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I need more room for Plooshies XD ^.^

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SakuraWolf23 used Confuse on Ghost! It's Super Effective!

He's got four tennis balls. I threw one of them, and he ran off to fetch it. Came back to me, but didn't want to drop the ball I'd thrown. Right next to me is another one, so I picked it up and threw it. He runs off after it and spends five seconds trying to pick it up WITH the other one still in his mouth. Then, he drops the first ball and sniffs back and forth between the two, trying to decide which one he wants the most. After a few seconds, he grabbed the second one and ran back to me.

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😡 Woke up this morning to a comment on three of my pages.

One on my gaming page saying that because of the way dad and I banter, You guys must be dating.

Another telling me to get a job, which I've already explained the several reasons why I can NOT. If they came across as excuses, let me add something. I have beaten one of my aunts three times for trying to steal our stuff. I beat someone taking advantage of my mom and I. I beat someone trying to beat up my mom. I have fought with both my mom and brother. (All this over 10 years ago). But I will NOT put myself in a situation where I will retaliate over someone's disrespect or rudeness. And most jobs I can get would do so.

The last one about how I will be homeless when your dad passes. And how I have a PS5 and PC all on my daddy's dime. First off. I WON'T. With the money in my grandma's bank from the properties she's owned for 30 years, I will be well taken care of. Second. My dad spent $2000 on me Oct 2021 because he thought he wasn't going to make it much longer. I am not allowed to spend money on anything. I get into trouble for buying a freaking $7 plushie! He rarely spends money on himself. He doesn't believe I ever do enough to earn anything. I am NOT being showered with gifts or anything I could ever want or ask for.

As well as how I need to stop obsessing over plushies and furries. How dare you tell someone not to get excited over something they love? Also. Furry art does NOT equate what you just called it. But go ahead and say I'm into bestiality if you want cause I know you're going to create that lie now. You're a grown woman. Start acting like it. I was never taught how to socialize. And if you honestly think someone who has been emotionally, mentally, and physically abused practically all their life can act like an adult with a snap of their fingers, you're sorely mistaken.

The ONLY thing I agree with you saying is There's one word that describes you, and that is Autism because I have had so many people tell me I have it. If I could only get a ride to Seattle (six hour round trip plus visit time), I could get tested and put on appropriate meds. But if you do think I'm Autistic, shouldn't you be trying to help me be better and learn from my "mistakes" instead of attacking me?

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Dear Ghost,

If you could stop finding something to chew on every five seconds, I'd very much appreciate it. My lungs are weak from Covid last year and do not appreciate my getting up, chasing you down, removing the item from your mouth, bopping you, throwing it away, and sitting back down five times in three minutes.

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Facebook reviewed the reports and said they did not violate their standards.

It really sucks that DeviantArt, Wattpad, Discord, Facebook, PH, Tumblr, and PFQ have done nothing about this.

Stalking is a pattern of repeated behavior that includes unwanted attention, contact, harassment, or other conduct toward a specific person.

Harassment is the act of continued and regular unwanted actions against a victim.

Harassment is behavior that is unwanted, annoying, demeaning, humiliating, embarrassing, disturbing, upsetting, or threatening to a person or a group

By those definitions, the person(s) going around one-clicking people every day even when they haven't logged in in months is also harassing, regardless of being "unable to prove malicious intent"

This has been ongoing for three years, and nobody will do anything about it. 😡

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Proof my brain is dumb.

"When I was a little kid, I literally thought 'this little pig went to the market' meant it went shopping."

I'm 32, and because of this post, it literally just clicked in my brain. I've never understood why a pig would have to go shopping. The only thing I could ever think of was that he was gathering supplies to rebuild the houses the wolf blew down.

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Person: Lugia defeated Rayquaza!

Me: Luigia defeated Rayquaza! "That's cool. They named their Lugia Luigia." *reads again* Oh, wait. Heh. Why did I read it like that?

*iz now imagining a green Lugia jumping repeatedly on a Rayquaza-Bowser until it knocks it out and receives the rare item as a reward*

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I was outside sitting on the ledge trying to call someone so I could discuss something with them.

Inky jumped on the ledge and mrred as he walked toward me. After a few seconds, he jumped down. At first, I was confused. But at the same time I felt the pain, I saw the yellow jacket. Shook my arm to get it off, and then ran when I saw it and another come at me.

Came back outside to show dad, and freaked when I saw this. I had only been sitting like a foot away! I'm still shaking from this, but hey. At least I know I'm not allergic to yellow jacket stings.

Nest has been sprayed. Did not see more nests, but will definitely be keeping my eye out.

Picture of Nest

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Sometimes my mom frustrates me so much.

Me: Mom!
Mom: Yes?
Me: Can you take me to the clinic?
*no answer*
*five minutes later, I come out of my bedroom with socks in my hand*
Mom: I take it you need me to take you somewhere?
Me: I asked you like five minutes ago.
Mom: I thought you were talking to James.
Me: I literally said 'mom' and you responded.
Mom: Oh. Well let me get my stuff.

This is about five minutes after she said: I helped do some work from 2.10 to 2.20. That's 15 minutes, right?

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*squealing*

My brother (who had an epiphany and realized he needed to do something about his life) has been going on walks with me (we've been on four in the last week and a half) so we can both lose weight. My deep cleaning of the house has kept me from walking every day cause I don't always feel up to it. Plus the 90F(32C)+ degree temps.

Anyways. After I managed to fit into an older pair of my pants, I weighed myself this morning. 180.4 pounds! That's a loss of FOUR pounds! ^.^ I'm so happy!

It's making me even happier to know that I'll soon have enough hours put in to buy myself something. As much as I want FFXVI and a sub for FFXIV right now, I'm gonna spend $60 on the Eragon series and a signed copy of Murtagh (coming out later this year). I've needed a brand new set of the quadrilogy for a while now, as mine is tattered and falling apart.

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I can't stop thinking about an interaction I had about a week ago.

My mom, brother, and I were in town shopping. As we were heading back to the car, I saw this really nice black car. It had a Japanese decal down the right side of the forward window and had Family and Dreams written on the bottom.

I approached the car to get a better look and saw the owner beginning to put the groceries into the back seat. He looked at me and tensed as if he expected a problem. Natural assumption based on our colors, I guess.

So I smiled and told him that I loved the decals on his car.
His response was "Oh, **** girl, thank you!"
Then I said, "I see the Japanese on the side. What does it mean?"
I'm pretty sure he answered "Love and Loyalty".
Told him "Cool! Have a nice day!" smiled, and skipped back to our car.

Really think I made his day. ^.^ So glad that I'm learning to speak to and compliment strangers more. You never know how much your words and actions could mean to them.

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Something I was too tired to say last night, but...

I refined the newest chapter of Angel of the Shadows and added 700 words to it. It's still only about halfway done at 2900 words, though. :O

I'll be working on it more today, then I'm gonna stream some Genshin. I also registered for the Fontaine Drops streams. Hoping I make it in.

Also. I remembered I wanted Plooshies of Sprigatito and Shiny Sylveon. So now I'm trying to decide if I want those more than the Inheritance Saga and Murtagh by Christopher Paolini. Or if I want to continue saving for FFXIV, FFXVI, or FFR1-6. Or BG3.

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*yawns* Guess I'm going to bed without streaming or working on Angel of the Shadows. I probably could've done both had I not used two hours worth of spoons for some more house cleaning. But I know dad would prefer me to be "useful" rather than "waste my time". Plus, the more I do, the less reason he has to yell at me for sitting in front of a computer screen all day even though that's what he does.

Have to get a yard sale ready by mid Sept, or else I'll regret it. Most likely, I'll have my internet taken away for a week if I fail to do so. Might be an adult living in his house, but if I don't do my fair share of work, I can't expect to share the benefits. And I agree with that except for the fact that being able to game and be online talking with people is a--most of the time--much needed stress reliever.

Anyways. I'll try to get stuff done for my writing, gaming, and streaming. Just don't know how much I'm going to be able to bring myself to care about any of it.

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Couldn't find a Shiny Sylveon, Sprigatito, or Alolan Vulpix plushie within the amount I wanted to spend on it, but...

My new set of the Inheritance Saga will arrive soon, along with $22 worth of toys for Ghost. And I pre-ordered a signed hardback of Murtagh from B&N, which will arrive in November! ^.^

The next set of money I earn is going to go toward a 6-month pass for Final Fantasy XIV. :D

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[Genshin Impact]

OMG! I randomly put in a 10-draw on the Standard banner, and pulled Diluc! Needless to say, I instantly leveled him to 50 and arties to Max. :O I forgot to put a weapon on him and level it. He's actually my first level 50! I also bought Keqing's costume because I really loved the way it looked.

Today's been a great day for streams. Did an hour in Diablo IV, and two and a half hours in FFXIV, and plan to do a few hours of Genshin as well.

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*crying*

Can these random pains go away already?
I can go weeks without experiencing it, but then for one to three days in a row, once or twice a day, I

am extremely nauseous
lightheaded/dizzy
have difficulty breathing
intense pain between my shoulder blades (both front and back)
Lasts anywhere from 2-15 minutes

Popping back or neck doesn't relieve
Taking Tums doesn't relieve
Taking Tylenol helps most of the time

And yet when I brought this up with my doctor, the only thing he did was say that it was heartburn from spicy foods. Which I don't eat. The only correlation I seem to have found is a specific sauce on spaghetti and pizza, but that could just be coincidentally happening at those times.

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*squeals* So I do have Twitch Drops (I'm SakuraWolf23) enabled for Genshin. But you might have more fun watching other people who are less squishy and undergeared/underleveled than I am.

Going to try to do at least ten hours a week in it for this event. Might even try to do an as-long-as-I-can session.

Heading to bed now, though. Good night! May the Force serve you well! ^.^

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Person: Asks if TTA for asking their roleplay partners on a child-friendly site that doesn't allow swearing to censor their words more.
Commentor: "yta i guess?? mostly just because i think its really silly to dislike swearing in general. especially if you arent like 12."

I'm almost 33, and I DESPISE swearing. I do still do it occasionally, usually during moments of extreme emotional distress. But I cannot stand it, and do NOT support the idea of "the more you swear, the more intelligent you are".

Yet, I remain friends with both people who swear rarely and often. Why? Because it's tolerable in moderation. And if you do it a lot, I will ask you to tone it down, especially if it's because I don't want you to get into trouble. But I won't end my friendship with you if you don't tone it down. Why? Because I've come to discover that people can't change their core personality. Besides, just because you swear a lot doesn't make you a bad person.

But the idea that you're silly if you're over 12 and dislike swearing? My dislike stems from nearly constantly being in temperamental situations. To me, swear words=anger=physical/emotional danger, which can set off my anxiety. Most days I can keep myself at ease, but there are many days when I experience sensory overload, and it's way too much for me to handle. There are MANY reasons why people would dislike swearing, and for you to dismiss their valid emotions like that? I would not want to be friends with someone like you because you seem like one who doesn't respect others' feelings or space.

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For two and a half years now, I've been randomly experiencing 8/10-10/10 pain in my chest and upper back between the shoulder blades. It is usually accompanied by nausea, dizziness, and difficulty breathing. These symptoms appear randomly and last up to ten minutes at their worst. I can go weeks without having an episode, and then I can get it three days in a row. Never seems to be more than once a day.

When I visited the doctor in June of 2021, I was told it was nothing more than heartburn from eating spicy foods. I accepted this diagnosis even though I didn't really feel it fit, but my mom, brother, and aunt all had gastrointestinal problems, so it made sense.

Fast forward to the last week, when I've recently been experiencing strange joint/nerve pain. I called my local doctor (now a different person), and she recommended that I go to the ER because she believed my symptoms over the last two years sounded more like a heart attack, stroke, or seizure type thing. So my mom and brother took me in.

After three hours, it was discovered that my EKG, bloodwork, and other tests looked normal. No signs of detrimental heart issues. However, they noticed something about the Delta Waves in my EKG and informed me that, based on that and my symptoms, I might have something called Wolff-Parkinson-White. It's a birth defect that typically shows up later in life. All it means is that I have a third nerve in my heart that sends electric signals to tell the heart when to beat and rest. Unfortunately, the third nerve makes the two that are supposed to be there more difficult to function. Their signals go faster and refuse to rest. This can even cause the signal to go backward in the heart, which can cause problems of its own.

I am waiting on a call from the Cardiologist to set up an appointment for them to get further testing done. If they agree with the WPW diagnosis, I shall be referred to a sub-specialist called an Electrocardiologist, and we'll discuss surgery to go in and burn off the third nerve. See. Although WPW itself is more annoying than life-threatening, because it messes with the natural electric signals, it can, on really rare occasions, be lethal.

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Oh! I've been talking a super lot with my brother. He's trying to find a job to help support mom and actually become a productive citizen. He's not only offered to teach me how to drive, but as soon as he gets a job, I can start looking for one as well.

Why wait? Because my brother would likely drop me off, come home, and then pick me up, which Dad would consider a waste of time and gas and never allow me to do. So if my brother is already going, it makes it easier.

At first, my brother was concerned about me having to wait for off work pickup in case our hours were a bit off (we're going to try to get similar timeframes, but we both know that doesn't always work out). I told him it was okay because I could bring my laptop or a book or walk (depending on how close my job is) to the library and sit there while I waited.

Dad's prob not going to like any of this, but *shrugs* Gotta do what's best for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pAzFRfzwT-g. Yes. I loved those movies. Problem?

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Before I head to bed, I just have to point out how much I love this picture of mom and I! <3

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