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Dorky OFFLINE   Forum Posts: 47 |
Posted: Thu, 30/03/2023 18:07 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV"No! Kubo! Be careful, don't fall!" Oh god. Oh god. Oh god. "I-- I'll go get help, okay? Just stay here, take it easy..." Tears stirred in his eyes. He didn't care what Kubo had said to him anymore. The question was... Who could he ask for help? Was... Was Kubo sick? Badly injured somehow? Was he fainting from shock? "I-It's okay, you'll be okay..." Please be okay. ... I don't want to lose you. ... I love you. [Read more] |
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Posted: Thu, 30/03/2023 06:00 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV"Y-You are? That's..." Lucian paused. He wasn't so sure he believed that. Something about the dullness of Kubo's voice, and just something seemed to be... Telling him it wasn't answering his question. "Kaoru's dead. We killed her. We killed our angel." Lucian's eyes widened. A sad look came upon his face. ...she... She was dead. We killed her. "...it... Wasn't your fault, Kubo. It was mine..." ... "I... I miss her too..." Kaoru. She was dead. Dead and gone. A sickening feeling overtook him. He couldn't help it. He threw his arms around him, tears forming in his eyes. ...he just wanted to cry with him. "...Kubo... What's wrong?" he asked, choking the words out. I know you're not fine... Yes... That... That had to be it. ... That's why he'd said that, right? ... He was losing it. Lucian wanted to beat himself for even thinking about that. ... It didn't matter if Kubo hated him. If Kubo hated him, well, Lucian knew he deserved it... He just wanted him to be okay... "...I- I'll help you, okay? We can figure this out together..." [Read more] |
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Posted: Thu, 30/03/2023 02:52 (1 Year ago) |
Femi Davis [GHOST]...why? WHY? How could Suko do such a thing? Why had he gone and trusted them? Why had he gone and loved them? Why had he... Why had he kissed them, that night? Why had he asked if he could be their boyfriend? ...why... Why... Why? When Suko lured him away with that note. When Suko locked him up in that room, leaving him screaming for help, as his body was being burned to smithereens... As he was struggling to scratch out his killer's name... "Suko" onto the wall, with his nails... As he had banged on the door, yelling and screaming and begging and pleading for them to come help, for them to come save them... But no one came. Suko... I loved you. Why did... You do that to me? ... "Th-That... Was a m-mistake. You never trust a-anyone." He hugged his arms closely to his chest. But then, he saw something that made him pale. Some girl, he didn't know who she was. She was... She was near to Suko. She was... Touching them. Blushing. Tears stirred in his eyes. "...w-was... Was I that easy to get over? Were- were you playing me, S-Suko?" Of course. He should have known. It was all for a gag. He was just Suko's little joke. Suko's little plaything. Suko's little boytoy. Bullies. People. Were. All. Just. Awful, awful, AWFUL bullies. "I- I thought... I thought you were different." ... "I thought I meant something to someone. I- I-" ... "I thought you l-loved me, Suko." ... But... ... Wait. How were they... Here? Femi's eyes widened. If Suko was his killer, they would have been executed. Could it be... (Editor's note: Femi doesn't know about the fact the dead can be brought back in this Yōkai universe, even though he himself was brought back, in this case, he just doesn't assume Suko was executed and brought back.) ...could it be that... They hadn't killed him? Femi wanted to hope that was true. "B-But... If... They weren't playing me, what are... They doing with..." ... "Fine! Screw it. I- I never needed you anyway. I-" ... I needed you. I really needed you. "...but you're there, a-and I'm here... And... I can't say a word. I- I can't even find out the truth..." They had seemed devastated that he had died again. ... If that was what they were devastated about. Could just be an act. ... It's like... I don't even know you, Suko. I thought... I honestly thought you never would have killed me. And now, I see you over there with... That girl, and... ... "...I bet sh-she's... Something special, huh?" Good for you. [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 29/03/2023 19:48 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVPoor Kubo... He seemed so out of it. "...after what you said, I thought you might not be feeling the greatest..." ... "...are you okay?" he asked nervously. It was indescribable. How conflicted Lucian was feeling. ... Why am I even here? He... Hates me, doesn't he? [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 29/03/2023 18:24 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVThe snow gently falls on and on, I walk into the garden and I find you, Suddenly I don't feel quite so blue The light isn't quite too bright, But my heart pounds so fast, And I smile a bit, Is it real? Are you real? I'm a little scared of you But I'd be a liar If I said I wasn't more afraid Of a world without you" How scary could it be? He'd been through far worse. Lucian slowly opened the door. "H-Hey… Kubo. I- It's me, I thought- I– we- I thought I should check up on you after-" He stopped mid-sentence. His eyes widened. He rushed over before he could stop himself. "K-KUBO! What happened to your face? Are- are you okay? Oh my gosh, I should get you some first aid! Does it hurt?" What was with that bruise? Was he okay? Had he been hurting himself? All potential bitterness about what he had said was swept under the rug. Buried. His only worry was Kubo's injury. [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 29/03/2023 05:46 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVThank god that was over. Lucian found his way to a dorm door. He felt strangely certain that... Kubo was behind it. He wasn't quite sure why. Nervously, he prepared to knock. What was he even so worried about? ...well. The last time Kubo had seen him, he'd told him he hated him and would kill him if he could. Oh, well. He supposed he... Better talk to Kubo. About what happened. Maybe even... Forget about it? He knocked on the door. [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 29/03/2023 05:22 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV"I can... See I'm interrupting something. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to make this awkward." So... Setsuna has... Something of a love life here, huh? He smiled slightly, almost feeling a slight tinge of jealousy. ... Kubo. Why did everything always seem to go back to him? He needs you, more than any of us. ... I mean... Maybe he should go check if Kubo was okay. Right? After all, it seemed he was... Just interfering with Setsuna's social life here. Just bothering him. ... Yeah... Maybe... [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 29/03/2023 00:53 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVHe heard what the boy was saying. He winced. Yeah... Maybe he didn't want to talk to him right now. "...I'm sorry, I-- if I'm interrupting something, I'll go..." ... "I just wanted to make sure you were okay." Darcy Harper's POVEverything was so horrible, and confusing. And he was trapped here. In this place. With no way out. In this horrible, horrible ship, and soon they'd all be going back to that horrible school-- And he might die here. He knew he might die here. It'd just be the end of him and he'd just be forgotten and GONE and FORGOTTEN and gone and forgotten and-- ...Gone and forgotten. And no one would ever remember he even existed. It'd be just like Sawyer's mind. He would just vanish from the minds of everyone. There are worse things than being forgotten, a voice in his mind seemed to whisper. One that sounded all too much like Mei. His eyes widened. "No..." he choked out. You could, for instance, be a bad person, Darcy! And you are one, aren't you? "Pl-Please... Leave me alone. Go away." I know what you did to your sister. Darcy went pale. ... "That's in the past, I-- I had no choice, I--" You're a horrible person. "I just COULDN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! OKAY?" ... Oh god. This spaceship was making him nauseous. Darcy sobbed into the pillow. When would they get back to the school?... At least there he could pretend Mei wasn't dead. He could pretend everything wasn't wrong. But yeah, right. Darcy was never that great at pretending. He never understood how Sawyer did it... The only way to rid yourself of your sorrows was to drink and drug them away... And then the guilt, the sickening guilt that came afterward... It was just too much. He was a sinner for that reason too, wasn't he? I bet God hates you. "To be honest, he probably does..." Why wouldn't He? Darcy narrowed his eyes to slits. Someone had gone and f**king trapped them all here. It was because of that person he was in here, crying. Some monster had gone and-- Shifting the blame, are we? ... "And that's why I need you, don't I, Sawyer? After all... You're the one thing that can distract me from this grim reality." ... What now? Try to stop another murder from being committed? Just sit around and hope nothing bad happens? ... ...what... Now? Sawyer Laurens's POVWas the party... Over? ...what party? There was something so off and dim about this place. Sawyer blinked, a strangely confused look upon their face. "Someone, please tell me what's going on..." Killing Game? Trapped in school? Strange. That couldn't be right. Question was, what was right? Maybe someone here knew answers. But who?... [Read more] |
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Posted: Wed, 29/03/2023 00:14 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVHe dipped his head, in a bow of respect, before slowly walking out. He went off to find Setsuna, who... He saw was hanging out with... Sutaraitsu? Lucian raised his eyebrows. Oh... Gosh. Maybe he was interrupting something. He awkwardly lingered, giving a little wave. "...hey, Setsuna." Should I... Go? [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 23:16 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVIt... Was actually... Nice talking to Miyako. Almost. It was ALMOST NICE. Never did he think he'd ever think that. Well... People could often surprise you. [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 22:12 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV"...oh. right. Of course..." Now I know why I didn't look for my own answers... It wasn't just that they don't matter. It's that there really are no answers. He gritted his teeth. There's only one thing... Lies. I get paid to lie to people. There were no real answers for anything. All you had were your hopes. And when you wiped away that hope, there was nothing underneath. "You can't save everyone, you know. You can do your damn well best, and that's it. That's all." "No. Nononono. That's not-- that's not right. I'm supposed to save everyone." ... But I couldn't. "Sometimes it's time to take care of yourself. That's the time right now." "It's alright. Really. I'm fine." Liar. You're not. THERE'S NO DAMN POINT TO TAKING CARE OF MYSELF. But-- The Ultimate Therapist is supposed to hold his own hand. "I'm. Fine." His voice sounded strangely firm, almost angry. ... "...where's Setsuna? He needs me right now. Like you said." But the anger was not directed at Miyako. It was directed at himself. YOU'VE BURDENED HER FOR TOO LONG. SHE'S NOT THE THERAPIST HERE!! ... GET IT THE HELL TOGETHER, YOU STUPID WORTHLESS GOOD-FOR-NOTHING MUR- ...what? I didn't do that... You remember? He did. ... Right. Of course. Just a slip of the tongue, Luke. ... Please don't call me that. That's not my name anymore... ... Miyako interrupted his conflicted thoughts. "Lucian- I don't know what you're dealing with. We'll probably never be friends. But you have to trust me on this- you haven't done anything wrong. Life's dealt you a sh*tty hand, and that's that- you just need to deal with it. That's all you need to do." He looked at her with a pained expression. "I'm a therapist, right?" His voice cracked. "Friend to everyone... And to no one. I'm on a mission, and I can't fail. ...where's Setsuna?" ...deal with it. No, don't think about it. Lucian knew he had issues. He knew denial wasn't a good thing. But... He couldn't drag others down with his own feelings. With his own trauma. The whole point was to save others. He wasn't part of that picture. "...thank you, Miyako." He shouldn't have been dumping his problems on her like this... "...sorry if I bothered you." ... "...do you know where he is? It's really important that I check he's okay." [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 16:35 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV...there's only one way to die, and it's by giving up. The words rung in his ears. His mother had gone one day and hung herself... She was dead. She was dead. ...she was truly dead. She gave up. She gave up on herself, on her children, on... On having a better life. And all Lucian could think was... He didn't want anyone else to feel that helpless. As helpless as she felt, or as helpless as he felt when she left, without saying a word. As Lucian got older, he wondered if it was really his mother who had hung herself, or if she was murdered. Honestly, that could be the case, there was no way of knowing for sure at this point. Caroline Arbred was underneath the ground by now, somehow ever thinner and ever more fragile than she was before. ... But Lucian hadn't given up. He'd told Kathryn he'd never leave her side. That he'd protect her, that she'd protect him, that they'd protect each other. That they'd get out, that everything would be okay... Who knew such promises were so fragile they could be broken by a single bullet. Poor Kathryn. She had layers and layers of clothing for a bullet to snag in. She even wore layers of newspaper underneath her clothes. She was just so afraid... But she'd never predicted the first place someone would aim would be her head. Someone put a bullet through his dear sister's brain, and... Even if he could have called the ambulance, they never would have come in time. And even if she could have been saved, she never would have been the same. He'd never forget the terrified, shattered look in her eyes, slowly fading away. We were supposed to run away one day. Have a better life, you and I. If only she was here, she'd be studying to be a doctor... Maybe she'd even be the Ultimate Doctor. She was smart enough for that. Lucian may have decided to do that too, if... If it weren't for... ... Seeing all the blood, the gore, the injuries, the sickness, the death, the helplessness... It all reminded you of those parts of your life he wanted to forget. Was... It so cowardly? That he didn't want to go back to all that? He wanted to help people, but... ... He was still helping people, right? Well... He couldn't do that if he gave up. He couldn't do that if he was dead. In a way, he had become a therapist for Kathryn. ... Kathy... Are you out there somewhere? ... "...Tell me, Miyako. Tell me ghosts exist. Tell me that she's safe, that she's at peace. Even if it's a lie..." He let out a faint whimper. ... "...please." ...it was the bear. It was the mastermind who was behind this. It wasn't his fault... "...I-- I just... Wish I could have saved everyone, Miyako. And if everyone else dies, I don't know what I'll do. In a way... It feels like we, as therapists, can't always provide all the answers. We can't always end the pain, only ease it. Everyone is always in pain, and dying is the only way to end that. A life without pain is meaningless, and... Some people are worth suffering for. Maybe the most important thing in times like this..." He closed his eyes, and then opened them again. "...hope. You just can't give up hope. When truth is at an end, when trust may be withering, when everything else fails... That's all you can give. The hope that things will someday be better. And... I guess I can hope, that even though I..." "...even though I didn't save her, she still died with hope in her heart. That we'd get out of that house together. Get out of that life together." Kathy would be wearing all her favorite dresses and she'd be excitedly telling him how her co-workers had complimented her on all of them. And how... Nothing of THAT nature had happened. How she'd gone out and had fun and how she'd learned so much about medicine. She'd tell him about the first life she saved, and the next. And the grateful looks in people's eyes. They'd exchange stories about their clients, and weep together about those they couldn't save. Maybe they'd even grow a garden together... Kathy... One of the few people he could call family in this world. She was just fifteen. Just fifteen. And some monster put a bullet through her brain. And Lucian, Lucian almost couldn't... ... But he'd never kill anyone. No matter what they did. Lucian wasn't like that. He'd never wish death upon anyone. "...I think you may be right." Not giving up... Not giving up hope... Their own choices... "...not all of them, Miyako. Your family, and... Your clients. Those people, they don't always die by choice. Sometimes... It's an accident. Sometimes they wanted to stop, but it was too late." His wide brown eyes had never looked wider. "...some of them, had their lives ripped away from them. By others..." ... In all his time as a therapist, Lucian had never realized just how hard on him everything had been. All those people that you met, and talked to, and grew attached to. You had so much hope for them, for their potential. You wanted to see them so well. But so often, they didn't. They struggled. They all struggled with their own issues. Fights against themselves, their families, their lives. Begging you to just give them a reason to believe. A reason not to jump off the ledge. You know what I say? F*ck em. Die with spite. You are who you are and even if you can bleed out in a back alley, those words'll be on your tongue, even as it lolls out the back of your skull. Own it. You're you, Lucian. No matter what happens, you won't die here, even if you lose every drop of blood in your body, or your heart is torn to pieces. So long as you don't give up, you're here with us." ... "...with spite, huh?" Lucian shook his head. He never wanted to hold spite in his heart for any human being. Maybe that's why... For the most part, he concentrated it all on himself. But he swore he felt his heart stop at those words. "even if you can bleed out in a back alley" ... Lucian made a strange choking noise, as though someone had just stabbed him with spears. "...I almost did," he choked out, his voice scarcely a whisper. No one had heard him either. What was... What was she talking about? "...and... Who am I, exactly?" Lucian Arbred. The Ultimate Therapist. 16 years old. Trapped in an abusive household his whole life. Constantly moving. Everyone who had loved him, who he could have called family, dead. A boy so kind and self-sacrificing that he almost never thinks of himself. Always thinking himself as unimportant. ... Loves writing, loves reading, loves snow, loves the stars, loves Greek mythology, loves astrology, loves philosophical talk, loves people, loves humanity. ... Too forgiving for his own good. Has absolutely no ego. Always thinking ten steps ahead. Somewhat intelligent. Always gave himself up to the police but refused to testify against anyone but himself. ... Life and death blur into one. Thinks of himself as nothing but a ghost. ... Loves and cares for everyone. ... Was that... Who he was? The words, all those words. So meaningless. ... "...I remember she loved flowers. I remember she hated braces. She liked the texture of wood. Didn't really believe much in fairy tales but read me them anyways..." Kathy... Are you okay? What kind of question was it, really? She was dead. "...I can't imagine dying with spite in my heart, Miyako. No matter what some people may have done to me..." He reached for his scarf with a shudder, tugging at it. "...not... Not most people, anyway." I'll never forgive that man. ... Because how could you do it to Kathy? Do it to him, dammit! Why couldn't it have been him there? She would have wanted me to live. She would have been proud of me. ... Oh, Kathryn... I'm so sorry. A determined, hurt look formed in his eyes. "...but I'm... Not going to give up. No one else is going to die. I'll make sure of it. At least... Try to." He sighed. "...I feel like no one else is going to commit murder. Futatabi's death only happened because of the oxygen factor, but... If Monokuma cooks some other dire thing up, I don't know. Maybe we can all work through it together. We can't let him separate us again." [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 06:50 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVOh, of course. Thank goodness. But then Lucian twisted a lock of hair around his finger, looking legitimately befuddled. "...adorable?" How in the world was he... Adorable? She had to be joking! "Oh, um... Thank you." He wasn't sure what else to say. "Come on, people are happy you're alive. You're still breathing, and people are glad for it. None of that martyr crap, you're staying on this planet with us- we're not letting you go just yet." "...it's not that, I-- it's... Complicated." ... "...I don't know if I've ever learned to solve my own problems... To be frank. I mean, look at me, one of the things I do when I have intense feelings I'm not used to around some guy... try to jump off a ledge, in a way that won't solve anything," he murmured, mostly to himself. ...this... This girl sure was... Strange. "...it's just-- well, it's... Other things. There's more than one way to be dead." He smiled slightly at her. "...although... I- maybe you're right, I don't know." I always tried to find other people's answers. I never wanted to search for my own. ... Could I be a part of that future?... "Hope's Peak's family" ..she said she'd be honored to let me be a part of it. I miss you, Kaoru... But he wondered how she'd feel about it... "...is... It even right that I feel the way I do about him? I'm... Supposed to just help other people, that's supposed to be all that matters..." Laughing, smiling, holding hands. And they all lived happily ever after. [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 06:26 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV... Wait- what the hell was she- Alarmed, Lucian jolted backwards. For a second there, he was worried she might have been planning on stabbing him 37 times in the chest. "Naw, you seem plenty alive to me. Good on you, thinking with your sixth sense, though. Your third eye is wayyy open." After recovering from that alarming "No, I-- that's not... What I meant." Lucian nervously pulled up his scarf as she winked at him. Such a strange girl... "pffft... Don't you have a girlfriend?" he asked in a joking tone. After all, there was no way her intent was to flirt with him. Because seriously, nobody would do that, that was crazy! "I'm a ghost because... In some ways, I'm... Already dead." Somehow, he got the strange impression that a nearby Yōkai was demonstrating her brilliant nose-eraser-balancing skills, before telling himself he must be going insane. [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 06:12 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLucian would be mad, if he was supposed to actually have rights and feelings of his own. It wasn't right to toy with people's feelings, but... Well, he didn't count as one. "I... Thank you?" ...since when... Had someone liked him for who he was...? It'd been a long time since then... "Ghosts are rather fond of mischief, after all, and I'm no exception." Lucian couldn't help but give her an amused smile. "would... Now be a weird time to mention that I personally consider myself a ghost?" he asked half-jokingly. ... But... Did ghosts really exist? The question lingered in his mind. Such a strange girl, Miyako was. And so avoidant. [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 06:03 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV"...how... How is it not?" ... Everything was his fault, wasn't it? Who else's could it be? ... Was she serious? "Oh? Now we're getting into the juicy bits. Trying to distract me from your love affair with a little flirting, I see." Lucian turned to stare at her with a bewildered expression. (I wish he was drinking fruit punch right now because it would be hilarious if he was choking on it) "LOVE AFFAIR?! Nononono-" His face grew even redder. "It's not like that! I'm his... His therapist, and he's my client. That's all. Sure, I care about him, a lot, and... He's important to me, but..." God, what's the use in denying it? ... Maybe it was just instinct. After all, his whole life, he'd... Had to hide things. He knew if... He and Kubo somehow... Became romantically involved, he'd have to keep it a secret. That's how his whole life was. "No, no, I wasn't flirting! I'm serious. Are... Ghosts really real?" [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 05:52 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV... ...everyone needs me. ...Setsuna needs me. ...maybe she's right. I was going to go see him, you know. But you told me not to... ... "And- Kubo needs you, more than us. I don't like you livin for him- he's a bastard, and he sure doesn't deserve you. But if it helps... I dunno." "...does he really? He... He freaking.. he told me he hated me and wanted me dead..." ... "...doesn't deserve me? Yeah- y-you're right. He deserves better company." ... Needs me... huh... Kubo needing him... If he needed him, why did he just leave him to possibly jump out here...? "Maybe he can make you forget your ghosts for a little while. He's no replacement for family- but you can still keep him, you know? Guilt free. He's your Shi. You don't owe Kaoru zilch- me neither, not him- just enjoy whoever makes you happy- or whatever." "...yeah, maybe, I--" . . . Lucian's face went red. "K-Keep him?! My- Shi? It's... It's not like THAT! R-Really! And... It'd never... Be like that." Forget his ghosts for a little while... "It's not..." He pulled out the sheet of paper and stared at it, trying not to cry again. "...like that." ... "...Do I really not owe her anything? She died because of me..." ... It was my fault. "I'm probably saying the wrong things, huh? But I mean it. I want you happy, Lucian, and I hate to see you haunted like this. Goes against my very principles as a ghosthunter. Supposed to exorcise people y'know, not leave em in misery. All I'm saying is, stay here on this planet for a while. Might not be as crappy as you think." "No, I... Not at all. Haha... Thank you. Miyako..." ... "...do ghosts... Really exist?" he asked. [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 05:16 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLucian went very still. He didn't look at Miyako. The slightest of tears bubbled up in his eyes, but he tried his best not to release them. His breathing heaved in and out, in and out, in and out, in and out. He couldn't blink. He just... He just stared straight ahead. And tried not to think about it, but it was impossible not to think about it... "...I always do the right thing, huh?" he croaked out weakly, his body still scarcely moving. He closed his eyes. Always did the right thing... If I always do the right thing, why couldn't I save her?... If he always did the right thing, why couldn't he save everyone for that matter? "...I don't think that's true, Miyako. I don't always do the right thing..." He breathed deeply. "...no one does. And I..." Miyako... YOU always do the right thing? What was... What was she talking about? Either that was a blatant lie, or... "...I... I assumed so much about you, didn't I? When I hardly know you at all." A pause. "...I thought you had something to do with it, Miyako. Maybe... It was just my own grief." He lowered his head. "...maybe I just needed someone to blame. I'm... I'm ashamed of myself." Breathing was feeling so hard. His chest tightened. "...I may have not known her that long. But Kaoru... Was the best friend I ever had. She reminded me so much of my sister. And..." He shuddered, thinking back to that day. "...the things you said to her, the way you acted... What... What the hell was with that? I thought... You may have pr-provoked her into it. Somehow. I'm sorry." His shoulders sagged. "...I've been unfair to you. I'm so sorry." ... "I'm supposed to dig deep, and find the truth about people. The REAL truth. Not all that seems to be there on the surface. Heh..." ... "...what kind of therapist am I, anyway? When I couldn't save her, and... So many others?" ... "...I failed." "I don't believe so. If it's some suicide BS, I'll slap you upside your head. But... if you want to tell me- Go ahead. I won't mind." ... "Oh, well, it's..." Lucian shifted awkwardly. "...it's this song, that tells this story..." ... Mei... I'm so sorry. "...that tells this story about a man, condemned to hang, because he was accused of killing three people. It's left ambiguous if that's true or not. And someone, probably romantically involved with this person in the song, well... They told them to run so that the two of them would both be free. The song isn't very clear about this, but they shifts to asking that person if they're coming to the tree to..." He paused. "...wear a necklace of hope, side-by-side with me. Well, it's... Hope. Or rope, depending on the version, but..." ... "It's... Funny how familiar it all feels. We're all trapped here. And most of us... Well, there's a very real chance we're all going to die. I... Don't want to let that happen, but... I can't help but think about how no matter what hope we hold onto, we all wind up at that tree eventually. How we wind up there... It depends on what we do, but..." ... "...death is really such a strange thing. We all cling on to the hope that we can run away with those we love, and escape from what torments us..." ...Kathryn flickered in Lucian's vision. Tears stirred within his eyes. "...but in the end, we all wind up hanging at that tree, somehow. I guess... The important thing is that our deaths aren't in vain, right? I... I don't really know what I'm saying..." Setsuna... I'm sorry. "...sorry. Got carried away there..." [Read more] |
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Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 04:47 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POV... What... What was with that look in her eyes? "...Miyako, I... I'm sorry, this... This is going to sound really mean but..." He hesitated. "...why do you care? A-About me... I mean. Why do you?" I mean... If she does. Why is she even bothering...? "You're here now, Lucian. Don't focus on anything, okay?" ... "I could sing or read to you or anything you want- but no matter what, I'm staying right here. That's the common denominator." "I'm---" He wanted to say "I'm fine" and just... Just push her away because... Because this was... ... This was... Miyako. Who was scary and confusing. Was this some kind of manipulation on her part, or... ... Or was this a part of her he hadn't seen? ... He wanted to just say "I'm fine" and push her away, but... No. Nono. He... He wanted to push away the person she seemed like on the surface. Maybe she wasn't so bad... Lucian barely looked at her, a faraway look in his eyes. "...Miyako, have you ever heard... That song about the hanging tree?" he asked quietly [Read more] |
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Dorky OFFLINE Forum Posts: 47 |
Posted: Tue, 28/03/2023 02:32 (1 Year ago) |
Lucian Arbred's POVLucian quivered, and then visibly flinched. He tried to look away but he couldn't. He swallowed. "...it doesn't matter." His throat felt dry and bitter as the words came out. ...it shouldn't matter to her. Why was she...? "He shouldn't have said that to you. You don't deserve to hear that crap, Lucian.You're so much more than that guy's toy." "...I- I-- what? It's... Okay, really. My dad said that kind of stuff sometimes. I- I know he... He didn't mean it. He- he didn't mean it, right?" My father didn't mean it. Kubo didn't mean it either, right? ...the two faces almost blurred together in his head. He could almost feel Kubo's hands clutching the sides of his face. ... He remembered his father slapping him across the face. Again. And again. And again. I bet my father would have killed me too, Kubo. Did you really want that? Do you really want that? "He shouldn't have said that to you. You don't deserve to hear that crap, Lucian.You're so much more than that guy's toy." "...wh-what do you mean? I... Of course I deserve it. It's okay, it... It doesn't matter, really." So much more?... What was she even saying? And then... And then, Miyako... Put her arms around him. Lucian flinched, yet again. No. Nonono. Nononononono. Not again. Not again. NOT AGAIN!! It's Kubo. It's not-- You're safe. It's okay. It's not. "...so... Coming to torture me again? ...I know nothing, they never tell me anything anyways." ... "...but I don't matter, it's okay-" Hh. Hhhhh-- In and out and in and out and Oh god Oh god "Setsuna's fine. Just focus on you... 'kay?" Lies. Lies. Lies. Lies. Liar Liar Liar Lies Liar Liar just like him Blood gets all over the place What the hell has he done What the hell did he do Why did he-- How could he How could Anyone Hurt someone like-- ... The blood, the blood, oh, god, the blood Put down the gun Please not the gun Don't hurt them ... Focus on... What now? "No," Lucian whispered. "...he's not. I know he's not. I- I saw him, Miyako. He's... He's not fine." He couldn't even begin to answer the latter part. Why? Why were people convinced he was important? ...just why? And why her? Why Miyako? Why Miyako with her creepy hands and scary whispers and-- ...she killed her. She killed Kaoru. She killed Kaoru he knew dang well she killed-- ... No, she didn't, she didn't, she didn't... Nonono... Nonononono... "...I'm fine. It's alright. I'm... Fine." He began to feel sick. All those times you saw dead bodies-- Thought you'd become desensitized But But But ... "...I-It's... It's okay. I'm okay." Darcy Harper's POVHe... He would have been scared of Miyako too. Heh. The poor guy seemed like he'd been through a lot... ... Chocolate. Chocolate made things better. Chocolate tasted just like falling in love. It was sweet, sweet as can be. And beautiful. Like the sunset, and the birds as they flew by the bridge, over the water... That sweetness... It reminded you of how good things could be, if you only lived on to experience them. ... But Darcy Harper was trapped in a bitter and cold reality. Where he wanted to jump off that ledge Where he wanted to help but he had no idea how to When he wasn't sure he wanted to help Wasn't sure he even could He was a sinner too It was infectious And did someone who did such a thing ... He was a monster. An absolute monster. ... All he could do was hopelessly slink away. Go bake chocolate, will you? It's all you're good at. Sawyer Laurens's POVThey weren't quite sure what it was. Dad. Such a strange word. It brought to mind memories... Good? Bad? ...good. Good memories. Happy thoughts. Wait... ...? Bad...? What was the... ... Wait, how... ... What was... ... No, that wasn't what happened. Was it? "I wouldn't have done that, would I?" ...who knew what you would and wouldn't do. "Am I a good person? What is a good person?" ...so confusing Thoughts. Thoughts. Thoughts. Whirlwinds of Memories. [Read more] |