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Doki Doki Literature Club! Club [Always accepting!]
Forum-Index → Fan Clubs → Doki Doki Literature Club! Club [Always accepting!]also @-PENNYWISE No problem! This is our club after all, and I want it to be the best club on PH!
Nickname:decidueye
How active are you?:kinda very active
To prove you read the rules, in terms on rule 5, what is mini-modding?:acting like a moderator when your not
To you PROMISE to read ALL RULES and abide by said rules?:yes
Who's your best girl?:YURI
Poem color/hex code:0,0,0
@-pennywise, maybe switch up the question to something else?

Each thought that lacked our typical ideation was quickly dismissed by fatigue, who lay across us as a stubborn child. Our child, who refused to remove them self from their position until they had what they desired - but what did we desire? Happiness? Success? What could one do to provide such things when the child weighed us down further than the 6 foot hole we desired to be buried under.


My life is depressing...
I'm always stressing to be the way others want me to be...
But I don't know...
if I should let the ink to flow from my pen...
I analyze myself, question myself...
Contemplate my actions and fears...
I am not very happy...
My experiences aren't clear...
My memories leave me...
No one believes me...
No one can save me...
The darkness held me...
I was forever devoured by this endless void...
The deception made me feel like my life was the only exception,
Exceptional moments made me feel dismay,
Maybe I need to let go of this....
I wake up everyday unable to move like...
sleep paralysis,
That's how I feel when I think about the world...
That's how I feel when I think about the talons,
Digging into my back,
From the predators who though I was weak...
And took that moment to attack me...
But as a matter of fact I don't care...
About life, about the world, about anything...
I'm done with all the hate and the lying...
I feel like letting out my anger...
But it seems like right now would be best for me...
If I was crying...
I will cry...
I will drown...
I don't know...
My death is near...
My heart is broken...
My trust is fading...
Like the light in my eyes...
As I breath one last time...
As I fade away...



here's mine.

I don't care if you hate me.
I don't care if you can't stand me.
I don't care if my life is a mess.
I don't care that I'm under constant stress.
All I want is to feel loved.
All I want is to feel warm.
All I want is for someone to love me as much as I love them.
But I can't get that.
Can I?


Betrayal
Glass half full, Glass half empty, each sounding the same but looking so different.
Open your eyes, you see the sun, close them, you see your soul.
Regret can be a hard thing to live with, like a never ending storm.
Nothing is worth it, we all die. Tears down your face, like a waterfall.
Feelings, emotions, they betray you, disrespect you, hurt you.
Your life destroyed by yourself. Man vs Man, Man vs Nature, Man vs Self.
It's all Inevitable, what's the use, the clock starts and never ends, it is more special than you, something that is an object, a point-of-view.
The mind is the betrayer, everyone gets betrayed.
Avatar by Me
I don't know how else to bring this up. But there's been something I've been worried about. Yuri has been acting kind of strange lately. You've only been here a few days, so you may not know what I mean. But she's not normally like this. She's always been quiet and polite and attentive...things like that.
Okay... This is really embarrassing, but I'm forcing myself to suck it up. The truth is, I'm REALLY worried about her. But if I try talking to her, she'll just get mad at me again. I don't know what to do. I think you're the only person that she'll listen to. I don't know why. But please try to do something. Maybe you can convince her to talk to a therapist.
I've always wanted to try being better friends with Yuri, and it really hurts me to see this happening. I know I'm going to hate myself later for admitting that, but right now I don't care. I just feel so helpless. So please see if you can do something to help. I don't want anything bad to happen to her. I'll make you cupcakes if I have to. Just please try to do something.
As for Monika... I don't know why, but she's been really dismissive about this. It's like she just wants us to ignore it. So I'm mad at her right now, and that's why I'm coming to you about this. DON'T LET HER KNOW I WROTE THIS!!!! Just pretend like I gave you a really good poem, okay? I'm counting on you. Thanks for reading.
^ I really like Natsuki because of this poem, it shows she's pretty polite and wants to fix something, even though her outer shell is bitter (: