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Me: I feel like I'm stereotyping black women... I should draw more with different body types...
Me: I should draw muslim women... I want to see cool hijabs...
Me: I'm barely drawing guys... I should draw guys...

So basically existencial crisis,

oh i just got a great idea, oH OHH, oh my god

i f e e l great

Fun fact! Now my "s" key is lagging. Great.

Also, new avi!

t e e t h

posting it here because it's nothing impressive or deserving of spot in my ✨ Unfortunate Art Dump✨

plus it's just to show my love for t e e t h and yellow. Despite me almost never drawing these things, I love looking at them. Not in a kinky way, just fangs and sharp teeth are cool.

WHAT I WANT TO DO:

— Art
- Pokemon Fanart
- Weak Hero Fanart
- Soo many ocs
- Undertale Fanart
- SCP Fanart
- Youtuber Fanart
- Artist Fanart
- DTYIS
- More Webtoon Fanart
- Tokyo Ghoul Fanart
- Beastars Fanart

- I can go on longer

— Spriting
- Sprite Shop updates (long way to go)
- Honestly Sprite Shop updates could take like 10 more spots

— Writing
- ANYTHING
- I DIDN'T WRITE FOR OVER 3 WEEKS
- I'M A DISGRACE


WHAT I DO

- Sit the mindlessly
- Maybe will watch youtube idk
- Its almost 30C what do you want from me

Why is the manga always so different from the anime like

Tokyo Ghoul anime (from 1yr+ old memory):
Tame, censorship, characters act different slightly different, plot points missed, characters degraded to two lines or completly erased

Manga:
Gore, so much gore, why are all the heads just flying off every 2 seconds, wow why do you exist I didn't— oh you're dead, so much info I didn't know about, mask triplets nuff said, also gore, random gore, juuzou why are you like this- why oh yeah of course,

like, why

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Like, example from what I'm reading just now (Vol.6 Ch. 56)

THEY CUT OUT A WHOLE ARC!
THE BANJOU STUFF
LIKE
WHAT THE HECK GUYS

YOU DONT DO THAT

HE WAS DEGRADED TO MAYBE 2 EPISODES

WHY

Anime Banjou: Jerk. For some reason cares about Rize.
Manga Banjou: A LEADER. HAS AN OBSESSION BUT A REASON. GOT OVER RIZE. TRIES TO HELP KANEKI AND OTHER GHOULS WHO ARE STUCK IN SLAVERY IN AOGIRI. GOOD GUY.

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(those are different post but pH merges stuff together

WHY WHYYY
DONT KILL HIMM
LET HIM LIVEEE

PLEASEEE

the f e e l s

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:(
:((

Most of them are dead
now im sad

:(

Me: I'm a normal fan! Good side of fandom! No cringy ocs! No weird headcanons!
Me: *creates an oc for the fandom from a stupid concept, whole new kind of problem/conflict, lot of pain for said oc, bunch of headcanons for characters, brings back characters from death for sake of story purpose*
Me: *never writes the fanfiction*
Me: . . . I mean it's a plus right???

OH BOY TIME TO GIVE NAME HEADCANON TO BIN BROTHERS BECAUSE I CAN'T EVER LIKE A NORMAL CHARACTER HUH???

Me, at 9pm: Christ why do I have to wash myself I don't even stink and my period isn't that awful...
Me, at 10pm: Why isn't there any anti dandruff shampoo??? Where's my fricking sponge?? Great, I don't have any anti acne stuff here... I should probably brush my teeth... Do I have at least a cream for my face???

It's especially weird considering I haven't took care of myself for a while, I'm gross but I haven't brushed my teeth for months now ,,, you can probably guess why I had 3 of my teeth removed eh

Me for the past few months: why does it matter??? Do i need to? Ugh I need to finish this sprite shop... Why do I need to care for myself... proceeds to drink less than 1l of any liquid for the whole day and sleeps late
Me, since yesterday 10:22pm: I'm going to get better! I'm going to keep my teeth clean! I'm going to be productive! I'm going to get rid of this fricking acne! I'm going to improve my artwork! My spriting! My writing!

In other words whatever is above us decided that I need to stop being depressive and start taking care of myself. Which is both great, and unnerving. Also I started drinking more water and going to sleep early which is suprisingly great.

So yeah, Krenia is turning her life around?

No. I'm 13. I'm not turning my life around. I just started acting like a normal teenager would.

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Possibility of social interaction: :)
Me: *softly* please, no...

two different but close posts because ranting here is the only way of dealing with my problems :) despite everyone being able to see it lmao

Audibly saying "oh no" while having an awkward smile is probably the worst way to react to something.
Like, I'm probably being overdramatic but like.

I can't for the love of god talk to people.
I'm really sorry but just— dont', like seriously, I will be uncomftorable no matter how nice the person talking to me is. Because I'm bad with people, and I'd rather avoid interaction. Especially if you're nice.

Okay rant time,
it's weird, but I have hard time talking to nice people since it's just kinda like "uhh, please no I'm wasting your time and probably ruining your opinion about me".

when on the other hand, I don't have an opinion or someone, I've talked to them previously or I just plainly don't like them or things they do it's easier for me. Rant done.

now Imma hug my dog for comfort!