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Just a place to put down things. I can be OCs, things I must remember, or the fact that Autsim Speaks is a hate group.

(And, yes, it is. Ask any Autistic and 99 times out of 100 they will say the same, and the 1 in 100 who don't, they fit the "genius white male" stereotype and literally had no idea/don't care.

To mods: I am hoping it is okay to say this. I am Autistic myself and since this is a personal thread I am assuming people who even bother to look at it will not reply to it, and even then I'm assuming others looking is fairly unlikely. Please let me know if I must edit this post, thanks. ^^)

So, yeah. A place to put down my crudd basically.

Hmm.

I'm just going to post some random adoptables here haha. They're all Pokefarm Q ones,if you want to know.

For some reason, my introduction post got me thinking about something...weird. Not something most people would think of.

But why the [insert colorful here] is Lawliet from Death Note coded Autistic and no one says a [insert colorful here] thing?! I know he's borderline stereotype, but it's still vexing....or just flat out irritating.

Well. That's what "coded" means. With Autistic-coded characters, it's usually pretty close to unintentional (using the word "close" for...reasons...) because the author simply wants to make a character that looks "eccentric" if you get my jist.

So Autistic people see this, L is very obviously Autistic, but when the creator is asked they just say he's "weird" or something.

This is only one example.

Luna Lovegood from Harry Potter is a good example of an Autistic-coded female. I can actually imagine a lot of the characters in Pokemon being Autistic (I mean, don't get me started on SameClothes, special interests, the whole forced-eye-contact-to-battle-me thing....there's so much there)....and....a....lot...MORE... That is not even close to the tip of the iceberg, I am hovering approximately sixteen feet above that.

And I worry. A lot.

I am only nineteen years old and I am worried that the generation right after mine will be trained that Neurodivergent traits are simply "strange" and so those Neurodivergent people will never get the support they truly need. I'm worried about meltdowns, how will meltdowns be treated in the future? Autistic people already face tons of police brutality for meltdown, those sensory overloads where the floor just shatters like glass....

They already get shot dead even though they usually cannot control this outward explosion, and the reason that explosion happens is because they cannot escape the unfriendly world, their coping skills were taken by ABA therapy, a therapy based on the Feminine Boys Project.

The coping skill of hand-flapping was ruined with tacky glue on their palms, being held to the desks as they scream to be let go; of electric shocks just for rocking, flapping their hands.

Our bodies are not our own. That is what true ABA therapy does, what it teaches us.

I am worried.

I always will be, until ABA therapy is obliterated, until Autism $peaks no longer exists in the public eye -- now an official hate group, the blue puzzle piece is a reviled symbol to all.

I always will be, until Autism rights are acknowledged as human rights, until we have true equality and justice, not just for the US but the entirety of the human species as we know it.

I am a thinker.

Once I get going, I can't stop.

That has nothing to do with being Autistic. I hate people just rub it off as such.

Autistic people are not a monolith. For people to just assume various traits about us is so ignorant.

People would call me "high functioning" because I go to university, can run a twitter, and post on this site.

But what if I also said I can barely drive a car without screwing up, I couldn't even pass Calculus, and I can't cook to the point of burning a pop tart in a microwave? That even though I am verbal, it is much easier for me to use forms of AAC such a typing on a computer? That my sensory overloads cause meltdowns and random crying if they get bad enough, and I need a notetaker in my university classes because my brain cannot keep up with the professors?

Yeah. All of those things are true. And most people would deem those things "low functioning" traits.

As you can (hopefully) realize, these traits of so-called "functioning" are completely arbitrary and based on Neurotypical standards, rather than the actual individual.

This is why more money needs to go into public services, accomodation, sociology/ethnographies of Autistic culture, etc.

And NOT the "solutions" that Autism $peaks proposes.

What is the point in genetic research if it has been proven Autism is genetic already?

Autistic people have come to the conclusion (for good reasons that I cannot post, since these next few words are already borderline rule-toeing) that Autism Speaks and similar organizations are trying to attempt a genocide and eradicate Autistic people/cultures.

I did my own research, as an Autistic person, and I have come to the same conclusion. I don't know what else to tell you all, whoever sees this.

Just...you adults/mature people. Look up the Autism Women's Network (AWN) and Autism Self Advocacy Network (ASAN). They talk a lot about this.

I made an introduction post: https://pokeheroes.com/forum_thread?id=69801

Oh, yeah, and that post also provides some basic information about my life that I can post here:

"....usually I have around ten to fifteen readings and a reaction paper on a GOOD week, not to mention extraneous and voluntary research on Neurodiversity so I can do a presentation series, and a job, and on top of that I do have a life outside of this game. I won't be here too often but I will try to make time."

SO LIKE.

PLEASE DON'T DELETE THIS ADMINS AND MODS. JUST. DON'T.

I will be back eventually, promise!!

Just a List of Animes I Have Seen (some that I am not proud of because of ableism, and some I am proud of just for no reason). It's been a long, long time since seeing a few of these and my brain does not like to keep things in a chronological order, so I mix up episodes sometimes. I will add onto this as I remember things and watch new ones. Anyways, here:

HunterxHunter

Death Note

Psycho Pass

Magi (both "Labyrinth of Magic" and "Kingdom of Magic")

The Seven Deadly Sins

Fullmetal Alchemist (not "Brotherhood", but I have seen the "Sacred Star of Milos" for some reason)

Pokemon (of course)

Sword Art Online (but only until halfway through the series. A friend said I would not like the ending of S1 and YEAH no I do not like it, my friend texted me a day later about it, I cannot say it here so just Google it if you really need to, I will just end that here.)

The Devil is a Part-Timer (this one....I got pestered into watching. To be fair, at least it focuses a ~bit~ more on human emotional bonding but yeah.)

Fairy Tail (I mean, I haven't gotten far into since it's on my To-Watch list, but I've seen a bit of it. I remember the steel-eating guy and the twin-looking guys with the blue hair [one of their names was Jelal I think but I can't remember is he was the good one or bad one] if that helps at all.)

I really, really like this Nightcore video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F6GMVUrVLNc

It's so, so stimmy. Somehow it's been moved an octave or so up and it *still* sounds like the voice is deeper. The violins in the background are nice, but then it has a...it's not quite a pop or rock tone, it's something else entirely. It's kinda like Lindsey Sterling's older songs, sort of, but sadder.

It's so, so bittersweet. It's so much more nuanced than a lot of songs I come across, and I really want to hear what the original song sounds like now for some reason.

The song reminds me so much about all of my Neurodivergent and Disabled peers.

"No time for rest
No pillow for my head
No where to run from this
No way to forget

Around the shadows creep
Like friends they cover me
Just wanna lay me down
And finally try to get some sleep"

(Sounds like how tired we get, fighting the abuse we get. Going home every day in April, knowing the entire month is dedicated to eradicating you, your friends, your culture, and make sure none of you exist in a few generations. Bruised wrists from ABA, forced to pass as NY everyday...)

"We carry on, through the storm
Tired soldiers, in this war
Remember what we're fighting for

Meet me on the battlefield
Even on the darkest night
I will be your sword and shield your camouflage
And you will be mine"

(....We remember what made us. We fight with tooth and nail, to secure even the most basic human rights inside of the US. That I am at university when my neurosiblings are so oppressed as to not be admitted on falsely-perceived incapabilities, just because they cannot create words with their mouths, even though there are other forms of communication, speaks volumes to my privilege in saying this.

The fact that some of us are force-fed [in the best cases, fed] bleach to "cure" us of being ourselves, and yet people get away this this, a slap on the wrist at best. This state-sanctioned child abuse is called MMS.

Even on the darkest nights, when despair sets in, the Autistic community stands strong, together. We don't ask stupid questions, because the stuff we've been through is indeed, very, very stupid at best. At worst, we've been through things where we should have been dead. The sword is our voice, our shield that we have survived, and our camouflage is our masking as Neurotypical. We dread that mask, but we use it, when needed, nonetheless. We are there for each other, we support each other, we are each others swords and shields.)

"Echos of the shots ring out
We may be the first to fall
Everything can stay the same
Or we can change it all
Meet me on the battlefield"

(It seems as if these things have happened before. It may as well be that way. Anti-vaxxers still abound, even though that guy was proven a fraud, his license taken away. What does it say about you when you'd rather have a *dead* child than an *Autistic* one?

I want to scream, I want to be heard through the echoing projectiles of illogic and neurobiggotry. I am sick of this. The eyebags are permanent I guess. All I can do is keep fighting, and hope some benevolent soul sees this, and decides it's time for Acceptance, and not mere Awareness.)

"We're standing face to face
With our own human race
We commit the sins again
And our sons and daughters pay

Our tainted history
Is playing on repeat
But we can change it if we stand up strong and take the lead"

(Do people know? Look at the #BoycottToSiri hashtag; the tag was made because a book, called "To Siri, With Love" was written as a memoir by the mother of an Autistic child. She wants to forcibly sterilize him at 18.

That's called eugenics. That's an echo of World War Two, where 400 thousand disabled people had this happen to them.

It's a mistake. It's a mistake. Yes, out sons and daughter, and our non-binaries too, they all pay because biodiversity is dying not just in the wilderness, but so too in the concrete jungles of our species.

But we still speak out: we will not go softly into the night.)

"When I was younger, I was named
A generation, unafraid
For years to come , be brave

Meet me on the battlefield
Even on the darkest night
I will be your sword and shield your camouflage
And you will be mine"

(In fact, we will win this time. People are starting to care. People are noticing, and if they do not then we will make them notice.

This is not politics; it is a civil rights, no, a human rights movement, so these mistakes never happen again, so we can thrive and prosper and have the same opportunities and dreams that so many Neurotypical, Able-bodied people have had for so much longer than us.)


"Echos of the shots ring out
We may be the first to fall
Everything can stay the same
Or we can change it all
Meet me on the battlefield
Meet me on the battlefield"

(We will leave a legacy of, at least, hope. We will keep pushing forward. We are seen as the weakest, but we are the strongest. For having gone so, so long without being seen as human.

I'm proud to be part of the Disability Cultures. I hope that one day, Allies can meet us on the battlefield to help us obtain what is ours.)