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QueenBee's Diary
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I'm very lonely IRL here is why:
This happened on:
5/16/15 but I added this here on: 7/10/15
I don't know what happen, but my so called "Best friend" began texting, I ignored her a few minutes later I got curious of what she had sent me she had only sent "HI", and a link so I just ignored it. After an hour past she texted me back saying "Whats up with you?yiu read my messages and yiu dont answer me" (she Sucks at spelling) followed by "Oh,i know,you get jealous that i get more attention from ***** than you do,cause you like him" So I simply explained to her what had happened. I NEVER liked him she basically accused me of liking someone I don't. So I told her what she had told me on the day before (she called me a curse word). We began arguing, so I showed my sister (She is very protective) so my sister told her to back off (she added curse words to that) the she began calling my sister names (again with curse words). Then she said "I'm leaving I got better things to do" I was extremely angry with her so I deleted any traces of her on my phone (Phone number, pictures, and muted her kik)
2 days after she came up to me during 3rd period, and told me "I'm sorry, can we just be friends again?" then she went off to the bathroom. When she came back she sat next to me, and asked me the same question "I don't know!" I had raised my voice on her. She just stood up, and left. Every day after that I was lonely I only had one friend, but I could only see her at the end of the day. And I leave this note for myself:
I WILL NEVER EVER BE HER FRIEND!
Yeah, and that's what's wrong with me
That's why I feel alone
No one really talks to me
And I'd like to ask why, why can't I make friends?I Have social problems
Updated: 7/10/15
Usually when I am around others I get social anxieties, which usually holds me back, and prevents me from making any new friends.Other than that when I'm near strangers (or I am at school) I am extremely silent. If someone asks me something I either shrug, nod, or shake my head.
After I get to know someone, and I become someone's friend I am very talkative, and weird/crazy.
I majorly like to listen to bands such as Tally hall(<3) and My Chemical Romance(<3).Sometimes I listen to Gorillaz,and AFI.
Updated; 9/10/15
Well I should tell you I usually make every I know worry about me. I always act as if something were wrong (when I talk to people).
Eyy! I'm over it! I fall asleep quickly (I listen to classical music to help sooth me) but I don't wake up early (I literally set an alarm for school then I put it on snooze when it rings) oh well school just tires me out.
Updated:9/10/15
Here I some songs I am currently listening to ^w^:
Ruler of Everything- Tally Hall
A Gory Demise - Creature Feature
Buried Alive - Creature Feature
Brand new day - Dr. Horrible's singalong blog
Sacred Beast- Tally Hall
Turn the lights off- Tally Hall
Misery Fell- Tally Hall
Prove Me Wrong- Mindless Self Indulgence
Helena(so long and goodnight) - My Chemical Romance
Miss Murder- AFI
Froakie (chain #323)
Froakie (chain #323)
Phantump (chain #53)
So I felt like I should explain why I like mega garchomp :
So I had found out that there were mega evolutions for pokemon (i was very late) I started out liking Mega Banette, but it seemed like most people like mega Bennett, Mega Absol,and mega Gengar (not saying I don't like them, I just think they are ok). Then I saw mega garchomp he looked like he was stalking someone (i liked that) so I began sending pictures of mega garchomp to my sister. Some people think mega garchomp looks creepy, but for me Mega Garchomp is amazing. So one of my PH dreams was to get a mega garchomp, when I finally decided to mega hunt Garchomp. A megable hatched on the second egg (Chain #1 because I forgot to turn on my PokéRadar when the first egg hatched) I was really excited, but I didn't have a mega stone. I was Exited when I finally evolved him (it took about two months for me to get the mega stone).
So yea...
His name was inspired by a YouTube video (͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)
Diary Entry-2
Congratulations! A shiny Pidove hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #59)! Your PokéRadar reset and needs new batteries.
Soo... I was really hoping to go on vacation (to Mexico) but my dad took my mom's credit card, and with out it we can't buy our bus tickets (Yes we are going on bus). Everyone in my family is having trouble with my dad. He is stressing out my mom, he is mean to my older sister, he makes me do things (by things I mean fill out online applications on his phone)and he buys everything for my little brothers(it's good for them but he is wasting money). It really annoying my sister says that when she is 18 (she is 17, only 4 months till her birthday) she is going to move out. I want to go with her, but I have to stay with my mom and dad. Eh.... Everything is alright now, maybe not later.
Edit:Heh forgot to add we might go to Mexico next week when they pay my mom (i really want to go see my aunt that I have never visited before, and my grandma who I haven't seen since I was like 5 or 6 (I'm 12 now)
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So I have decided to get new goals since I have finished two of them (Not that amazing but eh). So I have made a list of goals I want to complete.
My PH goals:
-Complete my Johto dex (67/127)
Major PH goals (If it's on the top I desperately need to start/finish it) :
-Get the shiny pokemon to represent tally hall with my OT (starting with Joe <3)
-Get mega Scizor
-Get a ditto
Completed goals:
-Get one million PD (I'll find the screenshot)
-Get a mega garchomp and name him ChompChomp
Edit:
-Hatch a Keldeo
-Hatch a Latias
Uhh I'll finish this entry later (my phone keyboard is going crazy)
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Tbh I am very worried about school(even though it starts in August 24th).
The thing a am worried the most about is who will be in my class and how will I be able to make new friends? I don't really know but if
If I get her in one of my classes I will scream! (Intenallly scream since I don't want to embarrass myself .3.)
But anywas I also want to find out what classes I'll get, so that make me want to go back to school *sight* I just can't decide.
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Soooo um as the title states I will not be going to Mexico ( b-but the chickens...) I decided to stay with my sister since I don't want to to stay with my dad. So I have been thinking we could probably bake some brownies the gorge to the library.. After that we could stay over at my aunts house, and sleep over. Honestly I don't really care about favorites so me and my sister could stay at any of my aunts houses.
Anywas enough of that
I got a new shirt from the mall ^^ my sister found it
(sorry it's like that, I am sure I rotated it before uploading it to Tinypic)
Heh I'm wearing it to sleep.
To continue on with my luck I also found my long lost Nintendo DSi (I'll add a picture in the morning) then I found the stylus, and it's charger!
Today was the best day (so far) of summer!
(but my legs hurt because of all the walking)
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Ugh! Today is the last day of summer! I WANT to go to school, but at the same time I DON'T want to go. I also got my schedule two days ago, and since my school is somewhat big (It has two floors) I'm pretty sure I'm going to get lost.
I'm scared I'm 99% sure I might not get my only 2 friends in the same classes >.<
Im lonely! Also I have P.E (
Well I hope someone wishes me luck because I think I just lost the map ._. Seriously !? Well I'll go look for it, I guess.
Oh wait I forgot to add something..... I got a hair cut :3 not that special, but I look so different with my hair strait, but that was 4 days ago
Okay so I'll just go look for the map and take a shower (i have to wake up early in the morning so my sister can straighten it) and I promise I'll try to make friends :-) hey I said try.
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Guess what?
But I didn't :c Ehh I'll try to ignore her, but it's so hard! She's just there! I can't forgive her! I won't! Lol I'll just forget, not forgive c: (I'll still talk to her I'll just not be her friend and by talk I mean occasionally talk)
Diary Entry : 8
I ment to update this, but my phones keyboard kept do in stuff.... Anywas, I have been very busy with school and YouTube (trying to catch up on stuff) while browsing YouTube I found an awesome band (I'll update my songs list, and I'll try to make a favorite bands list) Called. So I listened to one song called A Gory Demise then I started listening to more and more songs! I really like them.
Ehhehe today I had to finish a project for homework and I finished three hours later ._. I didn't get to finish a WIP drawing since I finished so late. (It's been a WIP for four days and I really want to finish it!) I should probably go to sleep now...
(I feel like I change the topics too rapidly hmm)
Diary Entry : 9
So I was finishing my WIP drawing.... And I accidentally pulled out my laptops battery... It didn't save!!
I know I know... I should have save, but I forgot! Me pulling the battery was an unexpected mistake and to make matters worse when I turned the laptop on it updated so I hade to wait 10 minutes for it to do so.
Ugh! I'm so stupid! So many exclamation marks! It was so awesome (it was my first time drawing fire and it was decent)!
Okay I'm done now... Im going to go cry in a corner.
All 3 hours wasted for nothing
Okay nvm I'm going to remake my Toy Chica drawing :T