I admittedly wanna cry. Not in sadness, but in happiness.
Maybe me staying just one extra day was fate or something haha. I had a talk with my uncle, opening up to more things and even the discussion of the internet. I am welcomed and kdkdkdkw sksdkd it feels nice to have that talk ;;w;;. He even grant advice that focus on myself. To focus on my self improvement, my happiness. Because I did state my worries towards the twins and the dog when I am gone, since I plan to live with grandma. /Mother/ is barely ever taking care of them because she'd rather party and be with her friends.
He is right tho. Because, while I am slowly improving as a person, there are aspects of myself I keep stagnant. Mostly because I keep focusing and worrying too much on others and not putting any focus towards myself ;;. So I will change that. Mostly balance it in a way. Because I still want to improve qwq. And the first step really is to try to focus on myself for a change!

Happy Eevee day o/

My disappointment was because I've wanted to time myself for tomorrow to see how many chibi Eevee sketches I can make. I want to see how many I could make in a day, just to be able to properly estimate how much I could manage per day ;;.
That way I can know how long it would take to just get the sketches done alone.
Lineart is a different story cwc". Usually linearting is my longer phase in art. But since it is chibi, I do wonder how long that would take 🤔. Since chibi designs are on the more simpler side. Ofc I still do my best to make sure nothing is crooked and that the lining is attached to one another nwn.


I really am dying to do art already ;-;.
If my gosh darn body wasn't so sensitive to certain texture, I would of used a pencil already to draw traditionally /;-;/. Or at the very least, didn't had a dead laptop. Would of been so useful to take along with me ;-;.

Looks like I'll be going tomorrow instead of today TwT". Because the person who was suppose to pick me up supposedly "forgot" and is already busy with something else TwT".

If I had my computer here, I wouldn't mind staying here for as long as possible. But I don't. And I really, really would love to draw already ;-;. Really dying to do art already

Oof took a nap xd.
Guess I was still a tiny bit sleepy haha

Tomorrow is Eevee day :3c
Will possibly spend the entirety of that day working on chibi Eevee adopts xd

I feel a mix for tomorrow, which may be why I am struggling to sleep.
Like... Yeah I look forward to being able to draw once I return. And I get to resume voice chatting with friends and partner qwq.
At the same time, I dread returning to that /home/. I expect for headaches and tense body to resume again.


I just hope that they were taking care of Passion, the dog, while I was gone with my visit qHq. That and hopefully they didn't let her do her potty in my room like two weeks ago ^^". I only asked for the favor to take her out to use the bathroom and feed her. I really am not asking for much c.c

Ok it seems like I'll be picked up tomorrow, instead of today pwp.
It's fine. I won't fuss about it, since it just means an extra day at Grandma's place nwn/! I still have that hyper motivated itch to draw xD. But I can wait on that n3n

So I saw my childhood friend mother last night. We hugged and ended up having a lil chat, since we haven't seen one another for years x3.

Long story short, I'll be seeing my childhood friend on December 23rd, since that's when she comes back to her home for the holidays pwp/. God I haven't seen her for so many years. I'm really pump to see her again QwQ!

Tbh I still find it funny, in a nice way, that people think I am 18-19 irl ( Whenever someone asks for my age. I am 27, will be 28 on Feb 8th ) x3. Every time I see a shock reaction haha x3.


It is silly to me because, back when I was 16-18, I would always be told that I look like I am in my early to mid 20s. Now that I am 27, I get told I look 18-19 xD
Note that I did not change anything drastic of my looks over the years. All Ive done was let my hair grow out and change my glasses ( Only different of my glasses are the colors. Still looks the same as my old glasses ) qwp. That's it.

Since I can't draw until I return home, I'll just come up with trait ideas for the fusions, just to have some form of note to use for when I come back qwp.

Oof I feel like drawing but I cant at the moment because my computer is at my mother's place xd. I have a couple or so days left on here.


Urge to draw, why are you here now /;∆;/

( moreso want to work on more chibi Eevee adopts because that is my fixation currently still >w< )

Last three Greavards up on GTS o/
Free to any that doesn't have one nqn

999 - Gimmighoul
725 - Litten
584 - Vanilluxe
700 - Sylveon


Just to save a little time for me to not look up dex number for when I work on more chibi Eevees when I get back home nwn
I don't plan to come back home until Monday / Tuesday. No full promises, as there is a small possibility that I may want to stay at Grandma's place a lil longer qwq.

I already feel so bright and happy!

Progress on the Eevee fusions so far nwn

Linking my Tumblr post because I dont want to link the images individually ;w;

Just had a unrealistic thought to myself xD.
Basically if I want to say reach 1000 chibi Eevee fusion designs in sketch form in a short amount of time, the shortest could be 50 days, if I consistently do 20 a day. Meaning 20 minutes per design, marking 7 hours. This is including the thoughts of breaks, like food or needing to let my hand relax to avoid cramps.
This is something not too possible to do ofc xD.
It doesn't take into consideration of planning and whether the Pokemon has more complexed design ( Ex. Dialga) or something pretty simple ( Ex. Iggpybuff ). And, considering that I am doing the fun way where I am not picking what Pokemon to fuse with the chibi Eevee, letting people choose dex numbers and me using random number generator, it will be more all over the place xd

Also I don't time myself when I draw and when I start to end my art for the day. So I am really not sure how much time I spend on art per day 🤔

But yeah it was a random thought!

Completed one of my art trades <3

Character belongs to sissu, aka Mewshine nwn

Also I didnt get the chance to be taken to my grandmother home today. Hoping tomorrow I could ;;

The person who was supposed to take me there apparently forgot??? And said that she will /definitely/ take me tomorrow ><"

Note to self on Chibi Eevee adopts to work on base on dex numbers ( Don't want to lose this from posts being drowned cwc" ):
755
037
938
253
848
999
725
584
700

Yay almost 1mil x3
Now I am not poor :D! ( I was at 10k PD because I spent the remaining PD on "cheap nuggets" [ Not actually cheap. was 2.6k each ] the other day. I was in a sleepy state so my mind didnt click that I've overspent until after I had some sleep xd )