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Flukes OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Tue, 14/07/2020 19:31 (3 Years ago) |
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I want to write but I have to read an entire chapter of this book on computer architecture, and I've been really lacking in motivation, so I probably won't finish anytime soon, unfortunately. All people to some extent are influenced by the people around them, and influence their environment in turn. We all want to be special and stand out, but we all want to be identical to everyone else at the same time. We also disparage people who aren't identical to us. We want to force our standards on others, but we also don't want other people to rate us using their standards. So society is basically an amplified cookiecutter, and in the end there will only be cookie shaped cookies or whatever. But cookies are yummy, so... Wait why are cookies supposed to be cookie shaped...nevermind. I'm not sure what I'm writing about...I'm kind of sleepy, so I better hurry up and finish that chapter. Apparently reading things before going to sleep allows people to absorb the information better... [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Mon, 13/07/2020 16:04 (3 Years ago) |
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I play FR, and the Ice Flight's competing for dominance conquest, so now everyone's busy exalting dragons and racking up points for our armory. I've exalted 3 so far, and I'm trying to snatch cheap fodder so I can turn them in for stickers. I'm hoping to be more active in dominance, and be of some contribution to my flight, I guess :) I've also been trying to code more, it's difficult but I do try my best. I've been watching S11 of Ninjago with my sister, and it's a awful season (according to everyone in the fandom), but I kinda like it, the villains are firey snakes and they're really cute and adorable. Eh, I think I've started rambling again :P I'll have to go count how many dragons I've exalted and go write it down before I lose track of my ids... [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Fri, 10/07/2020 21:12 (3 Years ago) |
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My dad said that I did well enough for my first try, but I'm not really satisfied. (Maybe I am going paranoid just as everyone says :P ) Hopefully after a week or two I'll get back on track and I'll be able to do better. Other than that, today was a good day, though, so I'm prepared to go figure out what I did wrong, and start prepping for the next competition, I guess (One day, I want to attend one of the real-time ones, and then I can get points and t-shirts :) (No one can understand my obsession with t-shirts, but to me, it's kind of a physical representation of all the hard work I've done, and the t-shirts look cool too. ) ) Anyways, I have to go take a bath now, and go tickle/annoy my sister, so I'll write more tomorrow. I've also been thinking about writing a better intro for myself (all my intros suck, but I mean, how am I supposed to introduce myself when I don't even know anything about me? I probably know my friends better than I know myself.) Ok, it's time for me to stop using my brain. Thinking is difficult, and it's not my fault that I'm stupid -_- [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Thu, 09/07/2020 15:22 (3 Years ago) |
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(Yes, this is me rambling again) I forgot to write yesterday because I was debugging my eight queens, but I finally finished all my USACO problems, and I'm so happy! Now I can go have fun and attend virtual competitions on codeforces and bomb all of them (which is still fun, in a way, i guess :D ) I also got my first Coursera certificate, so now I can do more courses :) I have to remember to get my financial aid applications for my next two courses, or else my workload will be too light and I won't be able to get my wonderful goal of 24 certificates in a year (yes, I know it's crazy, but well... wynaut?) The applications are actually more difficult to do than the actual course content (at least for me) but the certificates are super expensive, and I'm broke, so... I better go sharpen up my composition skills and go fill out those forms :P Life is mostly peaceful now, since my dad got his notary stuff done, and now there's no more awful stuff that he has to deal with (hopefully?) My sister has an exam today, and (she claims) she didn't study, but most of the time she passes regardless of whether she studies, and I have lots of faith in her, so she will pass. In pokeheroes, I've been shiny-hunting dratini, and it's been going well so far :) I've hatched about 7 or so in 4 days (my breeding pair isn't perfect, but I don't really think I have the capacity to hatch more eggs anyways, so..) Hopefully, I'll be able to get to 40 in a week or two I've also been trying to clean and organize my storage boxes, I currently have 7 of them (Generation 1-5 collections, a misc box, and a box for retros), but I might have to use a different organization method, because boxes are expensive and I don't think I'll be able to afford a box for every region *cries* Anyways, I have to get to those aforementioned applications, and my toothbrush is making very concerning buzzing noises from the bathroom, so I'll write some more later...and force everyone reading this to listen to me talk about how to optimize the eight queens method...hehehe... *evil grin* Trying to understand the optimization process is like pulling teeth, but the implementation actually isn't that difficult, so don't worry :) [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Tue, 07/07/2020 15:53 (3 Years ago) |
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They used to play properly, but I bet google did another stupid update, and now none of the mp4s I upload will work. Aside from that, I'm just feeling awful. Of course I could write it down, but then everyone will hate me if they don't already. And writing it down doesn't make me feel better, so I don't know what to do now. My Coursera auto-logged out, but unfortunately I don't have the password or even the recovery email, so I have to wait for my dad to come home from the notary to ask him the password. So now I have to look at my dumb 13 queens problem that everyone seems to know how to do except for me. I might write about my ocs later today. I might not. I can be forgiven for being awful once in a while, right? Please don't judge me by what I write on here, it's just me trying to pretend I'm not so pathetic :) [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Mon, 06/07/2020 14:55 (3 Years ago) |
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I didn't do a lot of homework yesterday, since I was with my sister at a gala in one of the MUDs (multi user dungeon) that unfortunately I don't play so often anymore. I didn't get forgotten by everyone else (hopefully?) because I'm the only person there who dresses up as a shark to fancy parties... (I'm thinking of donning an orca costume next year :P ) Aside from that, I also went bashing with my sister, and I raised 150k essence for my Goddess, and hopefully she will be proud of me (if she hasn't forgotten her little shark.) Then, I just doodled some stuff (I can't draw necks and shoulders, so everything I draw ends up looking like a coat hanger with some macaroni tube as the neck, but I'm trying my best to learn some more anatomy and look at more art references to improve my art.) Later, I teached my sister to play Mineblocks (neither of us can play the 3d version, because it makes us dizzy and then we fall into a lake and die) because she claimed she was bored, and I must have done a good job because she only died once (from jumping into a pit that I tried to stop her from jumping into), and it was quite entertaining to watch her dig stuff and light up her little base (houses should always be lit up like a Christmas tree so... bad things don't come in.) But then her mom called her and then she closed the tab, and then all our progress went poof. But it was fun nevertheless. Now I've written enough positive stuff, I guess? Today has to be more productive though, so here are my plans: 1. Register for financial aid for corporate finance 2. Read network communications textbook 3. Figure out how to optimize 8-queens problem 4. Keep working on my powerpoint slides for the usaco problems And hopefully if I'm efficient, I'll be able to do all of that and watch Ninjago with my sister tonight. (And this is just me being dumb, but how did my awful diary get so many clicks.... *dies*) I just realized my sentence structures are awful, but it's not like I can do anything about it... I never learned how to write properly... [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Sun, 05/07/2020 14:58 (3 Years ago) |
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This one is a little more difficult because it takes 10455? steps to hatch, but hopefully I'll manage to hatch all the eggies. Oh, and since I realized that some people are reading my really boring logbook... This is really important! If you guys find any newbies that need combees, I have a free breeding pair left (there were actually two but I forgot to everstone one of the females and then it evolved :P ) LINK: https://pokeheroes.com/gts_my_trades I also have 40 or so individual male combees, so if you don't have enough combees, please PM/PP me and I'll give you one for free! Okies, I have to go do my homework again... [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Sat, 04/07/2020 19:35 (3 Years ago) |
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Cow Dance Show Problem Link: http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=viewproblem2&cpid=690 Java Sols By Me: https://pastebin.com/8wPJ25aL Hoof Paper Scissors Problem LinK: http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=viewproblem2&cpid=691 Java Sols By Me: https://pastebin.com/JL2qbESd Secret Cow Code Problem Link: http://www.usaco.org/index.php?page=viewproblem2&cpid=692 Sols By Me: https://pastebin.com/zrQJ3XVH Explanations coming soon, hopefully I can finish the powerpoint slides for problems 1 and 2 by the end of next week :) Problem 3 is a bit more mathy and difficult, so it'll take a bit longer [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Sat, 04/07/2020 15:27 (3 Years ago) |
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I'll update as I get more :) [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Fri, 03/07/2020 19:02 (4 Years ago) |
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And now I have to deal with my all my extra combees... Oh, and since this is kind of important.... Perfect Breeding Pair: 30305151 30595644 Shiny: 30829139 [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Thu, 02/07/2020 19:46 (4 Years ago) |
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Once I finish my shiny hunt, I might give away my big pile of extra combees to newbies so they'll have enough honey to catch stuff on route 53. Okies, now it's time to get back to my homework. [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Thu, 02/07/2020 01:10 (4 Years ago) |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Wed, 01/07/2020 20:11 (4 Years ago) |
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I really don't know what to do or say. Yes, I'm producing excellent results in my academics, I can complete two coursera courses every month, and so on and so forth. But I doubt it matters. The cutoff for each course is only about 60%, and it makes everything overly easy. I don't think I'm spending enough time coding at all. If I want to get to platinum in my USACO contests this year, I should be spending my time on learning how to write Java and debug things properly, not wasting my time on these online certificates that I could get whenever I want. I'm not doing enough, and I'm scared of the consequences if I fail. Last year, I failed the bronze level twice, and failed silver once. I don't think that my skills are being judged accurately. If I screw up a level, I'm a good for nothing. If I pass, I'm treated as if I'm some great prodigy, and we all know that's not how things work at all. And most unfortunately, I can't rate my own skills at all. My father has too much faith in me, and my mother too little. I don't know what she sees in me, or what she's expecting of me. Whenever I lose, or fail, she's always there, telling me that I'm sacrificing her happiness for my own future, and that she never wanted me to be born, that I'm unlike my sister and always letting her down. I know that she might not necessarily think of me as that all the time, and I know that I deserve it. But I'm an awful person and I just can't forget. No matter what I do, whether I'm awake or asleep, I can hear the phantom voice telling me that I'll fail again. That voice always tells me to quit, to stop doing it, that I'm not good at it and never will be. But I have no choice, because this is the only thing I know how to do. It's the only thing that I can do. There's nothing left for me other than this. I don't know why I'm writing this either. Did I honestly believe that by writing about how pitiful I am, someone would come and pity me? Or that writing down my feelings would make me feel better? It doesn't make me feel better at all. It's already July, and I only have until December. Everyone tells me that I think too much and worry too much, but the reason why I worry is because I have no idea what to do. But it's not like they'll come and catch me if I fall. I'll probably delete this later, because I'm some idiot who constantly worries about what people think of me, and I don't want people to pity me and talk to me with some patronizing tone and tell me that the world in fact cares about me or whatever. So what if I'm some failure, what if I'm a coward. How long do I need to be strong for? [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Sun, 28/06/2020 20:36 (4 Years ago) |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Sun, 28/06/2020 15:11 (4 Years ago) |
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Username: Trua What you want: Piplup What artist: Ace_Trainer_Max Any details: Just a simple piplup for profile icon :) Tip?: 20k pd Pass through: uwu [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Sat, 27/06/2020 13:43 (4 Years ago) |
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I'm kind of sleepy because I stayed up until 12 thinking about my computational geometry problem I couldn't solve. But anyways, I've decided to try to be a better human, so here a quick plan for the day: 1. Corporate Finance 2. Communication Networks 3. Finish writing/breaking my code 4. DOODLE Time (this is the very important :D ) 5. Go and chat up people on PH and be fwiends with them and try to be less stupid (this is difficult, given that I'm a genius at being an idiot) Okies now its time for me to stop being noisy :P I might write more later today depending on my mood, but as aforementioned, I have to do my homework. Oh, and I'm thinking of starting a blog on how to solve competitive programming problems if anyone would be interested... [Read more] |
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Flukes OFFLINE Forum Posts: 94 |
Posted: Thu, 25/06/2020 14:42 (4 Years ago) |
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