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Posted: Thu, 26/09/2024 18:30 (14 Days ago)
Reiji/Leslie/Towa/Jiwoon ⋄ they/them ⋄ 20+
Please don't post here.
Years of self-development made me realize
I am a very private person, so while I might
not want to share all my daily thoughts and
general information, I can talk about my
interests and things that don't necessarily
connect itself to me.
I don't watch anime or read manga often.
I don't watch tv shows that much either.
I only play videogames sometimes.
I love books and reading but I've found
myself unable to sit down and properly
read something to the end.
I really like military stuff and hot cocoa.
I love eating pasta. My favorite fruit is
mango. My favorite animals are snakes.
I've always been fond of writing, so I
might use this diary to write a lot of
stuff. I'm not really into PH as a game
anymore so none of that record
keeping endeavours. I'm here to
get my mind off things.
[ carrd ]
Posted: Thu, 26/09/2024 20:35 (14 Days ago)
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waldheri toyhou.se page
character playlist
Waldheri was born into a military family and first picked up a gun at the age of 6. He often went hunting with his father, Wulf. His parents divorced when he was four years old and he has 3 half-siblings who he dotes on.
songs he listens to
Waldheri loves music but in a purely consumer way. He doesn't go to live shows, mostly because most of the music artists he loves are long dead in his era (around 2044). He's mostly interested in late music artists because of his grandfather who loved music and has a vinyl collection he passed down to him. He'd describe himself as an 80's and 90's vibe lover, with little care for actual genres.
The codename 'Campbell' came from his childhood. Children bullied him for his Irish ancestry and for having a crooked smile. As a result, he is insecure about his asymmetrical face and uses his piercings as means to give an illusion of symmetry. He uses Campbell as his callsign to show that it (the namecalling) doesn't affect him anymore.
character playlist
Waldheri was born into a military family and first picked up a gun at the age of 6. He often went hunting with his father, Wulf. His parents divorced when he was four years old and he has 3 half-siblings who he dotes on.
songs he listens to
Waldheri loves music but in a purely consumer way. He doesn't go to live shows, mostly because most of the music artists he loves are long dead in his era (around 2044). He's mostly interested in late music artists because of his grandfather who loved music and has a vinyl collection he passed down to him. He'd describe himself as an 80's and 90's vibe lover, with little care for actual genres.
The codename 'Campbell' came from his childhood. Children bullied him for his Irish ancestry and for having a crooked smile. As a result, he is insecure about his asymmetrical face and uses his piercings as means to give an illusion of symmetry. He uses Campbell as his callsign to show that it (the namecalling) doesn't affect him anymore.
Posted: Wed, 02/10/2024 01:01 (9 Days ago)
Recently I bought a physical copy of the r/nosleep story Penpal. It is my favourite story. I've also noticed that there are a lot of new details in the physical version of the book and I think it's worth writing down my newly-formed thoughts based on the new information. It is on theme with the story's narrative of figuring things out as you unearth past memories with new context. I'll keep updating this post with my review of each chapters. If you haven't read the story yet, I suggest you make some time to read it. The reddit version can be found here.
My general review of the story is that it's a good commentary on the disturbing reality of how helpless children are to trauma. The perspective of a child not understanding how the life they've lived is not normal and only realizing it years later when their memories finally resurface. Things that didn't seem to connect eventually pieced themselves together like a grandmother's quilt, forming either a blanket of safety or hostility and in the case of the story; both. Adults fail the children around them, whether through their actions or lack of them even if they've tried their best. Parents that tries their best to give their children a good life but fail to and it doesn't necessarily have to be of their own doing.
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My interest in true crime taught me one thing; to focus on the tragedy instead of the perpetrator. It is not about 'how could someone do this', but about the experiences that were lived. All that to say, I am drawn to the monster in the story due to its fictional nature and for the lack of a better word, love for the author. I remember how sick I felt when things were revealed and I'd like to think of myself as a hardened person. I consume horror and disturbing media religiously but something about following the story along and realizing what it all led to, felt like unwrapping a gift of a rotten carcass by your door. The present was neatly wrapped and I had unraveled each layers with great intrigue, even when I knew what was to be found when I finally opened the box.
Chapter 1: Footsteps
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I remember listening to this chapter,
the kind of intrigue that it filled me with. It's hard to imagine
that this was supposed to be a standalone piece by the author, a
one-shot that wouldn't have became what it is now. There were a lot
of circumstances that led to this book's creation and so was me
encountering it. I'm truly grateful for each of the step it went
through to reach me.
This will be a common occurrence as I continue the review but reading things in a new light after knowing everything is truly something special. Especially when the physical book I am reading had many new sentences that added to the already brilliant story. Unlike the web version, Dathan took more time to get out of the woods. It also showed just how close he is to his mother and gave more insight to his family dynamics. It's obvious that the father is not in the picture so instead his grandfather made an appearance in the chapter, filling in that role but only for a brief moment over the phone.
"How far can you go into the woods?"
"What?"
"How far can you go into the woods?" I repeated knowingly, though I knew nothing at all.
"Oh. Well, I suppose about halfway," he said, snickering.
"What? How come you could only go halfway?"
And then, as if he had been waiting waiting for this moment his entire life, he bellowed:
"Because if I went any farther, I'd be coming out!"
This will be a common occurrence as I continue the review but reading things in a new light after knowing everything is truly something special. Especially when the physical book I am reading had many new sentences that added to the already brilliant story. Unlike the web version, Dathan took more time to get out of the woods. It also showed just how close he is to his mother and gave more insight to his family dynamics. It's obvious that the father is not in the picture so instead his grandfather made an appearance in the chapter, filling in that role but only for a brief moment over the phone.
"How far can you go into the woods?"
"What?"
"How far can you go into the woods?" I repeated knowingly, though I knew nothing at all.
"Oh. Well, I suppose about halfway," he said, snickering.
"What? How come you could only go halfway?"
And then, as if he had been waiting waiting for this moment his entire life, he bellowed:
"Because if I went any farther, I'd be coming out!"
Posted: Thu, 03/10/2024 10:48 (8 Days ago)