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My mom just came in to complain about how she's being cut off from Medical because she makes too much. She said she wishes it would go back to the way it was during Covid, when she was getting 300 a month in food stamps for two people.

What's her reasoning behind being cut off from Medical and the food stamps being lowered? According to her, it's because of all the immigrants coming and getting all the medical and food aid with a snap of their fingers while people like her struggle.

She also believed that she couldn't ever get a job down in Cali because everywhere was owned by Muslims, and they only hired family. Not true, but kind of. I mean, practically every gas station I remember was owned by Spanish or Muslim. But we lived in low-rent areas because we were poor.

I still can't wrap my mind around how my parents regularly make racist remarks (my mom far more so than my dad). And yet, I, who educated myself, changed my views, and broke the cycle, is somehow still a racist. -_-

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*squeals and cries happily* Ahh! I love her so freaking much!

My darling Rhoslyn has her first art piece! Technically fourth, but the other three were drawn by me, so I don't count them.
She is my first and oldest OC at 13 years this November. Her skin is lavender because she is a Keshiri from Star Wars.
One of the artists I follow on Facebook opened up two Custom Adopt slots for $10 each. I snagged one and paid $15.
If anyone is curious, I requested the dress to be in the style of Rosetta from Tinkerbelle.

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Lmfao.

It was 80/26 in the house (60/15 outside) (Converted for your convenience). We don't turn on the AC part of the unit until about mid-April, so I had to open my window. This hasn't helped at all, but that's beside the point.

After an hour of the window being open, Noctis, my black cat, noticed the open window. He has spent the last ten minutes doing the following:

crawl out
run around the yard and then inside
sits at the window for a few seconds
chirps and crawls out again

It's so freaking hilarious. None of my cats have ever done this before. He didn't even do it last summer. This is new behavior for him. Though my guess is, he keeps seeing something outside and wants it.

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Ohh! Someone just told me I looked liked Moaning Myrtle! Selfie! ^.^

I can so see it! It's such a huge compliment to me because of how nerdy she looks and the fact that I'm just as weird as she is.

Also, since I know this will get people started with me, going to clarify.

I no longer support JKR and have not for at least a year and a half now. Ever since someone helped me understand why the Trans community had issues with her. (I'd read that big, long post of hers like five times by then and still struggled to understand the reasonings)

But I LOVE the world of Harry Potter. The character growth and the life lessons it taught. Lessons like diversity, self-empowerment, inclusiveness, that it's okay to be weird like Luna, and so much more.

As a roleplayer, I can separate RL (the author) from RP (their works) and know how to support the fandom without supporting her. If that's not good enough for you, that's on you.

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In Walmart shopping after our appointments. At checkout, saw a gorgeous black woman walk by. Her hair is what drew me to her. Loved the way it look. Froze for a few seconds because I couldn't figure out what to say. She noticed me looking at her, so I blurted out "You're beautiful". She smiled and said thank you, and even said it again when dad turned around, looked at her, and said he agreed.

Also got the cats some adorable new toys! Not pictured is the crinkle Carrot toy that they love so much. They go crazy over it, and for 4.97, it's a really good price for the hours of amusement they get out of it.

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I love how gorgeous I look in this pic! <3 I'm so happy that I chose to cut my hair off in November of 2021, even though it regrowing got me called names like "Toilet Brush Head". I've never been happier about how I look now that my billboard brow isn't as obvious.

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Not that anyone really cares, but, I'm looking over the Task List (outline) while I prepare to start the next chapter for Guardians of Sanctuary.

There are 85 Tasks to reach Guardian Rank in Diablo III. Some of these are "Get Blacksmith to Level 10", "Get Jeweler to Level 10", "Get Mystic to Level 10", and "Get all Artisans to Level 12". I think it would be dumb of me to make a chapter each for them.

So, I think I will have one chapter about getting all Artisans to Level 12 and have a couple of paragraphs of conversation with them. That's four chapters to one. Since it would also be a few additional paragraphs per person, I guess I could also include the Craft tasks in that. So that would be eight chapters condensed into one.

*scrolls through list* It looks like I've got a few other tasks I can do this too. With all the filler chapters I have planned, I might still end up with 85 chapters, but I feel this would be better.

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Another writing update.

Usually, I use the names Wildfyre or Rhoslyn for my player characters in games. My Diablo 3/4 Fanfics already have my Wizard named Wildfyre. So I've been struggling with what to name my Wizard from Baldur's Gate 3 in her fanfic.

I've had her name in the game as Eirena, and I was going to use that, but the more I thought about it, the less I felt like it was the right choice. You know. Because Eirena is not only an NPC in Diablo 3, but she and Lyndon are shipped with that Wildfyre.

Yesterday, I walked over to dad's computer while he was training Spellweaving on Ultima Online Dante's Inferno. He was at the point where he was casting the spell "Wildfire". Its cast word is "Haelyn", and I thought to myself, "Yes, this is perfect!"

Since I don't plan on ever writing a major fanfic about Ultima Online (it's not really my thing; dad just loves it), I have no issues with using Haelyn as my BG3 Wizard's name.

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Okay. So just got a call back from the clinic.

I did not have kidney stones. But I do have a Duplex Collecting System with my right kidney. This just means it has two tubes instead of one to the bladder. This DCS will not create pain, so there is something else wrong. It's been a 3/10 for the last two days, and I'm still positive it's not a hurt/pulled muscle, as those usually go away after 2-3 days for me, and this is day 10.

Was also informed that people with Wolff-Parkinson-White (an extra signal nerve in the heart) can occasionally pass kidney stones, and they have no clue as to why. So, since I've chosen not to get surgery on this, kidney stones are still a possibility I will have to deal with.

The doctor also informed me I was extremely dehydrated. I was told to drink 5 16 oz bottles of water a day. NOT HAPPENING. EVER. Halfway through the 24 oz I had to drink before the ultrasound, I wanted to throw up.

That said, I've decided to get water anyway and drink one 16-oz bottle daily. Blegh.

Then, I can either continue to drink four cups of coffee a day while going to Light Blend or lower my scoops from 2 and 1 tablespoons to 1 and 1/2 (The first number is the first pot with a new filter, and the second number is each pot until the filter gets full)

Or I can look into returning to tea (since it's lighter than coffee). Dad wants to drink tea and was quite disappointed when I switched to coffee, so this would work out for him and be healthier for me. It's not as healthy as going all water, but as I said, it's not happening.

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I wrote 918 words today for this chapter of Guardians of Sanctuary so far! I am so happy my Muse chose to work with me.
I probably could have written more, but it's almost 10.30, and I feel like my brain is shutting down already.
Thinking this chapter will end at almost 2k words. Hopefully, I'll finish it tomorrow and post it by Monday. ^.^
Then I have a chapter of Arcanum Magicka to do. Which might take some time, as that one likes to be stubborn
After that, I'll take a break for a few days and try to progress in Season 30 of Diablo III.
And then finally turn my focus to Vampiric Embrace (My Baldur's Gate 3 fanfic)! So super excited for this one!

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[PokeFarm Q]

I hatched two Melans so far today! A Spicy at 215 and an Any at 286. The first one stays with me, and the second goes to dad.

And I still have 126 Adopts left for the day. Waaaay more if my Supplier comes in or I use Daycare Passes.

The strangest thing is, I could have sworn that I activated my Dragon Crystal today at reset. I didn't. :O And got two Melans already? I activated it as soon as I noticed because what are the odds of a third without it on?

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Seasonal Progress as of Mar 24. I will update again on Apr 01. Or if I complete it. Whichever comes first.



Oh. Please note that completing Ch 4 and Guardian also gets you a Pet and Wings
These gorgeous wings and this Raven were from completing Guardian Rank last Season!

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Maybe that one doctor was right. My mom and all three of her siblings had some acid reflux. I didn't think I did cause I figured it should do it all the time after specific foods and not seemingly random. I might have GERD. I have many of the symptoms. Nausea. Heartburn. Regurgitation. Difficulty breathing. Difficulty swallowing.

Right now, I have:

-Lazy Right Eye
-Speech Impediment
-Anemia (Long ago. Not sure if I still do)
-Slight curvature of the spine (12 to the left, last I knew)
-Right leg slightly shorter than left
-Wolff-Parkinson-White
-Duplex Collecting System in the right kidney
-ADHD
-Anxiety and Depression
-Avoidant Personality Disorder
-Auditory Processing issue in right ear
-Occasional Auditory/Visual Hallucinations
-Extreme Sleep Issues
-Forgetful/"Error 404 Brain not found" Issues
-Trauma-like shutdowns to raised voices and disagreements

-Possible Autism (still working on diagnosis)
-Possible Long Covid
-Possible GERD

*sighs* How much more messed up can I get? :'(

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While at Dad's cancer follow-up appointment today (he gets one every three months to see if he's still in remission. He currently still is, and has one in June and October, before he only has to go in once a year), I saw their cutesy easter decorations.

One of them was a photo that said: "You are some bunny special"

When I saw the picture, the first thing out of my mouth was:

"Some bunny once told me the world is gonna roll me",

and then I got embarrassed when I realized I'd said it aloud. Dad and the receptionist laughed.

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Oh!! I just came across this! I know a few of my friends here switch sexual/romantic orientation every couple of weeks to months. If you've felt embarrassed, fake, or anything of the sort for changing all the time, don't!

According to an article I just read, you are Abrosexual. I've never heard the term before, so just in case y'all haven't either. Hope this helps you! ^.^

A person who is abrosexual may also have changes in their sexual orientation over time. For example, a person who is abrosexual might be attracted to men at one point, then not attracted to anyone weeks later. Someone who is abrosexual may have periods of different intensities of attraction.

Edit: Thank you to the one who corrected my improper term usage in the first paragraph!
And for teaching me that just because a label fits by definition, it won't necessarily fit the person.

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I got a new LED flashlight. What do I do? As per tradition, I point it toward my eyes and turn it on.

Mom and Dad roll their eyes and shake their heads as I blind myself.

I'm just like, "What? Seeing how bright it is is part of the initiation process. Wait. Why are you purple?"

Dad rolls his eyes and shakes his head again. "You know you could just angle it toward your eyes. The center's going to be much brighter than the outer cone. If it blinds you barely in your eyes, it will hurt far worse directly on."

While off, I point it toward my face again and say, "The most dangerous weapon in the galaxy."

"And you point it at your face."

^.^ I love it when he gets my references.

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Ugh. Three times through my map, and nothing. As much as I like the concept of this type of event, it should have remained Easter-themed and had an actual Easter Egg hunt.

Don't get me wrong. I'm very happy with the new method of Tadbulb, and that Gimmighoul wasn't released like Zerarora and the other clickfest ones. But Easter wasn't the time for it, and nobody wants to spend 2+ hours EACH DAY going through a Site Map and hoping to find A SINGLE Egg. At least finding a couple every trip through felt more rewarding.

It doesn't seem much thought went into the event regarding how to make people not hurt their wrists by interacting like crazy AND not give them headaches or eyestrain by trying to find a sprite on one of our 100+ pages.

No matter what, people will risk their physical health over pixels. Events like Tadbulb are the best way, but even that should relax slightly. 200 was barely in range for even the most active players. We need to find a balance where the average player has to work for it but doesn't feel the need to go overboard.

And don't start in on me. I am NOT saying hand it to us. I am NEVER EVER EVER EVER saying that, and neither are MOST people who bring something like this up. I reached 100, and I had several busy days in real life. I wish I could have reached 125, but I never even thought I'd reach 100. I am concerned about the loss of sleep I know a few people suffered just to reach Shiny Wo-Chien, and they were active the entire event. I am bringing up an issue concerning other people's physical and mental health. Because, like I said, no matter what, people are going to go for pixels. It's why people drop $30+ on skins and cosmetics for games. If you can't stop them, you should ensure they don't push themselves too far.

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Ahh! One of the best things about events that use the Site Map is the nostalgia from some places. Like this:



Makes me wish I still had the focus to participate. Might go ahead and do so this next one since it's been so long.

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My gods! I love this Dark Reader Chrome Extension! PokeHeroes looks sooo much better now with Dark Mode! <3

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For a long time, Dad and I have been discussing ways to help me contribute more to society and improve my life. We've tried a few methods over the last three years, none of which worked because they relied on my ability to control myself. News flash: I have none.

Ever since dad got Covid and Cancer, I have been doing less and less around the house. I don't understand why, and I never realized it. But I went from making full meals almost every day to making a microwave meal because it was "healthier". My 30 hours a month of regular activity is what "paid" for my rent, food, internet, stuffies, etc. The $100 a month I get in allowance has only been for the last 16 months, and that's part of the rent my mom and brother pay. The amount of hours I work each month has gone down to about five, and, as a result of various things over the last two months, he's gotten fed up with it.

This is his major source of issue with me, and why he's been really pushy and agitated over the last three years. I've lived with him for ten years this October and am still practically as helpless and useless as I was when I first moved in. Yes. He understands and has admitted that much blame falls on him for not doing his part. But that was due to his belief that "I can't force someone to do something that I won't do myself." But he's concluded that if he can't, someone needs to. He wants to know that I'm capable of taking care of myself. And like I've said before. I know that, in his way, this is what he has been trying to push onto me for so long. Even if he yelled at me or made me cry, he wanted to make me feel bad about myself to get the point across. And he knows I'll work off the steam if I get angry enough. But he wants me to take care of things by choice. Not when they get so overwhelming that I have no clue where to begin.

So, his solution is something I'm unsure about. I see its intention and its positive benefits in my life. I still hate being forced to do anything. On the other hand, if I'm not pushed, I will never get out of my comfort zone.

Since I've now become as worthless as my ex, doing the extreme bare minimum and hoping to reap all the rewards and benefits (he did not compare me to my ex, but when I realized I'd become him, it motivated me somewhat to attempt to see this through), I am having my internet shut off for five hours five days a week. During those five hours, I will do various household tasks, earning my keep. Sounds like chores, right? I have no problems doing chores.

What I have an issue with is that a lot of this is going to be teaching me things like how to cover up a hole in the drywall, how to repair an outside water faucet, and all those other things that I've repeatedly said I don't want to learn because I see no point whatsoever in doing so. He still wants to hand me the business when he passes, as he thinks a steady income like that will benefit me, even if I get a job at the library. It means I'd never have to want for anything and not have to work as hard as he and my grandma did to earn the several million they have over the last thirty years. It's not that he sees me as lazy and thinks this is the only thing I'll be able to do with my life. I mean, kind of. But he doesn't think I have the emotional and mental maturity to have a job. And based on how angry I get about some facets of life, my anger and tongue would keep getting me fired. In his mind, this is my best option.

Despite several friends trying to convince me that I have it in me to get a job or drive a car, I know I don't. It's not an idea or belief that's been conditioned into me. When I had the job at my library back in 2008-2009, I HATED working three hours a day after school, despite it being at a library. I was always so terrified of dealing with patrons, even though I was excited at remembering where things were if they needed something. And for driving? Thirty-minute car rides make me so freaking sleepy. And I regularly daze out thinking about writing, gaming, or roleplay. My eyes cross, and I see nothing in front of me. If I can do that as a passenger, there's a high chance I'd do that as a driver. It's simply not worth the risk to myself or others.

This is why dad wants to teach me some of the minor repairs and maintenance I must do. He's also trying to get me to stop asking his permission and make minor decisions for myself, such as whether or not to buy tamales from the guy who comes around. It's always a yes, by the way. Homemade tamales are so yummy.

He has also apparently unblocked Tumblr, and the fact that I haven't had the instant desire to go to it shows a lot of growth. April 16th makes for about four months that I have avoided looking at the drama blogs AND removing people from my life who are toxic pot-stirrers. I still think of and want to look on occasion, but I see how much my mental health and mood have improved from taking care with who and what I let into my life.

What all does this mean? It means that from 8-11.30 am and 5-11 pm PST (15.30-18.30 and 0-6 Server Time), I have to be very selective about what I do with my time. I have to pick and choose what's more important to me to feel the most accomplished that day. This means there will be days at a time when I barely do anything here, but I am active on Pokefarm Q, and vice versa. There will be days when I'm active on neither because my focus is on writing, Baldur's Gate 3, Diablo 3, or other things. I have become a working-class citizen whose time is limited and valuable.

This has been a long time coming, and he plans to adjust it each month based on how well I performed the previous month, with December being the finalization of what my life will be like moving forward. I THINK he said summer is a free-for-all where I can play on the computer as I have for the last nine years, but I'm not sure. It would make sense because he's unable to work in the heat. He might have me help him a few hours a week then, but most of the time would be my own.

Anyway, this is already long enough, and I've wasted an hour of precious time writing it. But I just wanted you to know, in WAY more words than necessary, about a major change in my life.

Edit: I forgot to include. For those messaging dad (Bishop) on PokeFarm Q. I'm sorry. His absence is my fault. I repeatedly promised to help him obtain all the sprites for his database and help keep it maintained, but I made excuse after excuse not to help him. In addition to chores and business, another option for the five hours is to have internet access but spend that entire time helping him with data collection for the games that he wants to play. He's been building macros for Ultima Online Dante's Inferno (also with my promised and unfulfilled help). We swear that we'll get it completed. Just as I swear, I'll start updating and maintaining my website. I'll share the link when it looks prettier and more filled out.

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