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*•~Nothing Really Matters... To Me...~•* (UC)
Forum-Index → Diaries → *•~Nothing Really Matters... To Me...~•* (UC)ʜᴇʟʟᴏ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ! ᴡᴇʟᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴅɪᴀʀʏ! ɪ ᴘᴏsᴛ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ sᴛᴜғғ ʜᴇʀᴇ, sᴏ ɪ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴀ ᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴏғ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛs ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ ᴏғ ɪᴛ. ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ!
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You know when I said that I was
going to try and be better about my mental health or whatever? When
I said that I’m going to try and not get mad at myself for doing
something stupid?
It’s just too hard... I don’t know if I can actually do it... Whenever I post something, anything, I always feel dumb for doing so. I always think “oh no, I’m posting too much today” or “I just posted something that some people might be annoyed with or mad about.” And no matter what I do, I keep thinking that. I know I’m someone that some of you don’t want to be around, and I understand.
I really wish I could go on an actual break, but I’m too addicted to this site. I can’t leave it for long... I honestly don’t know what to do.
Go ahead and say what you want about me, I won’t retaliate or hold anything against you.
It’s easier to tangle a rope up than to unravel it. It’s quicker to tangle a rope up than to unravel it. When you try to unravel a rope, you either quit out of frustration or impatience, or you stay determined and endure the pain. It’s easier to help yourself instead of helping others. It’s quicker to help yourself instead of helping others. When you try to help others, you either quit out of frustration or impatience, or you stay determined and endure it.
Well that was a disaster... I tried to change and it backfired
on me. I went back to the way I was and I didn’t even know it. I
can’t ever be happy with what I do, I can never be satisfied. Every
single action I make I feel like I am just doing something wrong...
I’ve always tried to fit in, even when I was younger. I’ve always
tried to improve myself so I could at least be accepted. No matter
how hard I tried, no matter how bad I wanted it, I was never able
to fit in. When I finally managed to make some friends, I changed.
I wasn’t the same person anymore. I was rude, stubborn, arrogant,
obnoxious, and just plain idiotic. I guess I was just so alone for
so long that when I wasn’t, it all went to my head... Now I realize
that I was probably better off being alone... Sorry, I kinda went
off topic a bit... Anyways, I don’t even blame others for not
accepting me because I know that it’s my fault. I know I’m the
failure that no one wants to be around. Of course I am, that’s the
way it always has been. I don’t want any pity or anything from
anyone, I just need to vent I think...Goodbye to the community I
guess, I don’t really have any intention on saying anything to
anyone much longer... Not even Roleplays interest me anymore, I’m
just so done with myself...
Wow... when I look back at this stupid vent I see how frickin selfish I was... See what I mean? I get mad at myself for a stupid vent. I actually can’t do anything right...
You know what? Scratch that, I guess I can just post in the forums a bit. Feeds have way too much drama...
Update I guess if you’re still reading this - So ummm
depression time is over and I guess I’m better now. I’m gonna try
and change for good this time. Hopefully I won’t be a huge jerk to
anyone anymore.
it all just came back again... didn’t it... I changed but I think I’m just a worse person now... I don’t share any of my thoughts anymore and I’m not even a good friend... Why can’t I just be happy with myself for one minute...
I’m sorry that I changed, I’m sorry that I hurt you, I’m sorry
that I offended you, I’m sorry that I made you hate me, I’m sorry
that I’m insecure, I’m sorry that you have to deal with me, I’m
sorry about being a terrible person, I’m sorry for hiding
everything, I’m sorry for being so weak, I’m sorry for being so
immature, I’m sorry for trying to fit in, I’m sorry for even
thinking about judging someone, I’m sorry for begging for
attention, I’m sorry for being stupid, I’m sorry for not giving a
real apology, I’m sorry for not owning up to my mistakes, I’m sorry
for ever being sad in front of people, I’m sorry for ever talking,
I’m sorry for not leaving when I should’ve, I’m sorry for not
accepting anything, I’m sorry for being a jerk to everyone, I’m
sorry for being unlikable, I’m sorry that you have to hear this
from me, I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done, I’m sorry for
exiting... please... just leave me alone... let me rot here and
never heard from again... no one deserves to be around me... no one
deserves all the crap I bring... please just make it
stop...
It hurts, it really does. It hurts knowing that it’s my fault that I became the unlikable piece of crap that I am. It hurts knowing that one action, one word can get someone annoyed at me. It hurts knowing that even at the point I am now, I can still mess up. I messed up just by being like this. It hurts knowing that I’m isolated from everyone else, I put up a wall that prevents others from knowing me. It hurts knowing that in order to be the person I was before, I have to go back to being a brat. An attention seeking, annoying, immature brat. I don’t know what to do... I can stay quiet and long for a part in the community again, or I can open up and act immature... It hurts... everything hurts... it hurts knowing that I’m a kid, it hurts knowing that mistakes are ok, because they aren’t to me. Every mistake is a beat down. Every mistake reminds me that I can’t do anything and I’ve annoyed someone. Why do I keep doing this... Why do I keep letting myself get hurt... why do I keep making these posts... Why can’t I just rid my presence of everyone around me and let them go on with their life without me... Why... Why does it hurt so much...
It’s just too hard... I don’t know if I can actually do it... Whenever I post something, anything, I always feel dumb for doing so. I always think “oh no, I’m posting too much today” or “I just posted something that some people might be annoyed with or mad about.” And no matter what I do, I keep thinking that. I know I’m someone that some of you don’t want to be around, and I understand.
I really wish I could go on an actual break, but I’m too addicted to this site. I can’t leave it for long... I honestly don’t know what to do.
Go ahead and say what you want about me, I won’t retaliate or hold anything against you.
It’s easier to tangle a rope up than to unravel it. It’s quicker to tangle a rope up than to unravel it. When you try to unravel a rope, you either quit out of frustration or impatience, or you stay determined and endure the pain. It’s easier to help yourself instead of helping others. It’s quicker to help yourself instead of helping others. When you try to help others, you either quit out of frustration or impatience, or you stay determined and endure it.
Wow... when I look back at this stupid vent I see how frickin selfish I was... See what I mean? I get mad at myself for a stupid vent. I actually can’t do anything right...
You know what? Scratch that, I guess I can just post in the forums a bit. Feeds have way too much drama...
it all just came back again... didn’t it... I changed but I think I’m just a worse person now... I don’t share any of my thoughts anymore and I’m not even a good friend... Why can’t I just be happy with myself for one minute...
It hurts, it really does. It hurts knowing that it’s my fault that I became the unlikable piece of crap that I am. It hurts knowing that one action, one word can get someone annoyed at me. It hurts knowing that even at the point I am now, I can still mess up. I messed up just by being like this. It hurts knowing that I’m isolated from everyone else, I put up a wall that prevents others from knowing me. It hurts knowing that in order to be the person I was before, I have to go back to being a brat. An attention seeking, annoying, immature brat. I don’t know what to do... I can stay quiet and long for a part in the community again, or I can open up and act immature... It hurts... everything hurts... it hurts knowing that I’m a kid, it hurts knowing that mistakes are ok, because they aren’t to me. Every mistake is a beat down. Every mistake reminds me that I can’t do anything and I’ve annoyed someone. Why do I keep doing this... Why do I keep letting myself get hurt... why do I keep making these posts... Why can’t I just rid my presence of everyone around me and let them go on with their life without me... Why... Why does it hurt so much...
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A Link to send a Shiny plushie
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Link to send normal plushie
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