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Posted: Tue, 18/07/2023 01:45 (1 Year ago)

[Playing Diablo IV]

We're at a Legion Event.

Me: Oh, cool! There's a Voldemort and a Minerva here.
Dad: I don't know Minerva.
Me: Minerva McGonnagall. She's the Transfiguration teacher who could turn into a cat. I'm assuming you recognized Voldemort since--
Dad: Obviously *in Snape's voice*
Me: --you didn't ask about him.
Dad: Yes. He's the guy with the scar on his forehead who killed the baby in the crib that had no nose.
Me: *speechless with laughter* Omfg. I just have to post this.

Posted: Sat, 12/08/2023 02:21 (1 Year ago)

I can't stop thinking about an interaction I had about a week ago.

My mom, brother, and I were in town shopping. As we were heading back to the car, I saw this really nice black car. It had a Japanese decal down the right side of the forward window and had Family and Dreams written on the bottom.

I approached the car to get a better look and saw the owner beginning to put the groceries into the back seat. He looked at me and tensed as if he expected a problem. Natural assumption based on our colors, I guess.

So I smiled and told him that I loved the decals on his car.
His response was "Oh, **** girl, thank you!"
Then I said, "I see the Japanese on the side. What does it mean?"
I'm pretty sure he answered "Love and Loyalty".
Told him "Cool! Have a nice day!" smiled, and skipped back to our car.

Really think I made his day. ^.^ So glad that I'm learning to speak to and compliment strangers more. You never know how much your words and actions could mean to them.

Posted: Thu, 21/09/2023 03:26 (1 Year ago)

Another four episodes down in One Piece, and had to share this part:

Don: "Hold your place!"
Pirate: "But Don Kreig! He can't say that!"
Don: "You only prove his point when you lose control or whine like little babies. Do you see me trembling with anger? Only the weak react to mere words."

Because it made me realize that I've been acting like those pirates. A picture is worth a thousand words. Proving someone right or wrong with your actions goes a much further way than just standing your ground and arguing with words.

It only serves to harm your mental and emotional health and well-being. Why continuously place yourself in the very flames you are trying to escape from? Crash and burn in their words, then, like a phoenix, rise from the ashes and soar above them.

I'm reminded now (and should remind myself of this each time) of one of my favorite quotes from Tyrion Lannister. "If they wish to give you a name, take it. Make it your own. Then they can't hurt you with it anymore."

You see me as arrogant and egotistical, but what I see is someone who places herself on a pedestal because she has such low self-esteem that she believes if she pretends to be better than she is, eventually, she'll be the person she knows she can be. Someone who sees herself as worthless for various reasons, and who struggles to, at the very least, see her dreams achieved.

You see me as attention-seeking and someone who regularly "plays" the victim and mental health cards. What I see is someone who has rarely been heard, seen, or understood, and who just wants people to take the time to get to know the real her without basing their opinion on the words of others or the one or two incidences they've encountered that don't define who I truly am.

You see me as holier-than-thou when I see myself as inferior. I feel everything I say or do causes problems. That the world would be better off without me. It's less me trying to convince myself that I'm better than YOU, so much as trying to convince myself that my existence has worth.

Do I have flaws? Yes. I'm petty, selfish, vindictive, and several other things. But aren't we all a bit of those at times? Believe what you will. Say what you must to make yourself feel better or more powerful than me.

Bullies are bullies for reasons, typically because they're lashing out at others due to the environment they live in. The temporary feel of being in control of something, anything, means the world to them. But. As one of my friends told me once: "There is NEVER an excuse to hurt another human being." So whatever's going on in your life that makes you lash out like this, I hope things get better for you. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'll help out the best I can.

Posted: Wed, 04/10/2023 01:05 (1 Year ago)

Been a while since I listened to my favorite songs from Frozen and Frozen II. And I can't tell you how badly I needed it. I love these movies and songs so much. Elsa is such a powerful, independent woman, who inspires courage and hope in me.

Let it Go is about being your true self, regardless of what others may think or feel about her. She's choosing to put the pain of the past behind her and look to a brighter future.

Into the Unknown is about taking a risk and chance. Of realizing and accepting that as much as she loves everyone there, she doesn't belong. That she's meant for more than being the Queen of Arendelle. So she follows her heart and goes on a journey.

Show Yourself has got to be my favorite. It's her, realizing that her mother might be gone, but is still with her and beyond proud of her. Elsa realizes that fully accepting herself is what she'd been missing all along. Every time the part comes around of "Show yourself! Step into the power. Grow yourself! Into something new. You are the one you've been waiting for, all of my life" I want to cry. It's such a powerful few lines, and kind of makes me think of the song "Power of One"

Frozen is a show about finding and chasing your own inner strength and power. About believing in yourself, and being willing to take risks to find who you're meant to be. About self-discovery and inner strength. That the only person you need to believe in you is you. That you don't need someone to complete you. That you're perfect just the way you are. As much as I'd love for Elsa to have a partner (please, Jack Frost!), I'm more than happy with her the way she is, and I honestly think she's more inspiring that way.

Posted: Fri, 27/10/2023 01:43 (11 Months ago)

Posted 16/Nov 2023

Just finished Season 4 Episode 21 of Once Upon A Time, and I want to cry. Note that this season was released in 2014. If you do not wish to see any spoilers, please do not read further.

My most hated villain started out as Regina, followed by Rumplestiltskin. But over time, Rumplestiltskin continued not to understand that his power meant nothing to the people who loved him. And Regina struggled to be a person Henry could be proud to call mother.

From the moment she broke the second curse with true love's kiss on Henry, I knew that she'd grown enough to know what true happiness really was. And that she was on the path to redemption. When she met Robin Hood, I was so proud of her for always choosing to lose her happiness rather than take it. I was shocked at her choice when Rumplestiltskin revealed to her it was her sister with Robin.

But it wasn't until Regina had the chance to erase her sister from existence, and chose not to, that I fell in love with her. Regina has come so far from the angry and hurt teenager who thought seeking vengeance and power would make the pain go away. She finally understood that the only person standing in the way of her happiness was herself. Realized that even with her sister still in the picture, she could have a happy ending with Roland, Robin, Henry, and the baby.

The growth she showed in this show is absolutely amazing, and I hope Rumplestiltskin can finally realize what he has before it's too late.

Posted: Tue, 26/03/2024 00:44 (6 Months ago)

Maybe that one doctor was right. My mom and all three of her siblings had some acid reflux. I didn't think I did cause I figured it should do it all the time after specific foods and not seemingly random. I might have GERD. I have many of the symptoms. Nausea. Heartburn. Regurgitation. Difficulty breathing. Difficulty swallowing.

Right now, I have:

-Lazy Right Eye
-Speech Impediment
-Anemia (Long ago. Not sure if I still do)
-Slight curvature of the spine (12 to the left, last I knew)
-Right leg slightly shorter than left
-Wolff-Parkinson-White
-Duplex Collecting System in the right kidney
-ADHD
-Anxiety and Depression
-Avoidant Personality Disorder
-Auditory Processing issue in right ear
-Occasional Auditory/Visual Hallucinations
-Extreme Sleep Issues
-Forgetful/"Error 404 Brain not found" Issues
-Trauma-like shutdowns to raised voices and disagreements

-Possible Autism (still working on diagnosis)
-Possible Long Covid
-Possible GERD

*sighs* How much more messed up can I get? :'(

Posted: Sun, 21/04/2024 18:26 (5 Months ago)

So...I finally decided to give something a watch. It's interesting—not my usual thing—but I've been laughing so much at it, and I'm only like halfway through the first episode.

"There'll be no more fire and no more screams
Just puppy dog kisses and cotton candy dreams
And puffy-wuffy clouds, you're gonna be like, "Wow!"
Once you check in with me"

Posted: Wed, 24/04/2024 04:26 (5 Months ago)

Dad's been watching Andromeda, and he keeps pausing and calling me over to watch parts with Trance (who we call Kitty). Here are some examples of her amusing remarks.

The scene where the Trainer is trying to get her to come up with an attack phrase, and the way she dances around so happily when she manages to knock him to the ground.

Seamus Harper: It's not that easy, Trance. Three spiral galaxies, dozens of galactic clusters. There's got to be hundreds of prison planets.
Andromeda Ascendant: Three hundred and forty-eight, to be exact.
Trance Gemini: Really. What about that one.
Beka Valentine: Why? Why that one?
Trance Gemini: Well, it's pretty.
Tyr Anasazi: It's pretty. Now there's a solid reason to risk our lives.
Seamus Harper: You have a better idea?
Tyr Anasazi: No.

Trance: Here, I want you to drink this very slowly. It's water.
Dylan: How?
Trance: How? Well, when two hydrogen atoms love each other very much, they bond with an oxygen atom.

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Going through my old Journal, and found my concept for a Closed Species called Wolfcats.
God, that lore was horrible. No wonder I decided to stop working on the project.
Hopefully, when I have the time/inspiration to draw again, I can come up with something better.

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Conversation between two parts of myself. Which actually wound up kinda deep.
I'm going to have to add this scene to one of my projects.

I hate it when I have good and bad knowledge to give. I always want to do one or the other.

Why not do both?

What would you do? Make someone feel good and then rip away that feeling? Or give them bad, then good, when the good can't possibly take away the pain from the bad?

Bad first. Always. Think of it like this. People don't want to know that their world could at any time be plunged into darkness. But, in a world already dark, they would cling to any bit of light they could find, for the hope that it gives them.

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So, I think after I get a Shiny from this Hunt--depending on how much longer it takes--I'll either do a set of Research for the two Paradox Pokes, or I'll just start a Shiny Mega Feebas hunt! Not only because I adore the Mega, but because it was my Dex Entry that won the contest! ^.^

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Posted: Sun, 16/05/2021 19:20 (3 Years ago)

So the night before last, dad made tacos. And he made the meat very...unique, to say the least. It consisted of:

Hamburger Meat, Taco Seasoning, a can of Jalapeno and Thick Chili, Olives, Mushrooms, Pickled Beets, Crackers, and for the heck of it, at my request, a quarter cup of Pancake Syrup.

Sounds uber disgusting, but it was actually the most delicious taco meat I've tasted so far. After dinner tonight, we won't have any left, but I'm considering making it like this next time. :D

Posted: Tue, 25/05/2021 17:14 (3 Years ago)

I love this commercial on Hulu. Convo goes something like:
Commercial: *blah, blah, unimportant to the point stuff*
Employee: Why did you use a permanent marker on the whiteboard?
Manager: I wanted to make sure you remembered.

And every time I hear it, I have to laugh, cause A) That is so a smartypants comment dad would make, and B) I am the type of person to unknowingly use a Sharpie on a whiteboard, and then use that response as a "nice save"

Posted: Mon, 07/06/2021 03:31 (3 Years ago)

I'm doing the Bug Hatching Contest, and I call out: "Ditto!"

Dad: Click it. It could be a Bug.
Me: I think we tried that one time, and it gave -3 points.
Dad: So? It just means it wasn't a Bug, then. It might give you +30 points if it is pretending to be a Bug.
Me: *facepalm*
Dad: What? Isn't that worth a shot?
Me: You do it if you're so darn sure.
Dad: Are you kidding me? It's way too much work.
Me: Exactly. So shush-ed.

Posted: Wed, 16/06/2021 03:17 (3 Years ago)

Does anybody else have a little song that they happily sing for certain foods? For me, it's popcorn and chimichangas.

Whenever I eat a chimichanga, I have to at least once, say "Chimicherry, Cherrychanga". And for popcorn, as I put the bag in the microwave and walk back to my seat with it, I sing: "Poppycorn. Poppycorn. Poppy, poppy, poppycorn."

I understand why I do the chimichanga one, but I have no clue why or how I came up with the other. It's just like, when I was younger (though mom has no memory of me doing this at all), I clearly remember replying with "in a pillowcase" every time someone said "blah blah blah." I also have no clue how that one started.

Posted: Sat, 26/06/2021 16:38 (3 Years ago)

Me: *removes oatmeal from microwave*
Dad: Did you put chocolate milk in your oatmeal?
Me: >.> Noooo. What makes you say that?
Dad: Heated cocoa puts a toxin in the air and I can smell it.
Me: Really?
Dad: No, I saw you do it.
Me: -_-

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Was getting ready to take a shower, and I yet again have to point out the following.

When comparing shower self to usual self, I can definitely see and understand how glasses and different hairstyles/attitudes kept people from realizing Clark Kent was Superman.



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Posted: Tue, 03/08/2021 23:38 (3 Years ago)

"In your eyes, he is evil, but to his eyes, you are the one who is evil. It is all just perception. Whoever wins will think he was in the right. The loser will always believe himself wronged."

"The same? Have you lost your mind? How could you think we are the same in any way? He craves power! He would chance destroying the world to get it! [...] He's trying to kill us all! How can you say we are alike? You make it sound like he isn't even dangerous!"

"Haven't you been paying attention to what I have just been teaching you? You are the same in that you both think you are right. And that makes him more dangerous than you can imagine because in every other way you are different. [...] He found pleasure in the doing because his distorted sense of right gives him license. That is how he is very different from you. That is how dangerous he is." [...]

"You mean that it's not only what he does that makes him dangerous, but also what he feels justified in doing?"

"Let me put it another way. Who would you be more afraid of: a two-hundred-pound man who wants to steal a loaf of bread from you, and knows he is doing wrong, or a one-hundred-pound woman who believes, wrongly, but believes with all her heart, that you stole her baby?"

"I would run from the woman. She wouldn't give up. She wouldn't listen to reason. She would be capable of anything."

"So is Darken Rahl. Because he thinks he is right, he is that much more dangerous."

"I am in the right."

"The mice think they are in the right, too, but my cat eats them just the same."

-Zedd and Richard, Wizard's First Rule by Terry Goodkind

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Halfway done going through and saving posts from my old journal.
Man. I updated you about my writing and gaming a lot. XD
More so than was probably necessary.
Honestly, I hope I wasn't too annoying for y'all!
Not that it matters, as I hope to be that open again soon. ^.^

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Posted On This Day on Facebook

"And in the silence, I suddenly understood the many ways a person can die but still be alive."

"It's easy to look back and question decisions you have made in the past, but it's unfair to punish yourself for them. You can't blame yourself for not knowing back then what you know now, and the truth is you made each decision for a reason, based on how you were feeling at the time. As we gro up we learn and we evolve. Maybe the person you are now would have done things differently back then, or maybe you are the person you are now because of the decision you made back then. Trust your journey. It's all going to make sense soon."

"The more chances you give someone, the less respect they'll start to have for you. They'll begin to ignore the standards that you've set because they'll know another chance will always be given. They're not afraid to lose you because they know no matter what, you won't walk away. They get comfortable with depending on your forgiveness. Never let a person get comfortable disrespecting you."

"When a storm is coming, all other birds seek shelter. The eagle alone avoids the storm by flying above it. So, in the storms of your life, may your heart soar like an eagle."

"Everyone in life is going to hurt you. You just have to figure out which people are worth the pain."

"The worst feeling in the world is to know you were used and lied to by someone you trusted."

"Until you've lived my life, walked my path, suffered my pain, and seen what I've seen, I could care less about your judgments."

"Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this, too, was a gift."

"If they respect you, respect them. If they disrespect you, respect them. Do not allow the actions of others to affect your behavior. You represent yourself, not them."

"Sometimes you just have to die a little inside in order to be reborn and rise again as a stronger and wiser version of you."

"It took me a long time to understand what it means to forgive someone. I always wondered how I could forgive someone who chose to hurt me. But after a lot of soul searching, I realized that forgiveness isn't about accepting or excusing their behavior. It's about letting it go and preventing their behavior from destroying my heart."

"Don't let someone who did you wrong make you think there's something wrong with you. Don't devalue yourself because they didn't value you. Know your worth even if they don't."

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First, I completed Raiden's Story Quest in Genshin Impact, which was bittersweet.
Her character development is amazing, and how the Sacred Sakura came about was ahh! <3
Just discovered Zhongli might be in one of the upcoming banners, and I need him to complete my second team.
But I also NEED to save for Ororon, Mavuika, and Dainsleif. Why do they have to make it so hard to save Primos? D:

Second. We finally got a phone call for the Biopsy. Appt is on the 18th.
He meets with his Oncologist on the 22nd, and his PET Scan appointment is on the 26th.
The appointment with his Oncologist might be rescheduled for after that so she can go over everything at once.
I'll update you on the results as soon as we get them, but it's still a practical guarantee his cancer is back.

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