I have not been able to stop shaking from the shock... It's been 3 days now. Im taking today and tomorrow off work to cope then on Wednesday I'll talk with my boss to see if I can get more time off for medical leave or cut my hours down for a bit until I can start functioning normally again... It was dangerous even trying to drive today I kept spacing out and was still shaking so bad. Maybe if I'm more okay to drive tomorrow I'll spend some time with my grandma just to get me out of the house and away from the scene of the event for a while.. My mom knows I'm not okay and how this all affected me and bringing up traumatic and dangerous memories.. But i dunno if I wanna go seek counceling as I have a hard time talking through this stuff..

Stay safe and stay home on April 24th.

I won't go into detail other than there's some sick peoole out there making a pact that day to do the most terrible things they can do to others. If you need to go out please be safe and either have a friend with you or a self defense item.

I hate this world a lot sometimes.

Oh yeah.. That event completely screwed up my mind... I'm not okay and I don't think I'll be okay for a while.. I've become terrified and now I always lock my room. I'm glad I wasnt there to see it happen because that would of made it worse... But knowing it happened im stuck in a frame of mind where I'm not sure if I'm awake and when I sleep I have horrible nightmares that feel real.. "That" option has a bad domino effect and it can really damage those around you.. He damaged me 12 years ago... I was never the same since and this recent event... I'm not in a good frame of mind at all. So please be cautious if you wanna talk to me.

I got Let's Go Eevee for my birthday

Roxas: once the initial shock subsides is when things are gonna get bad.. I'm just glad they didn't witness it first hand or I don't know where his mind would be mentally. It's gonna be hard and scary for a while.

This brought back a lot of fearful and traumatic memories... Fearing a total shut down ..

Today has been the scariest day of my life...

PSA:

Any Pokemon that is NOT in my Trade Box is NOT for sale/trade. DO NOT ask me if you can have so and so Pokemon. Especially Shiny Megas. That gets you Insta-blocked.