My sleep schedule has been messed up for the past couple days. I don’t know if it’s because of the convention or if it’s because I’m lazy, but yesterday during work, I was tired beyond belief. I’m kind of glad I didn’t fall asleep in front of my client.

I know post con depression is a thing and I only had it for a couple days. Unfortunately, Ryan has been hit hard by it and I don’t blame him because he was at the convention longer than I was. We’re both struggling trying to get back to normal but on the plus side we’re going to see each other in a few weeks.

I stopped at the store today to get some food to last me for the next couple days because my parents are coming home next week from their long trip. I was feeling a little sad because I was still missing Ryan but as I was leaving the store... THERE WAS A RAINBOW!!!

I don't know if this was a coincidence or not but yeah I'm baffled too

Ryan is getting on his flight a little bit later and I go back to work at roughly the same time. Admittedly, I feel like a mess. I'm not sure what the heck this is, but I feel like my brain is on the verge of short circuiting. Part of me feels like it's because of my sleep schedule getting messed up, the fact that I am missing Ryan or if I am actually feeling con crud. I ended up not working out today because I did so much walking at the con over the past 2 days; my legs are still aching. I'm hoping that this will wear off by tomorrow because I can't afford to take more time off because of the special international trip in a few weeks.

Well everyone, the furry convention has officially ended. I ended up having a mental breakdown because I was gonna be apart from Ryan again. This time, it wasn't as bad as I thought because we are seeing each other again in a few weeks. But I know you guys are asking: Are you gonna do this convention again next year??

My answer: I'm not entirely sure. The only reason I got to go to this convention in the first place is because of my parents being on a trip which meant I was able to get away with it. I highly doubt this is going to be the case next year. However, if I somehow manage to get some more time off from work, then I might be able to spend more time at the convention. I was only limited to the weekend this time around because of my PTO situation for the big trip next month.

So I realized I made a mistake on my last feed. Ben wasn’t the fan of Figment… it was someone who worked with him. I literally don’t know the person‘s name because it wasn’t even brought up. Sorry guys!

[Add on to last feed]

I forgot to add this last feed because I was trying to get ready for tomorrow, but I got some art commissioned of Ryan’s fursona and my OC giving Dress to Impress. He absolutely loved it! Also, Ben Diskin loved that I wore the Peacock Miraculous and apparently he’s a fan of Figment! If you don’t know who Figment is, look him up: He’s an Epcot star! Anyways, tomorrow is the last day of the convention so I’m HOPING I don’t have a breakdown.

Alright guys I'm back home from the furry convention for the day and I'm not gonna sugarcoat things: Today was jam packed!

Explanation in comments.

I know I said the last feed would be my last feed before I go to the convention, but I have some breaking news…

I was messaging one of my former coworkers about the convention and I inadvertently found out that they were at the convention too! I was shocked. I’m not sure if I’m going to run into them while I’m there, but we’ll probably have to coordinate.

Wish me luck, again.

This will most likely be the last feed I post before I go to the furry convention tomorrow morning. I’m admittedly still nervous but I know Ryan and his friends aren’t gonna leave my side. From the looks of things, tomorrow is the only day we’re gonna attend the convention because the schedule doesn’t list much for Sunday (which is also the last day of the con). I’ll share my thoughts about what happens tomorrow once I get back home.

Wish me luck, everyone.

I think I need a hug. The FOMO is off the charts

[Update to last feed]

It's the next day and it appears whatever I had was temporary. Part of me feels like I'm just nervous about catching something before I see Ryan tomorrow. I know I'm only going to be seeing him for 2 days but I am worrying that the amount of time isn't going to be enough for us. We'll be seeing each other again in a couple weeks for our big international trip but still... I'm going to be an emotional wreck on Sunday.

2 more days until I see Ryan… and I think we’ve hit a massive roadblock. Part of me feels like I’m coming down with something and I can’t confirm or deny if this is true. If I am indeed coming down with something, I know exactly where I got it from: Work. Now people will tell me to stay home if I’m sick, but I paid for the furry convention a few months ago. I already planned on taking proper precautions in the first place so I just hope it’s worth it.

I really need to be careful

Your Hoodloo looks anxiously at your Lycanroc (Midday).
….
Oh my god!

Well… Little Red Riding Hood took a darker turn. Yikes…

Well, Ryan and his friends arrived safely while I was working. I’m trying to keep it together and the only thing keeping me sane right now is this TimeLife infomercial. Don’t ask me how they make retro songs sound so good but they do a pretty good job!

Ryan’s currently at the airport waiting for his friends so they can get on their flights for the convention tomorrow. I’m not taking this too well because I’m feeling super left out again. So if I sound out of it for the next couple of days, it isn’t anything on you guys.

I had a massive mental breakdown earlier and I heard this song on the radio on the way into work and it somehow popped in my head and the song... Wow I didn't expect to relate to it! The song made me feel better, and if you want to know what the song is, it's Anxiety by Doechii. Supposedly it borrows elements from Somebody I Used To Know by Gotye and Kimbra (which is a one-hit wonder). I also got word that the song blew up on TikTok but I wouldn't know because I don't really use TikTok anyway

I just can't believe the song is me coded

(Edited to consolidate the message and because dictation didn't want to pick up my voice)

Okay, I think the FOMO is really settling in...

So as you guys know, Ryan and his friends are flying down to my area for a furry convention and seeing them all excited in the chat is making me feel a little bit left out: I can't go to the convention at the same time they are because I couldn't get the time off from work (I'm saving the time off for a special trip that Ryan and I are taking next month). I'm only seeing them on the weekend because that's the only time I can actually go somewhere. I'm feeling a little bit left out and I don't know if this is normal or if I'm crazy.

Somebody please tell me what I should do because my brain is frazzled.

Ryan is flying down here tomorrow for the furry convention. I can’t really see the guy until the weekend due to work… but on the bright side, one of the pins is arriving today so I can put it on my lanyard!

Skype is shutting down in a few hours so my boyfriend and I did a eulogy for the program before he headed off to bed. We're both kind of hit hard by the app shutting down because we actively used it back in the day: Ryan told me Skype was the first social messaging platform he used other than Facebook and I actively used Skype to message Ryan during the time period he was restricted from Discord (It was all we had).

I'm going to miss Skype a lot, but at least we have everything moved over to Teams.

Three days left until the furry convention begins in my area and two days until Ryan is in my area. Unfortunately, I won’t be there for the beginning of the convention because of work. If I’m being brutally honest, I’m still a little bit nervous… mainly due to the sickness factor and because of a personal incident that happened between Ryan and myself that happened at the last major convention he went to. But I’m gonna keep an open mind and hope that I have a good time. I’ve got my lanyard all set so hopefully that will show people who I am as a person since I’m not a furry.