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I keep repeating the mantra that my material is actually very interesting and worth my time, but in the back of my mind I have the fact that yugioh wc10 takes almost 100 hours of gameplay and I just want to finish it after almost a decade of it collecting dust
So many great games collecting (digital) dust, it's a small scale tragedy.
I know for a FACT that when I finally have time I won't be able to touch them again, haha,, Until I've finished UM there will be a new pokemon game out ///

jack atlas is very cute and I hate that he makes me want to watch the 5ds anime
"In the English dub, Jack has a British cockney accent"
SKDJAAODJGUISAH

when I actually sit down and do what I'm supposed to do I'm surprisingly efficient. I finished a third of my essay in a sitting just by turning the internet off.

exams have the same exact format like last year uff, thank god. Something different would have messed my learning up

green cola tastes just like cola light

my reverse of arcadia mc is such a blast, his edge is so enjoyable and I just can't give him another deck but the zombie one. Maybe I'll give him a fabled deck for his speed deck though
-final attack - "accept your loss."
-victory - "I win. But I know I would."
-loss - ".................."
-when ahead - "Amateur." (this made me laugh so hard on the train, I was fighting princess pikeru and she just said something like "oh no... I'll lose >~<" and my dude just like stone cold: "amateur" and it was perfect)
-partner takes huge damage - "Glad that wasn't me."

"snuff" is about a man with depression who loves a woman but knows it won't last so he pushes her away so she doesn't get hurt later on [citation needed, I have other theories]

day 1564, I finally found out that brown noise is the best background music for me because it just draws out everything else and that's what I needed

clean sounding guitars will be the end if me

god faba is so cute too aaaa


And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

my corrupted duelist son


another attempt


gaige


kelani


shii


trixie

[collecting items until I have to go (3 sep)]

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already bought:
2x ramen
1x tomato soup
1x krupuk
4x beer
1x lemonade
6x water
1x small pizza
1x milk
1x cornflakes
1x jellyo
1x tchak tchak
2x kefir

I hate myself so much for liking prompto the most aaaaa what's wrong with me
he's just,, bubbly and cute and it's too muchhh

yosuke is too cute and pure for anything and I want to own him even if I don't need his arcana

if kanji keeps behaving like a young kiriwar I will die

my team will be a no girls zone, yosuke can heal us,,

just accidentally spoiled myself and now death is imminent
he will get every drop of love just so I know what happens

also yu might be the first protagonist who I think is genuinely hottish,,, HE IS UP THERE OK

why are the girls in this game so annoying- not that far into it but so far yikes

he is beauty, he is grace

kanji is such a dimwit i love himmmmmm

I'll stare the angels down
keep them in the back room
Shut the door and let go

kanjis voice drives me nuts.......................... @u@

I can't remember the last time I felt like this, I'm giggling and grinning all over. This is great/awful. I can already tell that I'll be devastated once the game's finished........

I want to eat him

My heart inside is constantly hating
I'm sorry
I just throw you away

I've been playing without a pause, I should take a break once in a while ahah,, (now maxed out with kou, kanji and yosuke though)

I feel iffy about advancing now, feels like I'd find out something I don't want to know soon x.x

memorable lines:
"I'm all yours." - when switching tactics to commands only
"PERRRSONAA!!" - when using his persona
"LIE DOWN AND DIE ALREADY!" - when his hit didn't kill the shadow
"Cheers."- when healed (light damage)

important

JUST PASSING THROUGH
NOT STOPPING BY
NOT SAYING HI
GIRL YOU CAN'T KILL A LIAR
GIRL YOU CAN'T KILL A LIAR
GIRL YOU CAN'T KILL A LIAR
GIRL YOU CAN'T KILL A LIAR
GIRL YOU CAN'T KILL A LIAR

I got the bad ending and I'm completely shocked. I'm all empty inside and nothing makes sense

at least kanji and naoto aren't a thing now tho lmao
and if they are you can just kill me again

I would die for a periphery x carpenter brut collab

I feel so hurt and would love to cheer up but I had to realize that my music and game library both are kinda depressing. Once again I'd just like to stop feeling anything for some time ugh.

I can see the devil closing in
I choke the breath that dies to cry for help
I feel the pull of gravity
I bleed no more and rise again
I lost it all
Carry me through this world alive
I feel no more this suffering
Bury me in this cold light
I feed the wolf and shed my skin

me: I love horror games, I wanna play some more when I got the time
me: *plays game that turns into horror game midpoint*
me:
me: OH GOD I DONT WANT TO PLAY ANYMORE NOW I SEE SHADOWY FIGURES EVERYWHERE AND JUMP AT EVERY SOUND

my social ineptitude has led me to pass up a once in a lifetime opportunity and I'm so mad at myself rn, this could've been great

I love making plans but I can't stick to them, I always stray away from them. This is the bane of my existence

I wanna go back to school and I don't wanna go back to school. This might be an invalid statement but it's true,,

Even after 2 months pause I still look like a drug addict, life is great

sorted all the songs on my phone, keeping a warm space for the new periphery lp ////that better come out this year, grabby hands//
I didn't go through every new album yet (i fear that bands i love suck all of a sudden) but the kanye stuff and the new marilyn manson record were "lit fam"
also got my hands on the deathgrips discography, if I like it after getting through it I throw those in too

why gible? The shiny mega makes my eyes bleed and the eggs from the gem collector are not affordable. (real deal though: ok natured tall grass shiny/mega able as a goal) maybe it bothers me a little that I already have numberwang but eh, they'll get along

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I can't even really describe it; I feel restless, chased. Not able to relax.
Whatever I do, it feels like I'm wasting time. Like I'm on a constant time crunch.
Sleep feels like my only release. But I can't sleep 16 hours a day... I just want to know what's wrong with me.
I can't go outside, or speak in full sentences. Not anymore. I've withdrawn completely, I have no courage left.

there's no pardon for a meddling soul
somewhere in time we welcomed in the fall; now in the distance I can see shining clear, our demise to be: we're not listening to ourselves

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WHY DOES BURNLEY SOUND THIS GREAT EVEN LIVE, ITS NOT FAIR ♡♡
wise men wonder while strong men die

so cold makes me think of a crush I once had, weird how some songs retain their meaning even after all these years. Hurts to listen in, but I seriously love the song, it's one of these tracks that paint a picture on your head, a scenario, have a story.

These are probably the best and worst songs to have as favourite tracks. (on the top of my head I can also think of trash, diamond on a landmine, ow my feelings, shallow bay, blood on the leaves, vacances de '87, shiver, halleluja, roter sand, I don't care, absolution calling, ...)

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found some of my old writing, sad to say that I always wrote half a novel and then stop at 20k words, because I went all chaotic with the situation. I wonder if I can salvage any of the writing and finish it, but it has some kinda messed up things in it I can't even remember I ever thought of. My attention is also very short, I start out like a writing addict and then drop the project after some weeks, so I can just imagine the rest without writing it down.

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two weeks of holidays left.
I got a lot done, now there's really only studying, passing that one exam and starting out school left for me to do. No clue what to do if I don't pass. I don't have any plan b, and I don't know if failing this is actually game-breaking. Though two weeks should be enough to get that material internalized, right?

Finished a lot of games these months, everything I wantes to even. These stories will be with me for the rest of my life now, I tend to take these experiences with me. Persona 4 fake ending, the real hatoful boyfriend route, final fantasy xv, one shot, kingdom hearts, and more that still mess with me when I think about them. New music I gathered during this break too, some more cheerful tunes.

The year is almost over, even. Hard to believe, last years new years eve feels like it was just a few weeks ago. Time really flies when you get older...
ahh just pouring my blood into this diary aren't I.
I'm lonely haha

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just say it out loud to see how it feels
people say, "don't say this, don't say that"
just say out loud, just to see how it feels
weigh all the options, nothing's off the table

today I thought about killing you, premeditated murder

with every day the exam is getting closer I have less motivation to study, mostly because I feel that I'm not having a good enough grip on the material. I just hope I can power through this somehow.
I'm thinking of other things these days, studying is none if em. It's boring too.
No idea how to continue all this, I'm not the type just to drift off into uncertainty.
Not anxious, but uneasy.

and every step that I aim to take
I fall behind
and every leg that I have to break
these scars are mine
and everyday that I'd pray for you
I close my eyes
at least I can say that we made it through
the stars aligned

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suffering from constant fatigue these days (even though I barely did anything), and fell asleep while reading and playing games. After checking it might be iron shortage? I'll give that a try I guess, did lose some blood too.
But it was never this bad, as long as I'm just lounging around I can stay awake, but these past days I felt narcoleptic. Just hoping it's not the caffeine withdrawal, haven't had a lot im a while but planned to drink some soonish.
((tl;dr, note down what helps/makes it worse; just one week left until school really starts and you need to be in top form lei. classes from 10 til 19? Well that's your own fault ///)))

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stop lights are swaying and the phone lines are down, floor is crackling cold. she took my heart, I think she took my soul. with the moon I run, far from the carnage of the fiery sun
driven by the strangle of vein, showing no mercy, I'd do it again. open up your eyes, you keep on crying, baby, I'll bleed you dry. skies are blinking at me, I see a storm bubbling up from the sea
you who shook my bone, leaving me stranded all in love on my own. do you think of me? where am I now? baby, where do I sleep? feels so good, but I'm old, two thousand years of chasing taking it's toll

now I can only brace myself for what's to come, but I'm honestly kinda looking forward to the new courses?? new mindsets and ideas to discover and meditate on, that's exactly what I wanted from university.
less time to play naturally, but I'll fit it in somehow. ph is really only on hold if I have exams/papers. with some plans (re-)discovered I decided to stay here anyways :³

I have to finalize my timetable for the semester yet, I'm worried about having extra full days, but I guess it could be worse.
I'm trying to stay positive, and don't drop myself into some abyss of depression. same old story really, but I'm just so tired of myself breaking away from everything and everybody when my mood turns blue. I'm just making things harder on myself

currently stuck on 'larger' games, it's hard to complete it in a good time while enjoying as much of it as I can. I guess I have to slow down for some games cause they're too awesome to be just rushed through (talking about you, witcher 3)

should I get my sister something for her birthday? she doesn't deserve it at all but I also don't feel like being the dink of the party again |D maybe browse some amazon and find something she might like (or just get her some vg, I can judge these things a bit better)
edit; that lil frog just wants cash from me

but now I feel your stress

le perv still goes mad dumb aaa a a

OH GOD SO VIRGIL IS NEROS DAD
AND DANTE ACTUALLY GETS OLDER
SO HOW OLD IS HE IN THE 4TH, 60???
IM DEAD

note to future lei;
sangria is super tasty but don't drink it in the morning, you'll be a depressed sack all day



is this what heartbreak feels like
haha,
just kinda moody lyrics from here on out;

one thing I know is for certain
we cannot have all we want
still this will not stop the hurting, it is never gone
now I hold on to the one thing
too fragile to stand on its own
the fortress we built it is crumbling, still I can’t let go
I can’t let you go
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but then our star rushes in
feeling like a child and looking like a woman
she has been forecast with an attempt to kill herself
but the ending didn't test well
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you'll sing to the dirt, praying for the break of dawn
night will bring the presence of a ravenous demon setting out to terrify
soul destructive like imploding stars
there's nothing but the darkness to guide the way
there's nothing left inside
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light the way and let me go
suffocate inside
I will break and watch you crawl
bury me alive

★3ds:
-ultra moon woah this... was surprisingly a lot harder than I expected. I had issues of getting wiped out quite a couple of times. fun nonetheless, I will attack the after credits stuff somewhen else
-tloz - a link between worlds cute! kinda torn between being to easy and to hard, but other than that I had fun
-fairune cute! a little tricky at times, but cute
-brave dungeon kinda makes me wanna play pokemon mystery dungeon haa

★psvita:
-danganronpa fun!! really didn't expect the end. overall it was a mixed bag but the storytelling and characters were exceptional. My child byakuya is returning in the second part ((((((accidentally spoiled myself))) so i'm actually looking forward to it!
-amnesia I might not be the right demographic for this anymore lmao. It made me realize that, even after loving dating sims/otome games for years, I don't enjoy them anymore. like, at all. It was painful to get through one characters full route set and I decided to stop there. Am i getting old?? cynical?? did my taste somehow change? I feel so weird about this, i never felt this way about a genre, ever.
-danganronpa 2 like the first one, i DEVOURED this game. it took me 35 hours/3 days almost nonstop but it was so worth it :foams at the mouth: loved it.
-senran kagura shinovi versus tfw a game has a lot more content than you ever expected. but man the girls backstories kept me going, it's so hard to choose a favourite now. Also loving that engine and the graphics.

★ps4:
-witcher 3 very good game. one of my favourites of all time if i say so myself - though getting the bad ending was not my intention and now it leaves a bad taste in my mouth ;;
-diablo III you wanna run around and feel like a god? play this game as a necromancer ////
-farcry 4 aka outdoor simulator - civil war edition
-fallout 4 so yea, i got exactly what i expected, bethesda roleplaying wasteland simulator. I really tried focusing on the main story only, so there's endless stuff to explore still. if i decide to get the dlcs too, i could whack another 50 hours into this. liked this, not more than skyrim probs but it was still very cool
-dmc well, it kinda WAS a dmc 3 reboot, but the game itself as very nice. keeping it, i'll do this again on a harder difficulty someday. the gameplay is a lot of fun
-digimon world: next order finished, after all. mental note that digimon world =/= digimon game. fun nonetheless, but I'm glad i have this done
-child of light the game wasn't bad, but it felt like a chore since it wasn't at all what i wanted from it (expected a platformer, got some kind of rpg hybrid) I'm just glad it's done //
-layers of fear seen so many times, had to play it myself, solid, but nothing special.
-detention I'm in awe.
-bloodborne even more edgy dark souls. infuriating,but fun nonetheless
-persona 5 absolutely mindblowing. I'm hugeky impressed by the studio and all people involved, especially the voice actors
-dmc 4 same as always, though compared to dmc it was almost underwhelming. i love all the character designs and attacks and all that, it's always so creative, but the rest is... passable
-dark souls 3 quite honestly? it was very grating at times, but i wouldn't bat an eye and buy dark souls remastered when it's on sale. when i had fun, i had a lot of fun. it takes practice and is addicting, i broke some personal records there with playing 17 hours straight in one session // but music, design, gameplay? marvelous.
-senran kagura estival versus i love this game. case closed - fr though, it can get repetitive when playing it for too long, but other than that it's a great time-waster
-akiba's trip that was actually an interesting experience! more the visual novel with routes and all that than something like senran kagura (which i expected) might maybe pick it up again??
--bioshock 1 already watched it some years ago, but i think playing it for myself was def worth it. curious to see where the next game picks up!

the periphery boys keep teasing with their new material, I can't wait to hear the full thing. So far everything sounds so clean and I can't wait ///

I thought I'd drown in my assignments and homework but I'm actually fine haha, if you sit down and just focus on the stuff you get alright well enough. One subjects mostly takes about 2 hours to prepare, which is a lot better than last semester. Too bad though that my greek is kinda rusty

currently also trying to learn japanese kanji (hiragana) in hopes of actually having that skill under my belt, ouf it's something else. Nothing like any of the languages I learned so far, but I'm taking the challenge. It won't hurt

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I cannot seem to find the answers
Every truth has slipped away
All that riddles me will never cease to be
Still I search this world in vain
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never mind
emptiness
dead eyes and lost what you found
maybe, there on the edge is your hope
but you don't look down, why?
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if the world would fall apart
in a fiction worthy wind
I wouldn't change a thing
now that you're here
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woah
the other side made my heart skip a few beats and tightened my chest
jesus christ, the voicework and the guitars are just majestic
it's oOZING with passion

it's kinda hard being a member of society, i just can't imagine how people can leave their house everyday. I only have to go outside a few time a week but I'm still terrified of the thought, every day like that feels like I'm heading out to be hanged.
It's not even that bad, nothing even happens most of the time, but this anxiety I feel ties my guts into a knot. it's awful. at this rate it'll be hard to live a normal life.