
I stopped at the store today to get some food to last me for the
next couple days because my parents are coming home next week from
their long trip. I was feeling a little sad because I was still
missing Ryan but as I was leaving the store... THERE WAS A
RAINBOW!!!
I don't know if this was a coincidence or not but yeah I'm baffled
too

Ryan is getting on his flight a little bit later and I go back to
work at roughly the same time. Admittedly, I feel like a mess. I'm
not sure what the heck this is, but I feel like my brain is on the
verge of short circuiting. Part of me feels like it's because of my
sleep schedule getting messed up, the fact that I am missing Ryan
or if I am actually feeling con crud. I ended up not working out
today because I did so much walking at the con over the past 2
days; my legs are still aching. I'm hoping that this will wear off
by tomorrow because I can't afford to take more time off because of
the special international trip in a few weeks.

Well everyone, the furry convention has officially ended. I ended
up having a mental breakdown because I was gonna be apart from Ryan
again. This time, it wasn't as bad as I thought because we are
seeing each other again in a few weeks. But I know you guys are
asking: Are you gonna do this convention again next year??
My answer: I'm not entirely sure. The only reason I got to go to
this convention in the first place is because of my parents being
on a trip which meant I was able to get away with it. I highly
doubt this is going to be the case next year. However, if I somehow
manage to get some more time off from work, then I might be able to
spend more time at the convention. I was only limited to the
weekend this time around because of my PTO situation for the big
trip next month.

So I realized I made a mistake on my last feed. Ben wasn’t the fan
of Figment… it was someone who worked with him. I literally don’t
know the person‘s name because it wasn’t even brought up. Sorry
guys!

[Add on to last feed]
I forgot to add this last feed because I was trying to get ready
for tomorrow, but I got some art commissioned of Ryan’s fursona and
my OC giving Dress to Impress. He absolutely loved it! Also, Ben
Diskin loved that I wore the Peacock Miraculous and apparently he’s
a fan of Figment! If you don’t know who Figment is, look him up:
He’s an Epcot star! Anyways, tomorrow is the last day of the
convention so I’m HOPING I don’t have a breakdown.

Alright guys I'm back home from the furry convention for the day
and I'm not gonna sugarcoat things: Today was jam packed!
Explanation in comments.

I know I said the last feed would be my last feed before I go to
the convention, but I have some breaking news…
I was messaging one of my former coworkers about the convention and
I inadvertently found out that they were at the convention too! I
was shocked. I’m not sure if I’m going to run into them while I’m
there, but we’ll probably have to coordinate.
Wish me luck, again.

This will most likely be the last feed I post before I go to the
furry convention tomorrow morning. I’m admittedly still nervous but
I know Ryan and his friends aren’t gonna leave my side. From the
looks of things, tomorrow is the only day we’re gonna attend the
convention because the schedule doesn’t list much for Sunday (which
is also the last day of the con). I’ll share my thoughts about what
happens tomorrow once I get back home.
Wish me luck, everyone.

I think I need a hug. The FOMO is off the charts

[Update to last feed]
It's the next day and it appears whatever I had was temporary. Part
of me feels like I'm just nervous about catching something before I
see Ryan tomorrow. I know I'm only going to be seeing him for 2
days but I am worrying that the amount of time isn't going to be
enough for us. We'll be seeing each other again in a couple weeks
for our big international trip but still... I'm going to be an
emotional wreck on Sunday.

2 more days until I see Ryan… and I think we’ve hit a massive
roadblock. Part of me feels like I’m coming down with something and
I can’t confirm or deny if this is true. If I am indeed coming down
with something, I know exactly where I got it from: Work. Now
people will tell me to stay home if I’m sick, but I paid for the
furry convention a few months ago. I already planned on taking
proper precautions in the first place so I just hope it’s worth
it.
I really need to be careful

Your Hoodloo looks anxiously at your Lycanroc (Midday).
….
Oh my god!
Well… Little Red Riding Hood took a darker turn. Yikes…

Well, Ryan and his friends arrived safely while I was working. I’m
trying to keep it together and the only thing keeping me sane right
now is this TimeLife infomercial. Don’t ask me how they make retro
songs sound so good but they do a pretty good job!

Ryan’s currently at the airport waiting for his friends so they can
get on their flights for the convention tomorrow. I’m not taking
this too well because I’m feeling super left out again. So if I
sound out of it for the next couple of days, it isn’t anything on
you guys.

I had a massive mental breakdown earlier and I heard this song on
the radio on the way into work and it somehow popped in my head and
the song... Wow I didn't expect to relate to it! The song made me
feel better, and if you want to know what the song is, it's Anxiety
by Doechii. Supposedly it borrows elements from Somebody I Used To
Know by Gotye and Kimbra (which is a one-hit wonder). I also got
word that the song blew up on TikTok but I wouldn't know because I
don't really use TikTok anyway
I just can't believe the song is me coded
(Edited to consolidate the message and because dictation didn't
want to pick up my voice)

Okay, I think the FOMO is really settling in...
So as you guys know, Ryan and his friends are flying down to my
area for a furry convention and seeing them all excited in the chat
is making me feel a little bit left out: I can't go to the
convention at the same time they are because I couldn't get the
time off from work (I'm saving the time off for a special trip that
Ryan and I are taking next month). I'm only seeing them on the
weekend because that's the only time I can actually go somewhere.
I'm feeling a little bit left out and I don't know if this is
normal or if I'm crazy.
Somebody please tell me what I should do because my brain is
frazzled.

Ryan is flying down here tomorrow for the furry convention. I can’t
really see the guy until the weekend due to work… but on the bright
side, one of the pins is arriving today so I can put it on my
lanyard!

Skype is shutting down in a few hours so my boyfriend and I did a
eulogy for the program before he headed off to bed. We're both kind
of hit hard by the app shutting down because we actively used it
back in the day: Ryan told me Skype was the first social messaging
platform he used other than Facebook and I actively used Skype to
message Ryan during the time period he was restricted from Discord
(It was all we had).
I'm going to miss Skype a lot, but at least we have everything
moved over to Teams.

Three days left until the furry convention begins in my area and
two days until Ryan is in my area. Unfortunately, I won’t be there
for the beginning of the convention because of work. If I’m being
brutally honest, I’m still a little bit nervous… mainly due to the
sickness factor and because of a personal incident that happened
between Ryan and myself that happened at the last major convention
he went to. But I’m gonna keep an open mind and hope that I have a
good time. I’ve got my lanyard all set so hopefully that will show
people who I am as a person since I’m not a furry.

My boyfriend went to an amusement park today and I'm kind of
low-key jealous. How does everybody get to do all these cool
things?