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for aki, im so so sorry ahhah[/img]

why did i even think i was gonna get better at any stuff when im talentless at everything. the best thing i can do is probably go study like a freak, get into a good college, stay lonely and just get a normal job with average money. people try to motivate me but in the end i always feel like that was fake optimism for me since it never comes out good in the end hah. even though im trying to quit ph by chatting to nobody, im p much so jobless that i have nothing else to do. my familys disappointed in me that i spend too much time on the internet/on books and so i p much dont open in front of them. even my rl 'friends' say that the way i talk and walk is like a person whos dead inside (: i have to act happy in front of my family though. i go out to play basketball bc it helps me not get bored and cry everytime im alone at home. i tried alot to get better at pixel art but it never seems to improve. nor is my normal digital art good even when i have better stuff to draw than people who are more talented and deserving.

sorry