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Trigger Warning: There is some rather personal experiences being discussed here in this post. Most of it includes a bit of minor bullying, small amount of emotional manipulation, and the mentioning of fake friends. Mostly putting this out there for folks that have also been through such an event like this, but also for the younger crowd as well. I do accept PMs of encouragement and help, but please don't expect a quick response. And for those that are going to PM me trying to possibly pour more oil into the fire, this is not your call.

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Lately things are shaky here as well as over on PFQ. Taking into considering that as someone with a rather shaky childhood back then with lack of friends outside of family and with me being a self-diagnosed for now autistic tackling with both anxiety and depression not too far behind, this is not too far off what I've been accustomed to. I guess you could say that I had become desensitized to this in some form, but there are times where the line is crossed and I start to become concerned. It's sickening how quick to be judgemental and jerkish folks tend to be nowadays. The whole argument for that is "Well, it IS the internet. Folks are going to be jerks."

Counterargument: They're jerks too in real life even if they don't show it

I've seen first hand some of the worst in folks. I recall back in the early 2000s or so when I was a youngster and when book stores were vast shops with stuff that kid loved to traverse through. Ran into a couple of kids and I recall them probably chucking rice or some little minuscule objects. It used to haunt the darn heck out of me but even after getting over it, I sometimes think if this had been the main catalysis that eventually evolved into me being socially illiterate and not being able to maintain/create new friendships - regardless of whether or not boundaries were present.

Now let's fast forward to end of high school/graduation, I had managed to become friends with another individual that was neurodiverse as well (ADHD) and while the first couple of encounters were shaky, I managed to forgive them of the missteps. Although I want to say that post high school and closer to graduation day, I think a nasty thing called hateful karma popped its ugly head up. I had allowed them to stay with us for a bit after they got kicked out (now something to mention: they were already graduated and I was a senior that year). Around graduation, I had allowed them to come with us and everything was fine - until they went home with their buddy. During the time, I kind of had small concerns if anything over it as I figured maybe they were going to just hang out for a bit and then come back. Nope. They pretty much wanted to go just to see their friend graduate - I was only being used to benefit them. The more I really think about it, the more peeved for lack of better and kid-friendly terms I was.

It hurts to know that they only wanted to be friends so they had another PKMN player to trade with, just so they're closer to their "real" friends, just to even be a stepping mat for them. I had broke them off for it and never looked back since. The following months were just me trying to get into college and aside from having a crappy professor for my orientation class with the way I was being dragged on thinking I could try to salvage the bad grade only to turn around and reply "Well, it wouldn't matter. You would've flunked the class anyways..." That was probably because you led me on thinking it DOES! Along with college math and other various classes and mixed experiences, that was when depression started to pop up around mid-point of 2017 or so with college getting peeved with payment issues.

Even after going to a closer university, I was still pretty hurt on being friendless, and well hated by most according to myself... The other breaking point: the metalworking class for my art degree I took the following semester in 2018. I kept having my project getting stolen and disappearing which meant - guess you have to restart the project. Around this point, I had already read through CoVT again (first two books at least) and finished the series off and was pretty funked in the mind of it. That last statement was just random and nothing to do with the current situation being mentioned here... It really made my blood boil so much because as of then, I wanted to give those good for nothing thief(-eves) a good hunk of my mind. I ended up dropping out so fast because of it and I was pretty distraught because the second I try to re-enroll in the class, I knew I would hate someone right off the bat and have another theft occur. I wasn't wanting to deal with that mess again.

Tried getting into a LGBTQ+ group there as well, and because of a conflict on Wednesdays I couldn't attend the meetings. Granted, I contemplate on just leaving the Discord server for that group considering how unwanted I feel being there too. Around the time the pandemic really began I was in a bad spot, online classes really began to kick my butt and having to do a Zoom meeting (back when the suggestion to not use that site was all the rage) was not going to help things for better or worse. I refused to partake in that with full awareness of how negatively this would affect the grade - and the absolute distaste for my classmates as a whole (I know this was a theater class, but my goodness they felt like drama kings/queens)... I admit that most of the bad experiences were due to just me being a bit stingy with what folks become friends with me (call me toxic, I already had worse insults hurled at me), heck even had a blocked individual on personal FB after they throw the nastiest of insults and memes at my face and their friend to rub more salt in.

It's not easy throwing out that personal stuff out in public, let alone forums. I can't say I had worse luck than anyone, but my brain says otherwise with it taunting me how I'm only good if people wanted something from me and how I wasn't going to be worth anything to anyone else. I can understand that folks are willing to lend an ear to folks, but unless you're willing to take on messes like mine or anyone else that was possibly manipulated for the other person's gain - you might want to be careful and be the one to reach out to them. I admit that even now, I refuse to give in and ask for help. I have had the worst time getting up and going to bed, doing anything that used to give me enjoyment, heck even trying to pick up a book and read is bad enough to try and do... Even now, I'm crying as I struggle to keep typing as I know a lot of people will now see this and probably laugh at my pain... To be honest, go then. Go on ahead and laugh at how I still try to keep myself up when I want to just quit because I have no clue what the future holds.

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Got my first shiny here. I should be ecstatic but... I'm not considering that I was hoping for another Mega Evolution capable Riolu... Chain #148



On a second note, I'm beginning to hate the crap the predictive text suggests as mostly kids do that awkward text talk because they're super lazy...

Reserved for something...

Dropping the title for each of these (journal entries) considering how tedious and ambiguous that gets... I haven't been diligent in keeping the journal alive and well as most of what I've been trying to do has been more along the lines of getting my butt busy with real life things over spending time online (being an adult is fantastic /s).

I've also gone ahead and might start implementing a larger text size since some folks like myself are challenged in terms of reading the normal sized text for the forums unless it's via mobile...

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I've managed to pick up Ultra Sun again and got to at least the Pokemon Center in front of the League - after capturing both Solgaleo and Necrozoma. I admit that once both were caught I went to play with their Z-Moves and at least got Ultra Necrozoma forme registered into the Dex, didn't get to see their Z-Move yet because I picked a less than wonderful spot to demo their power... o.o' I have been bad about sleeping in again and not quite as diligent on getting my foreign language studies in - or art for that matter. A year older but still just as angsty as ever. I probably sound like a teenager moping about how they're flunking their work on accident (no offense is made to any teens out there...).

Birthday was yesterday as well and while we were unable to do much because of the weather - we did get out to grab a few things before grabbing dinner. Original plan was sushi, but we ended up doing homemade Chinese - to a certain extent. I actually grabbed a local special made sauce at the store for a small price. Not too disappointed in the taste as it just seems like the same taste from my own sweet and sour sauce. I've been having issues with my left hand - mostly the bottom area near the wrist. It seems like anytime I try to move the darn thing, it aches. Not sure if that is due to me sleeping on it funny or if its the lack of movement I do with it. Along with other issues that are best left off the interwebs, it's on the list of things to mention at the next appointment more than likely.

There has been some talk of having minor blackout periods for the area (yes, I reside in one of those states, but not Texas - needless to say, I do wish better days for those in that area) and of course, none of that has occurred yet. I've been needing to do more cleaning and of course with the suggestions of cutting back on power heavy tasks such as running the dishwasher and such, it does make it a bit difficult to accomplish...

Title: Pokedex Tracker

Pokedex Tracker
Won't worry about shinies for the moment as my main concern is just the regular dex entries...

For those that would like to help via trading one of my GTS Candidates for it, PMs are your best bet as I sometimes forget very easily to actually add the missing entries for the dex here. Any region with the asterisks surrounding it indicates it as a main priority to completing.

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Last Updated: August 28th, 2021

**Gen 1 - Kanto**
86/151

Gen 2 - Johto
51/127

Gen 3 - Hoenn
61/155

Gen 4 - Sinnoh
47/138; Shinies: 2/138

Gen 5 - Unova
71/175

Gen 6 - Kalos
38/117

Gen 7 - Alola
33/140

Gen 8 - Galar
31/108

Emera
21/281

Mega + Gigantamaxed Pokemon
6/115

Retro Sprite Pokemon
5/40

Aside from the lack of actual activity, I've been trying to at least get the distribution that's going on at least once... I stink at keeping up as I noticed by now. Most of the activity here had been sending out Minior plushies for the colored variants but not as much on the special plush distributions... Lately though, most of the reason behind why my activity has been lackluster - was just I had a rough time sleeping: getting to and staying.

Much to my dismay, that meant going back to the melatonin pills. I really wanted to try the liquid form of the supplement but those are a bit more pricey. To us, that price wasn't as worthy of buying as its cheaper pill form factor. I did get my library book ready to check out again so I'd like to get back into reading it and finishing it. That, and I'd like to get myself checked into my BoosterBuddy app so I can still continue the current streak I have. I keep losing mine and I end up being a bit upset on that...

Attempted to do some up-scaling on some of my 3DS game screenshots.

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Animal Crossing: New Leaf

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Pokemon Ultra Sun - with Bottlenose (Hypno)

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Pokemon Ultra Sun - Curt (Arcanine)

Because of my rather sporadic activity here on

PH, I'll be going on an indefinite hiatus from

writing a new post for the time being.

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So, what does this mean exactly?

This just simply means exactly that: journal will be put on hiatus mode for the time being. My activity is needed elsewhere as most of the time I'm either over on PFQ more or trying to breathe life into the small but rather friendly community over on Poliwager Adopts (both of those are linked into my about section for those interested in trying to locate me there). Aside from just minor activities, every other form of interactions are temporarily suspended manually. That means starting the next day on PH, I cannot guarantee that I'll be logging in or checking in here on either the mobile or on a PC.

Does this sudden change have to do with the recent drama here on PH?

The answer to that is both yes and no. I think this is just my usual reaction when it comes to me getting my nose into such issues that are more than likely none of my business... I admit to that and still am guilty of that. It's a shame how fast the said staff member's reputation is being crushed but at the same time I do understand that a lot of folks have gone through the same situation as well. I haven't gone through it myself, but I have had a rather touchy childhood trauma I rather not bring up in a public forum. I've been trying to fight my own childhood demons and I do wish for healing to those that have been victims of such activities.

I again have been doing a lot more of my time online with PFQ and Poliwager Adopts over here. But on the other hand, I've been trying to do some improvements on myself as well. I've managed to get my health concerns out and have been on track with getting those issues solved. Phone calls need to be made but aside from that, it's all my inner management is telling me it's okay to share with the public.

Please do not ask for anything that is not on my contact information unless our trust/bond is sufficient enough (aka: we actually have talked/chatted a bit and we have exchanged plushies). I won't be able to read PMs here but on PFQ is your best bet. I still play the 3DS Pokemon games as the Switch console and games are far out of my current price range.

Can I have some of your items/Pokemon?

Sorry but the answer on that is no. I don't plan to cancel/deactivate/delete the account here as I'm sure this'll be temporary more than likely. I do not feel comfortable telling folks that I don't want to send items I plan to either actually use or sell in the future whichever the case may be.

What about *insert a site here*? Do you have an account there?

The most universal answer for that is simply this: If I don't have a link to mine on that site, I more than likely do not have a presence there.

- I haven't played Pokemon Eclipse in quite a while at the time of writing this but if folks call for me to play often I'll be more than happy to start back up again there.

- Tumblr has had a bit of a bot problem, especially since I've cut down activity there. I had lost a follower and took it a bit too hard.

- Flight Rising activity has been pretty much dried up after I lost the bonus for keeping the dragons happy. I sort of got a bit bored with it too easily...

- Neopets is a site I haven't been too antsy on checking often. Both that and Subeta were in fact checked as I type this out even further. Mostly this was just so I can still keep a hold of those accounts to where the next purge of inactive accounts doesn't involve them...

- Chicken Smoothie I'm safe to say - I haven't been at all active there either... It just might be due to the fact that - there's not a whole lot to do there anymore. The Oekaki section was probably the only thing worth bothering with but even there, I still feel a bit unwanted with the lack of liked pictures and the fact that digital art is not my strong suit...

- Don't even ask about DeviantArt: I left the site and never looked back (aside from personal demons but that's aside the current point). I do realize that there are better alternatives to the site such as Toyhouse (which is difficult to obtain an invite to for whatever reason) but regardless, I just don't seem like I'm cut out to sharing my artwork online like I thought I would back in 2014...

Is there an estimated time/date you'll resume activity here?

I'm sorry to say that there is a bit of uncertainty in the air and it'll stay that way for a while. Most of that is again, due to real life taking a firm footing on me. I've really took off with reading more, and taking control of my current activities. I've wanted to try and get myself out again and maybe a bit more sun and people (look who's talking...) while trying to build a more solid ground of footing on life.

While it would be nice to chat with the small handful of folks in some other fashion, I only share the contact information for those with close buddies. Please do not take offense to that as I've had a lot of trust issues happen in the past to where I try to be careful of who gets the key to contact me more personally. As much as some ideas like being able to stream to an audience and chat with them while we draw alone or together due to the pandemic, but I have had a lot of trouble doing just that with folks in my neck of the woods with the Pokemon Go Discord server I've been hosting...

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While I would like to explain this a bit more, it's already 12:30 at night locally for me and I need to head to bed and take my medicine. Any questions should be asked via PFQ PM. I do have a journal there as well (two, for those users that are 18 years or older) and I tend to write a bit more there than here.

Not sure how to close this but, until the next time when things are less hectic and tense.

If it's not one thing, it's the other...

At this point, activity here and on PFQ will continue to be sporadic as I've become more easily agitated by little things folks do to rub me the wrong way. I admit that my lack of self control is the main cause of what's screwing me up with weaning off of constant checking the accounts.

Maybe because it's the only locations where folks actually talk with me and not find me annoying...

Title: Diary Refresh + June 18, 2021

Trying to reboot this neglected diary of mine... I do realize that images from a previous post are now nonfunctional. Unfortunately, I haven't had the interest in fixing that... It might be that way for a while until I get things more organized and refreshed here.

Signature is in need of that little tidbit known as PFP credit. That is exactly what is on the list next after getting this sorted out.

For now, I'll be posting to this when I have something to share but exceeds that pesky character limitation on notifications menu above. While that does open/close more availability audience-wise, most already know where to look as the link is found in my contacts.

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Been a little more productive this evening now and I'm about to take my meds before reading prior to bed. I've been trying to do a lot of organizational things around the bedroom - including trashing unwanted things...

There are times where it's nice to have free time to myself - but (and a big one too) I do miss the times of getting to go learn at a classroom setting and learning new things. Even the fact that the most recent learning material I've stuck my nose into was a gender ID workbook I've checked out online from library's Libby service. Maybe just getting up and productive work is not always enough, but it's good enough for me at the moment.

Title: June 20th, 2021

I actually decided to do a bit of tidying up in my real world nest and while I have a long way to go before I can be satisfied, it's still pretty impressive the work I've gotten in this evening. Now I'm thinking about doing a lot of flash drive shuffle to just go through my digital stuff and see what I can trash for good and what I can move off of where and where to store it now. I have had issues with storage space on the other two I've been using and it does become a bit of a headache to deal with...

Most of the time, my biggest files tend to be the media files (music and video clips I found on Tumblr prior to deactivation of my own blog). The second biggest files go to the PDF books on various languages because who knows? I might want to dig deep into learning some Klingon from the Star Trek Universe. /j

I kind of want to wonder the person that thought that allowing folks to send text messages to others via email was thinking, because it personally is now a big hunking Pandora's Box kind of awful. I got another text/email (?) and this was reminencent of the spam emails from my own email address on Outlook. When one's first reaction is to spit back out the same stuff the email asks for which is considered very NSFW (since the text is that way too...), that's a sign that maybe this advance is not better for human kind. We're humans, yes - but very far from being kind...

At this point, I might or might not regurgitate this over to my still active PFQ (although I question my reasons for still playing though for personal issues that I rather not say here) Journal... If anything, the bare minimum is probably the first portion on cleaning things up in the bedroom.

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I do wish to go into online blogging again as I found one of a literature origin - and maybe a lot of video gaming too. Maybe that would help expand the audience for any future reviews from off of GoodReads onto somewhere else like LiveJournal Blogger if that is still alive and well? Although the problem comes into play in several different ways.

Trusting folks to not be jerks is far from my personality and honestly, a lot of folks tend to be very strong in thinking their opinion is always right. Again, a lot but not all folks tend to act this way. I do understand that others' opinions will differ from mine and they would argue with you until they're blue, but sometimes - some folks get really nasty when one's opinion of a topic/subject is far from equal to their own. Getting the comments from the Trolls-R-Us is a given, but even with the idea that maybe my review of something could help someone decide on where to go or what to read/watch next - I don't think I would be able to stomach that kind of negative commentary and not want to retaliate in such a manner that would be the equivalent of pouring oil into a open fire...

Title: June 24th, 2021

Played a rather healthy amount of Pokemon SoulSilver - and some Fantasy Life after a bit of messing around with the game card. I always seem to be afraid of another physical card going bust after both my Omega Ruby and Super Smash Bros. For N3DS went corrupt and unplayable by all means. My appreciation for all the Johto staters have gone up - especially towards Totodile. Recently got the Glacier Badge and now I'm just grinding away for Ice Path.

I guess there are moments where I'm thankful for not having an online blog to spread out my mouthing words on. Mainly because there's quite the crowd on here that can be quite vicious to nicely put it. Despite having to deal with similar trauma outside of the internet, I still don't consider myself spined enough to deal with such folks in a manner where it doesn't escalate or I'm crying a river afterwards...

Title: June 26th, 2021

I rarely share images from personal FB much -let alone any art I had a physical part in creating... Although I admit I did have a bit of fun in making this.



I didn't think to watermark since the local area library here is going to display this and thus, it's going to be in their possession for the time being. Challenge for the season since it corresponds with the summer reading program was the tale of us. So I used this as a pseudo corkboard with all of the things I've liked or in support of as various portions of the piece.

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Edit: Apparently FB wasn't too happy with me sharing the image to a less restricted audience and locked it out. Nothing like a quick reroute to ImgBB to fix that minor issue.

Title: June 28th, 2021

While my feed post didn't get the same amount of publicity as when I've shared it to my PFQ journal, I'll still share what I wrote there over here if anyone is interested in a follow-up post and just me nagging about silly stuff in a mobile game...

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Quote from juliewolffang64

Can I take a second to really vent about the way raids on Go are now? It's rather unnecessarily a bit too flashy for me. Never understood why they needed to add a special loading screen between selecting your team and getting to the battle. The achievements are more like that "everyone gets a trophy" all over again. Maybe it's because there's only two (myself and another local player), but they get the last hit in and what's my achievement? "Oh you look so fashionable"... Are you kidding me?! That's lame personally...

I still stand by this and even moreso when players like me end up going solo on raids...

To me, achievements should be awarded based on completing challenges not just from simple things like having a bit of fashion sense (which is far from the truth for me who lacks it)... I don't consider this helpful as this mechanic and the flashy graphics added in just waters things down for me personally. Maybe some players are into the flashy graphics instead of the fade to black and then the start of the raid battle...

Ironically, I can care less about looks as long as the interface is easy to navigate and the game plays smoothly. These achievements might not go away anytime soon due to how there's a medal for that now... Regardless, I don't believe in giving everyone a participation trophy every time. Not only does it defeat the purpose for a fair competition (as ironic as that sounds), it gives the other person that passive amount of bragging rights. To put it in better terms: they're given the impression of being proud compared to the other participants without them knowing that. Maybe they are on the other side of the screen, but you don't always know that.

Maybe I'm just complaining too much over a game, but it does indeed rub me in all the wrong places personally...

Title: July 1st, 2021

I'm still working on this journal's initial post as my intro. Still getting things set up and not very concerned about it getting done anytime soon as you could possibly tell... 😅

I'll more than likely be busy in real life within the next couple of months anyhow. I've been needing to get my butt in gear in adulting.

Title: July 12, 2021

Actually got to work on more character development via mood board. Which is funny because this character I did the board for I already made one as he normally is, but this work in progress one I'm doing now is when he goes into his wolf demon form and thus: completely different mindset, shorter temper, and basically a less animal-like version of Mega Lucario berserk in the XY anime.

Undoubtedly I can't share it when it's finished due to the superiors known as my - you guessed it: anxiety... I think it's because of my negative experiences with Deviant Art when I used it prior to their hefty redesign and messy mobile site (I think so, at the very least) as well as just from following various FB pages. It just seems like a good portion of art thieves originate from China, but there are "rare" occasions where the thief themselves are English speaking it seems but are the most jerkish shell of a person.

Regardless, it's not something that could be shared somewhere that a lot of yonger folx can access per say. Too much red that's not strawberry jam if I can explain it without getting slapped on the wrists...

I had most of my images on my USB drives & PC already but I might of had to grab an extra few via internet. If there's anything I'd be fine doing aside from drawing or writing when it comes to developing my characters, it's moodboards, man! I absolutely recommend doing at least one for your character to at least once! They're so much fun!!! 😆

I try to not regurgitate a lot of my chatter from the PFQ since I think a few players here follow that journal there and thus, it gets disappointing to read the same content here again if they subscribed here as well.

I've been trying to update the intro post here as often as possible with just enough information to where nothing too identifiable is revealed. I do have an interview for a spot in something that will consume most of my now free time that will more than likely help me tremendously in the long run. So fair heads up: my time here might be even more restricted if I managed to be selected to join.

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The more I attempt to wonder trades on Pokemon X, the more I lose hope in the human race...

I think I had to release two Zigzagoon with Gluttony, and two Pokemon for having a little more than just tough love for nicknames from their original trainers... *sigh* I guess it's hard enough for me that releasing them would take off those chains. The whole "nicknames from their original trainer shows their love for them" is absurd garbage as noted here.

I also apparently got a trainer as my WT partner twice and they got two Snivy from that, while I got the boomerang, lucky twit...

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Skin is having break out issues or something along those lines. Witch Hazel is my new friend by this point. It doesn't help that I've been drinking water less than I really ought to... Hopefully that will be subject to change now.

Title: July 15, 2021

Did a bit more work on my PFQ departure while battling the inner war of anxiety going on in my head... I admit that as much as I want to get into sites like artfight and ToyHouse, I still feel unready and uneasy at the thought of it. Most of it is the usual art theft dilhema but I think the other part is my trust issues get put to the test. That would mean putting trust into people that also draw to not make my character look like an idiot or a bit out of character...

I had chopped out most of my profile's about section as I try to at least go for somewhat of a subtle outlook. Not that anyone is bothered by that but then again, a lot of folx don't read and understand that no friend requests means no friend requests. I'm also a bit tired of the "oh I didn't read it clearly..." Then get glasses! Then consider having magnification enabled on your phone/browser because not all of us add folx out of the blue.

I've been a bit irritable lately as well due to the stress as mentioned earlier in this post. I figured since not a lot of folx are familiar with the idea of mood boards, I could share one I did for a character I don't own but have some history with.

Again, another relic from Tumblr days but still something I admit to being proud of. For those that have read at least a few of the CoVT books, you might already have noticed a few bits and why I used them. If not, I suggest reading them if you can. Fair warming: it does get a bit more into PG-13 content as the series goes further in.

Title: July 17, 2021

While I don't usually write entries pre-server reset, maybe it's one of those rare moments when the stars align just right... Or I could be just wanting to post it earlier than usual.

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This is kind of a sequel to my rant/vent on recolor.me but I didn't want to spam folx I'm friends with and just figured, might as well go full blast via diary with no character limitations. I wanted to like the site despite not a lot of active folx and just the slight feeling of unwanted changes (which understandable coming from someone that is naturally enemies with new changes) and the influx of new players from some similar site called everskies. I looked at the site and at first glance ES didn't look too appealing to try... I already noticed at least two posts from now former players by now their distaste for the recent update and are leaving or considering on leaving - which sounds a bit familiar...

The site has a lot of other places to post things like the share wall (a la Tumblr), artwork and stories (a la Deviant Art), polls (somewhat close to what Subeta does), games, and forums like about every other site in existence... The first two are reminiscent of their respective a la sites with the latter being too close to that territory... Polls are something a lot of users create and some can be creative and thoughtful. Although every now and again, there's always that one that makes you roll your eyes...

Skipping is an option but there are some that don't take the skipping option too kindly - *sigh*... Games are as expected with a small selection and half of them being a bit PvP...

The only thing I like about it for now is the avatars. It reminds me of Gaia Online's but more robust and a bit more UI friendly. The option to change the color of the items is a big plus. Saving outfits is another feature I liked. It does have a bit more to offer than Gaia's did. I also tried my hand at their collage feature, and it's not for me. I'm more of a traditional artist and while I have some experience in digital, I have a bit better luck with having a tablet connected than the mouse to do my art. The only exception is digital collages.

All in all: I don't think I'll be active there very much. Not just because of future events, but it just didn't hold my interest like Dappervolk does. While a different user that had replied to my intro topic mentioned they had tried and it didn't stick, I'd say just about the opposite is going on with me. I can understand that with DV it's a bit more limited on what items your avatar can equip based on classes but it's more of a DnD-esque aesthetic personally and adds a bit more emphasis on creativity. Sure I can't replicate one for one my persona like on Recolor.me but I can at least be someone different entirely!

Here's the recreation of my persona as mentioned. It's the closest I'll get to sharing an actual image of him for a while so here you guys go... I'm too much of an overprotective parent trying to make sure none of those hungry art thieving hounds take off and eat him.

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As of tomorrow, I'm no longer going to be active on PFQ. I'll make my last post there and maybe drop the link for my profile here, but not a whole lot of folx play here nowadays and are usually on there more...

While I plan on making a long post considering its a farewell one, I'll omit any dramatics and negative stances on the site as a whole. I agree that there are some aspects I don't agree with them doing when it comes to running their site, but making a huge fuss on it is more like pouring lemon juice into their open wounds - and no-one is exactly being benefited from it.

While I can try to do it on the PC since it's easier, I'd have to log in there. Most likely, I'll do it on the mobile site or when push comes to shove, type my "post" into a document, save it then transfer it to my mobile phone since I have been plugging it in to the laptop a lot more often.

I'm going to go enjoy my leftover sweet curry dinner with no rice and maybe read or try to restore my lost artistry...

Title: July 19, 2021

I admit I'm going against my usual format but wanted to just talk about "The Witch Boy" by Molly Ostertag - spoiler free of course!

I admit the book is a bit slow at first especially for a graphic novel but the art does help with my attention span. The idea of the plot can be related to real life nowadays with the whole gender roles and how girls tend to do a certain set of things while the boys have their own set. It does make you question that quite a bit. I guess in some circumstance, it's an LGBTQ book - but I think of it as a gender role challenging plot with beautiful art and a riveting story to go along with it. 4.6/5 stars for the rating.