Forum Thread

Name: Julie

Gender: Constant Waves of Change - aka Genderfluid which is indeed a real term and don't forget that punk.

Age: Old enough to know better but still young enough to learn even better as well.

LGBTQ+ Stuff: Ace, Greyromantic to a degree - and probably Nebularomantic...

Local Time: 5 hours behind server, or 6 hours during DST...

Favorite PKMN:

Important Stuff to Remember!

I take a lot of issues you have with me rather seriously. If there is something that bugs you I might of done, please notify me of it and I will take care of that.

I'm someone that is plausibly on the autism spectrum as well as someone with anxiety. These are not my excuses for the way I behave nor do I condone folx that blame me for these neurodiverse differences. Therefore, I wish for those that use ableist views to buzz off! I do not feel comfortable with you commenting that tone here.

Aside from reporting trolls masquerading as average users, please refrain from asking me to participate in any drama. I've left a few sites because of it but here, it's a bit more easy to ignore such things.

Please respect my wishes to decline access to extra code information in terms of gaming. I'm one of those weirdos that doesn't give my friend code out to just anyone! I rather have folx online that I communicate with most often and feel comfortable with talking to and playing with like they do have my friend code in their address book. So unless you're friends with me and I've added you back and talked, please don't ask.

I am actually religious person in real life, but I promise I don't shove it down folx's throats... Please keep this bit in mind when you subscribe to this diary. I know some may not be into religion for various reasons and thus, I want to respect those people and their boundaries by putting a warning for that.

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Pokesona Stuff

Species: Lucario (Common color pallette)
Type:
Nature + Personality: Timid; loves to eat, scatters things often, often short tempered

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Been a fan since Pokemon Yellow and sort of still play with the recent games being Ultra Sun and Pokemon Shuffle with a grudge. I mostly like the forth generation of Pokemon (DPPlt/HGSS) as well as Generation 6 (XY/ORAS). I'm not at all competitive but rather I like to play for fun. EV training is something I kind of work on but never really invest in personally. I just pick favorites and figure out how to utilize their full potential in the best way possible.
I admit that I like a rather "overrated" Pokemon everyone loves to throw muck on, but to each their own. There are some Pokemon I feel the same way about but not very vocal enough to broadcast my distaste for them so there's that part of me... While I have rather wild ideas on making an art blog of some form (tried and disliked the site I used) or even a book review blog, my experiences with folx online and offline alike dampened the chances of them being implemented so to speak.

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PalPad + PM Policy

Friends List Policy + Heads up on Feed Posts from me...

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Not exactly sure how the diary works but I'll give this a try...

Thursday, November 5, 2020
Been slowly learning the features of the game as well as trying to get the trainer level up. Most of the time spent here is just - mostly gardening. I admit that my time on playing the main PKMN games have disoriented my expectations. Although I wouldn't use "disoriented" as much as I would say - I've gotten used to long waits and trying to backtrack to the place where I planted the berries. Although Pokemon X/Y made it easier with the berry garden being the only location and gen 7 games with the pelago.

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Non-PkHeroes related but I've been trying to get 2FA set up again on my phone so I could be more secure. Unfortunately an error has prevented me from really getting up and running and now beginning the recovering progress... The usual spam emails from phishing dorks have gotten my mood in a tight spot but most of which I was able to laugh off. Regardless, came on here after that break and just interacting with other player's Pokemon has really lifted my spirits and gives me joy.

Title: Wednesday, Nov. 11th

While I have noticed that the in-game clock runs much much faster than my local area clock here in the mid-U.S. (as it's 5:40 in the evening at the time of composing this). Got around to finally access the site on a PC after being restricted to just mobile.

Not only will I be using the time through the PC to do some writing here and a bit of extra checking but also another switch with the avatar (very sorry folks...). I was able to give the Safari Zone a try - and I wasn't quite as good as I thought I would. I did manage to catch a Beedrill though! Regardless, most of the nags are just on me as my USB mouse was on a less than stable surface and that could've been well improved for the next try at it... Although, mostly any of my playtime here will be strictly on mobile. Probably because I'm a bad creature of habit and like to have that bit of flexibility. Just having the easier access to just tapping away - or just the fact that I find it a good excuse as an easy stimming moment - was the main factor as to why I'm going mobile mostly.

As for journal/diary entries, that's up for personal debate. I do like the PC method as the keyboard is much easier on the fingers (and temper, heh heh...) but at the same time I like the mobile method as well. The real kicker though - is that my mobile browser is a bit picky as where if I tap an area that's not clickable or doesn't activate an action, it freezes and then proceeds to crash. I have let the developers know by review (not the best method I admit), but confrontation is not my strong suit. Regardless, I try to work around it and when it does happen, shrug and move on.

Title: Friday, November 13th

Again, doing this on the PC - just like most of the future entries. I'll make sure to signify whether or not one is coming from the mobile or PC.

Most of why activity has somewhat declined is just to slow down a bit. I do try to restrict clicking and returning clicks to folks via mobile as it feels easier on my fingers (oddly enough). Nothing against the USB mouse I have (Logitech brand for those wondering, really nice), but the clicking noise does get a bit irritating. Maybe I feel like the mobile phone tapping is more natural to me and puts less strain on the thumb? I dunno, I'm sadly not a chiropractor and have no knowledge in that field...

Most of my time offline is spent on trying to keep thinking of ways to break out of my comfort zone. I've shared the link to my personal (and only) Tumblr blog and there I've been doing reblogs with some occasional original text/content... I've been thinking about sharing some of my artwork there - mostly just the small doodles for my pen pals since those have departed from Area 52 that is my own home... The thing that's been stopping me: fear of art theft - and the constant fear of attracting the wrong crowd. To elaborate on that last point, Tumblr had been rather notorius for some rather NSFW bots roaming around posting nasty links and just - things I don't believe a youngster should ever have to be subjected to...

I guess most of it is just fear while that part of me is struggling to cope with the pandemic in the form of long-term absence of seeing other folks outside of immediate family.

Title: Wed. November 18th

Figured since all I've been doing is just watching TV while doing berry gardening, probably should get the next entry posted as the day rolls over in-game. At this point, I've gotten used to most of the game mechanics and ropes. Still fickle with the forums it seems... Not well known but can't really say much. Hopefully at the start of December, I'll post the poll results here. Regardless, I might just end up posting the avatar of the edited Riolu sprite to somewhere like my Onedrive on Outlook (on public settings) or to make it easier - my Tumblr blog.
That is still on the table and will be placed at the backburner for a while. Otherwise, not much to add on that front

Going to the PH-related things: Got at least a set finished and one nearly finished. With a bit of some help from the wiki, I've been just sending out critters on the Rumble missions. Also so I can unlock the methods of evolution for later Eevee and the current Chargabug and Magneton. Managed to get enough coins at the game center for a Dratini egg, and back to saving more for another badge.
Following up on a previous status update on the digital art program - it's a bit confusing to work with... It was made from the folks that run Pixiv (a DeviantArt site I prefer many times over dA) and a bit in beta.
I use a PC that is bare minimum specifications, which for someone like me that does a lot more researching and a bit of basic digital art and story writing - it's just enough to satisfy my needs. Granted, I would like to build a PC of my own centered for gaming (using Steam lately, but can't add folks there yet since I've yet to spend a dime there). On the bright side, at least the tablet is getting a bit of a workout. Ever since the USB mouse battery gave up the ghost, I had to rely on the tablet (Wacom Intuos Draw, older model) and for most of the tasks - it gets them done. All except for a game on Steam, but again - most of my Steam games are shockingly, Idle games.

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Title: PKMN Games Stuff

Pokémon Diamond Version


Pokémon Black Version 2

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PKMN Game Stuff (from Profile)
X
Kalos Dex: 100%
Cent. = 152
Coast. = 153
Mnt. = 151
National = 562

Ultra Sun
Dex: 56%
Alola = 224
Melemele: 112
Akala = 105
Ula'ula = 94
Poni = 74

Only Sharing FC with pals, sorry.

Title: Friday, November 20th

To start this one off, apologizes for missing the previous day even though I had said I wouldn't miss it... I admit things had gotten busy personally but I hope to cover that bit of ground here.

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I've been slowly getting into trying berry gardening here again. But on the side, also been trying to battle my social anxiety. Long story short: I come from a family that has been cursed with every single mental instability in the medical books - but not technically every one... Ugh, just ruined the joke there.
If anyone has had the chance to pop onto Tumblr, I've been slowly emerging from the well acquainted shell of mine - and been loathing for a while now. Although that's not to say that I've started over here with PokeHeroes despite a little less than most of the clicks to the Diary thread of mine is partially me just dropping in to make another entry. Regardless, I've been needing to get myself a starting point of being a little more sociable. Boundaries have been a bit too plentiful but have been keeping track of those.
Managed to get the "Pokemon-ized self" box up and running on the profile. The sprite I admit is hosted on Tumblr. Both the Mystery Dungeon Portrait and edited Platinum sprite of Riolu are there - but only the later is used. Maybe I might have an excuse to use the other one. Maybe a bit of Roleplay or something... Don't take my word on that!

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Title: Tues. November 24

Apologies for taking a good while to getting around to making the next entry... As you know, life can be a bit of a handful - especially when part of that is making a huge change to how you function in a social environment (offline or online) as my case would be. Still trying to figure out how to lay these posts out but I'd figured to just wing it out as we go. Since I've been needing to showcase the poll results, I'd say we start with those.

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Poll Results:
To start off the section, I had asked folks if they'd be okay with me showcasing the results here on my journal. Out of 5 votes, folks have said that it was alright with 1 wanting them as just status updates. Not sure if they realized that the results are made anonymously but sorry anon. Not only that, but considering how many folks are uncomfortable with having their notifications go crazy because I've been posting updates in the form of poll results. I do understand that yes, I've been a bit unpredictable with the amount of updates I post so close together, but I do apologize when that case does occur.
The second closed poll yield some interesting results: While 1 vote went for Pikachu and Squirtle, both Charmander and Eevee got two. To be honest, I was anticipating a bit more towards Pikachu but because of Let's Go for the Switch - Eevee had to be added and well, I admit that I can be scattered brained about national dex numbers for Pokemon... I didn't know the dex number for Eevee. Whoops!

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Now aside from the changes in how I'm interacting with folks IRL, my activity here has indeed gone down. Not that I'm opposed to continue playing as it's completely the opposite of that! I would be bluffing if I had said that I didn't enjoy that little excuse to pull the phone out and keep the hands busy with something other than doodling a little sketch. Journals might or might not be scarce from that change but I promise you I'd still take the time to try and come on the site - mobile or PC. Speaking of which, why not showcase two of my firsts that have happened today/yesterday?
First and foremost, I was able to Gigantamax my first Pokemon. Of course, I picked Pikachu to be that first since I've had deep ties with Pokemon Yellow Version. Not only that but because it would take a little less time and crystals to have it under go the process. Now with that in mind, I might have to look into doing the same for Butterfree since I do have one in my boxes somewhere...
Now the second one was a first that came as a bit of a surprise. I got my first Pokemon that was capable of Mega Evolution. Shockingly, that one is in fact - a Shinx/Luxray! I wasn't too picky about what one I would've loved to see as my first so having one that is not canonical in the franchise (a la fanmade, and a well designed one at that from the looks of it from other users) was a very interesting one indeed.

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Title: Fun Stuff & Images

Updated: around 9:39pm EST on February 2nd, 2021 since Rock was a bit out of date for me...


Fighting-types are pragmatic, modest and can take a while to trust people. They're relatively private about their self-set goals, but work towards them with unparalleled determination.

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Zodiac Sign Information from Pokemon Black & White + Black 2 & White 2

Western Zodiac (Sun+Moon Sign on Left, Rising on Right; mobile: S/M Sign is top image, Rising is bottom)


Chinese Zodiac


CoD's (Cave of Dragonflies) Zodiac

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Feel free to message me more images to add here from activities PKMN related or not. I need the excuse to edit this some more.

Title: Monday, November 30

This one is going to probably be a short and sweet one. Glad to see Pokemon Go is finally putting in the Kalosian Pokemon - granted, it's only Espurr for now but it's a start. Got one from a raid I did solo (because I highly doubt folks would want to do a raid for a common psycho cat) and honestly, screw everyone in my town for that. Most of it is particularly due to how late I was getting into the game (been playing since Mid February of this year) but still doesn't seem like a valid excuse to make a person feel bad about themselves for being behind and acting like the weakest link.
Aside from that, first legendary from a non-quest reward was probably Lugia. Yes, Regirock doesn't really count for me as that could be easily obtainable through Royal Tunnel's Beginner's Path.

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(EDITED on December 16th @2:50:30 am) - Finally found out what was causing the issue with Lugia not popping up: Been using the wrong code format!

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Title: Later into the same Day - Mon. Nov. 30

Even though the site has rolled over to the first of December, it's still November here and I'll start off by saying - I'll cut the polling stuff out. Not because it's a bit difficult but when it seems like people use that to just have their little "lol" moment and try and anonymously troll (not making the assumption, but it seems to come off that way), I won't take that fluff as easily. I can understand that my humor can be a bit farfetched and silly - but at the same time, no need to get a bit rude about it even when the answer for that is there. I asked for that of course, but needless to say - that doesn't mean take the opportunity while it's on the table. :/

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I think the real one that gets under my skin is the next one: When asked if it was too fast for me to share art, I had possibly the same anon answer with "Too much too soon". Anon - are you hurt in the head? Is there something that is getting under your skin to where even with the small tidbits of art I'm sharing here through my personal Tumblr just a bit too much? I'm not sure what the issue is with the question considering that I'm coming from a standpoint of where I used to be in a tight spot of NEVER sharing my art online anywhere aside from the personal Facebook page - and that in itself is a bit on the edge with the privacy issues that have been hitting the site as of recently. I'd really like to talk with you if you manage to read this and see your viewpoint on this. I'm not at all angry (even a little), just a bit dazed and confused at why you picked that answer. If it's for kicks and trying to rattle me up, mission failed buddy. I can understand that a lot of anxious folks would handle the change in their self confidence and I would be straight up lying if I had said that the altercation in my social openess with my art hasn't had its drawbacks. I do recall having some issues with getting to sleep at times and still having little anxious ticks now and again.
To the other anon that selected "Not Exactly", thank you and sorry you had to read through that yacking of mine. Regardless, I think the question overall was just - not a good poll question.

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Poll #2 was probably dependent on each person and not exactly me in general. I think that was something I probably failed to account for when setting that one up. Poll #3 will remain up and stay up until at least Christmas Server time on PH. That one will be at least a more interesting one and a generalized question that would hopefully yield a bit more general audience-based results...

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Title: Late Sun. December 13th into Mon. December 14th

Because it has come to my attention through a PalPad message that my activity has been down over the past few days/weeks, I think it's time for a bit of an update to why that is. Aside from the rather finicky activity that has occurred in the form of the PP incident (no further comment other than I take full responsibility of how that was badly handled on my part), most of which is due to the activities taking place in my personal life. Along with the tasks given to us through the Advent Calendar that might of caused some negative thoughts to rumble in my head (still processing it), I've been a little bit negative towards the holiday season in general.
While I'm going to take a bit of a minor hiatus (aside from the stealthy comings & goings), I will refrain from interacting unless specified by Adv.Calendar task as ironic as it sounds. Most of my online activity will be more along the lines of my Tumblr blog as well as PokeFarm Q and PKMN Eclipse (which does indeed have a friend function on the left sidebar as I found out recently). All three sites I'm a part of use the same username as here so you can always get into contact with me there.

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Because I'll probably forget to mention this later on, the poll on preferred device when playing PH will remain up until I return - which might be sometime in January (mid to late as an estimate).

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Maybe as a way of saying in a passive form - I'll probably update the avatar from my current Lucky Star Christmas themed picture to a more typical of me pic. I will also post an update to folks saying that I would be on Hiatus when they stumble upon my profile as well. The full hiatus status will take effect after I finish off both the Advent Calendar and my log-in streak with the nuggets at the end.
At the beginning of the following year, activity is going to more than likely stay the same as it is now: sparingly on. At that point, I would like to try and get some self-improvement in for myself and get a job in real life as I keep promising myself. Again, activity then will more than likely be allocated/used towards my Tumblr blog more than likely than the other PKMN fansites.
Like almost everybody else, 2020 has been a bit of a stress-inducer & while 2021 might bring on better days - I can't really put much faith when it comes to improving my own self as much as I can. Internet has been shaky on the PC/laptop for a while now as it will sometimes play nice until it disconnects it from the network and won't let me back on until I try to manually force it to accept the PC back on or do a restart of the machine. In that case, the mobile phone has been the best bet in that scenario.
As always, I'll be on PokeFarm Q and PKMN Eclipse under the same username, so feel free to look me up there and send a friendly wave. I do have the links for those on my profile. Tumblr is my usual go to as well and always open for messages. I will leave a link to this specific post of the journal for folks that find the profile and see that I'm not returning interactions or messages for a good reason. I hope that folks that read this have a wonder holidays, a Merry Christmas, a Happy Hanukkah, and a wonderful New Year.

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Hello, this is the post-edit JW here! I am just tacking this little comment down here to say that the only edit I've done to this is just crossing out the part about going stealth aside from the Advent Calendar events/tasks. That will not be the case while I'm away. I have decided to continue the AC events and up to the point where my daily streak is cleared with the reward of gold nuggets waiting for me. I'll try to make one last journal post prior to me going hiatus. I'll also post that somewhere on the profile to signal folks that I'm away.

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Title: Thurs. December 24th, 2020

Considering that the time for me locally is now on the same day as that of PH's, Merry Christmas eve to those that celebrate (not just for those in the US as you can tell). As always, first form of business is that I'm still planning on taking hiatus - but this will be more than likely a soft hiatus (I'll elaborate on that in the following entry tomorrow). I do accept any questions folks want to ask - PM only please - but will mostly answer some of what might be roaming around other people's minds about the hiatus.
As far as PH goes, I was able to receive a gift from the Christmas Gifts - granted its only one and right after sending them one... Honestly, I shouldn't be too surprised considering how still fairly young my account is here and haven't done much in terms of getting to know folks aside from journal entries and the spare posts here and there on the main forums. On a side note, Tumblr has been having issues with their spam filters terminating false positive accounts. Granted, there are still some nasty bots there (both NSFW and the regular ghost blogs). I ended up getting a secondary blog all set up and after the painful battle with both the internet here at home and the phone I use, I got it to where it's less of a bot blog and more of an inactive blog. My main one (aka: the one sharing the same username as this account and the URL posted on contacts) will still be in use but I'll refrain from posting art there until Tumblr figures out what broke their spam detection AI.
Been getting better at sharing my art to a more public crowd but really haven't shown the persona until at least now. Granted, I do believe the forums are locked to only those signed in as a user - but regardless, it's not a big deal considering that he was also shown in a high school club's comic book they compile every year. Admitting this now, I still struggle with sharing him because social anxiety can be the worst bully. Even then, I would still stick to sharing him with FB buds despite the controversy involving their stance on user privacy.
On another note, I've started my Riolu Hunt! Yes, I finally got a hold of the PokeRadar and managed to get my first fresh battery for it (using Electric Gems, since it was cheaper that way). I had to save a bit of PD for the egg storage to put aside the Darkai egg so that I don't already start off with a little boo-boo... Regardless though, I'll try to wrap this up by saying - expect one last avatar change before I go on soft hiatus.

Title: December 26th

Merry (late) Christmas folks, and sorry for skipping on yesterday as promised but things were busy then... Of course the internet at home is still as colorful in character as always but it wasn't willing to play nice closer to the evening hours. Regardless it eventually worked until bed at almost 5 in the morning local time... While I didn't get much for gifts, I was able to get an adorable wolf blanket and it was oh so heartwarming to where it was all that mattered. That, and chocolate cherries that I ate the entire box of! Hahaha....

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But enough personal talk, now onto the hiatus business. The way this'll work is that I won't be able to send back interactions for folks that help warm eggs up... In that case, those folks are free to PM/PalPad me and I'll make sure to give you a big helping of thanks when I return back to regular schedule. I will still try to do the Riolu hunt as much as I can, even if it ends up with some of those Riolu eggs going into the wild (much to my dismay...) but sometimes I need to be willing to make sacrifices at times.

Title: January 11th, 2021

Happy (late) New Year as I'm writing the first entry of 2021 - and will probably be the only one for a while. After a lot of not quite as rare activity here, I finally decided that now is the time to go to "hiatus" here. As of now, most of my activity if any is still pretty common around PFQ with the Type Races ongoing and recently trying to learn Pixpet as well. I will take the other Lucario I've been using to breed Riolu eggs with out of the daycare and that hunt will be put on hold. As long as I don't somehow pick up new eggs, I should be okay with the radar chain not breaking.

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Any incoming plushies that are sent to me will more than likely be returned if they are still found on my notification tab. Otherwise, I apologize for those that send me one and get nothing back... I'll be putting this as my status for folks to see as well as possibly turn off Pal Pad and PMs for anyone outside of friends list. My Tumblr blog has also gotten the hiatus status as well while PokeFarm Q won't be getting it due to the lack of other activities that require constant checking (berries there take about a couple of hours before they need water).

Title: January 20th, 2021

Late post as this is on the very border of the server reset but going to try and make this quick: I'm slowly going off of hiatus, but I wouldn't expect much activity here. Most, if not all, activity is placed on other places like Pokefarm Q and Pixpet (both using same username) as well as offline means. Again, most of it is due to the fact that I really need to simmer down a bit and get sorted out what exactly I would like to do.

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Quick dump of a picrew thing since I do those when I'm in the depressive mood...

Picrew: Here

Title: January 25th, 2021

Copy-and-pasted from my PFQ journal so for those that have me there as well, this'll look all too familiar.

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Aside from the switch back to the other forum template, I've been pretty spoon-lacking (Read The Spoon Theory online for background info) for a while... Depressive thoughts and feelings have been hitting a lot harder and I'm on an antidepressant but I'm out and need doctor's approval for another. I have called about getting the said refill and the machine told me to at least wait one business day or so: nothing. Calling again is becoming the next option but my first instinct is to just fume out my impatience and just yelling them about what's the hold up. It's absolutely frustrating to even think about making the call.
Not only that but also dreading on how messed up I let my health become with my oral being awful and just the fact that I need to exercise that any mention of those is bound to have my anger skyrocket up. I do realize that maybe getting into a therapist would help if money/finances were not a big issue (same with the dental work and of course ASD diagnosis) and sadly I'm saltier than a box of crackers. My trust in others is oh so low that it's hard to trust people nowadays. I get very frustrated to the point where I feel like nobody would be okay with hanging around me.
Headaches and tooth pain are just getting on my nerve to where even little things I wouldn't pay much mind to start to irritate me. Mostly this is just my inner frustration slowly bubbling out and I'm trying so hard to give it a more constructive and calm form of output.
I'm really REALLY hoping for that small burst of energy to come back so that I could have at least an activity to get into to put my mind elsewhere.

~~Shiny Radar Tracker~~

Riolu + Lucario
- Chain #148 on February 7th, 2021 09:11PM PHT (evolved into Lucario)
- Chain #151 on May 13th 01:58PM PHT (remained as Riolu while still with me)
- will need to do one for Shiny Mega Lucario

Dedenne
- *in progress now* (unsure on future status of hunt)
- Started on November 9th, 2021

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~~Potential Future Hunts~~
Nickit + Thievul - Got Breeding Pair? = Yes

Girafarig - Got Breeding Pair? = Yes

Houndour/Houdoom - Got a Breeding Pair? = Not quite yet...

Title: Feb. 1st, 2021

Prior to getting to the main entry: I'll be doing some reorganizing of the posts here and clean then up a bit. That would require me to use the PC but because the main place of stay is a bit finicky with Wi-Fi going to that device, I might end up having to just Frankenstein it over to the mobile device via Bluetooth and copy-and-paste it into here...

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At this point, it's 3 in the morning. Couldn't sleep with my anxiety raging through the roof tonight. I'm pretty distraught at the situation and the solutions suggested by the anger fueled mind are just not something to worth mentioning...
Right now, main worry is rest. I know there's a lot on the plate anxiety is wanting to chow through but trying to do that with sleep deprivation is not a healthy combination.
Right now, I've got Fantasia running on my VCR hoping to ease the senses for rest. Yes, I did write VCR. Nope, it's not a childhood relic as this was just a lucky flea market buy.