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*•~Nothing Really Matters... To Me...~•* (UC)

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Posted: Sun, 11/08/2019 22:52 (4 Years ago)




ʜᴇʟʟᴏ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ! ᴡᴇʟᴄᴏᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ ᴍʏ ᴅɪᴀʀʏ! ɪ ᴘᴏsᴛ ʀᴀɴᴅᴏᴍ sᴛᴜғғ ʜᴇʀᴇ, sᴏ ɪ ᴍᴀᴅᴇ ᴀ ᴛᴀʙʟᴇ ᴏғ ᴄᴏɴᴛᴇɴᴛs ᴛᴏ ᴋᴇᴇᴘ ᴛʀᴀᴄᴋ ᴏғ ɪᴛ. ᴇɴᴊᴏʏ ʟᴏᴏᴋɪɴɢ ᴀʀᴏᴜɴᴅ!



ᏖᏗᏰᏝᏋ ᎧᎦ ፈᎧᏁᏖᏋᏁᏖᏕ

–>Kamini’s Diary<–

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You ARE allowed to post
When posting, don’t go off topic, double post, post irrelevant messages or anything unnecessary
Don’t be rude or toxic.
Instead of saying, “That looks like trash, fix it or I’ll call my parents” say, “Looks nice! Maybe do some more work on the ___” No one likes a toxic person and you will have 1 warning until you are banned
Enjoy my Diary!
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Posted: Sun, 11/08/2019 23:56 (4 Years ago)
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Posted: Mon, 12/08/2019 02:38 (4 Years ago)
Important Events


Premium (1 week)
Received: 12/23/19
How: Advent Calendar

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Posted: Mon, 12/08/2019 21:35 (4 Years ago)

Shiny Hunt

Kamini is currently hunting Hoopa.
Hunt started: 04/21/2020

Chain: 12
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Posted: Thu, 15/08/2019 01:40 (4 Years ago)

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[center]Hey there! Welcome to Pokeheroes! I hope you have a great time here, and enjoy the time spent. Need help? Feel free to ask me! Enjoy your upcoming plushie![/center]
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Posted: Thu, 15/08/2019 03:38 (4 Years ago)

♪♫.ılılıll|̲̅̅●̲̅̅|̲̅̅=̲̅̅|̲̅̅●̲̅̅|llılılı.♫♪
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─── ・ 。゚☆: *.☽ .* :☆゚. ───

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═══*.·:·.☽✧ ✦ ✧☾.·:·.*═══

⋘ ᴘʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴡᴀɪᴛ - ʟᴏᴀᴅɪɴɢ ᴅᴀᴛᴀ... ⋙
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⋘ Tʀᴀɴsᴍɪssɪᴏɴ ᴇʀʀᴏʀ. Pʟᴇᴀsᴇ ᴛʀʏ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ ʟᴀᴛᴇʀ. ⋙

Hi
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Posted: Thu, 15/08/2019 04:51 (4 Years ago)

Title: Vent page I guess


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You know when I said that I was going to try and be better about my mental health or whatever? When I said that I’m going to try and not get mad at myself for doing something stupid?

It’s just too hard... I don’t know if I can actually do it... Whenever I post something, anything, I always feel dumb for doing so. I always think “oh no, I’m posting too much today” or “I just posted something that some people might be annoyed with or mad about.” And no matter what I do, I keep thinking that. I know I’m someone that some of you don’t want to be around, and I understand.

I really wish I could go on an actual break, but I’m too addicted to this site. I can’t leave it for long... I honestly don’t know what to do.

Go ahead and say what you want about me, I won’t retaliate or hold anything against you.


It’s easier to tangle a rope up than to unravel it. It’s quicker to tangle a rope up than to unravel it. When you try to unravel a rope, you either quit out of frustration or impatience, or you stay determined and endure the pain. It’s easier to help yourself instead of helping others. It’s quicker to help yourself instead of helping others. When you try to help others, you either quit out of frustration or impatience, or you stay determined and endure it.

Well that was a disaster... I tried to change and it backfired on me. I went back to the way I was and I didn’t even know it. I can’t ever be happy with what I do, I can never be satisfied. Every single action I make I feel like I am just doing something wrong... I’ve always tried to fit in, even when I was younger. I’ve always tried to improve myself so I could at least be accepted. No matter how hard I tried, no matter how bad I wanted it, I was never able to fit in. When I finally managed to make some friends, I changed. I wasn’t the same person anymore. I was rude, stubborn, arrogant, obnoxious, and just plain idiotic. I guess I was just so alone for so long that when I wasn’t, it all went to my head... Now I realize that I was probably better off being alone... Sorry, I kinda went off topic a bit... Anyways, I don’t even blame others for not accepting me because I know that it’s my fault. I know I’m the failure that no one wants to be around. Of course I am, that’s the way it always has been. I don’t want any pity or anything from anyone, I just need to vent I think...Goodbye to the community I guess, I don’t really have any intention on saying anything to anyone much longer... Not even Roleplays interest me anymore, I’m just so done with myself...

Wow... when I look back at this stupid vent I see how frickin selfish I was... See what I mean? I get mad at myself for a stupid vent. I actually can’t do anything right...


You know what? Scratch that, I guess I can just post in the forums a bit. Feeds have way too much drama...

Update I guess if you’re still reading this - So ummm depression time is over and I guess I’m better now. I’m gonna try and change for good this time. Hopefully I won’t be a huge jerk to anyone anymore.

it all just came back again... didn’t it... I changed but I think I’m just a worse person now... I don’t share any of my thoughts anymore and I’m not even a good friend... Why can’t I just be happy with myself for one minute...

I’m sorry that I changed, I’m sorry that I hurt you, I’m sorry that I offended you, I’m sorry that I made you hate me, I’m sorry that I’m insecure, I’m sorry that you have to deal with me, I’m sorry about being a terrible person, I’m sorry for hiding everything, I’m sorry for being so weak, I’m sorry for being so immature, I’m sorry for trying to fit in, I’m sorry for even thinking about judging someone, I’m sorry for begging for attention, I’m sorry for being stupid, I’m sorry for not giving a real apology, I’m sorry for not owning up to my mistakes, I’m sorry for ever being sad in front of people, I’m sorry for ever talking, I’m sorry for not leaving when I should’ve, I’m sorry for not accepting anything, I’m sorry for being a jerk to everyone, I’m sorry for being unlikable, I’m sorry that you have to hear this from me, I’m sorry for everything I’ve ever done, I’m sorry for exiting... please... just leave me alone... let me rot here and never heard from again... no one deserves to be around me... no one deserves all the crap I bring... please just make it stop...

It hurts, it really does. It hurts knowing that it’s my fault that I became the unlikable piece of crap that I am. It hurts knowing that one action, one word can get someone annoyed at me. It hurts knowing that even at the point I am now, I can still mess up. I messed up just by being like this. It hurts knowing that I’m isolated from everyone else, I put up a wall that prevents others from knowing me. It hurts knowing that in order to be the person I was before, I have to go back to being a brat. An attention seeking, annoying, immature brat. I don’t know what to do... I can stay quiet and long for a part in the community again, or I can open up and act immature... It hurts... everything hurts... it hurts knowing that I’m a kid, it hurts knowing that mistakes are ok, because they aren’t to me. Every mistake is a beat down. Every mistake reminds me that I can’t do anything and I’ve annoyed someone. Why do I keep doing this... Why do I keep letting myself get hurt... why do I keep making these posts... Why can’t I just rid my presence of everyone around me and let them go on with their life without me... Why... Why does it hurt so much...
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Posted: Sat, 17/08/2019 16:51 (4 Years ago)
Kamini’s Pokédex Tracker

•When Pokémon is obtained, change ❌ to ✅
•When evo line is complete, change color=red to color=#57E964
•When region is complete, change color=black to color=#57E964


[b][color=red]┌───────────────────┐   ┌───────────────────┐[/color][/b]
[pkmn][/pkmn] ❌ — [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌ — [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌     [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌ — [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌ — [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌
[b][color=red]└───────────────────┘   └───────────────────┘[/color][/b]

[b][color=red]┌───────────────────┐   ┌───────────────────┐[/color][/b]
[pkmn][/pkmn] ❌                 [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌
[b][color=red]└───────────────────┘   └───────────────────┘[/color][/b]

[b][color=red]┌───────────────────┐
[pkmn][/pkmn] ❌ — [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌ — [pkmn][/pkmn] ❌
└───────────────────┘[/color][/b]

Kanto



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Posted: Fri, 23/08/2019 11:30 (4 Years ago)
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Posted: Sat, 24/08/2019 16:51 (4 Years ago)

Title: Future Hunts?


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Kamini
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Posted: Mon, 26/08/2019 11:30 (4 Years ago)
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Posted: Tue, 27/08/2019 02:40 (4 Years ago)

Shiny Log


2019
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May 29, 2019
Chain #79



June 19, 2019
Chain #54



July 8, 2019
Chain #80



August 8, 2019
Chain #147



August 30, 2019
Chain #61



September 22, 2019
Chain #???



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Chain #???




Current Hunt


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Posted: Sun, 08/09/2019 14:55 (4 Years ago)
Just some notes

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[url=https://pokeheroes.com/dw_shop?plush=1151&USERNAME][img]https://staticpokeheroes.com/img/dw_plushies/1151.png[/img][/url]
A Link to send a Shiny plushie


[url=https://pokeheroes.com/dw_shop?plush=0151&username=Cosmixx][img]https://staticpokeheroes.com/img/dw_plushies/0151.png[/img][/url]
Link to send normal plushie


[url=https://i.ibb.co/g73xprv/FB80064-C-1886-4-D23-8-C0-C-79-F9895-AF070.png]here[/url]

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