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Filip OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sun, 28/08/2016 21:29 (8 Years ago) |
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Username: Filip666 Shiny Wish: Finneon Payment Option: 80 Rock Gems Password: Shooting Star Other: Thanks a lot- [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sat, 06/08/2016 03:47 (8 Years ago) |
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Hai <3 Its been some time- But yeahhh--- So, Pokemon Go actually came out, and its really fun to play. As a kid, Ive always had a dream to have a pokemon, and catching them, and looking at them... It feels like making my dream come true, it just makes me so happy... I actually started going outside just to go to Pokestops, even alone xD Im really happy beacuse of it And, I got a bit more into drawing again. Actually Im trying to draw pokemons for my whole new generation, but its hard to find good ideas x3 But I still got few, so its good, I just need to draw. I will show everything later here~ And 7th gen of pokemons is coming soon \o/ They show more and more pokemons, new forms of old pokemons, new moves, that whole Z-Move, and "Diamonds, that will work like Mega Stones, but not exactly that same", so I really cant wait for it I still sometimes have bad thoughts... but Im staying positive, Im trying to smile to everyone, I really am trying. But then here is my new friendo on ph, and I just... Im just about to cry... I have no idea how to make her happy... Im feeling really really stupid around her, I just cant think properly... I want her to be happy, I wish I could do it... Ekhm, anyway- Its actually 5:47am, so Im going to sleep xD Good night <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Mon, 27/06/2016 23:49 (8 Years ago) |
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Haaai <3 Finally, summer x3 I know, Im not writing a lot here, and not writing a lot with some people. Im sorry. They might guess who they are tho xD If you know who you are, Im sorry. You can message me soon, I will happily answer and talk with you. If any of them wont read it, I will just message them xD And I ended this school. Finally. Gosh, this hell is over xD If I would have to be there one year more, Id kill them xD OH AND the results of exams <3 95% Easy english (38/40) 93% Hard english (37/40) 56% History (18/32) 59% Polish (19/32) 61% Math (17/28) 68% Nature things (19/28) (Nature things are Chemistry, Biology, Geography and Physics) Im so proud of myself <3 I might write my marks tomorrow maybe x3 and my drawing gets better finally ;w; Im trying to draw more and more, on bigger paper (just normal A4 instead of books xD) Annnnd... So far my life is still weird, but Im trying. Things are getting slowly, really slowly, better. Its a good thing x3 And... I think thats all for now Good night <3 ya, gonna sleep at 2am today and earlier tomorrow, trying to learn how to get up earlier so I can get up to work xD [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Mon, 23/05/2016 00:09 (8 Years ago) |
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Hai <3 So... stuff. Yesterday (Saturday) was funreal of my teacher's dad. He died on Thursday beacuse of lungs cancer. Today was communion of someone from my family. Man, I haven't seen them 10 years... I was so stressed and scared of them. And ya, I still fight with my dad... I really don't want to tho, but I don't know, we just do that... Eh. It's pretty obvious that I'm not the son my parents want. Now I'm feeling pretty bad, I wish I could talk with someone honestly... but I'm still too scared to tell anyone how I feel. I will be fine anyway, I guess I'm just over reacting. I got to sleep around 6 hours in Saturday, 5 hours in Sunday, and now I will sleep 5 hours again since it's 2am. Anyway, good night <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Mon, 16/05/2016 00:05 (8 Years ago) |
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Oms I'm writing it 2nd time beacuse I accidentally closed the page after writing everything fml But anyway Hai <3 I was in Germany today, with my dad \o/ I love traveling And we bought pizza, but it was so small xD but still yummy uwu ohsatan what did I write here before xD Oh, and I kind of want to learn that "vent art". it seems like it might help me when I'm sad... it's funny to cry and laugh in that same time tho xD Okay, now school My grades are fine, I'm making them good <3 I think (like, literally 69% sure) that I will have good grades at the end of school. I hope so xD After it... new school. New people, new places, new things to learn... I'm kinda scared tbh. I have no idea what I want to do in my life. Beacuse of depression I feel like I'm 14 years old, and it makes it kind of harder to think about future ehhh But I'm trying my best. And I have kind of plans for life. I want to end this school with good grades, next school with good grades, and go to studies. After studies I will find another work, so I can get a lot of money. I will give some money to parents (and brother if he will want or need it), and then I will fly by a plane to the person I love, stay a bit with her, and then maybe fly away to a small, friendly city, where we will live in happiness x///D Kinda stupid plans, but still something, isn't it? Not as much as earlier, but I still wrote a lot xD That's all for now Good night, have sweet dreams... tomorrow is another day <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Tue, 26/04/2016 21:51 (8 Years ago) |
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Yo Today was just another, kinda normal day, but I need to let my emotions go again. So, today on Sports that fat guy was yelling again, nothing new. But someone very awesome wrote to me o/ I missed that person af tbh. And on first lesson, that teacher said "You all probably can't lie yet, but you will learn" I felt weird. I lie all the time. It makes no sense. Anyway.. umm... I'm still kinda too lazy to draw those Jellysonas for few people, but it's mostly beacuse I get like 4~5 hours of sleep a day since some time. I hope they aren't mad. I'm too scared to message them xD Anything else... oh, right, my big friendo told me to do something important. I have to just sit, take a paper and pencil, and write down all the good and bad things about humans. It's weird that some people take my hate as a joke tho, I literally hate most of the humans, only some are fine, and I really mean it. But welp, time to go Nighty night~ <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sun, 24/04/2016 22:30 (8 Years ago) |
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Yo o/ Another boring Sunday xD I don't really remember when I fell asleep, but I woke up at 3pm xD Today was really weird day. But I drew some Jellysonas \o/ And jfc that person, who probably hated me and still hates, wrote to me ;x; I got so scared and stressed jfc I couldn't move xD but I actually missed her, it was very nice to talk with her again. And yesterday my friendo messaged me, with explaining why we aren't talking, and it was cute xD and we will talk again soon, she's just busy, but I can wait <3 I missed her too ;w; And Lupa, my best friendo, made that awesome drawing for me omg it's so adorable and sweet, I wanted to give her tons of kisses and smooches <3 (but she hates them so I had to stop myself xD). And my dad came back from Germany already! <3 And... eh. I feel just bad. I was kind of fighting with my mom again. And that stupid feeling... ehhh, I really hate being alive, but whatever. I must be fine, so I will uwu That's all for now, good night <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Thu, 14/04/2016 21:27 (8 Years ago) |
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Yo... So... well... School is fine, my exams are soon, and I feel like I will do them pretty well... I will study in Saturday a bit, to not study in Sunday, and it will be probably fine... I think I've made new friends.. I mean, I know they will leave soon, but still... And I feel... I feel just awful... I have enough... I want to just be alone, without any love... I want to have normal friends that will like me, that will stay a bit longer than month or two... I mean, I have few friends that are like that... but we don't even talk... Eh, I think not taking pills is harder now than earlier... but well... I feel a bit more free... But then again, I feel really awful... I keep lying to my friends... It's obviously my fault that they leave... And..... I miss Kye a bit... Anyway, I got a bit stronger... I don't cry anymore... I'm just stronger inside... a bit... This world sucks, in real life I have only my demon... But he's not here all the time... I just keep thinking every night about cutting, but I still haven't did that... But I'm just closer and closer to doing it... I just want to end everything... I won't have a future, I never had any... And well... I think making this diary was a bit good idea... I can take few things out of me here... Well, that's all for now, good night <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Wed, 30/03/2016 03:27 (8 Years ago) |
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Ugh, I write so rarely here, tho I think a lot about writing here. I'm probably just too scared to share my emotions xD Also, not much is happening. It's just after Easter (happy late Easter o/ ), and really not much is going on. As always, losing a friend, getting back another friend, depression. Eh, I started eating really not much, I barely can eat a bit of my breakfast. It's getting annoying, but what can I do. And depression thing, I just have bad mood like second or third week, and I just have enough of taking those pills, I'd happily throw them away, but mom will buy just more and try to control me even more. Annnd... dad is going away soon... again... for whole month, maybe longer... Anyway, I've got contact lens, and I can actually wear them \o/ And I made a DeviantArt account <3 But I'm really lazy to add something there. Okay, that's all for now, my school starts in less than two hours so Good nightttt [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sun, 13/03/2016 01:07 (8 Years ago) |
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Yo It's been... kinda long, wasn't it? So... I've lost few friends. I regret hurting them from my whole, stupid heart. Ya, I'm weak, I felt hurted too, but... I just don't know how to say sorry. So I will just shut up. I was sick last week, now I'm only coughing. Now I have to go to school again... to all those bad people... teachers... I must be smart. And... eh, I guess that's all... I don't want to stop writing, I really need someone right now, but whatever... Oh, also, I... I remember more things from my relations with Kye. She... wasn't bad. She was a nice girl. I want to apologize to her too. I'm the one who was being an (tho I noticed it earlier and I was apologizing but eh)... And she told me once that I've changed. Ya, that's actually truth... She doesn't liked it tho, but well, not everyone will like me. And she has changed too, but it's just my thing, sorry my diary. So, that's all. Good night [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Mon, 01/02/2016 02:03 (8 Years ago) |
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This day was... just bad xD I fell asleep after 6am, woke up after 3pm, and changed into normal clothes at 6pm xD And again, I ate almost nothing. Just some pizza. Now I want to vomit whenever I see food. It's been 3rd day without eating. And that question I saw today "If you could have one wish that would become true in a moment, what would your wish be?" I started thinking about it kinda serious. I guess I would want a one-use button, that would reset my whole life. Nobody would remember me, I wouldn't remember anyone. Sounds good. But I'm not sure... I don't want to lose these people I met... It's really hard decision. But, anyway, from today I must be empty inside, I must get stronger. Also I will start kind of working out, and try to stabilize my sleeping time. So... good night <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sun, 31/01/2016 05:35 (8 Years ago) |
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Today was weird day. I feel pretty much ignored, rejected and unwanted by literally everyone. Even my best friend was yelling at me. I wasn't eating again. And it's actually 6:32am of Sunday, but I can't fall asleep. I guess I'm too hungry. But... this day was kinda fun. I'm trying to draw something... other xD I will post pic of it here when I end uwu That's all <3 Good night, have sweet dreams <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sat, 30/01/2016 02:16 (8 Years ago) |
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Ahhh I was waiting whole week to post something here xD So, I almost died again few days ago. It's kind of weird feeling... I still wonder if I did good thing with staying alive, but eh. Oh, and on Ph... I think someone hates me now And I feel really unwanted by everyone. I don't know why, but... I just feel like I'm annoying everuone around me. And today I had kind of bad day. I woke up at 3pm, and I wasn't eating anything today, just some of breakfast. And... Sometimes I become randomly sad. It annoys me, but eh. But, if we won't talk about sad things, everything else is fine uwu So Good night <3 [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Wed, 06/01/2016 23:05 (8 Years ago) |
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Ew, school started xD I had free day today tho. I was sleeping to 3pm xD And, few days ago, my Fanbae started drawing my pokesona ;w; And... I want to apologize to him for being such an a**hole and stuff, he was really annoyed... ehhh And ~Infinity~ made like pixel version of it <3 I will show it at the end. And SweetMelody drew me a Fursona <3 I don't really remember anything else xD But these days were fine. So good night <3 Fursona by SweetMelody Pixel version of my pokesona by ~Infinity~ NOBODY is allowed to steal any art, even that I showed. If youlu will steal it, I will report you. Only Owners of that art are allowed to use it. [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sat, 02/01/2016 02:17 (8 Years ago) |
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Happy New Year <3 Yesterday was awesome, I hope this year will be good for everyone <3 And IT'S FINALLY SNOW HEREEEE <33333 Hm.. Also, something weird happened. I kind of "woke up" in real life... that's really weird, I don't even know how to explain it. Anyway, I fell asleep yesterday at 7am, and woke up 10 hours later xD and then I was sleeping two hours more xD it's 3am, and I'm still sleepy xD Um.. some friends kind of don't know who I really am... it makes me kinda sad, but well, at least they are trying, and it makes me happy <3 Ohhh, and my friend SweetMelody drew this for me <3 I really love it <3 it's my persona as a Fox, so it's my Fursona <3 And my Fanbae is drawing my pokesona for me <3 It's the best start of a year ever <3 So, I guess that's all. I also want to thank everyone who's here for me... it makes me less depressed, and it helps me a lot... Thanks to all of you, you are the best <3 They know who they are :v Good night o/ [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Sun, 20/12/2015 23:03 (8 Years ago) |
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Yo I'm.. I'm slowly becoming normal me <3 Depression is still coming back sometimes.. And every night.. but.. There are people who help me. And yesterday I watched my 30TH ANIME! <333 It was "Date a Live 2". It was awesome <3 I wish that you will remember me forever.. I was almost crying <3 And.. My owner. I'm still her dog, and I'm really happy. She helps me a lot. I need her a lot. I.. I know that she will leave soon.. but I'm happy at this moment. Also, my.. my sister Infinity.. She's the sweetest in whole universe :v And Fanbae left </3 I'm sad beacuse of it, but he will come back soon. Or if he won't, I will go to him >:c And it's almost Christmas.. I want to wish everyone happy Christmas, to find people that will care a lot about you, and I want to meet you all again after Christmas and New Year <3 I'm going to sleep soon. Also, I don't feel really good.. but.. Good night o/ [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Thu, 12/11/2015 22:11 (9 Years ago) |
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Ahhh whole month xD Not so many things happened.. I'm slowly feeling a little bit better. And school is boring af ;; I hate it, and everyone in it. Thing with Kye.. well, I don't really know what's happening, I just hope that she will be fine. I became someone's dog :'3 and she told me about that awesome game "HunniePop" <3 And.. no. If I die, it would matter. Maybe no for me, but for other people, for my best friends. I'm glad that I have them <3 Uh.. that's all I guess.. Good night <3 And.. I started wondering today.. why am I like that? Why am I this, who I am? [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Thu, 29/10/2015 00:50 (9 Years ago) |
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Soooo.. First Kye left. I'm kinda glad that I made her leave me, but in this, same time I'm sad beacuse I had to hurt her.. and, well, she was my sense of life, so yea xD Btw it's.. weird. Moment ago we were in love forever, but now I'm like dead for her. And.. yesterday I was in town and everything I remember is that I was in a car and my tummy was hurting, then I was standing next to that weird, tall, metal thing and there was food under me, and then I was in my car again and my tummy was hurting a lot more xD Hm.. also I'm trying to open myself to my best friends, and like.. get friends in real life xD It's not like these best friends here aren't enough, just.. everyone will leave me sooner or earlier, so xD And.. well that's all I guess.. I barely remember myself, and my best friends.. it got just worse.. So.. Good night o/ [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Thu, 15/10/2015 23:26 (9 Years ago) |
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In the morning I felt better, so I haven't go to doctor. School.. it was boring, like always. But that guy was fighting with that new girl .o. It was weird and kinda funny. And.. hm.. it's 1:23am, I just can't fall asleep xD Ish feel better than yesterday, but.. eh I still want to cut. I just don't like being like that, I want to be normal, but there are so many things happening.. I just can't concetrate. And I want to make like new pokemons xD but ony draw them. And I was thinking about drawing my own manga, but ehh :'D Ish suck at drawing, I need to be better xD But maybe one day.. :'3 I will keep laying here for a moment more, then just go to sleep. Tomorrow is friday <3 Um.. so good night~ [Read more] |
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Filip OFFLINE Forum Posts: 104 |
Posted: Wed, 14/10/2015 20:05 (9 Years ago) |
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Um.. so.. Kye is really sad.. her life should be better for her.. she is a good person, with beautiful heart and soul.. Um.. My dad comes back soon \o/ like.. in Sunday after this Sunday Nothing interesing is happening.. I'm still just trying to have some fun by talking with teachers and playing some games on pc, and by talking with my friends on PH.. I.. don't want to talk about this what happened.. only few people know.. maybe later.. Everything I can say Is.. that.. I feel really sad.. and lonely all the time.. life without sense is stupid.. I'm not showing it tho, I must act like I'm fine, but it's fine for me, I know that nobody worry about me beacuse of it And.. I feel bad today.. I must keep laying on my back or I will vomit.. eh.. tomorrow I'm going to doctor.. And.. that's all I guess.. I want to write more, but there is nothing left for me to say.. Good night, have sweet dreams [Read more] |