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Posted: Fri, 29/01/2016 06:40 (9 Years ago)
no im not ok
i know im not gonna make it but i cant help but to be positive
and ended up broken
ah,just by the thought of it makes me want to cry again.
oh well,i gotta clean my really messy bedroom.
my stupid excuse of a brother is bringing his friends over and that is not a good sign
Edit:
You guys can call me stupid and whatnot.
I mean,if i do even a small mistake?I'm called stupid.
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Posted: Sat, 30/01/2016 06:18 (9 Years ago)
guess who called stupid for accidentally letting the cat out?
me.
i swear whenever i come back home theres always a fault that my family thinks that its 'unforgivable'.
When he's home?No scolding.Unfair right?
ah,im just gonna waste my life playing osu in a locked room.
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Posted: Wed, 03/02/2016 14:26 (9 Years ago)
Important stuff to mention:
Back pains from nowhere
Shoulders pains
Uneasiness
Feeling restless
Anxiety attack
everyone needs to shut up while i think over whats wrong with myself for once
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Posted: Thu, 04/02/2016 08:45 (9 Years ago)
yells
what is actually stressing yourself out until youre sick
what is self esteem issues
My god my left shoulder tires me ;-;
Also,somewhere in September,ill be gone for 9 days
Pretty early notice ye
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Posted: Fri, 05/02/2016 07:41 (9 Years ago)
(Really important) notes to self:
Meet up w/ counselor after CNY
skinning tutorial
Water color class on 20/2/16
those...sprite edits
some bookmarks for Shakira/Anis
Contact ChellieKasane either on Osu!,Skype or dA
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Posted: Mon, 08/02/2016 19:51 (9 Years ago)
oh uh
im still lazy
remember when i said to myself im not allowed to candy?
yyeah....
why is beatmapping so complicated like ????
also i need to find a clearer skinning tutorial .n.
also,pst,Gummi should just admit that my works are trash
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Posted: Thu, 11/02/2016 09:41 (9 Years ago)
what a nice nickname they decided to give me
beats me.
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Posted: Fri, 12/02/2016 07:49 (9 Years ago)
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im so tired rn ahaha
So tired of the heat in my room
So tired of the firecrackers
So tired of my parents' yellings at me because im.not good enough
So tired of my brother's 'wonderful' existence
...
So tired of existing.
I used to adore my brother y'know?
He's in a place way better than me.
Well,me?
Im just a nobody pretending to be a somebody.
Protective? Yeah,no. More like possessive.
I want to just ignore it all.
Keep myself locked where i can be happy.
Its like im not living my life.
Its more to im living my life for everyone.
I dont get to make any decisions for myself.
...why do i even exist when i serve no purpose?
So tired of the heat in my room
So tired of the firecrackers
So tired of my parents' yellings at me because im.not good enough
So tired of my brother's 'wonderful' existence
...
So tired of existing.
I used to adore my brother y'know?
He's in a place way better than me.
Well,me?
Im just a nobody pretending to be a somebody.
Protective? Yeah,no. More like possessive.
I want to just ignore it all.
Keep myself locked where i can be happy.
Its like im not living my life.
Its more to im living my life for everyone.
I dont get to make any decisions for myself.
...why do i even exist when i serve no purpose?
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Posted: Tue, 16/02/2016 14:06 (9 Years ago)
Guess who overworked till they cant get up
Gj me
Gj back for becoming one with the floor.
Tfw exams start next month
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Posted: Fri, 19/02/2016 11:26 (9 Years ago)
Im ready to let go of this site now.
Nothing interesting is happening,or gonna happen.
Most of my problems are resolved anyways and im just busy irl
Yeah,i might visit for a day or two or maybe post feeds and thats it.
I guess ill be hanging out on dA and Osu. But not on the Osu boards mm yeah?
Just hit me up with a message if you want to talk to me in either sites.
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Posted: Tue, 23/02/2016 13:00 (9 Years ago)
Early bday gift from mom :"D
Remember when i complained about there arent a lot of hq merchandises 15 days ago?
Lmao hina just randomly appeared in the local anime store
[S]tfw the determined face snapped the neck[ s]
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Posted: Sun, 28/02/2016 13:44 (8 Years ago)
ttFW YOU ALMOST BEAT NO THANK YOU IN OSU
wwHY
also playing osu is like haikyuu all over again
"oh no its too short"
"no,its too long"
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Posted: Fri, 04/03/2016 08:02 (8 Years ago)
I dont deserve any happiness or rememberance but this is fine.
How do i ask mom on how to quit my studying again?
The lecturers are all stuck up freaks like ew.
Now excuse me,i better study for my next test,which is next week and im prolly gonna go inactive.
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Posted: Sat, 05/03/2016 06:38 (8 Years ago)
Dead phone dead child
Japanese/ict on wednesday
Yume Nikki
O-vi-donce [obvs. Evidence for the thing]
Play dumb
Act innocent
Do those small adoptable things you're planning called mandora
Muffet's pokesona MAP. Do it next week asap,even if theres no deadline.
Search the whole room for Scarlet's pokesona
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Posted: Sun, 06/03/2016 15:09 (8 Years ago)
Yes i have trust issues and i dont like talking about it so please dont trigger me or ask me about this its uncomfortable
I almost dislocated my right thumb and thats ok since i have the left one, if all plans fail
…And lets not talk about my jealousy problems,thanks.
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Posted: Tue, 15/03/2016 16:52 (8 Years ago)
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Just a guy who's full of problems in
his hands.Hello,I'm -Kei!I'm a simple college student who loves
sweaters,hoodies and his tablet.I tend to get all shy,nervous and
awkward to the people who I look up to,or it's our first meeting.I
tend to forget stuff sometimes,so feel free to bonk me on the head
if I forget something.If you wanna add me or something,feel free to
talk to me on pal pad/PM!Feel free to scream Danganronpa,Kingdom
Hearts,Haikyuu,Persona and Devil Survivor at me! .w.
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Posted: Thu, 17/03/2016 18:43 (8 Years ago)
Help me
Im shuuen no shiori trash
Why did C-Ta kill A-Ya wh
And D-Ne no
If you love B-Ko dont kill her
Why did they kill everyone i cri
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Posted: Fri, 18/03/2016 08:10 (8 Years ago)
??????
ok whAT
you just clearly
came up to me w/ a 'hi r u selling darkrai map'
when i didnt say anything about selling and nOW YOU'RE CALLING ME RUDE?????
gfdi
im just too angry rn dont mind me
if anyone wants me,i'll be attempting to strangle this guy.
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Posted: Tue, 22/03/2016 12:36 (8 Years ago)
Tfw the feeling of reincarnation
My grades are a passing,thank god but my parents are still unhappy
Yeah,still a hiatus.
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Posted: Wed, 23/03/2016 12:31 (8 Years ago)
i kinda need to chill heh
5 seconds later and ill be drinking bleach
...like thatll happen,seeing as it comes from someone like me
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