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Quinn Updates
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Posted: Fri, 21/04/2023 22:05 (1 Year ago)
Anyways since I should probably make a first entry, I'm excited for whenever the PH Oscars happen. Except for the fact I haven't gotten around to starting to write The Lonely Forest except for that one shitty attempt that went nowhere. Should I start? Yeah, probably. I'm gonna go either do that or procrastinate for the day. Bye.
Posted: Sun, 29/10/2023 04:18 (1 Year ago)
I wanted to update now but I promise it'll come... eventually... maybe...
Posted: Sun, 05/11/2023 04:20 (1 Year ago)
Talking about a specific event or something doesn't seem to be working for my brain so instead I guess I'll talk about a more constant thing, ✨dysphoria✨.
So, gender dysphoria. I'm realising I don't know what to say about it so I guess I'll define/describe it for those of you who haven't experienced it or haven't identified it. Gender dysphoria tends to vary between people, like with really the entire trans ✨experience✨, so I can really only describe my personal experience. That experience being that it is absolute hell. I'm having trouble even thinking of how to describe the feeling because it's so different from anything else.
Any time I'm reminded of my appearance or the fact that most people perceive me as a boy, it's like a deep pit forms in my gut knowing that I might never be seen as a girl or have the body I want. Oh fuck my emotional state is not so hot rn being reminded of this. I just wish I could be pretty and feminine and be seen as a girl but I know that if that ever even happens it'll be entire years until then and the time up to then I have to look and be seen as this. Fuck, I hate it. I'll probably continue this rant in another entry if some particularly dysphoric event happens and I have more to say but until then bye.