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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Wed, 03/08/2022 11:54 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Thu, 28/07/2022 23:56 (2 Years ago) |
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Posted: Wed, 27/07/2022 13:58 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Sat, 23/07/2022 22:15 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Thu, 21/07/2022 05:51 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Thu, 21/07/2022 01:10 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Mon, 18/07/2022 22:03 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Wed, 13/07/2022 08:05 (2 Years ago) |
Tide Show
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A bottomless pit A bucket with a hole that can't be filled. Why do I try When I bare no scars from the fight of my life? Grit my teeth in a battle I must win I'll prove my worth I haven't thrown in the towel just yet This god complex is my anaesthesia I may not feel human But at most I'm a machine I can work for days without food or sleep I can function without meeting all of my needs Is that not what I should be? I don't need check ins I'm fairing quite well Though If I leave my bed Take that step forward The leaps in my logic will shine instead The glass is half empty My battery is nearly drained Everythings falling apart Right into place For this demon it's fine My coffin has already been made I'm living with a due date A personal one that I've made Because I know my worth But the debts I've earned They have yet to be paid This fight can only go on for so much longer But i'll hold on for you Because I know how much I can withstand Though once this dark wave crashes I'm sure that's all it'll take. [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Mon, 04/07/2022 03:55 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Sun, 03/07/2022 02:28 (2 Years ago) |
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ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 16:40 (2 Years ago) |
Time Show
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Tock Tick Tock My name is written right on that clock Smash it to bits There go my thoughts Ten thousand an hour All wrapped up in wires Cluttered Cant keep up Time Time Time It's all I need Running short At break neck pace Slow down Speed up Cant regulate Seconds Minutes Hours I stare at my plate Feel it come to a stop The thought Drawing a blank I need to get up I need to get going Moving too slow Gotta get up Cannot be late Feel my heart race With the ticking clock's sped up pace Cant sit still Keep moving Keep moving Scared I wanna go home Chest tightening My face whitening The minute hand ticks Hamster on a wheel I cant stop Everyone talks Distractions Distractions Distractions Fun This isn't fun I feel like I'm going numb Too much around me Their clocks dont stop They keep spinning And spinning Its spinning Stop spinning Spinning Spinning Spinning Steady pace Mine alternates Slow spinning Fast spinning Which hand means what It's all a blur Gotta get up Cannot be late I cant stomach what's on my dinner plate Theres no time Tick Tock Tick Tock The stress of my racing clock Body keeps moving No energy remaining Rush Rush Rush Gotta go Gotta go Cant stop for breaks Everyone will know Lazy Hazy What's wrong with me Chest aches Heavy weights I cant do it What do I do Rush Rush Rush Push away the thoughts Cant carry them out Times running out What about yesterday? Wasting time Stop thinking Focus Focus Focus Shut up Nobody will stop Time keeps going I'm wasting it What am I doing I need to work harder I need to keep going I can't Overwhelmed Thrown to the ground Trip over the glass Pick up the metal bat Smash the clocks I want them to stop Why wont they stop It's already done Stop thinking Stop it Shut up You're so loud Stupid decisions No time Rush Stop thinking I hate it here Shut up Cant be late Their clocks keep spinning Can't stop for breaks Everyone will know Delete Delete Succeed Delete Delete I've gotten cold feet Get away Get away Gotta go Rush rush Cant be late Work harder Tighten my grip Smash the clock to bits Angry Frustrated Scared Fine. This is fine Clocks spin All of them keep spinning I can't win Tick Tock Tick Tock Problems Bare with the problems Crazy world Cant take a break Rush Rush Its spinning The world keeps spinning Lack drive Cant get behind a wheel The car I'd never steal What about yesterday Theres no time My seconds Minutes Hours Tick Tock Tick Tock Keep moving Focus Work Shut up You're so loud But so is the sound Sound of my racing clock [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 16:25 (2 Years ago) |
Point Show
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Add it to the list Check it twice I cant help it Point and laugh You told me so Anything to shut me up Close every door When another opens Just cover it up with a cord Choke out my thoughts My creativity Inspiration Still adding more to the list Pressing down with the ink Tear the paper with the point Your ideas Your life Cuts made with an invisible pen All the ink splotches in my brain Insufferable child Marketable mayhem You've made your point Checked it twice What a wreck What a mess Figured I'd burn the paper Theres no list What was your point I could check again But I'm sure I'd rather die [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 16:19 (2 Years ago) |
Snow Show
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Stay awake Pass out Rehearse Loss of time I'm okay Theres no pain A quiet maiming Broken A cold, grey winter weather It all seems so still Each delicate snowflake Made to break and melt Cold and alone I've got nowhere to go Nowhere to be But I walk I have to keep moving Or this chill will break my bones Melt my heart And kill my head Overload This cold unknown It's misunderstood And I'm miles away from home But no-ones seems to know yet. Held back Loss of direction The white fog covers all paths The pain that it brings Is numbing yet still Alarming. Get up Stay on track Everything behind me is covered Too late to retrace my steps wake up again another cold night Doubting eyes Missing younger summer years This is the final winter It's been never-ending I dont wish to understand it Or all these fears Sometimes the anger Or the self hatred Questioning why I walk Why I chase something that isn't in sight Alas my final fear My seventh sin Is the lack of drive I cannot pursue my dreams I refuse to be productive All I can do is walk All my worth is placed in these steps The day I topple over The day the exhaustion The dreary cold The nothingness When it wins Maybe I'll smile Because I'm surely not trying I've lost the alarm bells They were tied to my chest My light was buried in the snow I've given it the upper hand And yet it still lets me go I'm done asking why Knowing I'm on borrowed time Maybe it will answer Maybe this winter has an end It isn't healthy I know my habits have yet to change But the wind too has remained the same It feels like a dream But I've already slept To wake up again would be pointless An endless fight In an endless night The one thing I know That one thing that has been written in stone That there is no credit None given to those that walk alone Hoping the snow will guide them home. [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 16:15 (2 Years ago) |
Count Show
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One Two Then four Skip the expected Critical damage My health is now drawing near the negative I cant fight back My head cant swim This water rises And the light grows dim Torn apart Let it go I'm not perfect My connection's severed I've hit a new low Friends disconnected Can't bear to let anyone know Three Six Pick up my sticks And the stones to throw This is a glass house that you've created Just so you know. Eight Sixteen Back when I lived my life Before I knew it was a dream The hellscape I'd give To go back to what i'd seen Hows it supposed to feel Mediocre, I could have a slice of cake Hit play Spend and waste another day Ten Twenty Where do I see myself today? Not anywhere in the future, I'd say Spinning 360 degrees Round and round a carousel I'm pacing like a caged animal Shocked by shapes and sounds To be gawked at and mocked Makes my thoughts go down a red and bleak route Zero A number Back to the start I've amounted to nothing A welcomed surprise. [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 16:05 (2 Years ago) |
December Show
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What a cheerful thought Havent wrote a rhyme Not in a while Not for you Not for a dime It defeats the purpose Shaking my coin purse I'll buy another soda Maybe two Maybe three Another cold day Another light fog Was there really any trouble? Did I really need help? Stat? On the double? Am I alone? Can you hear me through the screen? My lights are a little dim They'll be brighter soon enough Just need to remove the frost and dust And start my engine Warm up the seats Cant have any cold feet It's calming You dont believe me do you The feelings fleeting I was sad Now I dont remember Things didnt get better But it's just another day in december A dull day No feeling of dismay It's odd to finally feel this way But I'm not better And I'm not sure what to do I'll talk your ears off And it feels like it reflects back at me The screen is anything but fragile It feels like bricks A stone wall Threatening to topple over and fall Maybe it'll crush me Then I'll be dead That being said I don't really care I've gotten used to my despair. Gift Show
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Sing a little tune Make a blue morning Paint it in a monochrome hue It isn't hard Cute little words A warming little tune Exhaust from a car Wouldn't get me very far Just a gift A way out of this doom and gloom [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 16:02 (2 Years ago) |
Safety Exit Show
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The last resort A room that isn't full of doom and gloom Where the butterflies dont have teeth And my stomach isnt torn to shreds No crocodile tears to be shed Apparently I know what I've done What I've been forced to become It wont cater to my needs Tape it up Lock the door You cant go to that room anymore You're expected to do more But I need to escape Must form a chronic routine Something to keep me safe and sound Something to keep these words from bruising my skin Pounding in my chest Hearing false alarms My amygdala has shut down You've exceeded my time limit I cant deal with fools anymore I'm the pasts creation yes But what about my future I need a muse not a monster For I am like a house of cards One wrong move and I'll fall Fail just like they want me to So I form an illusion A simple delusion Just to keep weary eyes from peering at this meek disguise I need a safety exit Not a hazardous route This beast inside has created a monstrous room Bright red Flashing lights Nobody knows what goes on inside It isnt safe But its home A home to the deadly unknown [Read more] |
ZeroKai OFFLINE Forum Posts: 19 |
Posted: Fri, 01/07/2022 15:58 (2 Years ago) |
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