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Dorky OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 47 |
Posted: Fri, 24/03/2023 02:28 (1 Year ago) |
Kathryn Arbred's POVShe bit her other hand's thumb, looking reluctant. Her eyes were wide. "Well... I... Unfortunately we've all been forced into this place by someone. And... Not everyone here is human. Some people here..." She shivered. "Are Yōkai. And are out to kill someone. At least... That's as far as I understood it." Why would someone do something like this...? As she looked over at Paiyoon, and Artemis, she got the strange sense they'd been through something like this before. What had been with Paiyoon's comment about... A loop? ...was she... Implying she and Artemis had both died before? Deep within Kathryn's mind, she thought she heard... A gunshot. ... What was with that? "I-I think that... We should try to figure out who said Yōkai are. Somehow. And then... We should be okay." The gunshot seemed so familiar, and yet Kathryn couldn't place when she'd heard it. Or if she'd ever heard it at all. [Read more] |
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Posted: Fri, 24/03/2023 01:56 (1 Year ago) |
Kathryn Arbred's POVKathryn sighed. "I-- I guess at least it's for a good reason. Poor guy. Seems like he's going through a hard time..." Kathryn turned and looked at who had spoken. "Oh, um, it's nice to meet you too! I don't believe we've met. My name is Kathryn Arbred. And you are...?" She tugged her scarf up over her mouth. Great... More social interaction. But... Paiyoon hadn't seemed all that hostile. ... She bit her lips. "Is there any way you think we can determine who the Yōkai are? I don't want anyone to die, that would be awful..." [Read more] |
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Posted: Fri, 24/03/2023 00:47 (1 Year ago) |
Kathryn Arbred's POV... Her eyes widened. "K-Kill someone in this room?" She glanced around, a horrified look in her eyes. She looked on the verge of vomiting. "...I-- honestly don't think I'd ever even think of killing someone. Would- would you?..." She shook her head. "Oh my goodness, I-- I'm sorry, that was out of line, I shouldn't have asked that, you don't have to answer!" Talking to people was nerve-wracking. And... Paiyoon's question hadn't helped her any either. [Read more] |
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Posted: Fri, 24/03/2023 00:35 (1 Year ago) |
Kathryn Arbred's POV"Um... Hello there. My name is Kathryn Arbred. This is... Quite a shocking predicament, isn't it? And... You are?" She offered a smile. [Read more] |
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Posted: Fri, 24/03/2023 00:29 (1 Year ago) |
Kathryn Arbred's POVSo... No one had died last night. They had all been forced to come here, and she wasn't sure how to deal with it... The whole thing... It was honestly so nerve-wracking. She supposed she might as well get to know everyone here and figure out who was who. Things would be alright... Right? There's no way anyone here could actually be dangerous... ...right? [Read more] |
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Posted: Thu, 23/03/2023 19:59 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLucian blinked in confusion, and turned to look at her with tired eyes. "...why not? What does it matter?" Why does it matter TO YOU? Lucian could barely keep the coldness out of his voice. He... He'd already decided not to jump. But it wouldn't take much to change his mind again. He inhaled sharply. "...it's alright, Miyako. I-- I'm fine. Really." I'm not. He was always supposed to be the strong person. And when he saw Miyako standing there, all he could think was... Why did she care? Why did she bother? Go run on back to your girlfriend. I know I don't matter to you. ... I know almost no one here matters to you. ... Do you even care? Horatia. Kaoru. Futatabi. And now Mei... And all he saw was her CLINGING to Shi just pleading that everything would-- ... No. He couldn't think like that. He didn't... Hate Miyako. He just hated what he saw on the surface. How she hardly seemed to care for anyone. Anyone at all. And maybe... Partially, he blamed her for Kaoru's death. He saw how she scared her. He saw how she pulled her away, shortly before... ... No, no. He couldn't think like that. "...I'm sorry." He just... Needed to be alone right now. But there were other issues on his mind. He couldn't have ALONE TIME. He'd never had that privilege before, and he could do without it now. "...do you... Know where Setsuna is?" He may need my help the most right now. Lucian breathed deeply. I'm sorry, Kubo. I know I promised that I'd protect you no matter what, but I... ... I don't know how to face you right now, with those things you said fresh on my mind. ... You didn't mean it, right?... ... You didn't mean it when you called me the Grim Reaper. When you... Called me a killer. When you... Called me nothing. So... You didn't mean it when you said you hated me, right? You don't... Actually want me to die, right? Lucian laughed quietly, letting out slight choking noises. "...he's such a pretty liar." He wasn't sure what provoked that sentence out, but as he picked up the crumpled piece of paper where he wrote "I love you"... He just felt certain that it was true. Darcy Harper's POVHe just... Wanted to get out of here. ... Sawyer Laurens's POVShe seemed... Strangely familiar. There was something strangely familiar about all of this. But the words were all like colors they were incapable of seeing. They all blurred together confusingly... [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 22/03/2023 22:28 (1 Year ago) |
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Name of Character: Kathryn Arbred Character Age: 15 Years Old Personality: A rather timid and fearful girl, who constantly is afraid something will go wrong. She's rather quiet most of the time, and does her best to appear composed. She acts kind, polite, and mature towards others, and she has a rather fun and lighthearted side if you can get her to let loose for a little while. But it's difficult for her to relax, and oftentimes you'll see her shivering, and you may find yourself wondering if it's because of the cold. In reality, she's so incredibly traumatized that being around absolutely anyone makes her feel deathly afraid. Appearance: Kathryn Arbred stands at 5'5". She is somewhat slim, but you would never know it with all the layers and layers of clothing that she wears. Almost her entire body is covered by layers. She has at least four sweaters on at any given time, and her neck is almost entirely covered by a tightly wrapped red scarf. She also quite commonly wears black gloves, and has multiple pairs of baggy pants. She has almond-colored skin that is covered almost entirely by scars, some even on her face. She has curly brown hair naturally, of medium length, that she straightened because she did not wish to stand out. Kathryn also has rather wide brown eyes, that always look as though she is a deer caught in headlights. She has rather neat bangs as well. Her hands underneath her gloves are heavily scarred from being nearly completely burned off. Backstory (Optional, but recommended): TBA, perhaps's. Reference Image (Optional, but recommended): TBA, perhaps's. Password (Found in the Rules): Ōmagatoki Other: Oh boy I'm bringing Lucian's sister back from the dead! Here goes! [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 22/03/2023 03:57 (1 Year ago) |
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Posted: Tue, 21/03/2023 07:07 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLucian inhaled sharply. Part of him felt... Slightly disturbed at Paiyoon. What was she laughing at? But he headed off to vote regardless. Well... It was a shot in the dark, but... It was an option, wasn't it? They just had to take their chances with this, really. "I hope I'm making the right decision..." He wrote down Idris Kallikrates. [Read more] |
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Posted: Sun, 19/03/2023 16:26 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLucian paused, looking thoughtful. "I haven't spoken with Setsuna. I don't understand why people voted for him." He tapped an index finger up against the side of his face. "...but... I don't have any solid reason to believe he's innocent, either." But... "...what you mentioned about Idris could make him potentially suspicious. Artemis seems like he doesn't care at all about this whole ordeal. He didn't even seem to care at the thought of innocents dying. And of course, that could sound suspicious, but.." Lucian shook his head. "...it's all so confusing, and circumstantial. I spoke with Elehah, and it feels like there is something... Slightly off about him, but I'm not quite sure." He tilted his head and gazed directly at Paiyoon. "...and then there's you. Who, for some reason I can't fathom... It feels like you're innocent to me. I can't quite explain it." A sad look came upon Lucian's face. I don't want to be wrong. I don't want anyone else to die... "...you just... Feel innocent. But I agree, Idris doing that is suspicious. Should we confront him about it?" [Read more] |
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Posted: Sun, 19/03/2023 03:36 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVWhat is she, a detective? Lucian didn't voice the thought out loud, because although it was not intended that way, he thought it might come out rude and sarcastic. To be honest, he was impressed at her analysis. He was not quite sure if this was the right call to make or not, but the way Paiyoon seemed so frantic to help them all out... Well. It could be an act, but his intuition stated, with a strange sort of certainty, that she was innocent. She was most likely innocent. Lucian looked carefully at Paiyoon, tilting his head. "...you're sure the answer is Idris? It's not a bad suspicion. It's just..." He inhaled sharply, a worried expression spreading upon his face. He crossed his arms. "...I don't want to be wrong. We can't have another innocent die on us." He gazed directly at Paiyoon. "...I'm willing to vote him. If you're sure. I just want to choose whatever is most likely to bring as many of us out of this alive." ... "...let's not let Hanako die for nothing. I don't want that." This whole situation was so messed up. The clock was ticking. Lucian knew he had to throw the dice, cross his fingers, and hope they didn't come up snake eyes. He barely knew these people. It was a leap of faith, with scarcely any logic. Lucian preferred not to risk things. Not to leap right in. He preferred to think as many steps ahead as possible. He wanted to be sure. But if pure intuition was what he had to vote on... He exhaled. Pure intuition would be what he had to vote on. [Read more] |
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Posted: Sat, 18/03/2023 22:23 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVHe turned to look at Elehah, and sighed. "...I guess all we can do is try to figure out who the other Yōkai are. So that we'll be permitted to leave. Poor Hanako..." He winced. If only he could have done something... "...we just have to figure this all out before it's too late. So, the question is... How do we determine who the other Yōkai are? We got lucky about Mei. But it's impossible to know if someone is guilty, or merely seems suspicious. I don't know how much we can gauge about everyone by talking but..." He paused. "...it seems like the best option. Then we just vote and pray we're right." He shook his head. This was all so awful. He had hardly spoken a word to any of these people, and yet it upset him deeply that some of them were dying. They had to figure this out quickly, before they were all picked off like flies... Just who was the sadist doing this to them all? Lucian shook his head once again. Motives. He had to think about motives. Did the Yōkai have any reason to target anyone specifically? He frowned. Was there anything the victims had in common? It would make the most sense that they would simply target whoever they thought they were least likely to get caught killing. But the question was... how could it be determined? It was just a game of chance when he thought about it. But he had to find the answer. He had to. He approached Paiyoon. "...so... I guess Mei was a Yōkai. But I'm not sure who the others might be. Honestly, that was mostly a lucky guess." He chewed on a lock of his hair and sighed. "...I hate this. I really just hope we can figure this out as soon as possible, so as few people die as possible. Do you have any ideas on who may be suspicious?" It couldn't hurt to ask. However... Paiyoon might also be a Yōkai. If he observed her carefully, he may discover her possible guilt. She... Seemed innocent, but just because someone didn't seem suspicious didn't mean they weren't guilty. So... Who was really guilty, was the question? Who could he trust? For all Lucian knew, Elehah may have approached him to make himself seem innocent. And he may in fact be a Yōkai. But Lucian also didn't want to jump the gun on that one, because what if he was innocent? It was all so... Troubling. [Read more] |
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Posted: Sat, 18/03/2023 20:17 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLook after yourself, Lucian, 'kay?" "...I... Okay." Lucian nervously tugged at a lock of his hair with a sigh. He'd have to talk to Idris later. Maybe offer him a session. To be honest... It seemed like everyone could use a little help. "...O-Oh god, s-sorry I..." Lucian's eyes widened. "No! I-- I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel bad. It just... Reminded me of something." "...Lucian, I-... just... Stop, please. Just... Stop." "..." He looked startled a moment, before wiping away his tears. "...okay..." Lucian blinked upon noticing Darcy there. Was... Was he coming? There was a certain look in his eyes. A look Lucian didn't like... Darcy Harper's POV... The ledge almost beckoned him to it. He shook his head. "I'm... Really glad Akari and Idris stopped you. From jumping. I don't think any of us want to continue on without you." He turned and saw Sawyer, who still looked so puzzled. So... Unaware of what was going on. Lucian looked away from Darcy with a small smile concentrated upon his face. "...it's alright. Really. It was my fault for almost jumping, in the first place." Darcy shook his head. "I-- let's just... Go." Sawyer walked over to Darcy, and stared over the gap, and then back at him. They looked as though they were realizing something. "...Darcy, did we used... To go to the beach together?" Darcy's brightened. "Yes! Yes, we did. Why do you..." Darcy spotted the gap again. ... His eyes widened. "Why were you sometimes... So close to falling over the railing?" Lucian stiffened. Darcy knew exactly what he was thinking... Sawyer Laurens's POVIt feels like we have. I remember how I'd find you on the bridge sometimes. Like... That. Was that real? Am I imagining it? "I-- I accidentally... Well, I-- I wanted to get a good look and I--" Darcy looked pale. "L-Let's just go." Sawyer almost looked... Doubtful. "Okay! Do they have any good food in this place? I'm hungry! For some reason, I'm thinking of that game. With the underground and stuff. You get that feeling?" "...Yeah. Yeah, I do get that feeling." ... Darcy just wanted to see over the mountain and accidentally fell down into a pile of flowers. That was all there was to it. Right? ...that was what happened. I think. I don't remember if that's even real or not. Lucian whispered something to Darcy Sawyer didn't quite catch. At least... They thought they saw him whisper. ... There was something so... Sad about this place. Everyone seemed so sad, and Sawyer didn't know why. Everything seemed so... Gloomy. Lucian Arbred's POV"...I guess we better get going." Something about Sawyer's mind seemed to have shifted. There was something.. less cheerful about them. Somehow. What was going on...? [Read more] |
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Posted: Sat, 18/03/2023 14:08 (1 Year ago) |
Darcy Harper's POVDarcy had been heading into the Bridge Room. But... But... ... Seeing the gap put him into a state of despondency. He just stared at it. He stared... And stared... And stared... ...that bridge. That same bridge. ...the bridge. ...why didn't I jump? By the time he pulled himself out of his thoughts, alarm overtook him. Thank God, Lucian hadn't jumped yet. But... ... Oh, Idris and Akari were there already. ... He wasn't needed here. What could he even say to Lucian? How could he make it better? Darcy knew that... He wanted to jump too. It was difficult not to just fling himself off, watching this. It's so tempting. It wouldn't even be that hard. ... But that was the thing. How could he stop Lucian when he himself, could barely convince himself not to do it? ...I shouldn't have come in here. That was what Darcy Harper realized as he stared into that gap. ...he couldn't jump in there. Because Sawyer needed him more than ever. ... Did... Did they? Or did Darcy just want to think they needed him? ... He didn't have the words to help. ... He just stood there, helplessly. ... Wishing he knew what to say. But he didn't. Lucian Arbred's POVSomeone's hands. Hovering near his face. ...Akari's? Gripping his shoulders. Lucian's eyes widened. "...oh, god, not again." He inhaled sharply. It's not like that! It's just Akari. He's not... Going to kidnap and torture you. ...I think. Akari's eyes pierced Lucian's, and his heart pounded out of his chest. What was... What was he doing here? "...Lucian." ... "Stop." ... ...why? "...Calm down. Take a deep breath. Listen, just for a second, alright? Look, just..." ... Listen... To what? Lucian wasn't quite sure anymore. Everything... Was just too much. "We're here, aren't we? I know it's hard, but... C'mon, don't do this to yourself. We're here, Lucian, don't push us away. Idris is right, we really do need you. And... Just slow down, think a bit, will ya?" "...I'm not worth it. I'm sorry. ...I'm sorry..." Lucian burst into tears. He saw... Darcy, watching with a hopelessly dulled expression upon his face. His eyes seemed to be fixed on the gap. ...and then he saw Akari. Akari, who barely knew him. Who, he of course, couldn't matter to. Why would he? And he saw... Idris, over there. ... But... They.... Needed him? What a silly thought. Lucian Arbred, the family disappointment? He was worthless. Lucian knew he was worthless. ... Or... Was he? Well, he sure was worthless. If he couldn't keep his promises. He clutched tightly to the object he held. "...Kaoru, I..." And Mei... Mei, who wasn't here. Mei, who meant the world to Idris. Who was pleading with him not to do this. ..We're in this together, Lucian, you got that?" ... Were they? "So, c'mon. Gotta stick it out 'till the end, right?" "...I--" "....my sister. Elder sister. She, um-... did the same thing you're doing now. Toes over the edge, desperation etched in her face. Fingers gripped tightly and the goodbyes she never said on the tip of her tongue. Only the difference is.. She jumped. Without a sound, she didn't scream. The only scream heard was the one I made. It hurt so badly, Lucian. It hurt so damn badly. I screamed and screamed and screamed and it hurt like hell. I sat there and sobbed and sobbed as I watched her fall and fall and fall. I saw a hand outstretched but I wasn't fast enough, Lucian. I can't have this happen again, Lucian. Please step away. I couldn't save her. But I will save you." A look of pity spread across Lucian's face. He remembered Caroline, how she'd hung herself. How he hadn't been able to do anything as his own mother slipped away from him. He remembered Kathryn, how the gun had taken away the one person that mattered most. He remembered... ... No, it hurt too much to think about. He stared at the item in his hands. Kaoru Kajiwara's hairclip. And he burst out sobbing. The tears fell to the floor. One By one One By one By one By one... "...I can't let it happen again..." he whispered. He stepped away from the edge. How could he jump, and accept that he'd be unable to save anyone else who followed in his footsteps? ... Someone could die, and he wouldn't be able to do anything. ... He had to keep his promises, and stop this madness. "...okay... Let's go. I-I guess..." Of course how he felt didn't matter. And that was the reason most of all that he SHOULDN'T be doing this. For the others he could be hurting... ... "...Idris. I'm... Sorry." ... "...about Reo." ... Gave you shoes of concrete As you fell Never saw anything Or anyone Again Should have been me It could have been me I wish it had been me I'm so tired I'm so very tired Of seeing other people die In my place ...but it's okay, really. I have to live. So I can stop things like that From ever happening again. I'll figure it out. Somehow. The noose still flickered in Lucian's vision. ...not yet. Not just yet. He grasped tightly at Kaoru's hairclip. not just yet. maybe tomorrow But not today Just not yet. Darcy Harper's POVIt seemed Idris and Akari had talked him out of it. Thank goodness. But Darcy had to get himself out of this room soon. ... He was getting... Twitchy. Seeing that ledge, not so far away... It's funny. It was always Sawyer. That was always his only reason not to. The only way he could stop himself. ...and what was going on with Sawyer now... How'd he help them through it? ...no, he had to... He'd... Figure it out. Somehow. Darcy sighed, tears welling in his eyes. What he'd done... Was nothing that mattered. Yet again. When would he matter? Would he ever matter?... No, how could he think of that When Lucian was right there... Barely having not jumped? He shook his head. ...he'd... He'd have to talk to Lucian after this. He just had to... Drag himself out of... ... That ledge. That gap, was so mesmerizing... Sawyer Laurens's POV...? The room was so eerily quiet. Why was Sawyer here? Were they all... Waiting for something? They didn't get it. Part of them felt like they knew why they were here, but... But why? Something about it All felt so familiar Somehow... [Read more] |
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Posted: Sat, 18/03/2023 00:20 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVWon't you get up off, Get up off the roof? You're scaring us And all of us Some of us love you Achilles, it's not much but there's proof You crazy-assed cosmonaut, Remember your virtue, Redemption lies plainly in truth… "Lucian..?" Lucian Arbred barely turned his head, his body shaking. It was like he could only feel that shaking. The world was shaking. The entire world was shaking. His fingers grasped at that object, a saddened, heavy look overtaking his eyes. Idris wasn't here. He couldn't be here. He must have been hallucinating. But he heard the voice again. Lucian teetered at the edge. It tempted him, it tempted… "Re- Lucian. You don't have to do this." …Re… who? … "...no, I– I have to! Don't I?..." …did he? Lucian wasn't so sure of anything anymore. "...Caroline?" he whispered to himself. "...Mom?" Did she feel like she had to do that? Did she feel like she had to tie that noose? Did she feel… like she had to kick away that chair? Did she think… of her children? "...Mom, are you there?" She never looked like she was really there. With those empty, empty eyes. Those empty eyes that saw nothing. Are you, are you coming to the tree? They strung up a man, they say who murdered three Strange things did happen here No stranger would it be If we met, at midnight, in the hanging tree Are you, are you coming to the tree? Wear a necklace of hope, side by side with me Strange things did happen here No stranger would it be If we met At midnight In the hanging tree "Please." The realization struck him for the first time. Of who was speaking. Was he really saying that? Please… "Idris…? Is that you?" …what are you doing here? "...I left you. I left you when you needed me. Because I thought I couldn't help. That my presence would make no difference. Mei didn't leave you, though. Leave me here. Leave me like I left you." He teetered on the edge once again. He stared into the gap. "...why can't I just do it already? Why the stalling? I'm pathetic, really." He shook his head, and took a deep breath. "...I'm sorry, Idris. For everything." "You have people that care about you, right? Friends, family? If not, who cares? It's you that matters, not anyone else. You. You hear me, Reo? You can't jump again, because you'll leave me behind again and I can't bear that." … …? People… that care about me? "...why… why should they care? Idris, I'm not a part of it all. I-I'm not a part of anything. I don't- I don't matter to anyone. I'm just the therapist. I'm just A GHOST. I'm not a person. I– I– I-..." … He gripped the sides of his head. "...I don't matter. I never have. It's other people that matter. I'm not part of the picture." Friends… family… "...it's okay, really. No one would be sad to see me die. I'm not important. Not even a person. It's okay, really. …family, huh? My mother is dead, my sister is dead, my siblings are dead, or they hate me. My father and my stepmother hate me, and they might be dead too, for all I know. Knowing them… knowing the kind of life they've chosen to lead…" He chuckled ironically. "...it's a very rich possibility." … "If not, who cares? It's you that matters, not anyone else. You. You hear me, Reo? You can't jump again, because you'll leave me behind again and I can't bear that." Lucian went very still, as though he had just died. For a moment, he stopped breathing altogether. Eventually, he let the breath out. "...what? What are… what are you saying, Idris?" What the hell was he saying? "...I don't matter. I'm not even a person. I'm DEAD. I'm a CORPSE. They might as well have beaten me down to the ground and thrown me into it! You never escape. You never truly escape. You're dead the moment you–" … "I-I'm sorry, I– what you're saying… it sounds… so strange. I don't matter. It's… it's the patients that matter. Not me. That's the point. Idris, I– I already left you behind… I'm sorry…" Why was he crying? Please don't cry. I'm not worth it. Just by leaving I'm bringing you another day Hundreds smile, all I do is ruin everything Nobody, wanted me, nobody here to scream Why can't I laugh it off the way that I dreamed? … "I mean- Lucian. Sorry. Same things apply, I guess. Ignore Kubo. He's not important, you're important. So please. Do yourself a favour and step away from the edge. It doesn't have to end like this, 'kay? I can't....we can't have another death. We need you to help solve this whole mess. We really do. And it's not your fault, any of this. It's none of ours. It's that stupid bear and the mastermind. We beat them, we save everyone. And that's what you wanna do, right? Save everyone?" "I'M NOT IMPORTANT!! DON'T YOU GET IT? I NEVER HAVE BEEN IMPORTANT! Why don't you just push me off right now? I'm not even a person. Monokuma shouldn't count it as a murder. Hahahahahahahahaha!! God, no, who am I kidding? I'm just like Dad! I'll always be just like him, even if I never– no matter how hard I– Kubo was-" ...dear god… what am I saying? … Ignore Kubo. "...I can't ignore him… Idris, I love him…" … "...I'm not important, I'm not important…" You won't be any more, than a rat in a gutter. … Save… everyone? For a moment, Lucian took a step back. "...you…" "Well, to save people. To help people, you'll step away from there. You won't be helping anyone if you jump. Not yourself. And for Kubo? Eh, screw him. You blame yourself for all the deaths? Well cut the crap. Help me figure this all out, and then you won't feel like that anymore. If we solve murders, then we'll be one step closer to getting the hell outta here, okay, Lucian? Lucian? You're listening to me, right?" "...no… no… I–" He stared at the object in his hands. "...Kaoru… I…" What had he been thinking…? He didn't know what to say to that. No… he couldn't think that way about Kubo. "I'm sorry. I'm… I'm so sorry…" Lucian hung his head. …part of him still wanted to jump… But he didn't have the energy anymore. "...I'm sorry…" "Lucian. C'mon." Lucian didn't know what to say to that... He said the only thing that came to mind, through trembling lips. "...who's... Reo?" [Read more] |
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Posted: Thu, 16/03/2023 23:11 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVHe wanted to trust this person, he really did. But there was something very off about him. He couldn't place his finger on it. Was he feeling paranoid, because of their environment? Lucian took a deep breath. That announcement... That wasn't good. He had to choose a name. He had to write someone's name down. Condemning them to die. He could be saving or dooming them all with this one move. The question was... Which name to write down? Lucian Arbred shook his head in dismay. He wrote down Mei Akamatsu. He wasn't so sure if this was a good idea. He had no idea who to choose, really. But he had to choose someone... Didn't he? He just had to hope he'd made the right choice. [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 15/03/2023 02:35 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVJust jump, you coward. Why don't you jump? Go ahead, jump. ...why? There was no good reason for him not to do it. But... What would doing this solve, really? He was just running away from his issues. He didn't know how to respond to his own emotional problems, and because of that, he was doing this. Lucian closed his eyes, and breathed in, and out. In and out. ... He wasn't supposed to do this. "...Kubo's right. I'm a coward. I deserve to die." This'll just make everything worse, a voice of reason within his mind whispered. Must you add to everyone's list of trauma? Are you that selfish? Are you that WEAK? Are you that PATHETIC? The voices in his mind were so overwhelming. The voices in his mind were so conflicting. He was supposed to just suck it up. He was supposed to just move on. "...K-Kubo... You... Didn't mean it, right?" he choked out. "...you wouldn't say that. Not that long ago, you said that... Y-you... Said you'd..." ... "...you said you'd do... wh-whatever... It took... To protect me. You don't... You don't hate me, do you? You don't... Want me dead... Do you?" Lucian laughed quietly. Maybe everyone else wants me dead, too. Maybe EVERYONE hates me. The nagging thought dwelled in his mind. Something Mei Akamatsu had said. "Maybe you're a bad omen. Every time you screw, someone winds up dead." Someone winds up dead because of YOU, Lucian Arbred. It's all your fault. Can't even keep your promises, can you? How pathetic. Everyone will be better off without you. Forget about Kubo, he's not worth it. "...N-No. No... He is worth it. Everyone... Is worth it." Lucian gripped at his hair, taking raspy breaths. "...except me. I'm... I'm not worth it." God... Why couldn't he stop hesitating? Why couldn't he just jump already? It was almost like his roleplayer was stalling so Miyako could arrive in time to talk him out of it. Lucian inhaled sharply, and pulled out his notepad. He stared at it, grimacing. I guess... I'll never tell him. I guess I'll never tell anyone. How could he tell Kubo he loved him... When Kubo... Hated him? And how could he tell him the truth? He'll just hate me more than he already does. I bet if I told him, he'd walk me right in here and push me off right now. Maybe... That was why he couldn't do it. ... He'd promised Kaoru. He'd promised Mei. No, this is better for... For everyone. ... Maybe Monokuma will not force another murder if I die. ...that didn't seem entirely rational, but Lucian's brain was not entirely rational right now. This is the only option. This is fine. I'm not supposed to live anyway. ... Everyone can be happy. In a world without me. Lucian laughed. He laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed, but it wasn't quiet anymore. It grew louder and louder. His laughter cracked pitifully. He crumpled the sheet of paper with the words "I love you" and tossed it aside. He took another step closer to the edge, and prepared to jump. Sawyer Laurens's POVThe place. The place felt like a cemetery. Sawyer knocked their knees together, and hummed. Why was no one smiling? Why was everything so sad? ... This was all so confusing. ...were they sad that Mei was punished? [Read more] |
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Dorky OFFLINE Forum Posts: 47 |
Posted: Tue, 14/03/2023 23:36 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVNo. No. No. No. No. He ran, he ran, and he ran, and he didn't stop. The gap was wide open, he just needed to jump it. His legs were shaking. His knees threatened to give out. He took a heavy breath, about to jump off. ...was he... Really doing this? Kubo's words flashed in his head again. Nothing... Had ever hurt him like those words had. No other blade could cut so deep. Not that much earlier, he said he'd protect me, no matter what. That he wouldn't let me die... But now... But why was he doing this? Why... Was he doing something so selfish? I'm supposed to do better than this. I'm supposed to be strong for everyone... His fist closed tightly around the object. Why? Why had he picked it up? Why had it even been there?... Kaoru... I'm so sorry. ... Mei... I'm so sorry... ...Horatia. Futatabi. ...this was fine, wasn't it? He... He wasn't needed here... Anyways... YOU are needed here, YOU IDIOT! More than EVER! Stop being such a wimp. GO BACK IN THERE!! GO BACK AND F**KING HELP EVERYONE. UTTER SOME STUPID PHILOSOPHICAL BS LIKE YOU ALWAYS DO. You're... You're supposed to... Help, dammit. Why? ... Was it too much? Your mother is dead. Your siblings are dead. Your parents put you through hell, every single minute of your life. You've had patients struggle before, so many of them. You've had patients DIE on you before. ...that wasn't too much, but four strangers was? Quit being so weak, Lucian, step away from the edge. Or step towards it. Good riddance. Lucian couldn't stop shivering and shaking. He burst into tears. And yet... Four people dying... And the man he loved, saying such atrocious things to him... He hates me. He wants me dead. He could hear that horrible laugh, once again. ... He didn't want to jump. But he wanted this to be over. ...but dammit, if he didn't jump soon, someone might come. Don't save me. No one is supposed to save me. ...no one... He was always supposed to save himself. He could always hear Mei laughing, and see her rolling her eyes. He could imagine her saying, "Wowwwww, Lucian. Seriously? That's just pathetic! What the hell are you doing? So that's it, then, huh? You made all those bombastic promises about "saving" and "helping" everybody, and getting them all out of here, and then that's the end of Lucian Arbred! Some Ultimate Therapist! He couldn't even help himself." Lucian took another step closer. ...he just... Had to jump. He wanted to. He didn't want to. ...which was it going to be, really? Darcy Harper's POV"...I'm going after him, too. Someone please watch Sawyer." I don't trust THEM not to get themself killed either. Please, let this not be too late... ... Darcy would probably kill himself, too. If he didn't have Sawyer to think about... Then he wasn't sure what would stop him from doing it. He remembered, many times, at that bridge... Many of the thoughts he'd have... He wondered if Lucian was having similar thoughts. But before he left, he walked up to Kubo, and slapped him right across the face. "You. You f**king disgust me. How you can say that to another person, especially someone like him..." He narrowed his eyes and turned away. "...I don't know how you can live with yourself." Taking a deep breath, he ran off to stop Lucian. Sawyer Laurens's POVSawyer stared around the room. It felt... Empty and alone. Darcy...? He'd left. Now the room felt even more unfamiliar. Sawyer wasn't sure what to make of it all. "What's... Going on?" they whispered. [Read more] |
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Dorky OFFLINE Forum Posts: 47 |
Posted: Tue, 14/03/2023 21:13 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV... "...I'd push you off.." ...no. "Lucian, man, c'mon. This dumbass isn't worth it. Listen to me. I'll forgive you for pushing me if you ditch this loser and come and drink booze or something with me. Or water, if that's what you prefer. This idiot has been lying to you this whole time, and I dunno why you didn't see it earlier. Were you blinded by love, Lucian? To be honest, I was too. And it hurts, Lucian. It really does. And I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. 'Cept Kubo....maybe. So please. Come with me and we'll mourn everyone peacefully. No words exchanged. Kubo. Isn't. Worth. Your. Time." "...no..." "N-No. Wait. I-" "I-I-" "I- shouldn't we go?" "No Kubo. We shouldn't. For once, I agree with Idris. You don't deserve Lucian, if you can say that to him. If you can let him die for you and still be as self absorbed as you are, refusing to apologize-" "I hate you so much, every time I look at you, my chest hurts. If it didn't mean my death, I'd push you right off the bridge after Futatabi." ... "I hate you so much, every time I look at you, my chest hurts. If it didn't mean my death, I'd push you right off the bridge after Futatabi." I hate you so much. Every time I look at you, my chest hurts. If it didn't mean my death, I'd push you right off the bridge after Futatabi. The walls of the room were closing in. The voices, everyone's damn voices, were too much right now... He couldn't say anything. "...Drop it. Can we all just... Drop it?" "...So, room for one more?" No. Lucian shot Kubo one last pitiful glance. ...there was only one thing Lucian wanted to drop right now. Lucian Arbred leaned down to pick something up. and then he ran as fast as he could to the Bridge Room. ...he wasn't thinking, in that moment. He just wanted it all to stop. [Read more] |
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Dorky OFFLINE Forum Posts: 47 |
Posted: Tue, 14/03/2023 19:48 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVKubo's words rung in his ears. Lucian's lips moved, but no sound came out. "You think I care?" ...he doesn't care who dies... "You're a coward, Lucian." He's right. I'm a coward. "That's why you stick to me like glue." "...no... That's not it, I..." I love you. "I hate you." ...I hate you. ...I hate you. I hate you. I hate you. He hated him...? He... Hated him?... More... Than he hated Mei... Kubo's hands making his way to either side of his face. ...he would have been so happy at that gesture, if it weren't for what Kubo was saying. "I hate you. I hate you so much, every time I look at you, my chest hurts. If it didn't mean my death, I'd push you right off the bridge after Futatabi." Lucian, with tears rolling down his face, choked out, "...then I'll do it for you. You'd like that, wouldn't you? To see my dead body?... Would that make you happy, Kubo? I'll jump right off, for you, right now. If you want that so badly. Because the really f**ked up thing is..." He inhaled sharply. "...I'd do it for you. I'd do it for you in an instant." ... "...because you mean that much to me. S-So... Is that what you want?" he asked, his voice cracking through the tears. "You can see me, soundless, not another noise to be heard. You can see my bloody, battered, body. The life fading out of it. With a smile on your face. I'd bleed out if that was what it f**king took to make you happy. ...so... Do you really want that?" [Read more] |