Don't have an account yet? 
Forum Search
I'm Feeling Lucky
Searching for: Posts from WingedGolem.|
WingedGolem OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Mon, 15/05/2017 22:10 (8 Years ago) |
|
what you sent: 100 Grass Gems approx. server time sent: 22:10 [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Sun, 14/05/2017 11:22 (8 Years ago) |
|
Palpad me when you have time. [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Thu, 11/05/2017 13:49 (8 Years ago) |
|
Here goes... Once upon a time, I thought I was an empathetic person. I knew how others felt by their body language, I understood it, and could perceive what they were going through. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe I don't actually feel genuinely about it. It's hard to really tell sometimes for me between what is genuinely felt and what is understood. It's nothing like autism or Asperger's or any diagnosed disease or condition or anything, just that genuine-ness is a problem for me. I was diagnosed with dysthymia in high school, after people thought that I had put together a hit list. This was post-9/11 and people were extremely paranoid. I even almost got expelled and the cops called, had to appear before a judge about all of it. That's how I started going to therapy the first time. Dysthymia is also called Persistent Depression Disorder. It's sort of like if you take the average feeling of having Major Depression, and plateauing it. So I don't often feel the valleys of wanting to kill myself suddenly, but I also don't feel the highs of happiness or joy. When something good happens to me, people will still perceive my mood as though I'm complaining about it. I still rationalize the feelings of disgruntle, hopelessness, inferiority, and the desire to die as most people with depression do; just without the irrational energy to do something about it. I can't really describe it better than that. If you live a certain way long enough, that becomes the norm. The pipe dream becomes living in a state that you perceive as being "better." So this has been my "normal" for the majority of my life. I've always been fat. The majority of my family is and has always been fat. I've never known a life of what most people would call being "skinny." I feel like the only love I've ever truly felt from anybody was from my now-deceased great-grandmother and my great-aunt, who I currently share a home with. Unlike her, who sees being fat as the greatest detriment to her life, I just see it as normal. I don't feel that it has been a hindrance to me or my social life. I've never really had much of one to begin with. I mean, like I've mentioned to Fury before, her and I have a shared experience with the birthday party and nobody coming aspect. To explain to international pokeheroes people, in America, having a gathering of friends is a normal occurrence. So to have a party and nobody come is kind of a thing to happen to you. Not even a warning ahead of time from somebody who couldn't make it. Just complete and utter desertion. But I digress. I feel like mental illness probably runs through my bloodline through genetics. All of my family has one form of depression or another. The others have self-medicated, and thus have a good amount of alcoholics and drug addicts through the generations. I'd like to think that I'm one of the lucky ones who didn't gain the addictive personality. But maybe it's more so that I'm lucky to not have to deal with the drawbacks directly. Indirectly, though, I've dealt with the drawbacks plenty. I used to get a government check every month because I was considered a sick child. I was on oxygen for the first few years of my life, and would stop breathing in my sleep. That led to my mother fighting for custody of me so she could use my check for assorted drugs and booze. I was forced to live with her and her boyfriend at the time, my brother's father, for a couple years. Most of it has been blocked out, but I remember fragments. It resulted it a few reoccurring dreams throughout my life. I've often wondered if the abuse is what triggered my identity as being pansexual, or whether that was born in me to begin with. I suppose it doesn't matter much anyway. I've always had questions as to why there were gender roles, why there were things that were allowed and not allowed. But it's never really bothered me. I didn't hate myself for having those thoughts, like I hear with so many people who struggle with their sexual identity. I was just me. I was just who I was, and it didn't seem like a big deal. I was returned to my great-grandparents when I was almost 9, some time after my uncle had been arrested after a drunken rage, and my great-grandfather's heart attack left him unable to drink any longer. So I've seen a good chunk of the effects of addiction. Yet in the same breath, I hold some jealousy toward having an addictive personality. Most people don't see the benefits to having one. You see, addicts are ambitious, they have a focus, a driving force in order to reach their goals, albeit getting high, but nevertheless, they have that spark. It's a spark I lack. Unlike them, I don't genuinely want. Period. I used to go days without food simply because I didn't know what I wanted. I didn't want something in particular hard enough, or more enough. But it's like Schopenhauer said, the will to live will win out. Thus far, the will to live has won out over the desire to die. I don't know whether or not my dysthymia has created asocial behavior in me, or whether it's been because of the people who have been in my life. It's sort of a chicken vs the egg thing. Who knows, maybe my mood has pushed everybody away. I've never been in a relationship that hasn't resulted in being traditionally cheated upon. Trying to be monogamous has only led me to be hurt. It's probably what led me to identify as polyamorous. It's easier to give people an out than to expect loyalty. Besides that, there's no reason for anybody to want to be linked to me for long periods. I don't really offer much of value. People who have been in relationships with me could say I'm overly touchy, hypercritical, lazy, unmotivated, and generally a monster. And for all I know, maybe they perceive me as being emotionally abusive. It's not something I try to be, I'm not even aware of my effects on others until they point it out at times. I can say without question there's no malice behind most of my actions. But that never matters. As humans, we judge others by their actions, and ourselves by our motivations. No matter how good you think you are, you could be a piece of if looked upon completely objectively. That's where I feel a lot of the stigma comes from with mental health issues. Even now, I can't honestly say I've felt anything writing this. See, I have five methods of seeing a problem. There's what I feel, which I never really know until after taking time to figure out what I did or didn't feel. There's how I think I feel, which is something I can express in the moment, but it's still always kind of from an objective perspective. There's the analytical perspective, which is the one I give most. It's usually an objective middle ground. There's the devil's advocate perspective, which is me doing my best to see from the asker/speaker's point of view. I realize I really can't, but I do my best to try and see things from their perspective. Last but not least, there's the third-person perspective. The perspective of if somebody else is involved, or somebody else is about to be involved. How they think of what's being asked/spoken about, and how it would lead to the future. So many cause and effects, so many possibilities. My mind acts like an endless web in this way. Point to point. Possibility after possibility. Yet it lacks instinct; impulse. An impulsive person can just go to any point and act, react, answer. It's yes or no. It's 1 or 0, very binary ways of thinking. In many ways, compared to the web, it can be superior. They can act on a point within a hole in the web. Yet it also lacks conceptualization. It lacks the capacity to understand the cause and effect beyond one thing. It lacks peripheral. I don't know if this way of thinking is particularly special. I don't know if it's a "good" or "bad" way of thinking, or if it just exists as an "is." But it's just an "is" for me. Anyway, I'm at the end of this, and I decided to post it. So yeah, this is a thing now I guess. [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Wed, 19/04/2017 21:46 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Mon, 10/04/2017 11:30 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Wed, 05/04/2017 06:22 (8 Years ago) |
|
Pokemon: Chatot Upfront payment method: (50k PD) Status: Complete Proof: Before After Tips/Donations: (Will consider after the job is done.) [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Tue, 07/02/2017 01:34 (8 Years ago) |
|
Name of the Pokémon: Skuntank/Mega Banette hybrid Description: Well, a few of my friends came up with a sort of pokesona for me. Now I'd like to try an evolved form. So if you'd like to take a shot at it, let me know. It's got a Skuntank size and fur style, but with more of an Umbreon tail posture. The markings on it is a mix of Skuntank's stripe style, with the legs and paws showing Mega Banette's zipper style. You can get creative with the coloring for the paws and legs, but I do like darker fur colors for the top with a lighter stripe. The background doesn't matter much to me, do as you will with it. . Art options: Digital is preferred [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Thu, 01/12/2016 19:18 (8 Years ago) |
|
Trade arrangement: WingedGolem's Mega Stone for 4569536's 500,000 pd Comment (additional): Thank you. [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Sun, 13/11/2016 09:44 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Sun, 13/11/2016 09:33 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Thu, 27/10/2016 07:00 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Sun, 16/10/2016 11:58 (8 Years ago) |
|
Just curious since you were successful with your pinsir hunt, did your shiny pinsir show up as a fast mover, or normal speed? [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Fri, 30/09/2016 04:55 (8 Years ago) |
|
Trade arrangement: WingedGolem Mega Lopunny for gardezard's Mega-Able Charizard + 148,000 PD Comment (additional): Thank you Yato for helping with my last trade. [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Wed, 10/08/2016 04:01 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Mon, 11/07/2016 09:03 (8 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Fri, 24/06/2016 12:09 (8 Years ago) |
|
Thanks V, I did just that. The link is above. [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Fri, 24/06/2016 12:06 (8 Years ago) |
|
That said, now that the luster has worn off, I can see a few ways that the fishing can be improved. So here we go. 1. Have different pokemon cycle through the bait options! Currently, the bait has a static requirement for its trade-in values. Regular Bait requires a normal and water gem (personally, too valuable to trade for the basic version) Tasty Bait requires a Magikarp Delicious Bait requires a Gyarados Shiny Bait requires a Squirtle, Totodile, and Mudkip. I'm excluding Magnetic Bait from this list because it's a greater specialty, rather than a progressive bait pattern. My suggestion for these would be to change the gem requirement, if you feel this to be a good enough trade-in, for a tasty bait. Or otherwise maybe add in a steel gem requirement for the Magnetic Bait, rotating out Tynamos and Chinchous/Lanturns. For Regular Bait and Tasty Bait, a fresh cycle between the three most common catches would serve nicely. Tentacool/Tentacruel, Magikarp/Gyarados, and Goldeen/Seaking. You could even throw in Azurill and Marill with the cycles just to spread them out further. For Shiny Bait, using the starters is a smart pick. I would like to suggest using all of them as a potential. Especially with Generation Seven coming in the next five months, and most likely an event to usher it in, the seventh generation Popplio will eventually make its rounds to the Beach as a catch-able. By cycling through the current starters, there will exist a possibility to use it as an ingredient with the others and make it a clean weekly cycle. If the worry is oversaturation, by cycling the pokemon and making all catches able to lead toward something, you could even offer them up for 3-5 of the species per bait. 2. There are box trade-ins every day, what about keys? I realize that keeping boxes valuable is important. I completely agree with that. But perhaps there's a way to have it become part of the once-a-week special. Instead of having a box trade-in, having a key trade-in day. Wailmer and Clauncher would be the two most likely pokemon to use in this aspect. Wailmer is catch-able, yet not trade-able. Clauncher currently is used only to trade one piece for a Mega Stone. This would allow the potential for all the boxes to get used, and the chance to continue to fish in order to nab more of those types of pokemon. 3. The Shoal Salt and Shoal Shell need to go for something! I'm not sure if you guys have something planned for it down the road in the upcoming months, but presently they don't have any purpose other than a lost turn. With Shell Bells also being catch-able as an item (and I'll mention more next), there doesn't seem to be much use for them. No maniac is paying for those items here, at least not yet. So my suggestion here is to have them involved in the recipe business. By requiring a lot of the salts and shells, there's a potential to get them to be useful toward an ingredient in making something like a lead-up to White Powder. you could also get some of the baits involved as well. If 100 flour, 50 salts, 50 shells, 20 honey, and maybe 3-5 shiny baits were involved in the recipe, then the price for shiny baits would help to raise value in the market, and provide a worthwhile investment to keeping all of those items we fish up. Alternatively, you could perhaps allow trading in 50 shells in for maybe a King's Shield, to create the alternative form of Aegislash. 4. Lastly, Shell Bells, if they're fish-able, should be as rare as the bottles and ornament! I liked the fact that the shells were catch-able. But it reduces their value. Considering how many festival points it takes (2000) to purchase, they need to be a rare catch. Considering that it can be difficult for some to compete in the contests each month, getting it so much easier this way reduces their value. Since it's a forme-changing item for a legendary, I would suspect it should be given a certain level of respect. Anyway, thank you for whoever reads this. If you guys want to use these, cool. [Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Fri, 24/06/2016 11:47 (8 Years ago) |
Title: Moved to its own thread in suggestions[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Sun, 20/03/2016 09:46 (9 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |
|
WingedGolem OFFLINE Forum Posts: 58 |
Posted: Wed, 27/01/2016 13:06 (9 Years ago) |
|
[Read more] |