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                                                Posted: Sun, 05/06/2016 16:27                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

I have no idea why I'm doing this. How did you find this page anyways? It doesn't matter.
June 6th

Hi. I'm Kara. I'm thirteen, have major depression, really bad anxiety, and I hate talking to people.
Most people think people with depression get over it, but we don't. Actually, its with us for basically our whole lives.
My sister, Kait, has anxiety too. Hers isn't as bad. But she doesn't have depression.
It really sucks. When I lose something important to me, it all goes downhill. I usually end up locking myself in my room until someone breaks the door down.

A few days ago I lost someone very important to me. I know, this'll sound stupid, but she was my cat.
She was twelve, I got her when I was almost a year old, so she was with me for most of my life. When I learned she had to be put down, I didn't speak to anyone. I talked to the cat. I talked to my other cats, Sassy and Chase, as well. I shut myself out from humanity and let myself die.
My friends found out pretty quickly, and ended up dragging me out of my room. I'm not a people person. I don't like talking to complete strangers. It scares me a little. Anxiety levels rise, and then I freak.
It was easier having Brooke, because I knew when I came home at least ONE living creature realized I was alive.

Well, I guess I'll go.

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                                                Posted: Sun, 05/06/2016 22:59                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

IM HERE AND ALIVE! *slams hand* Surprisingly

So I've spent the last two hours listening to the same three songs.
Hurry Up and Save Me
Undertale MAP
Up all Night ~
It's been the shortest two hours of my life. I learned that the floor in the corner of my room is extremely comfortable.

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                                                Posted: Mon, 06/06/2016 01:07                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

Title: Spooky gifs

~~Yeah, I don't know either~~

June 6th

WHAT PART OF THE INTERNET DID I END UP IN TO FIND THESE

WHERE WAS I EVEN

~~is there a way to drown rain?~~

ITS POURING OUT AND IM GONNA GO DEAF

HDJDKSLOWIDCOOW *slams pillow over head*.

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                                                Posted: Mon, 06/06/2016 13:28                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

I literally will die iui

June 6th

school is going to be the death of me

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                                                Posted: Tue, 07/06/2016 09:52                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

*waves hand* WHATS TODAY CALENDAR HELP *reaches for wall* USE THE FORCE C'MON I'M TIRED HELP ME OU- Oh hey my phone

June 7th, 2016. 5:47 In the Morning.

Today in school we're going on a "field trip" ~~hahahahahano~~ to the High School to listen to a survivor of the Holocaust speak about what it was like. Everybody in my ELA class is a little nervous about it. We're allowed to ask questions, but the women doesn't like questions. Now, this annoying kid who's in almost all of my classes ~~*slams head against wall repeatedly*~~ is kinda an idiot, so he's determined to ask a question. *flings table across room* I'm honestly going to drag him out by his ear if he does.

*slams head against table* Another hour-and-a-half before school starts

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                                                Posted: Tue, 07/06/2016 10:59                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 7th, 6:56 AM

I have never been more excited for school to start. I'm ready to drag someone by their ear out a doorway. This is gonne be a good da- OI MIKE IM GONNA PULL YOUR HAIR OUT GET BACK HERE!

NO I DONT HAVE A CRUSH ON YOU!
DO YOU MIND?!

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                                                Posted: Tue, 07/06/2016 23:57                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 7th
7:56 PM

I REALLY DISLIKE HOMEWORK *repeated head slamming* ITS LONG AND BORING AND STUFF AND SCIENCE AND FROGS AND NO

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                                                Posted: Wed, 08/06/2016 00:43                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 7th
8:39 PM

*pats friends back*
My friend just got rejected by her best friend iui. So everyone's in a pretty bad mood right now.
Except me, because, pfff, everyone at my school isn't my type, so NO TEENAGE CRUSHES FOR ME! *flips table*
Its awkward now because my friend group is really good friends with THAT OTHER FRIEND GROUP ~~I used to have a crush on Mik- OKAY YOU WIN ILL ADMIT IT!~~

So now everythings pretty darn awkward between all of us, and its basically female group vs male group, and then theres me and Mike in the middle trying to calm everyone down.

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                                                Posted: Wed, 08/06/2016 08:39                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

*pats phone* I said wake me up later, not four in the morning ;;

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                                                Posted: Thu, 09/06/2016 00:29                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

SO HEY WORLD, IM BACK.

June 8th, 8:28 PM

I think I'm losing my mind. I've started blaming myself for my cats death. I know I have depression and anxiety and stuff, but I didn't think it would get to the point that I would get so depressed I would have.. thoughts? Yeah, thoughts.

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                                                Posted: Thu, 09/06/2016 02:56                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

Its still June 8th! Hahahahahahahahano

I may or may not take break from PH. I need to not fail school and all..

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                                                Posted: Thu, 09/06/2016 19:28                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 9th, 3:24 PM

So today was field day, and it got ugly. It was all out war. Someone accused someone else of cheating, and they attacked them. It set everyone off the edge, and everyone was running around, fighting with each other.
Then someone started strangling someone else, and everyone seemed to like that idea.
I was lucky. A lot of people weren't as lucky. ~~lets just say they were out cold for a few hours~~. I might have a scar on my neck for a few months, but that was because my friend dragged me out. I probably would have been a lot worse if it wasn't for him.

SO IT MIGHT BE WORSE THAN I ORIGINALLY THOUGHT. My jaw is killing me. Now everyone thinks I may have broken it. Great.

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                                                Posted: Sat, 11/06/2016 02:06                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 10th, 10:03 PM

I've spent a few hours in the ER, while the nurses are debating on wth to do with my jaw, because now they know for a fact that its broken. ~~tookthemlongenough,huh?~~ So I've been sitting in my room for the past hour trying not to move my jaw, so I can't speak either. Which is perfectly fine with me. Gives me an excuse to not answer questions in class.

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                                                Posted: Mon, 13/06/2016 09:28                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 13, 5:20 AM

G'morning! There's four and a half days of school left for me! I literally can't wait! I'm so excited for summer! The only problem is that I probably won't see half of my friends over the summer, like Mike and Liam. I know it sounds weird to have guy friends that you would trust with your life, but I would trust my life to them in an instant. Liam has always thought of me as a younger sister, and he's really overprotective of me. Mike ~~alright fine~~ USED to be my "boyfriend". That worked out for about ten minutes before we changed our minds and agreed to just be friends.
My friend is moving to Texas over the summer. It's cheaper than here. Then again, her family has the biggest house in our town.
Liam has a tumor in his head. They have until August to get it out, they think. It's only a few skin layers deep, according to Liam.
He's been even more annoying, if that's even possible! It probably isn't, is it?
I literally can't do anything in school without Liam. He's so sweet to me, but really overprotective. Let's keep in mind I'm only 5,1. Liam's almost 6,2. He's almost a foot taller than me. So he's kinda scary looking. Nobody wants to screw with him.

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                                                Posted: Thu, 16/06/2016 03:02                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 15th, 11:00 PM

Lately Liam has been depending on me a lot. We played shoe soccer with his shoes ~~don't even ask~~, and he asked ME to get them back. SPARE ME PLEASE! //falls to knees in terror//.

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                                                Posted: Thu, 16/06/2016 19:24                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 16, 3:21 PM

YES! One more day of school! Also, heres a link! YouTube. Never said you had to click it.

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                                                Posted: Fri, 17/06/2016 23:41                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

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                                                Posted: Sun, 19/06/2016 17:21                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

//sighs//

Hey-o. Gotta lot of stuff I gotta get off of my chest today.

My best friend just tried to commit suicide today. He said he was sick of everyone arguing, and he wanted some peace and quiet. Nobody listened to him. He tried to overdose.
I was glad he texted me. I may as well have flown over to his house, and locked him in a closet until his parents got home, which is what I did.
When I let him out, he completely broke down. He was full on bawling. He also kissed me, but he wasn't in his right mind. He was a mess today.

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                                                Posted: Mon, 20/06/2016 23:20                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 20th, 7:20 PM

Well, I ship Lucario and Blaziken now.

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                                                Posted: Tue, 21/06/2016 09:17                                                (7 Years ago)
                                            

June 21st, 5:18 AM

MY BROTHER DECIDED TO TURN AROUND AND ASK "Are you going to have children?"

NEEDLESS TO SAY I THINK I CHOKED ON AIR.
"I'll take that as a yes, then."
EXCUSE ME?!