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[Diablo III]

Got the season complete! Had to ask for help for my last three tasks, but I can finally relax and focus on other things now. First step is to get that chapter of Guardians of Sanctuary done so I can start work on my Baldur's Gate 3 fan fic.

This was I think day three of dad's new routine for me. Hating how much pain I'm in and how much work I've done. Buuut. The kitchen, living room, and my room look so much better now.

Also complained about having to do all this work. And dad told me he neither wants nor expects me to work the full five hours. So apparently i misunderstood that part of the original conversation.

I can read, work on my fan fics/main project, and practice digital art since they're all more productive than doom scrolling to procrastinate on everything.

Don't think I have any more to add. So, good night! May the Force serve you well! ^.^

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[Ultima Online Dante's Inferno]

Me: *runs by Lizardman for the third day in a row while looking for eggs*
Me: Kind of feel bad for this guy. He's trapped, and nobody will rescue him.
Dad: Let him out, then.
Me: No. He's a bad guy and needs to learn his lesson. How did he get there anyway? And why hasn't he unstuck himself?
Dad: He's from the champ spawn up there. He keeps trying to return to his family, but the AI doesn't account for the wall. He's basically too stupid to walk out and around.

*two days later, I run by, and he's gone.*
Me: Where'd Mr. Lizard go?
Dad: I helped him get back to his family.
Me: *whines* Why? I was going to do that.
Dad: Were you really?
Me: ... Eventually. Did he at least learn his lesson?
Dad: He learned it real good. Won't be harming anyone again.
Me: :O

To clarify. Dad actually did simply let him go. But he figured it would be funnier making me think otherwise.

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[Writing Update]

Going through my Baldur's Gate 3 outline and separating sections into potential chapters while also trying to organize all the jumping around I did.

36 Chapters to reach the Underdark. It looks like another 10-15 while in there, and then I still have all of the Githyanki Monastery to do. So, looking at about 70 Chapters for Act 1 alone! :O

It's a much bigger undertaking than I'd originally expected it to be, but I'm still looking forward to it. I want to write about all the cutesy stuff I wanted to say and do to/with Astarion that the game wouldn't let me. <3

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I'm excitedly talking to dad about how my BG3 fanfic already has 36 chapters outlined and how big it will be. This leads to questioning the progress of my other fanfics and main project and lecturing me on how I never finish anything. I need to either pick one thing and finish it or just admit I'm not a writer.

I NEED more than one project to focus on another when writer's block hits one. That said, I do see his point. I have so many Writing Projects I WANT to work on. I get mad that I'm not working on all of them, but I know I'd be overwhelmed as hell if I were actively focusing on all of them.

I'm considering scrapping Arcanum Magicka because I didn't care for D4 anyway. I just thought it would be a cool story. I'm thinking of scrapping Angel of the Shadows as well. The original concept of saving Shadow Pokemon was nice, but I don't want to write over 1k chapters on anything, and I'm not a huge Pokemon fan either. Not to mention that I still resent the project because of that one jerk from Wattpad.

Morrigan's Vision will no longer be necessary because I've gotten rid of that roleplay character and about ten others I rarely used. Selkie Spirit will also be scrapped, mostly because it was meant to be as huge an undertaking as Angel of the Shadows.

I'm on the fence about Terrorific Trio because I really wanted to write about journies with Yoko Kurama from Yu Yu Hakusho. However, I've had little motivation for that one since I came up with the idea, so I think I'll shelve it. Sly Fox Eyes will also be shelved, though I'm considering turning it into an actual series. That won't be until I can prove I can commit to something.

If I had to choose between one each, it would be
Forevermore for Main Projects
Guardians of Sanctuary for Fan Fictions
Spooktacular Short Stories for Short Stories

All while also doing roleplay. Maybe this will help me prioritize better. But the most important thing is that it will teach me to commit to something and prove him and myself wrong. It's only April, so if I start this selectivity now, I might actually have a completed project by the end of the year. MAYBE even Forevemore finally in the process of being published?! That would make me so very happy! ^.^

Edit: Dad said to shelve them all rather than scrap, and return to them at a later date. I like that idea better as I do have three projects I scrapped long ago that I would now like to return to at some point. Thankfully I still have the progress saved. He also said that I can work on as many as I want at once providing weekly, not monthly, progress is made. So I'll also be working on Vampiric Embrace, my poems, and the occasional short story.

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Doctor visit today.

Was given a written Autism test. Was told a 32 gave me a high chance of being diagnosed. I scored a 39 and am being referred to Behavioral Therapist. At first I refused because of my experiences. But was told that they work differently than Anxiety/Depression AND work with Autistic people differently.

Am receiving tests for some type of bacteria in my stomach that could account for the Acid Reflux like symptoms. And a test to see what bladder issue I have.

Dad is FINALLY getting his Zio patch test after requesting it for many years. A few changes to meds that will help with his congestion. AND a possible diagnosis for his sunlight issue. The disease starts with a P and is actually referred to as the Dracula Disease.

Hopefully we finally get some answers! ^.^

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I do my best to bite my tongue and be civil, but when I am repeatedly met with the same close-minded, justifying responses, I eventually let my anger get the better of me. Another negative aspect of myself that needs working on, I guess.

Another game has been agitating me this last week. The coder/owner was told there was a problem and had it explained, only to shut dad down as "complaining."

Thankfully, in the other game, the coder chose to humor us and take a closer look. He discovered that there was an issue with the way things were coded. He's upset that so many people took advantage of the Easter event rewards instead of pointing out how economy-damaging some of them were.

Retroactive consequences weren't applied, but he mitigated further destruction while the event was still ongoing by placing hard and soft caps and decreasing rewards. At least something was done, but people really need to learn that dad only complains when things are unfair for the average and below player.

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1,254 words written in my Guardians of Sanctuary fanfic for tonight. The chapter is about two-thirds of the way done at 2,172. I'd sooo love to write more, but tonight's one of those nights I'm feeling feverish, so I'm going to head to bed earlier than usual.

Oh! Not completely done going over my story progress notes for Baldur's Gate 3. I've completed organizing Acts 1 and 2 and have 60 and 39 chapters, respectively. Looking like 20 or so so far for Act 3, and I still have about that many hours left before I beat the game. So Vampiric Embrace will probably wind up at 150 or so chapters. I'm guessing 125 for the story and 25 more for the filling cutesy stuff.

Anyways. Heading to bed now. Good night. May the Force serve you well.

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I just now learned about all the issues with NaNoWriMo Headquarters that have happened in secret for the last two years. Until they get their stories straight, the trust of the MLs back, and people who can responsibly handle the Forums and other aspects, I'm likely not returning to them.

Heck, after all their effort to try to keep this on the back burner and the crazy ways they thought would "fix" the problem, I might be better off finding another writing group/program. Not that I used their site very much, to begin with, but I was always excited for NNWM, and now it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

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One of the things that annoys me to no end is

We just had the Easter Event in PFQ.
We just had the Slug Legend Event here.

People are online and active during the event period.
Literally, the day after the event ends, some of those same people ask. "Wait. How did you get...?"

Are you kidding me? How do you regularly play a game without staying updated on the news pages, event releases, forums, notification walls, etc? You're either trolling or subtly begging for free stuff, or I don't even know because it's literally impossible for someone to be that ignorant.

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Appointment for Behavioral Therapy to discuss meds for Autism scheduled for

August 9th

Dad saw the date on the white board and asked if I wrote it down wrong.

Told him no and explained that according to people I've seen discuss their appointments, scheduling this far out is quite common. And I mean, it's even common with Specialists in the medical field, so why are you so surprised?

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TIL

The Navajo and various other tribes/religions are in prayer rituals because they believe the sun has died and is being reborn. They are not allowed to see the Eclipse in any way, including through the glasses or pictures others take. They are also not allowed to do anything other than sit in solitude and prayer, reflecting on the occasion's solemnity.

At first, I found this hilarious because of all the crazy conspiracy theories going around right now about mass offerings, government takeover, etc. And I'd never heard of it before. But I'd also never heard of how using that one term was disrespectful to the Romani people until a few years back. Just because you haven't heard of it before doesn't mean it's not real.

As such, the Navajo and other tribes/religions taking part in this are requesting that pictures not be shared for several days. Or that they are spoilered or have warnings.

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[Writing Update]

Just finished outlining all of Act 3 in Baldur's Gate 3 that I've done so far. That was tedious because I jumped around a lot during this Act.

Act 1 has 60 Chapters (likely 5-10 fluff/filler)
Act 2 has 39 Chapters (likely 5-10 fluff/filler)
Act 3 has 65 Chapters (likely 10-20 fluff/filler)

And I still have about ten quests (three main) to do. :O I did not expect it to, but this fanfic might wind up over 200 Chapters!

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So, a few months back, I talked about getting into an argument with my mom about ADHD/Autism and how it was possible to have both. Both dad and I had told her dozens of times that doctors nowadays say ADHD can NOT be diagnosed in a child as young as three. And how mom argued with us, saying she had several doctors (of back then) tell her I had it, and then went, "Oh, well, I guess I'm a liar then".

Well. Yesterday, I spoke to her about my appointment on August 9th regarding intake for Autism and discussion of meds. She told me I wasn't, and I explained that I would likely be low-mid spectrum. Mom told me to remember that being Autistic didn't make me r-word--which I never said it did. I tried to explain to her the difference between low/high functioning. Either she didn't understand, or her comment about the r-word was her way of calling me broken.

One of the things she popped off with was: Well. I guess you were too young to have been diagnosed with ADHD.

-_- ... SERIOUSLY?!

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I went to bed angry last night from two people on Facebook and slept horribly because of it. I just got up and shouldn't be speaking, but...

There are still all these problems to be fixed. Why don't you work on that instead of making visual/aesthetic changes nobody asked for? Granted, it's nice. But I'd really rather the actual bugs and issues be fixed before doing more of this. New event-obtaining methods are on that list of things that need fixing, but when you're ONLY doing it to keep people interested in a broken game, that is not right.

I'm also angry that my bug report of my Ducklett eggs changing over two days before they should have wasn't looked at, so I lost out on at least 300 coins for the event. You should have LISTENED to people about the BUGS during the event and FIXED them. If you take care of the issues when they first come up, you won't have a mess years down the road from more issues piling onto the original.

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Apparently the events of last night plus everything today has broken me and sent me into of those phases where I'm trying to fight off thoughts of unexistifying, but my brain simply isn't cooperating with giving me reasons to stay. :'(

Think I'll take a nap and then write for a bit. Also been thinking, and decided to bring back my Dreamweavers project from eight or so years ago. Going to revamp it though because of how much has changed between me and others over the years. Been wanting to write Maui and Alexandria for a while now.

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[PokeFarm Q]

Y'know. I take advantage of the situation and sell items at slightly higher prices than usual during events. Open Market means item values are up to the individual. However, when we consider things like Uber Charms, which are at a set price of 250ZC, their range should be 1.25-1.5M Credits. Granted, desperate would pay more, but I'd rather spend the much harder-to-come-by 250ZC than pay 1.9M.

Other things people sell to take advantage of others include Mulch from Berry Garden, Bait and Pokeballs from Fishing Hut, and Incense from Daycare. All are obtainable in their locations for much less than Market.

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*screams and squeals*
List of Completed Games

Final Fantasy Crystal Chronicles, Final Fantasy Crisis Core, Diablo 2, Diablo 3, Diablo 4, and Baldur's Gate 3!

I stick with games as I stick with writing projects, so I'm so very happy to have finished another game. My first run-through took 145 hours.

And I did it without Multi-classing anyone. AND managed to save all the Tieflings. Tav, Astarion, Karlach, and Lae'zel ftw!

Got everyone's good endings, except I didn't manage to persuade Gale to give up Godhood :( But still super happy! ^.^

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*squeals*

I finally finished Chapter Five of my Diablo 3 Fanfiction, Guardians of Sanctuary! ^.^ In this chapter, Wildfyre trains all the Artisans to the Max Level. She gets overwhelmed by things said and done, and then Lyndon surprises her with some really sweet gestures. <3

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Me: Why do I feel like this?
Dad: What do you feel? Dread?
Me: Numb and empty. And I don't feel like doing anything. A bit of dread, too.
Dad: That's the depression.
Me: But I had an okay day!
Dad: That's depression. Bad days can get you depressed, but depression doesn't care what kind of day you've had.
Me: Well, that makes me think more about something. I've been wondering if I should get on Depression Meds and then have the AuDHD meds work into it or the other way around.
Dad: If you've been feeling this, you should probably get back on Depression meds now, or else you're going to be suffering for four months. Besides, a lot of ADHD or Autism meds also treat Depression.

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[Final Fantasy XIV]

Played about six hours in the last two days. I got from Level 29 to 4k into Level 31. I just defeated the dungeon to save the Elder Sylph (which gave me about 65k exp from the dungeon boss alone :O )

I think if I keep pushing through the main quests and try to do at least three hours a day, I might be able to reach Level 50 and the Ultimate Weapon quest, and complete the FFXVI Crossover event before it ends. I really want the Torgal Mount and Minion!

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