Googling the symptoms of Lucifer, and I'm concerned for Crowley and Azazel now.

Last year, our now rehomed She-ra gave birth to seven kittens. Creamer, also now rehomed, gave birth to four. The mothers shared nursing duties. All of them got sick. Four of She-Ra's and one of Creamer's didn't make it. Loki is the only one we kept of the survivors. She-Ra was the stray we'd taken in, and most likely, the carrier.

It seems like even if I had taken Lucifer to the vet, it wouldn't have helped. The feral's mother had coronavirus. Kittens become affected at 5-8 weeks old. Once it targets the immune system, it becomes known as Feline Infectious Peritonitis, and is typically too late to treat. FIP has a 95% fatality rate. And, I know based on Seoxys' experience last year, that the treatment is

-not guaranteed to work
-boosters and checkups over the course of 3-6 months
-I believe she paid 10kCAD, so extremely expensive treatment

For the last half hour, I fought by Lucifer's side, desperately pouring all my strength and love into it. Unfortunately, it wasn't enough. Anubis has taken it over the rainbow bridge, and I'm so totally broken right now. I don't understand how I got so attached after only two weeks. Why did this have to happen? You were just starting to trust and love us. Why?! *screams, punches wall and falls to floor, sobbing hysterically*

I'm sad crying now.

Lucifer just cried out. I don't think it's going to make it. Azazel is sick, too. It's really hard living with people who don't feel furbabies are worth putting any money into to take care of except for food. Honestly makes me wish I had a job so I could take care of my darlings when they needed me.

Happy Flightversary to me!

It's been SEVEN YEARS since I took my first plane flight and moved in with dad. What a glorious time that has been!

Thanks to you, I have gone from a self-absorbed, lazy, selfish, silent, arrogant, egotistical, vindictive, drama-starting, anxious/depressed mess to someone who

Thinks of others. Can speak my mind (albeit not very well yet). Is more tolerant of things. Grudgingly does chores. Looks forward to trips to town where there are lots of people. Can be exited without coming across as braggy. Not *as* vindictive. Accidentally, rather than purposely starts drama. Mostly. >.> Has chosen to accept the help of medicine and therapy. Finds myself worthier of existence, and therefore, takes care of myself better.

I'm sorry that I grow so slowly, but I'm grateful for the changes you have helped me make so far. I'm a much better person because of you! Even though you can be quite the jerk sometimes, I love you so much, and hope to have 50 more years with you!