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eveninarcadia
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Posted: Mon, 05/05/2025 20:08 (6 Days ago)

Where to begin… It has been so long since I’ve written a forum post.

Hello, everyone. You may know me as Ren, Cipher-, -Seishin-, whatever. After three years of chaos, it is safe to say that I have returned for good.

So, what exactly happened?

01. 2020-2021 As many of my older Pokeheroes friends may know, my mental health was (admittedly) garbage. It probably was not amazing for my 13 year old self to be back and forth in relationships. I was foolish, and also very confused on things with my identity. I “needed” someone to distract me from my own mental health.

During this time, I was also struggling to get the help I needed due to the people in my life not recognizing that I genuinely needed help. My dad eventually had to step in, completely unaware, and set me up for therapy.

Push comes to shove, and I am in and out of the mental hospital. The last time I went, I admitted to what was going on that my dad wasn’t aware of.

This would cause me to have to move, out of the depths of my father’s heart.

02. Late 2021-2022 I had moved to my mother’s, which I (at first) hated. I never knew my mom very well as her and my dad got divorced when I was fairly young. It was very odd, and a struggle to get used to her energy and availability. Around this time, she also recognized that the issues of my mental health were located mostly on my phone. So, she did the right thing and limited my ability to use it.

Funnily enough, I got diagnosed some crazy things. And I finally (FINALLY) cut the people that hurt me out of my life.

03. 2022-2023 It was easy to say I was recovering. I had a therapist, I was in school, and I was happy. Then again, I got myself into trouble with a really bad person, but I naturally cut them off.

04. 2024-Now Here we are now. 2025. I have been on an incredible journey, learning about myself and how I work. I have learned so many lessons that I may have been too young to understand or know of. But wow, I have grown.

To those of you who have been with me since day one, thank you for putting up with me. I am so sorry, from the bottom of my heart, for the messes I got myself and others into. While it’s not anything now, it was insane for me in the end.

Thank you all. I am glad to return, and I wait for new opportunities as I turn 18 this year.
You may ask me questions. I will answer honestly.
With love, Julian.

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eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Wed, 05/01/2022 21:26 (3 Years ago)
	Aspen, I'd like to buy some art! Form of Art: Full Body Character Reference: Mocha !! Payment: 150 K Other: Nope! Password: Tired Art [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Tue, 04/01/2022 18:47 (3 Years ago)
	Yes, sorry about that !! [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Tue, 04/01/2022 18:43 (3 Years ago)
	Character Reference/Pokemon Link:hehe picrew credit Expression: Up to you, RC! Payment Method: 80K Any Accessories you'd Like?: Bowtie and small crown !! Anything else you'd like to tell me/Let me know?: thank you !! [Read more]

eveninarcadia
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Posted: Thu, 04/11/2021 14:13 (3 Years ago)

Title: Chapter Two ~ A Cry For Help

"You are, in fact, the third experiment of the X!Event." X!Gaster said, staring at the small crying Spector. "Ink Sans is supposed to protect you until you're ready. You were built to be my creation, my monster." He growled at the female. She gasped out. “So… I’m just a toy to you?!” She hissed, Gaster Blasters rising behind her.

“I don’t see you as a toy, more as my daughter, really.” He responded, lightly sighing and looking at her.

Spector was holding back the feeling of attachment, the feeling of being around her father, crying into him, hugging him, smiling, all happy. She can’t be with the bad guys. She missed her adventures with Red, Blueberry, Sans, Space… Everyone. Especially Reaper. Reaper was her best friend, and closest one. She had been protected by him hundreds of times, and Reaper had been protected by her. They had each other's backs.

She eventually began to cry heavily into her father, dropping her weapons and rushing over. She just cried and cried into him. “Please… Take me home!” She begged, looking up at him, shivering.

“Home is here…” He started.

“No! It’s with Red… Blueberry… Honey… Reaper…” She trailed off at the last name, shivering and crying. “Take me home to Reaper!”

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Reaper Sans. Ah yes… The reader may ask, ‘why is Reaper Sans so important to the story?’ Well, impatient reader, you’ll find out.
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Spector ran through a portal, and fell down into a pile of snow. Reaper Sans leaned over her. “Oi, Spec. You’re kinda in some snow.” He held out a gloved hand, and Spector touched his hand, lightly lifting herself up. “Ugh… Ow…” She rubbed the back of her neck bones lightly, smiling nervously, a light purple blush on her cheekbones.

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to be continued....

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eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Wed, 29/09/2021 12:38 (3 Years ago)
	(WhimsicArt) Icefox, I would like to order! Username: $eishin Character/Reference Image:art credit to them Fullbody/Headshot/Background: Fullbody What you want the Image to look like (what's happening, background ext.): Him holding a kitty! Payment: 100K PD Other: Thank you! [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Fri, 09/07/2021 19:12 (3 Years ago)
	ty! [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Fri, 11/06/2021 20:38 (3 Years ago)
	Aspen, I'd like to buy some art! Form of Art: Full Body! Character Reference: Legit wears all black, sweatpants, combat boots Payment: 75K Other: hello friend!~ Password: [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Fri, 21/05/2021 13:07 (3 Years ago)
	Username: ToruOikawa Type: Halfbody Sketch Payment: 50K Reference: My beautiful baby Akari Comments/Requests: The examples look great! [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Tue, 18/05/2021 15:12 (3 Years ago)
	Hi Chewydabacca! Brew for me! Username: ToruOikawa Has gems been gifted?: no, sadly (having to sell them) Any coupon?: nope Password: MEGA Tip?: 1500 PD [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Mon, 17/05/2021 15:57 (3 Years ago)
	Mono is male! And PM would be best [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Mon, 17/05/2021 15:14 (3 Years ago)
	Hey there! I would like to buy some art! Payment: 50K What you want: My Pokesona Mono! Reference: Here you go! Anything else: Nope, thank you so much! [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Sat, 01/05/2021 04:03 (4 Years ago)
	its okay lol [Read more]

eveninarcadia
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Posted: Sat, 01/05/2021 03:45 (4 Years ago)

User Name: ToruOikawa

Character name: Akari Aizawa

Characters hero/villian name (optional): Sai

Hero student/ Villian/ Hero teacher/ or Vigilante?: Hero Student

Characters Quirk: Hypnosis

Characters other abilities (not quirks): Typical Aizawa Scarf.

Description (image or written): Boink

Allies?: Hanta Sero, Katsuki Bakugou, Eijirou Kirishima.

Personality: Read

Background/Backstory (optional): lol

Anything else I should know?:

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eveninarcadia
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Forum Posts: 226

Posted: Sun, 25/04/2021 03:46 (4 Years ago)

I feel more stressed than I should be. Lately, life has just said: nope! Have more stress! And throw me problems. At one point it was just school, now it’s my transition, worry about my family, my friends… I feel smaller than I used to be. I feel like crap 24/7 now, and have I told my parents? Course not. Just the typical “I’m Fine.” works, right? I’m tired of myself at this point. Sometimes i stare at a mirror, and question how I came into existence, and why people care about me. Speaking of that, I’m pretty sure I talk to like three people now, and I’m unsure if they even care. They act like they do, but I’m sure they don’t. I don’t feel good enough. Family. Great to have around. Great people. But when they’re asking you if you’re okay, you just wanna respond with ‘No, I feel like crap, leave me alone.’ But you can’t say that. You gotta say “I’m great!” And if that isn’t enough, my grandmother acts like my existence is a burden. “Boys are aggressive, mean!” Boys will be bugs, sometimes. I’m tired of my existence. All I do is never shut up. All I do is just work for others. I haven’t properly relaxed in years. All I do is vent and bring everyone down. I guess that’s what good for nothing means. Where do I belong? In the arms of someone? In hell? Alone? So many questions. “These feelings are normal.” My father said. So, being trans is normal? Hating your body so much that you’d hurt yourself yourself for a new body is normal? Great advice. I’m tired of lying to myself and saying I’m fine. Someone hug me. Tell me it’s okay.

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eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Sat, 17/04/2021 13:03 (4 Years ago)
	Can I have a Mega-able Weedle and can you please hunt shiny Inteleon? [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Tue, 13/04/2021 15:37 (4 Years ago)
	Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm -he 'hms' for a bit- Rockruff [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Tue, 13/04/2021 15:19 (4 Years ago)
	Couple months! -he yawns and sits down, Poi crawling to his shoulder- [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Tue, 13/04/2021 15:06 (4 Years ago)
	-He goes away, before walking out, holding a spider- Meet Poi, the Tarantula. My pet. I love spiders [Read more]

eveninarcadia OFFLINE Forum Posts: 226	Posted: Fri, 09/04/2021 20:04 (4 Years ago)
	-Mocha lurks in the corner- Thoughts on snakes? [Read more]

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