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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Fri, 28/02/2025 08:03 (4 Months ago) |
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[Writing - Diablo 3 Fanfiction, Guardians of Sanctuary] Ah, yes. This chapter wanted me to write it. I wrote 1,418 words and am just barely started. I'm immensely enjoying the current scene, but it's midnight, and my eyes and brain simply can't anymore. So, I guess I have to say good night to a cooperative Muse who will probably be so mad at me for this that she'll refuse to work with me tomorrow, lmao. Good night, everyone! ^.^ May the Force serve you well! 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Thu, 27/02/2025 23:01 (4 Months ago) |
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Today, I started working on one of my fanfics and ended up with an episode of Writer's Narcolepsy. This is when your brain decides writing time is sleep time. So, out of spite to my brain, I spent the next half hour sweeping and mopping my bathroom. The usual ADHD distraction happened. And I wound up sweeping the hallway and sweeping and mopping the laundry room because they were right there. All while pausing every five minutes to go enter the Pit or pick up from the Boss (dad was running us through Pits in Diablo IV). Those of you with ADHD know that when you're interrupted while in the middle of your cleaning (or whatever) vibe, it can be insanely hard, if not impossible, to get back to finishing it. You don't want to pick up where you left off only to get another interruption before you finish. You justify a "why bother" and put it off. Though I got increasingly frustrated with the interruptions, I kept reminding myself. "You've already put this off for months. Just a little bit more, and you're done." So I'm actually quite proud of myself for managing to do this. I'm going to go back to writing now so I can give my body a break. But I plan to finish cleaning the surface areas of my bathroom today and finish cleaning up the laundry room because I won't be able to sleep knowing I left them unfinished. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Wed, 26/02/2025 18:30 (4 Months ago) |
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Executive Dysfunction is the absolute WORST. To be fair, though, I don't even think I can call this that. Whenever my alarm goes off in the morning, I get out of bed, walk across the room, and shut it off. Guess what I do next? I go BACK to bed, and spend the next half hour to two hours trying to force myself to get up. Dude. You were already up. You keep talking about wasted time doing things you love each day. And you do this. I really should see if a reward system works. But I also don't want to reward myself for doing what's expected. Meh. I'll figure something out. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Wed, 26/02/2025 07:30 (4 Months ago) |
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Welcome! Here, you'll find me talking about my day-to-day navigating of my Autism and ADHD. You'll find motivational/inspirational quotes/posts and innovative ways to accomplish tasks. But it's primarily meant to push me to do more when I'm not doing enough. And to be proud of what little I've done when it was all I could do. The below code is just a copy/paste for me as the "pretty" that accompanies every post I make. [center]🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Tue, 25/02/2025 02:40 (4 Months ago) |
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Lmfao. Someone had this cat gif in their About Me on PokeFarm Q. I was in the middle of saying something and trailed off because I got distracted by watching the bird spin. For a whole minute! XD  This is as entertaining to me as watching Bruni mlem himself, and the dancing kitty!   🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Tue, 25/02/2025 00:45 (4 Months ago) |
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So, apparently, I had the Norovirus that was going around. I didn't have nausea, fever, or chills—just the symptom that made me run to the bathroom often. My Zoloft prescription has been increased to 50 mg. Since I recently got it filled, I take two pills a day until it runs out. My primary doctor referred me to a Psychiatrist so I could get back on meds for my ADHD. I've been off them for 19 years now because as a teen, I thought I knew better. Dad's got some issues with swelling on his neck and cartilage in his left side popping for no reason that he's getting an ultrasound for. Hopefully, they can figure out what's wrong with him. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Sun, 23/02/2025 01:35 (4 Months ago) |
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I don't think I showed all the new plushies I got from Walmart for Valentine's (they were $2.97 each). Here's all my plooshies Note that I also have a two-foot-tall Eevee and Husky, a one-foot-tall fox (a bigger version of the orange fox seen here), a three- and four-foot-tall teddy bear, and a small teddy bear slightly bigger than these that stay on my bed. There's also a green alien in the box with two others, but it was camera-shy. Oh! And yes! The cat on the bottom left has a chip! Dad gave it to him shortly after I got him about a year ago because he looked sad. The chip has remained with the kitty since. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Sat, 22/02/2025 00:16 (4 Months ago) |
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Oh! Oh! Four days ago, I noticed my Party Flute would run out, so I put it on! I won't lose out on EHP during Speed Click Saturday like usual! *proud tail wags* I won't need to remember for two months, either. But I need to save up Nuggets again for more Party/Daycare Flutes now. And *checks* Premium runs out in June. I need to start saving up for that, too. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Fri, 21/02/2025 08:28 (4 Months ago) |
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:O I spent most of the last eight hours devouring Harrow the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir. Still have the short story at the end to read. But... OMG! The way this book was written! So many twists and turns. And I knew from the start of the first book there would be something special about Gideon and whoever lay asleep in the Locked Tomb. But I had not expected THOSE revelations. As for that ending... gah! I can't tell you how much I hate and love cliffhangers. This book did not feature Gideon as a main character, and there were many parts that confused the hell out of me, particularly with Harrow's flashbacks to the past. It all winds up explained, though. I was just super glad to get some semblance of Gideon's sass at the very end. Overall. I truly recommend this series! Its unique take on Necromancy is amazing. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Fri, 21/02/2025 02:25 (4 Months ago) |
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Okay, see. Here's the thing. I was around 14 when I discovered my name meant "She Who Listens". It didn't fit me. Never has, and I've never liked the name. From ages 13-18, I was a voracious reader and devoured many books. One of those series was The Serrated Edge by Mercedes Lackey (though I think that series was rebranded) One of the character's names was Rhoslyn. And I instantly fell in love with the name. Even more so when I discovered it meant "Lovely Rose" or "Rose Valley". I gave my very first roleplay character that name. It's one of the main names I use in games. Over the last month or so, I've seen so many Trans people talking about how upset they are at being forced to go by their legal gender and names. I've also seen a friend talking about how much her chosen name means to her, even though it gets her some weird looks because people, for some reason, have issues with the God of Mischief. Plus, on the few occasions I've thought of naming my likely-never-going-to-happen daughter Rhoslyn, I get jealous. I can't legally change my name (I have reasons to wait). Nor can I change my Facebook name (thanks to being reported about eight years ago for a false account during the roleplay purge, I had to submit my ID to get my account back) But I'm going to say it now anyway. My name is Rhoslyn. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Thu, 20/02/2025 02:28 (4 Months ago) |
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Life Update: I got a call from Social Security to discuss my application for Disability. My ONLY job was in high school from Nov 2008 to Feb 2009 at my local library. I could no longer take the late bus home when sports season ended. The last transit to my town would have already left. My mom worked, so she couldn't get me. And home was an hour's walking distance. Because I don't have any Working Credits, I did not meet the requirements. However, the person on the phone said that I qualified for SSI. So she went over the application with me then, and it will be a while before I hear back. Dad used this opportunity to ask about his cancer and getting on Disability. He now has to call his Insurance to ask questions because something about if he gets too much from the Disability, it might disqualify him from Insurance. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Wed, 19/02/2025 02:03 (4 Months ago) |
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[Gaming - Diablo IV] Remember about two months ago when I posted how amusing and endearing it was when dad yelled out "Nature" when discussing trades with people on PokeFarm Q because he struggles to remember the word. Well, now. While playing Diablo IV, we're doing the Witchtides. Mostly to find Cocoons and hope for Fugitive Head spawns. But a quest in the Witchtides requires following three Seekers and destroying the enemies that spawn at their location. The Seekers are blue frogs, and every time dad comes across one, he yells out, with childlike enthusiasm: "Froggy!" I know he feels the same way whenever we play Diablo III and come across a Conduit Shrine. I always wanna be the one to touch it, and when I do, I yell out, "Zappy!" 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Mon, 17/02/2025 03:07 (4 Months ago) |
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After much thought, I have chosen to remove the Mod Material section from my Journal. As much as I would love to help strengthen and protect the community, I have to admit I simply can't. My haters wrongfully claim I shouldn't be a Mod because I would abuse my power for vengeance. But those who support and encourage me also think I shouldn't. Because they know I wouldn't be able to handle the duties. That knowledge has hurt for the longest time, but more because I didn't want to admit they were right. Perhaps there will come a day when I'm not so easily upset, but until that day, there are other ways to give back. Anyways. I've been struggling mentally for the last few days. Got a lot on my heart and mind. But can't and won't go into it much here, as it's not the place. Will probably delete a few posts above this to keep this positive. Adding my current To-Do List to one of the Reserveds on my first two pages so people have an idea of how poorly I manage my time lmao. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Sat, 15/02/2025 06:45 (4 Months ago) |
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[Writing] Apparently, instead of working on my main project, Forevermore. Or repolishing the last chapter I did of Angel of the Shadows. My Muse wants me to write the next chapter of Guardians of Sanctuary or Vampiric Embrace. It's not what I wanted, but I learned a long time ago that you should follow the inspiration. So long as I either publish Forevermore or complete a single fanfic this year, I'm going to be really super happy! 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Thu, 13/02/2025 20:25 (4 Months ago) |
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When I say, you don't know my life and what I go through on a daily basis. That I have a reason to want to play games all day and disassociate. That I have reasons to feel worthless and that the world would be better off without me. That I have reasons to feel all the ways I do. And why it's so frustrating and irritating to deal with people coming at me over things that shouldn't bother me. I'm already dealing with so much, and I can't get a job until the local library has its grand opening later this year. I'm doing everything I can to become someone who can survive on her own. It's a long, slow, hard process. And until you've been in a situation you can't easily get out of or find yourself mentally and emotionally abused nearly every day, with threats of physical violence, you really should keep quiet. Yesterday: One thing that I do that I know is problematic is, when dad gets a hateful tone with me, I say or mouth "blah blah blah" and ignore him. Cause I mean. You tell me it's okay to be angry, but not to be mean. And yet you speak to me like that. You tell me to tell you if I have an issue with the way you're acting, but then do nothing because you think it's justified. If you're going to be hypocritical and disrespectful, I don't want to listen to you. And when I'm caught mouthing that, you get more hateful and say things like "one more time" and I know that if I don't bite down, I'll be hit. When I tell you I don't want to talk to you when you're angry, you get defensive. You say you get really tired of me saying you have anger issues when you have "stupid people issues". Here's hoping this phase of his is due to all the stress of the last few weeks and he's done taking his anxiety and frustration out on me. Part of it is that I've been slacking off and spending a lot more money on feel goods when apparently ALL of my $200 each month needs to go to cat food and necessities, not wants and pretties. I can't even take one of my cats to the vet unless I've earned it. Well. I could. But I'd get yelled at for doing nothing to deserve it. That's why I'm trying to get some of my art sold and get on disability so I can have some money to myself each month. Comment to someone: Over the years, I've had my hair pulled twice, my keyboard broken, a marble countertop thrown toward me (mom and brother were witness), pushed backward into the couch and hit my head against the shelf behind (brother was witness). Put in a vice grip on my wrist forcing me to the floor once. Among various instances of hatred and rage in my face. This behavior is usually when I'm being dumb or not doing enough to earn my keep. So it's avoidable. Just frustrating and annoying to deal with because it just makes me mad at myself for not being normal. I don't fear for my life, which is why I stay and try to better myself. But I'm worried for my animals if I left. Today: Ahhh, yes. Another instance of hypocritical. You tell me I have no right to have a tone or attitude when I first get up because "not being awake enough isn't an excuse to be an jerk". Which it's not, but the majority of people can not form coherent thoughts. And so he decide he has the right to yell at me within two minutes of you getting up. He was in the middle of his breathing testament and said there was a cat at the door. I got up to look and it was Fudge sitting there. I didn't see a problem, so confused, and told to ask when I didn't understand something, asked him what about it. Got yelled at "There's a cat at the [redacted] door. That's what about it. I can't see what they're doing. I said it so you could get up and check to make sure they weren't going potty. What about that do you not understand? Why are you looking at me like that?" You have a tone. "I don't have a [redacted] tone." *he proceeds to move on to another topic about why I'm sitting down instead of fixing the cat door that I started working on* Because I'm exhausted from the work that I did already. I couldn't find the screwdriver and wanted a break. It's in the car. "Why is it in the car? Why don't you take a few extras and put in your toolbox. They are the most common tool to get lost. Don't say yes like you agree but you'll never do it. Don't get upset with me over that statement. Why should I ever believe you'll do something the moment it's brought up instead of putting it off and forgetting?" Hour Later: Now I'm being chastised for not taking the screws out of the door before trying to clean it and possibly dropped two of them down the sink. This instance of being yelled at I fully agree with because I paused before putting it above the sink and chose not to remove them. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Mon, 10/02/2025 05:33 (4 Months ago) |
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[Writing] Today, I wrote another 528 words in Forevermore, which is now at 4700 words. While writing it, I realized there was a potential plot hole...No that's not the word...Uhm...Continuity error?... In one of my previous chapters, so I made a note to go back and rework that area. Dad has an appointment on the 11th. He's feeling the best he has since December, when he first went to the hospital, so hopefully, he'll be able to get his second Immun Therapy treatment. While there, I'll work on revising the last chapter of Angel of the Shadows. Then, my focus will be on Diablo IV until dad and I have completed the Lunar Event. 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Thu, 30/01/2025 03:55 (5 Months ago) |
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*squeals* I did another one! Base by Owiru, Coloring by SakuraWolf23 Red and Gold Sylveon  🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Wed, 29/01/2025 19:28 (5 Months ago) |
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Six Scream Tail, no Shiny. Already 100 points into the 7th because I had two Iggly saved from the Lab. Here's hoping 7 will be lucky! 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Wed, 29/01/2025 06:28 (5 Months ago) |
Title: Health/Mental IssuesMental/Physical Issues -Abandonment, Self-Esteem/-Worth, Trust Issues ❆ -Anxiety ✔, ADHD ✔, Autism ✔, Depression ✔ -Auditory Processing Issue ∘ -Avoidant Personality Disorder ∘ -Duplex Collecting System in the right kidney ✔ -Dyspraxia ∘ -Extremely Forgetful ❆ -Insomnia ❆ -Lazy Eye (Right) ✔ Narcolepsy ? -Occasional Auditory/Visual Hallucinations ❆ -Paranoia ❆ -Possible GERD -Proprioception Issues ∘ -Right leg slightly shorter than left ✔ -Sensory Overload ❆ -Sleep Apnea ✔ -Sleep Paralysis ❆ -Slight curvature of the spine ✔ -Socially Inept ❆ -Speech Impediment ✔ -Squirrel-brained ❆ -Trauma-like shutdowns to raised voices and disagreements ❆ ✔ Confirmed Diagnosis ∘Suspected Diagnosis ❆Statement of Fact 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |
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SakuraWolf23 OFFLINE Forum Posts: 497 |
Posted: Wed, 29/01/2025 00:22 (5 Months ago) |
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Character: Cherry Blossom Leafeon, Rosie Base by Owiru Coloring by SakuraWolf23 I will get better with time. I'm thinking $5 minimum. Dad says $10-$15. But it depends on how many people would be interested in something like this. Examples 🌸❤️🌸🧡🌸💛🌸💚🌸💙🌸💜🌸 [Read more] |