some days, i want nothing more than to simply yell and swear into the void...

i am applying for a summer co-op position. i need to cold call companies. i hate phone calls. i need to write out a script for this. what if they don't pick up? (answer: voicemail!!) better question: what if they do pick up?? 😭
i also need to fill in a school board form answering interview questions, such as "what are your strengths that will help you in this program?" and "what are your weaknesses?" through typing. what if my answers are terrible and they don't accept my form.
lastly (or firstly, really), i need to fix up my resume (i don't even want to look at that thing). then, i need to format my references and ensure they match my resume.

where is the void on earth and how to find it ???

i am proud to announce that i just bought an iced coffee all by myself ୧⁠(⁠＾⁠ ⁠〰⁠ ⁠＾⁠)⁠୨

i think that's the first time i've ordered something by myself LOL. and i did worry too much nor overthink it! it might seem odd LOL, but people don't teach you how to order things, and you're just expected to watch others, understand it, and do it effortlessly ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯

today was tiring, but i talked myself into getting the drink on the way home (for the social improvement skills), and now it feels like my day is wonderful !! C:

keep growing !! (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧ 🔥

basically, i have to network :')

i want to go to a school music event, but i'm not a music student, and i can only buy a ticket with a music student (i have to be their plus-one) 😭

now i have to ask people i do not know so well to see if i can be their plus-one 😭😭 well, luckily i have been improving my social skills and meeting new people!! i've already got some social experience :) i'll try my best LOL

year of the eevee made me think of the chinese zodiac signs! so here is my version of the pokeheroes zodiac signs, in cycles of 12 years! :)

2025 - year of the eevee; pokeheroes canon!
2026 - year of the pikachu
2027 - year of the lugia
2028 - year of the ho-oh
2029 - year of the rayquaza
2030 - year of the arceus
2031 - year of the kyurem
2032 - year of the solgaleo
2033 - year of the lunala
2034 - year of the necrozma
2035 - year of the urshifu
2036 - year of the zarude

got any suggestions or different pokemon ideas for fun? :)

and please do not comment which zodiac year you are!! it is easy to find one's probable age through these zodiac signs, so in the interest of your own safety, do not comment your zodiac year!! thank you :)

a question for the uni people:

got any tips for applying to/getting into uni (from high school) please? :)

there are probably plenty of you here that have some advice for small me haha. i've gotta start applying the fall of this year (in approx. 5 months) and i'm aiming for competitive mechanical engineering programs 😭😭

the tips i currently have in my head are: join extracurriculars in hs (for the application sparkles), apply for sponsorships (may save me thousands of dollars), get a co-op placement in hs to ensure i want the program i'm aiming for (will save me stress and extra time spent in the case of switching), go to nearby uni open houses and info sessions (not that important), calendar the important dates such as deadlines (i need to get my organization up)

thank you!!

i'm now back to the pink version of my avatar!! it's been waaay too hot recently with no snow at all here (hello, spring!), so now my avatar matches accordingly c:

shadow ditto!! C:

legit i almost screamed when i saw it 😂😂

this annoying blob FLED then appeared again on the next click just to troll me 😭😭 and ate up almost all my ultra balls!! just look at that taunting face ":)" 😤

after plenty of swearing and lots of back-and-forth waiting for a friend, i am unproud to announce that i have finished an assignment. i have stayed up past midnight. i will get 6 hours of sleep tonight. i announce this because i did not get pulled into pokeheroes during this time 💪

as you may be able to tell from my poor feed organization (it's usually much better than this, i hope LOL), i am tired. maybe i will look back on this feed when i wake up in the morning like 'why did i type this, i am deleting this right now.' but that's for future semi-rested me to deal with in a few hours!! :)

good night folks! sleep is important. but sometimes your academics and if you have a job and stuff is more important.

my country's federal election results are slowly coming out over the course of the next few hours. i am not voting age yet, so i did not vote. and sadly, i'll have to wait 4 years for the next federal election (and my provincial election which was held earlier this year too!)
i could have made it to age if they didn't call early elections :') oh well, democracy is vital for this country during these uncertain times!! i'm not mad if it means we can get stronger leaders c:

i just had an epiphany for a poetic way to reframe getting older, or more specifically reaching my birthday: it's just another year spent on self-love! <3

personally for my mind, it minimizes the dread: of growing older, of not feeling like i have enough time, of having to do harder tasks and having greater responsibilities.

next year in 2026, things are going to change a lot for me. i'll be graduating high school and hopefully attending uni. that enormous change is daunting. but if i think about it as another year of self-love, it makes that weight easier. i'll get as many self-care years in as i possibly can.

i don't know if i'm ready for next year, but i'll do my best (｡•̀ᴗ-)✧

i hatched 18 gimmighoul this event with a 2% shiny chance, and i got three shiny gimmighoul!! my luck is booming :D

now i can get all the whole evo line! i feel bad for yall who hatched no shiny gimmighoul though 😭

about my minesweeper addiction that i posted about 3 days ago:
it's still here 😭 it's worse now. i'm now speedrunning the game. it's nearly midnight again. i've been playing minesweeper straight for the past 4 hours.

but just now, i lost yet another game. but this time, i finally clicked off the tab after losing! to be totally honest, that courage to stop made me tear up (/pos). then, i proceeded to listen to this comforting song, which also made me cry (/pos). apparently i just needed some self-love and self-care to stop c:

honestly? i should have taken my own advice three days ago haha. sometimes it's hard. but please be kind to yourself!! maybe you need it more than you think :)

reading this feed? this is me telling you to take a break! look at the window or something! or do a push-up if you can! take a nap! eat something nutritious! just please take care and prioritize you, because you matter <333 /p

got a minor minesweeper addiction going on where i'm actually losing sleep (it's almost midnight for me right now) and getting less schoolwork done, because i cannot stop playing minesweeper!! 😭😭😭
i am very aware of this, yet i still cannot stop playing. this is absolutely embarrassing HAHA, considering i yap so much about hard work and motivation! i am publicly shaming myself (/lh) for my new excessively unhealthy pastime here in hopes that i grow some braincells and stop! thank you for listening and this is your reminder that everyone has setbacks sometimes, and it's totally okay and part of progress and growth. remember to be kind to yourself <3

take care!! remember that your health, well-being, and safety comes first above all! ensure those are your top priorities if your situation allows. that's a good night from me, hope your day is going well and that you get plenty of rest! c:

does anyone know how to steal the nugget from the spoink /j

hello there! i am once again actively looking for friends :)

i'm a high school student and a STEM (science, technology, engineering, mathematics) enthusiast! i love school! i particularly enjoy physics, chemistry, computer science, math, and technological design! hoping to enter this year's hs chemistry and physics contests, as well as the hs computing contest next year! also hoping for a co-op placement in manufacturing over the summer. i aspire to achieve a lot and i'm looking to meet similar people!

my mbti is entj-a! if you're similar and are interested in the above, consider messaging me! but it's not a necessity, so if you're not similar in mbti but are interested in the same academics, do still consider reaching out!

i listen to mainstream pop and i do not know many artists outside of this. i do not play many games, nor watch many shows, nor read many series :')

hmu if you think we can click well! thanks!!

shiny gimmighoul!!

it's funny because i didn't notice it at first and was basically gaslighting myself into thinking it wasn't shiny when it indeed was HAHA 😂

i- WUH?- mega-able rumble galarian slowpoke??

i have a potential silly shell guy!! 🔥😂

this seems to be mainly a canadian thing, but today (wednesday, april 9th, 2025) was the international day of pink!!

inspired by pink shirt day, this day is recognized to combat anti-2SLGBTQIA+ bullying.
and according to the official site, this year also honors the 2SLGBTQIA+ activists who fought and continue to fight for rights.* i have utter respect for their efforts and contributions for a safer world, o7

statistically, 2SLGBTQIA+ students are far more likely to be bullied at school (would encourage doing more research if you can!).**

this is not okay. i'm sure most of you are already aware, but i'm bringing this up because this is an important topic.***

to those who are struggling, there are resources and helplines. to all, please take care and be kind !! <3

[tougher and more challenging elaboration on some points (marked by asterisks) in the comments. you're free to avoid if you're not mentally in a good place to read it!]

it's international day of pink today (primarily only celebrated/known in canada apparently...) !! my school was hosting cool activity booths by students, so i have pink nose and whiskers face painted on my face, hearts on the back of my left hand, and (washable) pink streaks in my hair LOL.
random and crazy but fun haha. i should do silly stuff more often !!

omg i just got a perfect score in whack-a-diglett 🥹 now i feel like i spend too long playing this game LOL oops

"You collected 100 points.

You won 20 Fair Tickets."