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Favorite Artists:
Backstreet Boys
Def Lepperd
Guns n Roses
Linkin Park
NSync
Nickleback
Poison
Skillet
Scorpions

Songs
Because You Live (Jesse McCartney)
Can't Fight the Moonlight (Leann Rimes)
Fly To Your Heart (Selena Gomez)
Gotta Go My Own Way (Vanessa Hudgens and Zac Efron)
How Far I'll Go (Auli'i Cravalho)
Leave Out All The Rest (Linkin Park)
Let It Go (Idina Menzel)
Me and You (Vanessa Anne Hudgens)
One Day Too Late (Skillet)
Really Don't Care (Demi Lovato)
Shake It Off (Taylor Swift)
Show Yourself (Idina Menzel)
The Climb (Miley Cyrus)
Things Left Unsaid (Disciple)
True Colors (Justin Timberlake & Anna Kendrick)
Try Everything (Shakira)

Favorites:
Animal: Wolf
Flower: Cherry Blossom
Anime: Yu Yu Hakusho
Anime Character: Shuichi Minamino/Yoko Kurama

Affiliations:
Black Ajah
House Stark
Team Jacob
Team Mystic
Team Rocket
House Slytherin
House Thunderbird

Want a Pen Pal? Write Me!
Samantha Bishop
PO Box 254
Royal City, Wa 99357

PFQ Mega: Arbok, Arcanine, Butterfree, Celebi, Espeon, Flareon, Floatzel, Flygon, Froslass, Furret, Glaceon, Jolteon, Jynx, Leafeon, Lugia, Luxray, Mawile, Milotic, Ninetales, Persian, Raichu, Rapidash, Seviper, Solynx, Sylveon, Umbreon, Vaporeon, Zangoose, Zoroark

Exclusive: Amorvoir, Koroku, Kyukori, Oricorio (Pointe), Purrloin [Hallowe'en Witch], Gragon, Vampigar, Kitsunari, Arasprit, Aytheraye, Valenoir, Skyrie

Canon: Sylveon, Leafeon, Lycanroc (Midday), Marshadow, Mimikyu, Ninetales, Ninetales (Alolan), Reshiram, Solgaleo, Vivillon (Fancy + Pokeball)
Scorbunny, Corviknight, Boltund, Hatterene, Toxtricity, Galarian Moltres, Galarian Ponyta, Galarian Rapidash, Galarian Zapdos, Crowned Zacian, Crowned Zamazento

"Sometimes you have to let go of what's killing you; even if it's killing you to let go."

"We have three kinds of family. Those we are born to, those who are born to us, and those we let into our hearts." -Simi to Acheron

"Us? Them? Look at them. They ARE us. What differences do you see?"-Kiara, The Lion King II: Simba's Pride

"The cruelest thing you can do to another person is to pretend to care about them more than you actually do."

"You made the choice, and it was uncoerced. For you to question such a choice is not simply useless, but harmful. Such doubts will chain the mind to an endless circle of pointless speculation and self-recrimination. You should prepare yourself to live with the consequences of your decisions, whatever they may be."-Vergere to Jacen Solo

I'm in the middle of cleaning dishes in prep for dinner, and dad yells out:
Cats are so stupid!

I pause, turn the water off, and walk into the living room to ask: Why? What did they do now? (I thought one or more of my five cats had decided to do something dumb)

He says: Cats insist upon playing with things much bigger than them. And their curiosity makes it to where they have no problem jumping into the water to see what this strange thing is.

I start looking around the immediate area, trying to see what the cats could have been playing with.

Dad changes Tabs to the Lab and gets my attention. It took me a few seconds to realize what brought on the random thoughts. In the Lab are a Skitty and three blue eggs. Since blue typically equals water, dad thought that Skitty was playing in the water and was gonna get eaten by the dragons.

Once I was able to evolve Kitwurm, I called dad in to show him the evolutions.
I evolved the unhappy Kitwurm, gave it a Shiny Stone, and started feeding it Sweethearts.

Dad: Wait. So first you have to make it unhappy, and then you have to make it happy? That's so rude. Just look at the Purrpa's face. He looks so sad.

*shows Moffkat*

Dad: Yes. Because cats weren't bad enough without the ability to fly. Whoever came up with that idea hasn't ever owned cats. Ours fly all over the place, and they do it without wings. Imagine all the trouble they could get into if they could really fly.

Just got off the phone with my dad, who's out of town with my brother while I'm at home helping mom getting everything set up after her move.

Dad: You're going to love this. We're on season three of the Seven Deadly Sins.
Me: Excuse me?!! What in the world made you think it was okay to watch that without me? (Dad and I only watched season one together)
Dad: You said I could watch whatever without you, and that you'd watch it later
Me: I meant the seasons of Monk, Unforgettable, Smallville and Defiance that I left there.
Dad: Ohhh! Now you tell me!

And I'm just a mix of upset and amused. I did say "whatever" but he knew exactly what I meant lol

OMG! We all just got done with a huge laughing fit.

Dad, mom, and I went to town. She was stopping by the DMV to get new tags, license, and a title for her car. We're about 15 minutes from home when I come up with the best idea ever.

I told mom to hide, and I called my brother in. Here's how things went.

Me: So...Funny story. We're waiting for mom to get the stuff done. After about 15 minutes, the cops showed up. Apparently the DMV called the cops on her because she didn't get everything transferred over in 14 days. Said that she was going to have to pay $10k in fines and spend two months in jail, but that she'd be confined to the house until the court date.

Joshua got upset, and started freaking out. We let this carry on for about another 5-10 minutes, and then I went to fetch mom.

Shes comes out of hiding, and Joshua starts yelling and swearing at all of us. His face was bright red, and he was a mix of angry and amused.

Dad gave me a kudos for managing to carry this on for so long without giving anything away.

Lol. Posted November 2015

Dad finally opens the Rubik cube I got him.

He shows me the box that it came in and that it had Chinese lettering on it, then says "You didn't tell me it came from China."

He then shows me the cube and tells me he can't solve it anymore because the colors are in Chinese as well.

As we finished eating lunch, dad asked me what I was making for dinner. I thought about it a bit before replying "Lasagna". He asked if he could put spices on it, and I was agreed cause even though it was premade lasagna, typically his seasonings/spices make everything better.

At some point during the next several hours, I saw him fold up his bag of Ghost Pepper Chex Mix and take it into the kitchen. I just assumed he was throwing it away cause neither one of us really liked how hot it was.

As I grab the lasagna to start cooking it, I asked him when he wanted to put the spices on, and he said during the last 15 minutes. My mind had completely forgotten about the bag he took to the kitchen.

Just now, dad's making a weird sound in the kitchen. I turned around to see him using a Meat Tenderizer on something in a bowl. He pauses like his hand has been caught in the cookie jar.

I asked him what he was doing. He replied in an "uh-oh. I've been caught" voice: I'm mixing spices.

Suddenly, everything became clear, and I'm like "Oh, no you didn't. No."

With a huge smile on his face, he says in a childish "neener-neener" tone: "Too late. You done said that I could do it, so I'm doing it."

That cool moment when the amount of Pokemon in your Fields is dad's birthday. XD

We're talking about the Haunted Hallows in Ultima Online Evolution, and I remind dad that even if I don't go there for the Stealables, that we need to go for the Pumpkins and the chests.

He said that he has his Lockpicks and Loot Macro ready. He goes even further, saying, "And my Loot Macro is better than yours."

So, I naturally respond with: "Anything you can do, I can do better!"

Dad: "I get to say that quite often."

Me: "That's being arrogant."

Dad: "It's not arrogance when you're as good as I am."

Me: "Arrogance at it's finest."

Dad: "See?! I'm the finest at that, too!"

Me: One thing I've never understood is how that Wailord keeps getting into the Bug Meadow.

Dad: Wailnado.

Me: :O How dare they make their own?!

Dad: I'm sure the Sharpedo will get over it.

Dad saw this on Facebook earlier, and got me with it. I then got mom with it. My brother, however, wasn't fooled.

Dad: I bet I can make you say "red"
Me: How?
Dad: What color is the sky?
Me: Blue.
Dad: Told you I could make you say "blue"
Me: ...
Me: ...
Me: ...
Me: But you said "red"
Dad: Booyah!

11.20.2017
I got out some coleslaw to eat with lunch.
Dad: That's going to be for dinner tonight, but I don't think you're going to like it.
Me: Why not?
Dad: Most people don't like it.
Me: Do you like it?
Dad: No. It's disgusting.
Me: Then why did you get it?
Dad: So you could enjoy something disgusting.
Me: 😑
Dad, as I'm reading this to him: Depending on how it's made, I do like coleslaw.

About thirty seconds into my PKRS, I came up with a funny.
Just had to wait for dad to notice that I had PKRS.
Finally, he looks over, and says: "Good Job!"
To which, I respond with: "NOBODY ASKED YOU JAMES!"
And he laughs. "How long have you been waiting to say that?"
I glanced at time. "9 1/2 minutes. Though, I couldn't decide between saying Patrice or your name. But it was funny either way."

*Not everyone will get the reference. But those who do will laugh with us XD

Dad's just started his chain for Shadow Dodrio, and says:
Is this a Mega? (He knows better; just trying to be funny)

Me: Yes, yes it is. That's why it's purple.

Dad: Well, it does have three heads!

Me: DoDRIO! It's name is Dodrio! It's previous evo is DoDUO! Do you understand?

Dad: Would that make the first evo D'oh! or Douno?

Me: There's not a baby.

Dad: There should be! And it should have a donut around its neck.

Me: -_-

Working on a project, and needed some clarification, so I said "So!" loudly. This was to let dad know I wanted his attention, cause sometimes he gets so caught up in things he doesn't hear me when I just start talking.

Read two paragraphs off to him, and turned to look at him. "So what should I do? Should I--?"

Dad met my eyes, a shameful look on his face. "Hold on. You're going to have to start over. I didn't realize you were talking."

"I said "So!" loud enough for you to hear it!"

*as he's laughing* "I can't help that. I was visualizing my next project in my mind."

So I sighed and read it off to him again. In which case, he interrupted me in the first few seconds because I said "rail in the shower", and he heard "whale", so was trying to figure out just how large this shower was and why there was a whale in the shower to begin with.

Over the last two years, I've occasionally stolen dad's socks when my feetsies were too cold. He recently started complaining about them all disappearing. So I went through my sock drawer. I came out and threw close to ten pairs on the couch beside dad.

Me: There's your socks. I had more than I thought. They're too long for my taste, which is why I gave them back.

Dad looked at me like I was crazy. When I asked what the problem was, he replied with: You're not supposed to taste them. You wear them on your feet.

And I'm just like *facedesk*

Dad: It's only 8:30. Do you want to watch two episodes of Smallville?
Me: No. I want to read.
Dad: Okay. I'll go to bed as soon as I'm done with some other stuff.
Me: Awww. I wanna read.
Dad: Do so then.
Me: Does that mean I can stay up if I'm going to read? You did say I could if I wanted to write.
Dad: No.
Me: Why? I promise I won't get involved in drama.
Dad: Right. You'll look. And if you can't find any, you'll make some.
Me: I can't cook. What makes you think I can whip up drama at a whim?
Dad: *gives me the look*
Me: *raises hands in innocent, angelic surrender*

Me: I want to create a Discord server to chat with all my PH and PFQ friends since most of them don't use Facebook, and I rarely use Twitter.
Dad: Will it be full of drama like all the others you've joined and created?
Me: *overly dramatic offended gasp* No. I was going to have it be random life stuffs, pet pictures, art, writing, etc. Nothing that could cause drama.
Dad: Then nobody's going to want to join it.
Me: *whiny "why?"*
Dad: If there's no drama, why bother joining?
Me: You're a jerk.
Dad: There's a much better song than that.
Me: *starts humming that song, mentally thanking yet again whoever sent that Secret Whisper*

About thirty seconds into my PKRS, I came up with a funny. Just had to wait for dad to notice that I had PKRS. Finally, he looks over, and says: "Good Job!" To which, I respond with: "NOBODY ASKED YOU JAMES!" And he laughs. "How long have you been waiting to say that?" I glanced at time. "9 1/2 minutes. Though, I couldn't decide between saying Patrice or your name. But it was funny either way."

*Not everyone will get the reference. But those who do will laugh with us XD

About three days ago, I complained that my brother didn't play "Elf on a Shelf" with the Furby as much as I expected him to in December. So, for each of the last two days, I've found the Furby in a different spot. This time, it was on the sugar container. Noticed it when I went to make tea.

Had my wolf plushie for two days now. She has conveniently found her way to the cats' food dish because "she was hungry", in my chair because "she wanted attention", beside my bed because "she wanted snuggles", facing away from me because "she was mad at you".

And I can't help but smile at dad's adorable weirdness.
*************************
I'm hysterical right now.

Dad yells out "No!" I turn to look to find one of my houseshoes somehow under my wolf plushies mouth. As I watch, dad takes the shoe, bops the plushie on the nose, and says: "No! Bad dog! Bad! You don't chew on shoes!"

I swear. He's really enjoying this. And is most likely going to do this for as long as I find it amusing.

Among the 13 species, there are 5 types: Air, Earth, Fire, Soul/Spirit, Water
Each Type will have several distinct markings, but will still be customizable

I'm trying to think of a name for their world and them as a whole. Leaning towards something magic/elemental related. Though Rhythmaria has a nice ring to it, especially if I can make all their names dance move related.

Species:
2. Canines (Wolves, Foxes)
4. Felines (Tigers, Lions)
6. Creepers (Scorpions and Tarantulas)
8. Winged (Ravens, Tailed Butterflies)
9. Elemental Droplets
10.
11.
12.
13. Hybrids

All Dual Type Eeveelutions
All Dual Type Eeveelution Megas
All Single Type Eeveelutions
All Single Type Eeveelution Megas
All Current as Sword/Shield
Alolan, Galarian, Hisuan Forms
Valentine's Day
Fourth of July
Halloween
Christmas
Seasonal
Sylveon Mismagius/Leafeon F Meowstic
Eeveelutions in Cat Costumes

One of these days, I'm going to draw or commission my fursona. Here's what I picture so far

-Name: Rhoslyn (means "Rose Valley")
-Female Wolf
-Glasses
-Wavy red waist-length hair
-Poinsettia in the hair above the right ear
-Golden brown fur with a red-tipped tail(s)
-Elegant and sophisticated appearance
-Shy, reticent, or determined pose
-Haunted, yet compassionate and knowledgable eyes
-Book in one arm, likely Wicca related
-Other hand prepared to launch purple flame
-Triquetra necklace
-Green blouse and leaflike skirt to slightly below the knees
-Barefoot
-In a forest, by a stream, or amidst cherry blossoms

I'm strongly considering commissioning it because I know that someone else could bring her to life in ways that I can't. But I'm going to attempt her first.

Multi Tailed Wolf Cat OC
Plushies of each Pokemon
Alice with Sword, Butterflies, Hourglass, Forest, 1001
Four Themed Bookmarks

Wolf Spiders
Fox, Marble Fox, Husky, Siamese, Savannah, German Shephard

OC for Naeriie
OC for Makabe
OC for Scorpyja

31 Spooktacular Stories
One chilling image representing each short story. I will list the list later.

Sinfully Sweet
Similar to 31 Spooktacular Stories, I'm going to create an image of each Sin for each book. And then, with all 26 books out, I'll release one of all 182 images. Maybe even including...hmmm...26 unique ones?
Seven Sins Cats

Angel of the Shadows
Giovanni and Persian on couch. Angel reaching for Dossier placed on table. Sylvie at top of stairs
Sad Jenny in background. Angel in foreground, walking away, crying
Makeup ruined from crying, Ally throws pokeball at Angel
Angel falls to her knees after Clefables screech. Pokeball seen bouncing off root.
Angel, lei upon her neck, shyly talks to Elsa and Eldegoss. Shadow Raichu barely visible in distance
Angel, on Shadow Rapidash, looking up at building to see Maya
Angel laying on the grass, resting after a long ride, satchel beside her
Angel looking out from tree hole. Jesse, James, and Meowth kneel on ground

I opened the freezer to pull out a hamburger for tomorrow night, and saw all the chimichanga bags. My eyes fell upon one that was black with flames.

Me: I see you got a really hot bag of burritos. I can tell by the flames on the bag.
Dad: Did you read the name? It's called "Not for Samantha"
Me: *pulls package out a bit*

Flavor: GHOST PEPPER

Me: Oh, heck no!
Dad, with a smile on his face: I told you it wasn't for you.
Me: I highly doubt you'll be able to eat it either.
Dad: Don't know. But for three bucks, I'll find out.

Just got off the phone with my dad, who's out of town with my brother while I'm at home helping mom getting everything set up after her move.

Dad: You're going to love this. We're on season three of the Seven Deadly Sins.
Me: Excuse me?!! What in the world made you think it was okay to watch that without me? (Dad and I only watched season one together)
Dad: You said I could watch whatever without you, and that you'd watch it later
Me: I meant the seasons of Monk, Unforgettable, Smallville and Defiance that I left there.
Dad: Ohhh! Now you tell me!

And I'm just a mix of upset and amused. I did say "whatever" but he knew exactly what I meant lol

OMG! We all just got done with a huge laughing fit.

Dad, mom, and I went to town. She was stopping by the DMV to get new tags, license, and a title for her car. We're about 15 minutes from home when I come up with the best idea ever.

I told mom to hide, and I called my brother in. Here's how things went.

Me: So...Funny story. We're waiting for mom to get the stuff done. After about 15 minutes, the cops showed up. Apparently the DMV called the cops on her because she didn't get everything transferred over in 14 days. Said that she was going to have to pay $10k in fines and spend two months in jail, but that she'd be confined to the house until the court date.

Joshua got upset, and started freaking out. We let this carry on for about another 5-10 minutes, and then I went to fetch mom.

Shes comes out of hiding, and Joshua starts yelling and swearing at all of us. His face was bright red, and he was a mix of angry and amused.

Dad gave me a kudos for managing to carry this on for so long without giving anything away.

Lol. From November 2015

Dad finally opens the Rubik cube I got him.

He shows me the box that it came in and that it had Chinese lettering on it, then says "You didn't tell me it came from China."

He then shows me the cube and tells me he can't solve it anymore because the colors are in Chinese as well.

As we finished eating lunch, dad asked me what I was making for dinner. I thought about it a bit before replying "Lasagna". He asked if he could put spices on it, and I was agreed cause even though it was premade lasagna, typically his seasonings/spices make everything better.

At some point during the next several hours, I saw him fold up his bag of Ghost Pepper Chex Mix and take it into the kitchen. I just assumed he was throwing it away cause neither one of us really liked how hot it was.

As I grab the lasagna to start cooking it, I asked him when he wanted to put the spices on, and he said during the last 15 minutes. My mind had completely forgotten about the bag he took to the kitchen.

Just now, dad's making a weird sound in the kitchen. I turned around to see him using a Meat Tenderizer on something in a bowl. He pauses like his hand has been caught in the cookie jar.

I asked him what he was doing. He replied in an "uh-oh. I've been caught" voice: I'm mixing spices.

Suddenly, everything became clear, and I'm like "Oh, no you didn't. No."

With a huge smile on his face, he says in a childish "neener-neener" tone: "Too late. You done said that I could do it, so I'm doing it."

My Brother: *using a Whisk Broom to "brush" my hair.
Me: You do realize that has a lot of drywall/sawdust particles and other dirt and grime in it.
Josh: Chefs always season their food. I'm like a hairdresser.
Me: How so?
Josh: I'm styling your hair with the dirt. You should take more care in your appearance.

I've done something horrible. Never reveal to your sibling leverage against their parent(s). Not sure if he forgot, or never had the chance to see it himself....But he now knows how badly cotton balls freak mom out. She's not too happy with me at the moment. My brother, on the other hand, is highly amused and plotting all sorts of mischief.

Grayskull's laying all cute on the floor, but the position he's in makes him look like Loki. Pretty sure it was Grayskull, though, so I called his name. He twitched his ear, turned to look at me, and returned to his nap.

And I'm just like: "Oh! So you DO know your name."

Dad: Don't remember the actual numbers, but cats understand a lot more words and phrases than dogs do. They just pretend they don't.

Me: So you're saying that cats really are plotting to take over the world, but they fake a lack of smarts to make us underestimate them?

Dad: Exactly!

I went into the fridge to find something for lunch, and stumbled across this, courtesy of my brother.

Interactions between Shaymin
1: 39.952
2: 26.146
3: 50,355
4: 1,867
5: 131,232
6: 60,611
7: 131,536
8: 111,257
#9: 110,150
#10: 141,163

Immortalizing this here:
I was #9 in the "Most Interactions in 30 Days" in 2019
on 9-11, 9-12, 9-13, 9-14

Oops! Forgot to check on the 15th, but was out on the 16th!

Oh, hey! Lol! I got back in at 9th place!
9-17

I was 8th place on 9-18!

And 10th place on 9-19, 9-20, 9-21, 9-22, 9-23, 9-24!

Out on 9-25!

*Also...I'm really sorry...I know it seems a bit pathetic that I listed off all the dates I was in, but I worked really hard to get in, and honestly didn't think I'd stay in for longer than a day.

Truth be told...I am honestly surprised that there are no Emveelutions (Emera Eeveelutions).

Course....It's probably hard to come up with a theme that fits all seven. Best I can think of would be seasonal fun.

Like...Each Eeveelution
Dressed up as a different flower to represent Spring
Or holding a unique ornament to represent Winter
Or with a different Beach toy to represent Summer
Or with a different leaf to represent Autumn

Hopefully Spriters could come up with much better ideas and such, and I wouldn't mind if they just came out with ones for different Holidays. Like Santa Glaceon, Spoopy Umbreon, Deep Sea Vaporeon, etc.

Well this has been a long time :D

OMG! Caught this Shadow Moltres at Chain 56! Took me 15 Ultra Balls to catch it! I was getting scared that it was going to flee. 25th on site!

By PokéRadar - 3 Minutes and 21 Seconds ago.
Congratulations! A shiny Ponyta hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #956)!
By PokéRadar - 3 Minutes and 21 Seconds ago.
Congratulations! A Mega Ponyta hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #957)!
By PokéRadar - 2 Minutes and 46 Seconds ago.
Congratulations! A shiny Ponyta hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #962)!
By PokéRadar - 2 Minutes and 46 Seconds ago.
Congratulations! A Mega Ponyta hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #963)!

My last 30 Eggs from my Shiny Mega Ponyta Hunt, lasting from December 1st, 2019 to January 4th, 2020

#1049 Shiny
#1050 Mega
#1055 Shiny Mega
#1067 Mega
#1071 Shiny

On February 9th, I got TWO Shadow Legendaries from the Radar.
7th On Site Shadow Entei
8th On Site Shadow Ho-oh

Entei is my favorite Johto Legendary, and my first Shadow Legendary of that Region. Ho-oh is my second Shadow Legendary from Johto.

02-24-20
Solgaleo took 7th place in the Beauty Contest. I'm beyond ecstatic at this. Never had a top 20 before. ^.^

Finally caught the annoying Shadow Raikou.
Also note that this is the FIRST time a Shadow has fled from me, and it chose to do it THREE TIMES!

The Shadow Raikou fled...
Continue hunt
You found 6 in a row so far!

The chain broke at 8 due to misjudging distance

The Shadow Raikou fled...
Continue hunt
You found 61 in a row so far!

The chain broke due to not remembering where I left off

The Shadow Raikou fled...
Continue hunt
You found 120 in a row so far!

The Shadow Raikou has been caught successfully!
Finish hunt
You found 130 in a row so far!

Two Mega Able Heracross from Bug Hatching Contest! 10-03-20
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Your Pokémon has been rated!

Rarity: +90
Talent: +88
Beauty: +79
Shiny Bonus: x1
Mega Bonus: x1.5
TOTAL: 385
You received 77 Festival Points! Good luck.
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Your Pokémon has been rated!

Rarity: +90
Talent: +87
Beauty: +94
Shiny Bonus: x1
Mega Bonus: x1.5
TOTAL: 406
You received 81 Festival Points! Good luck.

Normal:
x81 x10 x3 x4 x1 x1 x2 x56
Shiny:
x01 x01 x0 x0 x0 x0 x0 x01

Normal Retro:
x7 x10 x4
Shiny Retro:
x0 x00 x0

Earliest First Shiny: 36 Applin, 2 Kricketot
Latest First Shiny: 129 Komala
Longest Time Between Shinies: 173 Ponyta (Galarian)
Earliest Event Pass Shiny: 66 Scattercube
Latest Event Pass Shiny: 190 Chocoluv
Earliest Shiny Mega: 56 Magikarp
Latest Shiny Mega: 1453 Absol

Joined a game called Pokemon Eclipse. FireWolf1117 there. Still getting the hang of things, BUT

I did let a Shiny Breloom get away because I didn't know how to change to Pokeballs. I just attacked it, fainted it, and then assumed the option to throw a pokeball would be given. Didn't realize I'd have to select it.

Oh well. Got these two! The Miltank was a 1 in like 405 chance. And the Dunsparce was a 1 in 11000 chance.

[center]

My new number was 10 - so it was higher than 7! You made it to round 33. You won 344000 Game Chips - congratulations!

Oh, wow! So close to getting in Top 10! But at least I made everything back that I lost in the last half hour. That's all the H-o-L for now.

Beat my previous record by 10!
63. Wildfyre 33

I've been around mental and emotional abuse all my life. Mostly from family members who couldn't tolerate me, and occasionally from friends who became enemies. I KNOW my past experiences aren't excuses for my current behavior. I KNOW that my whining and sobbing is moot if I don't have the courage to do anything about it. But I've always found it sickening to not only kick someone when they're down but to do so when they're struggling to pick themselves back up.

No matter what site I'm on, whenever I get comfortable enough to speak up, I get reamed for something or other. Most of it seems to stem from my words being misinterpreted. Very rarely have I actually deserved it. Which is why I believe I do need to change. I've been doing great at knowing how, when, and where to speak. I just need to learn how to not allow what others say or do to affect me, especially when I know it wasn't intentional on my part. The most important thing I need to do is to stop the subtle throwouts designed just to be a jerk.

Just want to say that I can't believe I'm now 30. I honestly didn't think I'd make it this far. For years, (2008-2014), mom struggled to even pay rent of $400 a month. We lived with the constant fear of being kicked to the streets. We moved five times during those years. One time, we were just a day away from being homeless. And yet, I still don't believe in God or miracles.

At one point, my mom and brother were living with our cousins. I'd been kicked out due to my intolerance of the way the woman treated us and her kids. I didn't work, and though my mom tried to pay for a place that was a mile away, she also still had to pay for her own rent.

For an entire month, I ate nothing but peanut butter, raisins, and other such foods. My "place" was an RV that wasn't fully running. I had no water and no heat. Thankfully had electricity. Close to the end of that month, I almost gave up on life. I had a plan.

Knowing my late friend was watching me...Knowing that she wouldn't approve. Knowing that I still had a chance if I was brave enough. All of that gave me courage. And that's why every day, you should remind yourself of the people and things that matter most to you. Because, perhaps those memories will be able to pull you back if you find yourself all alone.

Finally, thanks to an excessive amount of begging from mom and resentful promises from me, I was allowed to come back. But things still weren't good. I still suffered emotionally and mentally at the hands of our cousin. A week later, an online roleplay friend who I'd come to love like a sister suddenly passed away. A week after that, mom said some things to me I will never forget.

It was then that I reached out to my dad, who I hadn't seen in 21 years. Who I'd heard so much hateful lies and rumors about. He was more than willing to take me in. A week after that, I had a plane ticket to Seattle. It was my first flight, and I was super scared. Everything I owned fit into TWO duffel bags and a carry-on. And I've come so far since that moment. I honestly don't know where I'd be right now if I hadn't taken that leap of faith. I'm also so very grateful that dad said yes to me coming up here. I know firsthand the darkness of hopelessness. I know how difficult it is to gain the energy to fight.

Saw someone's end of the year post, and just...It hit me hard.

I choose to hold onto the good in people, even when they don't deserve it. I consistently tried to go back to those failed, toxic "friendships". I did this for 21 years of my life. And it did indeed get harder and harder to say "no". I made up justifications and excuses for the other person. Found reasons to blame myself and say that I deserved it, even when I definitely did NOT.

I'm so very thankful that I finally learned the hard way this year from three ended friendships on Facebook, real life family drama, and several other instances that ME and MY mental health and wellbeing are the priority. Do NOT stay in situations and relationships that are harmful and toxic. Not even to wait for revenge. The only one you're harming is yourself. The best revenge is to smile, do nothing, and move on. It's hard, but YOU WIN!

I've been through so much this year. At first, I chose to let it make me bitter. But, as I sit back and reflect, SO MUCH good came from it. I learned a lot about myself. Saw the true colors in people I thought were my friends. Began to fight my Anxiety and Depression. Started writing more. And so many other positives.

Five years ago, I was a monster. And I saw myself becoming that person again. So I'm very thankful for the eye-openers I got this year. I'm also very glad that I chose not to hurt back. Especially one person recently. You never know what someone else is going through. You never know if your words or actions will be their final straw. NEVER let your pain and anger dictate your life. Don't become like me. Don't become a monster.

From now on, I'm surrounding myself with positive people and situations. I'll do my best to leave toxic friendships sooner rather than later. That will be more difficult than it sounds, because I also have a tendency to overreact. So I need to make sure that they gave me a strong, VALID reason to leave.

I'm moving on. Not only from this year, but from the desire to explain myself to people who don't understand me. To people who wouldn't believe me even if I went blue in the face. I'm letting go of my anger and hate. Not because I'm admitting defeat, but because it's simply not worth it. I'm done dwelling on what I *should have* said or done. I can't change the past or take things back. The only thing I can do is become better.

Here's to an amazing new year! ^.^
And if anyone would like to send me into the new year with positivity, feel free to drop an anon message on my Secret Whisper

Been thinking a lot lately, and I feel like I should set aside some time to meditate or find someone to speak to. I had this same problem four years ago when my first internet love tore my heart out and then denied our relationship. For two whole years, I was a mess. I didn't understand how I messed up. I felt like I was unworthy of love. People continuously told me that there was nothing wrong with me. He was a mental/emotional manipulator/abuser. To this day, I still don't quite understand the situation. I know it wasn't me, but it's so very hard to heal.

Why do I bring this up? Both then and now, I had nobody really to talk to about the situation. At least, nobody who could fully understand my mental, logic, and thought processes, and that could make valid arguments that I could comprehend. Everything since August, both in-game, and in real life haven't been properly processed yet. And I think that's why I keep stupidly bringing up stuff about it. I'm just super scared that the therapist (or whoever I speak to), will find and outright call my reactions childish. Like...I kind of know I'm building Mount Everest from an anthill, but...Everyone sets off and processes things in different ways.

I mean, yeah. I fully know and understand that people like that don't care what I say or do. That they're hurting and want others to hurt, too. I know all the lines about ignoring narcissists, bullies, and abusers. I just...Can't figure out why it's so difficult for me to come to terms with these things. It really hurts having to heal on my own. To feel so alone and misunderstood. Hopefully, one day soon, I can find the person(s) who speak the language of my soul. I don't hold out hope for it, though. So, I guess..

Here I go again on my own. Going down the only road I've ever known.

Next Day:
When I first came to live with dad, we would have nightly conversations before going to bed. No clue what happened, but after like four months, we kind of stopped. Well, last night, we wound up having a very therapeutic discussion that lasted an hour. I'd brought up wanting to go to therapy and/or finding someone to talk to. My reasoning was that, because I can't seem to move past things, that I needed to get to the root of WHY. Upon being told that real therapy could take years to have an impact on my mental state, I simply discussed it with him. We talked about my earlier years, and pretty much came to conclusions I already knew.

I spent 24 years of my life hearing from everyone how worthless I was. How I'd never amount to anything. That I was unworthy of love. That I was nothing but a problem. When you're repeatedly told something by a person/people, you start to believe it. Once you accept their words, it's tremendously difficult to even consider the possibility that they are wrong.

From this moment on, every time I begin to have dark, self-loathing, negative thoughts, I'm going to remind myself of the following. For the longest time, I've allowed every negative thing to happen to me to make me bitter. No more! I'm taking back my power! Step by step, day by day, I WILL become the person I was meant to be. This weak little pup has had enough! Time to become a full-fledged wolf!

Be my beautiful self!
My tribe will find me!
Bullies will be haters!
NEVER chase approval!
Only MY opinion matters!
Prove the naysayers wrong!

Came across this post: "If you grow and change and get better? Great! I dont care! I am not obligated to care! What you did hurt me and could even still be hurting me to this day! The memory of harm can still harm!"

If I feel you've changed, I'm more than willing to give another chance. But I no longer allow people to manipulate me. Which is probably why so many people support the one and done logic. Much easier to be hurt once, than to risk more pain. Heh. Perhaps I should follow that logic, too.

Four years back, I got involved with some drama between two groups of friends. Wound up saying and doing things that lost people on both sides. Only one of them is friends with me again, but he barely even speaks with me. The others still have me blocked.

For the longest time, I've wanted to show them how much I've grown and changed. I wanted them to look at me with pride. The more time that goes by, the more upset I get that they don't wish to speak with me. Sometimes, I feel like "Dude. It's been four years. You should be over it by now." But I also know that everyone heals at their own speed. And some of what was said and done is kind of unforgivable.

That post made me realize I've been trying so hard to make up for what I said and did. Dad and others have told me not to dwell on it. Even said that those people don't care and will never care. I've always been one to look for the good in people, so I kind of held out hope that there was a chance for forgiveness. But yeah. I guess the best thing for me to do--and one of the hardest for me to accept--is to allow people I've hurt to make the move. They may never be ready to. But at least I'm not hurting them by constantly reminding them of something they're trying to forget.

Sometimes I stumble across profiles, journals, posts, etc that I really like or can relate to. And despite the fact I still don't always have the courage to be the first to send a random message, I think it's immense progress that I send a friend request.

Because it shows that I'm no longer listening to that horrible internal voice that tells me not to bother. Who whispers in my ear that everyone is out to get me, and that, no matter what, everyone's end goal is to destroy me.

You can't live life in constant fear of the what-ifs. Especially ones based on past experiences. And you definitely can't keep judging all future friendships by what's happened to you in the past. You gotta take the plunge and experience things. You never know what your hesitation can cause you to miss out on. And I'd rather live life with as few regrets as possible. ^.^

When I turned 16, I made all sorts of excuses as to why I couldn't do this or that. They were all somewhat justified, but regardless. Through my own actions of inaction, I set myself back. Truthfully, I'm still preventing myself from being as successful as I could be. What's my point with all this? A few months back, I made a post that came across as stereotypical, cruel, and heartless. But what I meant was:

The only person truly stopping you from achieving your dreams is YOU. Yes. The environment you grow up in and the number of opportunities it provides do have a great impact on your ability to push yourself. But if you truly desire something, you'll overcome all obstacles that are thrown in your way. I mean, look at all the stories about people who came from opportunity-lacking backgrounds. The majority of people choose to settle for what they have because they don't have the time or desire to actually become better. But if you push, struggle, and fight your way through things, even the most stubborn of dreams can become accomplished.

You can't complain about your lot in life if you do little to nothing to change things. And you definitely shouldn't place blame on others for your own failings. Stop waiting for things to change. BE the change! It won't be long until you see your life begin to improve. In hindsight, I do see how that doesn't quite apply to the original post because it's not always just a simple case of "try harder". But that doesn't take away the fact that my intention behind the post was pure.

Cally.

I've made mention of how skittish and untrusting of us he is, even though it's been four months since we found him and his two siblings. Their mother was one of my cats, who, for some reason, thought it was safer to give birth outside, and we never found where she had the litter. They just randomly followed her here when they were about 7-9 weeks old. We actually had another female give birth around same time, so perhaps that was why?

Anyways...For the last three days now, he has stayed inside practically all day. He rarely runs from us. He willingly comes to us and demands attention for a few minutes. Sometimes even goes to sleep in our lap for half an hour.
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Porcupine.

He, like the other four kittens *knows* not to come into the dining room when we're eating. They all just plop down at the edge of the living room/dining room and watch us. Sometimes they still try to sneak on in, only to get squirted with our handy dandy spray bottle.

Recently, Porcupine has discovered that getting wet is worth it. If he sees a piece fall to the ground, he will run in, grab it, and run off, completely ignoring the 1-5 squirts we give him for disobeying.

OMG! Finally got a new laser light, and I am giggling and crying watching the different reactions.

Cally is just all "Whatever. I ain't chasing that."

Porcupine meows when it vanishes

Gray and Grayskull play with it like normal cats do

And Creamer!! Oh my gosh! Creamer is the most amusing, just going absolutely berserk trying to catch it. Even managed to make her run around in circles for thirty seconds.

I heard loud meowing that sounded like one of my cats was hurt. So I ran outside to check.

Nope. It's a gray or black baby kitten that looks like it's been lost and alone for a while. Tried to capture it. Even had it cornered, but it escaped into the orchard.

Went back outside with a bowl of food and meowed at it, but it had no interest. But it did only look like 5-10 weeks old. So I left a trail of food from the orchard to my doorstep.

It's not likely it will figure out its way through the cat door, but if I can let it know that my house is an available source of food, warmth, and safety, I might be able to lure it in in a couple of days.

Such a lovely moment to wake up to Loki beside my face, loudly purring at my ear, wanting me to rub my fingers against his nose. As usual, I couldn't hold back a chuckle at the act. Not sure if it's because I'm scratching an itch he can't reach, or if that's "the spot", but it's so adorable.

Brownie! I'm not going to let you in my lap anymore if you don't stop clawing at my hands and interfering with my typing for attention. *sighs* Still love the brat, though.

Ugh! Worst part about trying to read with cats? I've been on the couch for an hour. Three cats on me, and one snoring above my head. I need to get up to stretch and then get ready for bed. But anyone with cats knows that their comfort comes first. XD

Brrr. I'm freezing right now! Went outside--with no jacket or gloves on--to shovel snow from our walkways, and wound up standing under the tree for ten minutes coaxing one of my cats down from halfway up the second biggest tree in our yard. Silly kitty. Trees are for smart cats.

After some fighting, Angel has won possession of the box from the others, and is now taking a much-deserved nap.

About a month ago, I bought a 30-pack of wet cat food for $12. Every Saturday, I've given the cats two containers of it. I wait till at least six of the seven are inside, and then start opening the cans. And OMG. The cats come running and meow so desperately for a couple of spoonfuls each of the yummy treat. And it's so precious! *happy crying*

I do really wish that there was something more to these "Event Distribution" things that go on.

In my two and a half years of actively playing here, I cannot recall a single Event that was not "Click, Feed, Trade, Bid, Post, Collect Fish, Collect Safari", etc.

Truthfully, after the first three or so of these, I stopped looking forward to them. It's just the same thing over and over. People want new things.

Now...I'd love to go through a cute little storyline to get the Event. You'd still do all the same things as listed above, but you'd get ONE Event Mon after completing the entire storyline.
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I know many people, particularly those who only have half an hour a day to play, have complained about how they can't get these Event Pokemon. A two week Event with small, very doable tasks would be great for the majority of the player base. With various tasks, different things to do, unique storylines, and pretty artwork to look at each time, I feel like everyone would look forward to these things.

Randomness...

I've considered Therapy for my Anxiety and Depression many times. I even made an appointment once or twice. But then the thought of speaking to a stranger who might not really care about what's going on in my mind and who might laugh at or otherwise judge me terrifies me. And I back down. Though I keep fighting.

And I want you to know that if you're still here...If you're fighting in any way you can...Even if the coping mechanism isn't quite healthy...I'm proud of you! It takes a lot of strength and courage to keep battling! I also want you to know that if you ever need to talk or just need someone to yell at, I'm here for you!
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Me: I keep my Friend List small and remove people who get involved in drama
Also Me: I check the Drama Blog every day to see what juicy bits of drama I've missed so I can nom on popcorn while laughing at people.

I regularly question myself for this. It doesn't make sense to not want to be a part of drama while also wanting to get in on all the gossip. OMG. I would've been one of those people in High School if I hadn't been such a loner. Bleh. XD

Also...I'd like to end this with:

People can make horrible mistakes in times of stress. It doesn't make them a bad person. If you think it does, it makes YOU the jerk for judging them harshly ONLY by that action. Judge someone by everything they do. If they're always striving to be a compassionate, caring person, then that's all that matters. When they slip (and they will, everyone does), help bring them through it, not hurt them more!
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Sometimes after seeing other peoples' stories about being mistreated at work, I feel better about my decision to not get a job. I'd absolutely SUCK working in retail XD

Like...I was treated like garbage most of my life. There ain't no way I'd ever be able to take that from a Manager. Even though I KNOW part of adulting is dealing with things you don't necessarily like in order to survive.

But yeah...I got a tendency to respond to wrong or immoral behavior with anger. I can also be quite vindictive if pushed too far. Both are bad habits I've been working on for years, but it's really hard to change core aspects of your personality. I've gotten MUCH better at both. But I definitely would not trust myself in a work environment.

Secondary Semi-Related Personal Fact:
I'll be 30 in December. I never learned how to drive. Nor will I ever. Even as a passenger, I'm easily distracted, zone out, and fight sleep on 30 MINUTE drives. I'd be a danger to not only myself but every other vehicle.

To a person on my Friend List:

I admire your ability to post such personal statements about yourself or how you feel about certain people or actions. Because of you, I feel myself gaining the courage to start being honest with others without the fear that they will get upset or start an argument.

Oh, I know it's still going to happen. And I know I might lose friendships because of it. But truthfully, if my honesty offends someone that much, I'm better off without them. I deserve people who love and accept the real me without hesitation.

I'm glad I chose to become friends with you again. No matter what others say about you, you have a kind, compassionate, generous heart (though sometimes, I feel you can be a bit too blunt with your honesty). But I'd much rather have a friend who I know will always be real with me, than one who doesn't ever speak their mind. <3
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Honestly. Cramorant is probably the most disturbing Pokemon out of them all. Its Gulping and Gorging forms are basically eating another Pokemon.

Yes. I know Pokemon eat each other. I know they breed. I know Humans eat meals of Pokemon. But it's so alike to real life that you never actually think of it.

But Cramorant. It's just like "Look at me. Defying you all and making you acknowledge the darker aspects of Pokemon"

Your friends (47)

Well, that's grown considerably since January. Though, I don't know if that's good or bad. XD

On the one hand, I'm coming out of my shell and trying to connect to others even though I know most won't like me for my ideals.

On the other hand, that's a lot of potential heartaches when the other person realizes that I might not be their cup of tea.

But oh, well. I'll never know how meaningful a friendship could be if I never give it a try. Even if it ends badly, the silver lining is in the lesson I learn from it.

Which is also why I've made a decision. In spite of what happened yesterday, I'm still going to make the effort to tell people how I feel about their words/actions. I'm tired of letting how others treat me dictate my life.

I know the pain I'm bringing upon myself because of this. But if I can't learn to be happy with and love myself for who I am, how can I ever expect others to do the same?
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I have this friend. Third time I've spoken with him this year. Each time, I've been slightly uncomfortable because he cusses a lot. And so, this time, I did one of the scariest things I've done.

I took a deep breath, told him I had something to say, and then asked him if he could try not to cuss so much because it really bothered me.

He apologized, said he couldn't promise it wouldn't happen as often, but he would try.

But I did it! And over the phone, not through a text. I'm not sure if it counts cause I knew him well enough to expect a decent response, but still... I had the courage to tell someone an action of theirs upset me! I'm so happy!

6 Days ago

I was helping dad take apart the porch swing, which is made of metal bars. I was on my knees finishing undoing one of the "screws", on one side. He's on the other side beginning to undo those "screws". Next thing I know, I've been kerplunked on the head by the metal bar that stretched the entire length of the swing.

Worked through the pain and helped finish dismantling the porch swing. Head still hurts like heck even though that happened like fifteen minutes ago. And yes. I will be monitoring myself closely for the next day or so to make sure I didn't get a concussion.
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6 Days ago

Mom and I went to a Crafting Night.
Here's our Fake Succulent Pots

Whose do you like better?
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3 Days ago

Sharing an excerpt from my Sinfully Sweet Rough Draft. Ignore issues with Grammar and Punctuation. Those will be addressed in the final revision.

I just wish to know if I have done a decent job of invoking sympathy and understanding for the child, who feels like a freak.

Why she is a "freak" is explained earlier. Her name is Nicole. Cherise calling her Avery at the very end will be explained in the paragraph after.

Also, note that this project began last year. I'd gotten 10k words written before deciding to take a different route. I am in the process of revision before continuing. So any similarities to other things is purely coincidental.

Excerpt
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2 Days ago

Got nothing written today again, but not through procrastination or distractions. No. After a suggestion from a friend, I chose to spend time with family.

Mom, Dad, and I watched two episodes of Bones, and then she took off. Afterwards, Dad and I watched four episodes of Psych.

Honestly...It was great to focus on something else and let myself forget about my problems, however temporary the relief may have been.

No nausea or pain as I head to bed tonight. Here's hoping things are finally looking up for me. ^.^ Good night, everyone!

I mentioned to dad how glad I was that I started being picky about who I add to my Friend List here, cause months go by without me seeing any drama now.

Dad: I can fix that. There's a lot of new stuff that I can play around with and make spreadsheets for. I know quite a few people loved my helpful and informative posts.

Me: You should really consider it. It's really boring and not very competitive for me without you playing.

Dad: Not to mention the Father-Daughter Duo would be reunited

Me: No. You'll behave.

Dad: *sniffles* That's no fun.
18 Days ago
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Wow. I had all three parts wrong.

First
Spider, Lollipop, Web, Candy, Fountain
*takes several steps back from monitor*
Poison, Broom, Ghost, Blood, Boy
Zombie, Witch, Ghost, Vampire, Children
Scare/Scary or Trick

Second
Actually did not get at all

Third
RODney
GrandFATHER
napTIME
Ding
Rodney Grandfather Clock
Father or Time

"Knowing" first clue was Scare/Scary
"Knowing" third clue was Father/Time
I came up with Scary Costume Time!

Dad's very good with riddles, logic puzzles, etc. He says that he could have figured this out. IF he had not assumed that, due to this being a kids game, that they were not going to be so advanced.

Congrats to the person who solved it! Enjoy those three months of Premium! ^.^
7 Days ago

Does anyone ever heart posts because you understand how the person feels, but then minutes to hours later, want to unheart it because you're worried that the person thinks you like the fact that they're hurting?
2 Months ago
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I'm dying with laughter right now.

Just saw a picture on Facebook. It was a comic strip of Jesse and James with their infant. Jesse calls James over cause their son was getting ready to say his first word. They're both encouraging "Mama" But James winds up in hysterical laughter because the baby's first word was "Wobuffet"
1 Month ago
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I swear! I'm not obsessed with all things wolf!
Okay...Maybe I am... >.>
Part of Collection
1 Month ago
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I went into the fridge to find something for lunch, and stumbled across this, courtesy of my brother.
22 Days ago
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*dad sees me release a party*
Dad: I wonder how long before the data for that system corrupts.
Me: What are you talking about?
Dad: The Pokemon retrieval thing.
Me: Can it?
Dad: Anything is possible. Just imagine, though. You release a Party, and then later on in the day notice that Snowfyre is missing. But when you go to retrieve her, the system has malfunctioned and she's permanently lost.
Me: :O That's...Why would you mention that?!
Dad: *smiles*
20 Days ago
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So just came across someone who I'd blocked on accident. And it got me racking my mind. Wasn't there a Forum Suggestion for adding a Block List similar to a Friend List? Where we could see everyone we have blocked?
Cause, between blocking a few on accident, or for stupid reasons years ago, I have a lot of people that shouldn't be blocked. XD
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Ahhh. The Dog of Wisdom never ceases to make me burst out in laughter. Reminder:
If the ball is too big for your mouth, it's not yours.
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You currently have 303,374 Golden Game Chips.
Azelf x2
Mesprit x4
Uxie x0
Nuggets 30,005
Gold Mystery Boxes 150
Game Chips 738,619

You currently have 25,395 Golden Game Chips.
Azelf x14
Mesprit x7
Uxie x8
Nuggets 30,299
Gold Mystery Boxes 308
Game Chips 1,703,717

You have spent 400,000 GGC so far.
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Gah! Every time I start a question with "Have you", my mind automatically finishes it with "met Ted?"
Curse you dad for introducing me to How I Met Your Mother.
If you haven't seen it, you should watch it. It's going to be Legend...wait for it...Dary! Legendary!
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Honestly? The best thing about the last few months of 2020 is that I stumbled across a user's account. I noticed their name as belonging to a character from one of my favorite artists and started up a convo. After a little bit, I sent a friend request. I was quite happy to find that we were very similar in our beliefs and personality.

It's because of your presence in my life that I was finally able to understand that just because people intensely hate my guts, doesn't mean it's ME who has the problem. That, no matter what I say or do, some people will do everything in their power to break me.

You've quickly and easily become one of the most important people in my life. Here's to many years of friendship. <3 Oshakiel

Mom: Josh. Take your dog out.
Josh: I can't.
Mom: Why?
Josh: Four reasons. First. She's blue. Second. The sky is blue. Well. Not right now, but it is. Third. James' car is blue. Fourth. That thing is blue. So. Mathematically speaking, you have to be the one to do it.

Me: WHAT?!
Dad: *laughter*
Mom: *yells out brother's full name*
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After many years, and with the discovery of my Pokesona, I felt it time to begin anew. May the future be glorious and full of triumph! <3
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Reading things on a blog, and I just want to throw this out:

I've been a victim of a Witch Hunt before.
First for apparently coming across as arrogant and elitist when trying to help people.
Second simply for leaving a group of friends without warning because I felt uncomfortable around many of them.
Third for making several posts about a topic that weren't well thought out or expressed properly, forever receiving a label that I'm NOT.

Each time, I was nearly destroyed by the slander and unfounded accusations that followed. In hindsight, I see the problems in my actions, and I accept that I did deserve some form of punishment.

What I will NEVER tolerate or accept is an all-out attack on someone simply because they did or said something wrong. There is NOTHING you can do that will make me gather up all my friends and go on a spree to bash, harass, and otherwise tear you apart. If you wish people to understand, hatred is NOT the answer. Responding in such a way makes YOU the monster.
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"It's hard to face a harsh truth about yourself. I guess the only thing you can do is try to take positive steps. Unfortunately, it's hard to take positive steps when you've burned the bridge you need to walk across." -JD, Scrubs
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Note to Self:

You will never achieve your goal if you continue to act thusly. It's going to be difficult, but the right path isn't always the easiest one.

Regularly look at the Trusted Members of your Fiery Wolf Pack. Remember that, at one point, you didn't believe one of them deserved their role because of the type of person they were. The type of person you are now. But they moved beyond such childish pettiness. You can, too!

No more bops on the head with a rolled-up newspaper. I be good girl, now! Believe it! I can haz head pats?
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What is your favorite Berry Preference or Type?

Mine is Spicy Preference. I feel it's the perfect representation of who I am.

Adamant: Don't know when to give up
Brave: Mostly foolish brave, but brave nonetheless
Lonely: Prefer to be alone, but also wants people around
Naughty: Extremely mischievous; likes to cause problems; Warped

Now I'm trying to decide if I want to go back on past hunts and get Spicy Shinies and Megas. But if I do that, I'm gonna want Spicy Shiny Megas, and just...That's a whooooole lotta NOPE.
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This is so going to sound egotistical, but coming from someone of almost 200 pounds, it can't really be :P I LOVE how beautiful I look in my profile pic. And honestly, I want all of me to look that 10/10.

But the longest I've been able to stick to an exercise program is three months. Hopefully, COVID restrictions end soon, so I can start doing those daily walks to the park to read, write, or draw that I've wanted to do for a year now.

Also hopefully, the amount of stress and anxiety I face is minimal. That really seems to do a number on my desire and spoons to be able to even attempt improvement.
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Hmmm. Of the 56 users I have on my friend list, I don't really think I have one that stands out.

Some of them, I looked at their profile and determined them to be a cool cat. And some were added to my friend list simply because they regularly hearted/commented on my feeds.

Then there are a few who I stalked for a bit due to all the hatred towards them. People can be cruel and jelly for the pettiest of reasons. Tis why I believe in seeing for myself how someone is. Most of the time, the person is not, in fact, what others have made them out to be.

Many people get dizzy or nauseous when looking at the ground from a height. I actually get dizzy looking UP at a blue sky. I feel like I'm falling. Yet, I have no problem looking at the night sky.

My dad is a Property Manager/Handyman, which makes him on-call 24-7. My job is learning to take over the business from him, so we usually have a lot of free time. The last two years, however, we've been putting a lot of energy into fixing up our house, a rented house, and our Apartment Complex. Dad's not able to work very long in the heat, but he tries to manage two hours a day, except on days that are over 90. It's slow going, but we're getting things done.

From ages 3 to 24, my mom and I lived in really poor and dangerous towns. My brother was born when I was 14, so he only experienced it for 10 years. These towns (New London, Delft, Sultana, Pixley, and Seville) were full of gangs, grafitti, regular gunshots, cop sirens every day, etc. Because of where we lived, my brother and I were immediately labelled as problematic troublemakers who wouldn't amount to anything, and, for the most part, we were treated with contempt by others. My brother got along much better than I did, due to him not having my ADHD. To add to the fire, my mom, though working full time, could barely provide for us. Our clothing came from Good Will, and pretty much everything we owned was as cheap as possible while still being functional. So we were looked down upon for being poor riffraff.

My mom's choice of friends has always been...questionable. Based on where we lived, never a day went by where I didn't fear her choices would cause problems for us. One day, due to my psychotic aunt spreading lies about us, we were given the ultimatum to leave. We didn't really think anything of it, cause the people who said it were all bark and no bite. So, imagine our surprise when, a week later, while we were standing outside, we were shot at in a driveby. Thankfully, nobody was hurt, but we were gone within two days.

Unfortunately, I despise this day with all my heart. Cause this is the day where, during the rush to leave, I left behind my stuffed animal that I'd owned for 12 years, and my backpack full of notebooks and graphbooks from the previous five years of writing. Still, as painful as that was, I'm very glad that part of my life is behind me. It's a wonderful feeling to know you're safe from harm. It's a feeling everyone should know.

From the moment I turned 16, I looked forward to getting my Driver's License like every other teen. It didn't take me long to realize that I could never do so.

First. The motions of a car are so soothing to me, I tend to fall asleep on half hour trips.

Second. I daydream or otherwise daze out for minutes at a time, not hearing or seeing anything going on around me.

Third. I lack Distance Perception.

Fourth. Both parents have Night Blindness, so it's a high chance I do as well. And I lack the mentality and perception to properly compensate for it.

I really feel like I should get tested, as I know I have some form of Social Disorder.

Was diagnosed with ADHD when 3, but had a few doctors tell me that it was not possible to diagnose a child with ANY Disorder. Something along the lines of "Most children are naturally hyper and inattentive, so it's impossible to properly come up with a diagnosis". Which is a major reason I'm considering getting a series of tests to get on the proper Medications.

I can only make eye contact for extended periods of time with people I trust. Otherwise, I feel like they're staring into my soul and silently judging me. This may have something to do with a family member telling me when I was really young that they could read my thoughts and see how I felt by looking into my eyes. HOWEVER, I've noticed that this has changed, and I can now meet people's eyes for long periods of time.

I don't like to speak to people. CAN have conversations with strangers if they put me at ease. HATE speaking on the phone cause my voice makes me sound like a 7 year old who hasn't learned to properly speak. My fault for that for refusing to go to Speech Therapy when younger.

People with Happy-Go-Lucky Attitudes/Random Mood Swings make me uncomfortable. Knowing the person well just allows me to tolerate it for a bit longer before I'm so anxious I want to leave.

I'm uncomfortable around people I can tell have a Disorder because I don't know their triggers. And I hate not having to walk on eggshells because I don't want to unintentionally offend someone. I've actually never had the opportunity to get to know anyone like that well enough to feel comfortable.

The "What Would You Do?" tests for Walmart Applications are a clear example of why Jobs are limited for me. Apparently I handle situations differently than most people would. My own Mood Swings and Temper would get me into so much trouble.

Despite the fact I am vocal sometimes, I actually HATE confrontation. It really sets off my Anxiety. Comes from mental and physical abuse from family and friends-of-the-family in my younger years when I lived down in California. My mom and brother were never physical, but boy, could they make me feel worthless.

Loud or random noises easily startle me. I HATE July 4th and New Years because of that. Even though I expect the noises, I still spend the night wrapped in a blanket, shivering and jumping at each noise. Sometimes, dad randomly beginning to speak makes me jump. When he first discovered this, he had fun for at least a week scaring me.

When people compliment or are otherwise nice to me, it puts me on edge. I've been hurt and betrayed so much in my life that it's much more easier to deal with being hurt and feeling that I'm worthless than it is to accept genuine love and support. Tis why I find it so difficult to call someone my friend.

I've always been a loner. Though, I don't know if that's because I don't like being around people, or the fact that nobody ever wanted to be around me. Regardless, one of my worst fears is that the people I love the most will turn their backs on me for the smallest of reasons.

If there was a contest for best Procrastinator or Easiest Distracted Person, I'm sure I would get first place in those. I've always had a horrible habit of putting things off until the last moment. I got one sentence written in Angel of the Shadows today before I got distracted doing other, lesser important things. Prioritizing is also not a strong point. Neither is Memory. I can forget what I'm doing AS I get up to do it. And it doesn't matter if it was something I was doing for me, or someone else.

There are a few other things off about me, but it's 10:30, and this is all I can think of offhand. If you've had one of these issues, and managed to overcome it...I'd love to hear your advice! Good night, everyone! ^.^

I live with my biological dad, Bishop. Yeah. I know what you're thinking. 30 years old and still living with "daddy". Well. I lived with my mother in California from ages 3-23. I saw him once when I was 6, but that was it. I flew to Washington to live with him on 10-03-14, and have enjoyed catching up on missed time.

At least, that's what I think goes on. See...I've always had problems sleeping, ever since I was a little child. I'd wake up 5+ times during the night, quite often in a panic. I remember a few occasions where I actually screamed upon awakening.

Most of the time, I don't remember the nightmare. Rarely, I do remember the nightmare. And sometimes, it's so bad that I have to sit and cry for a while because every time I close my eyes, I see the part of the nightmare that scared me. The rest of the night is horrible for me then. During these times, I'm not likely to get back to sleep for a while.

There's a weird thing I first noticed about myself around the age of 13 or so.

Background:
Most of my living situations throughout my life were poor and horrible. Mom struggled to pay the bills and support me and my brother. Gifts we got for Christmas/Birthdays, we usually had to sell within a year. We usually lived with someone because we couldn't afford to live on our own. This consisted of family members and twice, strangers. Needless to say, I didn't get along well with anyone. Even mom and my brother. Mostly over behavior, because I wouldn't tolerate people being rude/lying to us or taking advantage of us. Even if they were family.

Point:
I began to have nightmares on occasion. These were so overwhelming realistic and fear-instilling. Content? Me getting into a really bad argument wtih someone. One coming close to blows. Within three days, it happened in real life. Usually with the person from my dream. This has continued throughout my life.

Now, I don't know if it's because I have an ability to sense tension and feel when things are close to boiling over between me and others. Or, if each time I have a nightmare, it creates a psychosomatic effect that makes me expect and believe something will happen, so, like Anakin, my preventative actions only ensure the act happening. Either way, the entire situation is uncanny.

I've always had an illogical and irrational fear of sleeping alone. Which is why I've always slept in the same room as my mom or dad.

I think it was because every house we lived in had mice, and so I wound up terrified of being eaten by them or having one crawl into my mouth and start chewing on my tongue or throat.

I also believed in Ghosts and Demons back then, and a lot of the places we lived were in bad areas of town because it was the cheapest rent Mom could afford. So I also got scared of Demonic Possessions or Poltergeists.

As I got older, I was able to watch things like Monsters Inside Me, Taken, and I Spit on Your Grave, and it only further increased my paranoia.

On 15/Sept/2020, I decided I was too old for these foolish beliefs anymore, and so I took one of the scariest steps in my life and began sleeping in my own room. Even so, there are still several times a month, when either depression is too overwhelming or my paranoia won't leave me alone, that I'll bring out the cot and sleep in dad's room.

It doesn't happen often, but there are times when I can't think of a way to respond to someone, so I do something like *huggles* or *waves shyly*. Another example would be like "*cannot find the words to say in response, so stares at you for a while before holding out her hand* and then saying something".

Sometimes, you'll see me posting or replying as a wolf or cat. Things like *wags tail*, *flicks ears*, or pretending the human part of me bopped the wolf/cat part of me on the head. I believe in the existence of Otherkin, even though I don't believe I myself am one. For the most part, I do this because I find it cute. Though, between you and me, I do desperately wish I was a human/wolf/cat hybrid.

When I was really young, about ten or so, I was playing hide-and-seek. I chose to hide under my grandpa's car. Huge mistake. I was underneath for about fifteen seconds before I felt hundreds of ants crawling on me. Within two seconds, I was out, screaming and crying. My mom grabbed the hose and squirted me down. It took five minutes to get all the ants off me. I'm 30 now, and have been terrified of them ever since that day.

I have never been:
On a roller coaster, a water ride, or on a ride called--I think, the Hammer?--Where you get spun in a 360 circle that hovers you upside down in midair for a few seconds. I have also never been camping, to a Comic-Con, rafting, or on a zip line. All are things I REALLY want to do, too.

I can't:
blow bubbles with gum, swim, ride a bike, or drive

My strange fears are:
Complete darkness mixed with absolute silence, spiders (except tarantulas), looking up at the sky (makes me dizzy, except at night), and being left alone in the house for any period of time (even worse is when I wake up to an empty house)

My loves are:
Reading, writing, drawing, wolves, images of outer space, fire, and furry art.

Today's Results:

Total Eggs Hatched: 800 (Below Sessions + In Between)
Mega Able: Dunsparce, Ponyta
Other: Moltres

Eggs Hatched during Speed Click Sessions (except 6-12 Server Time)
93, 97, 109, 122, 105, 84, 49, 66

And wow! I wound up in Medal Rally for Most Eggs Hatched, and I wasn't even trying. Guess I've been quite active these last two weeks. ^.^

00:00-00:10
Type: Lab
Eggs Hatched: 86
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

02:00-02:10
Type: Event Chocoluv
Eggs Hatched: 72
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

04:00-04:10
Type: Event Chocoluv
Eggs Hatched: 10
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

06:00-06:10
Type: Event Chocoluv/Lab
Eggs Hatched: 82
Shiny: Chocoluv
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

16:00-16:10
Type: Lab
Eggs Hatched: 112
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

18:00-18:10
Type: Lab
Eggs Hatched: 73
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

Mega Able Shinx between SCE

20:00-20:10
Type: Lab
Eggs Hatched: 125
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None

22:00-22:10
Type: Lab
Eggs Hatched: 97
Shiny: None
Mega-Able: None
Special: None