / i thought you wanted to dance
- momma talk - instrumental
(unofficial instrumental - still sounds super good imo)
- like him
- where this flower blooms
- ifhy
- new magic wand
- wilshire
- i hope you find your way home
- 911 / mr. lonely
- see you again
- glitter
- hot chocolate
- i am the grinch
- globetrotter - insrumental
(unofficial instrumental - sounded so nice when he was promoting le FLEUR*)
- st. chroma
- safari
- rise!
- darling, i
- i killed you
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Posted: Tue, 24/12/2024 05:14 (1 Month ago)
being apart of a fandom/community that not many people know
object shows ( ´～｀)
but honestly it sucks when i want to tell some of my friends about it
knowing that they probably have no knowledge of them
ive been an object show OG probably since like... 5-6 years ago?
object shows are based off of the show "total drama island"
but replace the human contestants with everyday/random objects
(ex. a spoon, a pencil, a paintbrush, etc)
theres a whole LIST of super cool object shows i watched and still watch today,
currently waiting on episode 2 for double down 😒
the object show community is also very supportive and apart of the LGBTQIA+ community
which i find very heart-warming
like i screamed when animationepic (creators of inanimate insanity) made paper and oj
canon in the movie AGHHHH I LOVE PAYJAY (male x male/gay ship)
ive met a few super sweet peoole here that also know object shows like i do
and we love to talk about our favorite characters, fav object shows, etc
and quite a while ago i introduced my bestie ruru to object shows that i recommended to her
and she also was super invested into it and im so glad 🥹
some object shows im currently watching (random order) :
tpot (the power of two)
bfdia
inanimate insanity
(finished the whole series but im re-watching s3)
paper puppets take 2
double down
(the first episode)
threeee
i think thats all (〃´ω`〃)
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Posted: Tue, 24/12/2024 17:30 (1 Month ago)
i haven't really shiny hunted that much
you'll be suprised to see how many ive done during my 3 years here
... yup, only 4 shiny hunts. 😭
my current one is cetoddle, so soon to be 5!
yayy ... i guess
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Posted: Wed, 25/12/2024 15:49 (1 Month ago)
a christmas special! 🎄
here's a bit of all my posts to make up for the server shut downs!
(since i planned to post before then)
christmas with family
spending the holidays with my family is always super fun!
my dad is usually the one to get the family gifts, but of course
we also buy gifts for each other
christmas may be an overrated holiday to some
but it is the best holiday to ever exist imo
it makes me happy when family or even friends come together
to celebrate, getting gifts, making gingerbread houses,
looking to see christmas lights in your neighborhood,
driving by to see snow, or to even see how festive
the area looks!
i really wish everyone has a great happy holidays, and a merry christmas!
for now, we'll await the new year! ✨
- mini christmas playlist -
mariah carey - all i want for christmas is you
tori kelly - sleigh ride
wham! - last christmas
micheal bublé - winter wonderland
bobby helms - jingle bell rock
burl ives - holly jolly christmas
brenda lee - rockin' around the christmas tree
- some cute christmas pixels -
🎄✨ merry christmas & happy holidays to all! ✨🎄
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Posted: Wed, 25/12/2024 23:28 (1 Month ago)
making new friends as a slightly nervous person
my most worrying moments ( ﾟεﾟ；)
cool and/or sweet to me
once i try to start a conversation or introduce myself, i start to get nervous
cause it's just like "how do i start without embarrassing myself to them??"
but when i do end up saying stuff i try to keep it cool
while my mind is screaming at me to not make a
possible fool of myself
but what makes me even more nervous (in a good way)
is when the person that i believe is super cool
think's that i"m cool
meeting new people and having a friendship with them
that can possibly last for so long is something to be
grateful for, it's a blessing to me honestly
just like most of the friends i made here (. ❛ ᴗ ❛.) ♡
but now, when it comes to introrucing myself to new people,
i feel more confident and it makes me super excited
and confident
life is full of suprises for me 😚
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Posted: Fri, 27/12/2024 22:02 (1 Month ago)
when you play a horror game with your friend (flee the facility • roblox)
featuring : Orca~ ( - ᴗ ❛. )
few years back, when me and orca decided to play some games together,
i introduced her to flee the facility
(one of my favorite games)
since i've been playing the game for more than 4-5 years now,
i tought her some tips and tricks before we would enter a round
we communicated with each other through voice chat and oh my gosh
NEVER play a video game on voice chat if you get scared
cause i think i broke this girl's eardrums 😭
or at some times when the beast (has to capture all the players before they hack all computers to escape)
would be nearby or right behind me i would randomly start singing so nervously because i was so scared
and i could literally hear orca laughing and dying while my life
was on the line ... very traumatic moments for me
orca would sometimes get captured by the beast so i had to save her so many
times cause i know the other low levels wouldn't even try to 😒
even when she told me i should just get to the exit instead,
i really wanted to help her win so i would just get to her and
free her cause im like super nice like that
but when i was the beast, i would always manage to get everyone
including orca, because i guess im sort of a sweat BUT its just because
im experienced and stuff teehee
or when she was the beast i would feel bad and let her get me cause
i know how it is when you're a low level and everyone else in the
server is just wayy to experienced ... sighhh
but, gaming with orca was always super fun
and entertaining and she makes the games
i used to play alone even better
ily sm girll 💗
orca's pov | "the silliest scariest fun i ever had"
"i don't remember when exactly, but a few years ago,
me and jackie played flee the facility together on a voice call!
it was absolutely hilarious because every time the beast when close to jackie,
she would either start screaming or aggressively singing in fear 😂😂😂 !!"
"it was terrifying but i was totally busting into laughter
because jackie makes every game seem so much more fun!
and she was awesome because she's such a high level
and so experienced and helped me win
if we were trying to escape. i remember laughing so hard
and trying to ask how she keeps screaming
if she's already played the game so much 😂😂.
and i loved how she would save me if i got caught by the beast!
i think i remember telling her not to save me one time and to win
but she wouldn't listen to me and saved me anyway!"
"plus if she was ever the beast,
i was playing so badly trying to run from her
and she got me like every time HAHAHAHA.
and if i was ever the beast,
i went like "i'm coming to get you!!" i don't think i won against her any time LOL.
she made me laugh every single round because of her silly antics!!"
"love ya jackie <3"
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Posted: Mon, 30/12/2024 01:21 (1 Month ago)
xg / xtraordinary girls ( japanese girl group )
xg songs that i genuinely enjoy listening to
hope you can enjoy them as much as i do! | d–(^ ‿ ^ )z
- tippy toes
- mascara
- left right
- shooting star
- grl gvng
- hesonoo
- x-gene
- tgif
- new dance
- winter without you
- undefeated
- trampoline
- woke up
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Posted: Wed, 01/01/2025 22:43 (1 Month ago)
future theme - light blue/gray-ish! buut with a bit of more colors
found a super cute cocona pfp and shes my inspo teehee
please don't steal my profile layouts!
(finished!)
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Posted: Fri, 03/01/2025 07:17 (1 Month ago)
getting ready for a new year
new year, new & same old me?... 😓
every year, i feel like i am still the same person with
a few changes about myself
im always preparing for another year of life
in a way thay could better myself
although most times i feel as if nothing has really
changed for me, there are moments where i
improve for the better
i do have high hopes for 2025!
even though i was getting used to 2024 by just
a little bit, life goes on for us, so i can't complain
im feeling more confident that there are some things
that i can do this year to better myself and to be
"more" than what i was last year
for now, my main focus is continuing to work hard
in my classes (ESPECIALLY in my premedical classes),
maintaining a healthy relationship with my boyfriend (〃´ω`〃),
and just keeping in touch my irl friends + extended family members
i do have goals that i set for myself and i
plan on achieving them this year!
2025 will
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Posted: Sat, 11/01/2025 21:24 (24 Days ago)
dealing with the feeling of not fitting in
but heres another yap sesh ( ' . ' ")
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ive been in a lot of friend groups in my past years in school, and
theres almost always a feeling of me being like "why am i even in this group?"
not in a negative way of course, but in a way of where i thought as if
i didn't belong, as if i was different from the rest
i was not super good at making new friends, but i never really opened
myself up in friend groups
i remember seeing something on tiktok about
how theres "always a duo in a trio", "always a trio in a group of four",
and so on
and i always felt like it related to me, but now
i don't mind being left out
i already have a close friend
(mentioned in my sibling yap sesh)
and me and her are super tight 😭💗
but even if i didn't have her by my side,
i feel like i would be able to manage myself
alone, dealing with it has given me some
sort of peace that im here
i got food to eat rn so ill end it here -
i believe that "fitting in" doesn't matter if you
love yourself enough to see that you can be your
own friend ♪(´▽｀)
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