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Posted: Sat, 15/07/2017 10:00 (6 Years ago)
poisoned
I'm hella sick
now there's only the internet, my phone and books to keep me entert a i n e d
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that's my pet snail Raffael.
I found him on my porch during a rainstorm
The bigger one below him is Don.
Instagram memes have made me ill like that I'm almost certain
sad thing is that when I laugh I cry b/c it hurts so much
That and the music from Roll my Katamari!
It's extremly catchy ok
so much time to do things but so little energy
I hope the hard rock collecting & safari beast hunting won't take too long, I'm kinda looking forward to that hunt
I tried doing lei in the 'black undertale' style
it's allllright, 6/10 ig
out of sight, out of mind
out of sight, out of mind
we're out of time
we're out of mind
out of mind
It doesn't make me feel any better
don't make important decisions when you're feeling depressed
-past lei
tag urself
PHELOUS OH PHELOUS
Posted: Wed, 26/07/2017 16:29 (6 Years ago)
[far away screaming]
ooooohhhhhh loooooooovveee
yooouuurrreee soooo cruuuuuuueel and yeeet sooooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeet~~~
///crushing intensifies////
someone save me from this game
*continues to spill feelings all over the keyboard, mouse and screen
*fangirls
*isn't ready for any other routes
*stares into roberts dead eyes forever
and that's why I don't play dating sims/otomes
this will take weeks to wear off
edit : it wore off p quickly (~2 days), I'm surprised by myself. Maybe I'm finally growing up woooo
"Never was much of a romantic, I could never take the intimacy. I know I did damage, 'cause the look in your eyes is killing me."
I'm trying to get a screencap of the lowest 'currently online' - count
hall of fame atm
Posted: Sun, 30/07/2017 04:44 (6 Years ago)
mementos of the past
Discover the dusk of your day
Has reached its dawn
So burn it down
Remember to find a new way to carry on
I went through every post of this diary; I cringed less than I had expected. achievement unlocked
I saw some spelling mistakes/grammatical errors but decided to leave them in (for authenticities sake)
One eye crying, one eye smiling I look back at the things I decided to share w/ the everybody who stumbled upon this Leitmotif;
The posts might have made people shake their heads or look stuff up. Maybe some users are trying to avoid me at all cost now, the posts seemed completly random or just went unnoticed.
I like all of that.
Some of the posts threw me back a little and some catapulted me forward, it was a real ride.
There are visible spikes of me feeling high and me feeling low, so there's that.
Do I want to toss some of the posts into the void?
Heck yes.
But I won't.
It's alright to have dumpy moments, I like my stupid lyrics. After all, my taste in music didn't change for almost 10 years now. I found some of the same lyrics on old diaries (r e a l p a p e r o n e s) of mine.
It's all about sharing, even if it' s only w/ your future self. Remembering the good and bad times you had. I will do more timecapsules b/c I think they're really entertaining.
Reading through some other diaries (>:3) I still don't know how make use of one properly, though.
Should I willingly leave PH I'll print this thread out, ahah.
Posted: Thu, 03/08/2017 06:06 (6 Years ago)
peer pressure
answering this meme I don't dare posting about it
It is very, very stolen
1. No
2. fiery aries ♈
3. being eaten alive by zombies, burning to death, the world running out of drinkable water
4. good jokes I can laugh about whole heartedly, everything w/ cinnamon or mint, the gift of music
5. don't have one
6. Incubus - Absolution Calling
7. (SFW) puns about videogames I like, suits, citing poetry, rugged facial features
8. (SFW) being completly superficial only, being unreasonably greedy, annyoing voices, not wanting to educate yourself
9. colourful my little pony (gen 1) pastel ones (I am not kidding)
10. none, thought about getting snakebites but probably not
11. I was looking for something like a pokewalker for my phone and found the herowalker; from there I was directed to this browsergame. Seemed like fun so I stayed.
12. a little bit shaken up, got a drink to relax /sips/
13. a whole lot of japanese candy
14. I'm single
15. (URL like in username, right) I'll just take this from wikipedia:
"Bara (薔薇, "rose") [...] is a Japanese technical term for a genre of art and fictional media that focuses on male same-sex love usually created by gay men for a gay audience."
hope that's not to graphic hahah
16. The Silence of the Lambs, The Road to El Dorado and Donnie Darko
17. (I should make a Top 20 - playlist on my phone, I get that question often) Incubus - Absolution Calling, The Used - The Back of your Mouth, Periphery - Ow My Feelings!
18. Periphery, Incubus, Billy Talent
19. death of loved ones, being mocked, screaming/yelling
20. memes, light rain, cat gifs
21. a sharp intellect
22. can't think of anybody
23. can't think of anybody either
24. could be better than it is
25. christmas ! The smells, the spirit, the cinnamon whisky - It's great.
26. if closest like in "who-knows-most-about-me", then probably Luces
27.Luces
there are a lot I'd date at least once /zing/
28. I envy everybody who has worked hard to become a great artist
29. others insisting that they're right despite being wrong, unjustified insults below the waistline, people not being able to argue calmly
30. cats, spiders, bats
31. I have three snails; Michelle, Don and Raffael
32. I tell people I'm confident but I'm not.
33. I worry about an atomic blast wiping out everything and ending all life on planet earth
34. basically everytime I raised my hand in school and got an answer wrong
35. going to university in october, not working rn
36. bara
37. scratching of every scab I can reach, checking the time on my phone over and over again, sitting legged
38. learning to play the guitar, having a stable occupation, finishing all video games I own
39. having so much money that I don't know what to buy anymore
40. gamestop, garage sales, idea creative market
41. hawaii pizza, tropical fruit, pasta
42. being on an awkward meet-up w/ peers
43. shifting the blame, re-capping books/movies, making off-key jokes
44. being obliterated at ssbb (I'm a god at that game, try me)
45. (I've got too many) Mads Mikkelsen, Mark Holcomb, Murdoc Niccals, Shawn Mendes, Phelan Porteous
46. I'll have you know that my photograph can be used to catch salmons in sibiria [x]
47. I don't really read blogs, but if I did they'd be related to cute stuff, hentai and/or memes
48. 1 (Imma spoil the hell out of it)
49. yes, occasionally/yes, more than I should
50. (shoot me a PM/palpad if you have any, maybe I'll answer it)
2. fiery aries ♈
3. being eaten alive by zombies, burning to death, the world running out of drinkable water
4. good jokes I can laugh about whole heartedly, everything w/ cinnamon or mint, the gift of music
5. don't have one
6. Incubus - Absolution Calling
7. (SFW) puns about videogames I like, suits, citing poetry, rugged facial features
8. (SFW) being completly superficial only, being unreasonably greedy, annyoing voices, not wanting to educate yourself
9. colourful my little pony (gen 1) pastel ones (I am not kidding)
10. none, thought about getting snakebites but probably not
11. I was looking for something like a pokewalker for my phone and found the herowalker; from there I was directed to this browsergame. Seemed like fun so I stayed.
12. a little bit shaken up, got a drink to relax /sips/
13. a whole lot of japanese candy
14. I'm single
15. (URL like in username, right) I'll just take this from wikipedia:
"Bara (薔薇, "rose") [...] is a Japanese technical term for a genre of art and fictional media that focuses on male same-sex love usually created by gay men for a gay audience."
hope that's not to graphic hahah
16. The Silence of the Lambs, The Road to El Dorado and Donnie Darko
17. (I should make a Top 20 - playlist on my phone, I get that question often) Incubus - Absolution Calling, The Used - The Back of your Mouth, Periphery - Ow My Feelings!
18. Periphery, Incubus, Billy Talent
19. death of loved ones, being mocked, screaming/yelling
20. memes, light rain, cat gifs
21. a sharp intellect
22. can't think of anybody
23. can't think of anybody either
24. could be better than it is
25. christmas ! The smells, the spirit, the cinnamon whisky - It's great.
26. if closest like in "who-knows-most-about-me", then probably Luces
27.
28. I envy everybody who has worked hard to become a great artist
29. others insisting that they're right despite being wrong, unjustified insults below the waistline, people not being able to argue calmly
30. cats, spiders, bats
31. I have three snails; Michelle, Don and Raffael
32. I tell people I'm confident but I'm not.
33. I worry about an atomic blast wiping out everything and ending all life on planet earth
34. basically everytime I raised my hand in school and got an answer wrong
35. going to university in october, not working rn
36. bara
37. scratching of every scab I can reach, checking the time on my phone over and over again, sitting legged
38. learning to play the guitar, having a stable occupation, finishing all video games I own
39. having so much money that I don't know what to buy anymore
40. gamestop, garage sales, idea creative market
41. hawaii pizza, tropical fruit, pasta
42. being on an awkward meet-up w/ peers
43. shifting the blame, re-capping books/movies, making off-key jokes
44. being obliterated at ssbb (I'm a god at that game, try me)
45. (I've got too many) Mads Mikkelsen, Mark Holcomb, Murdoc Niccals, Shawn Mendes, Phelan Porteous
46. I'll have you know that my photograph can be used to catch salmons in sibiria [x]
47. I don't really read blogs, but if I did they'd be related to cute stuff, hentai and/or memes
48. 1 (Imma spoil the hell out of it)
49. yes, occasionally/yes, more than I should
50. (shoot me a PM/palpad if you have any, maybe I'll answer it)
Posted: Sat, 05/08/2017 10:28 (6 Years ago)
vanitas
Maybe there's a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry, that you hear at night
It's not somebody, who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah
if robin dies I imagine him going out of this world singing (similar to renji, but he had bohemian rhapsody). He's established being an okay-ish singer, and he definitely prefers older songs above newer ones. His voice range might be a little limited but other than that, if I had to chose a song for him, it would be Halleluja.
Posted: Sun, 13/08/2017 11:53 (6 Years ago)
short term goals
~~so heyy basically for this summer/break (til mid september)~~
~this should keep my sourness occupied~
done, finally
When you're at the end of the road
And you lost all sense of control
And your thoughts have taken their toll
When your mind breaks the spirit of your soul
Your faith walks on broken glass
and the hangover doesn't pass
Nothing's ever built to last, you're in ruins
if phelous was food he'd be plum pastry
Posted: Sun, 20/08/2017 18:00 (6 Years ago)
propositum
[queue suspenseful trailer music]
For eons now I have been looking into structuring and crafting a decent "about me" that can last a lifetime.
My attempts haven't been successful so far.
I almost perfected the art of putting random images in there.
The [left], [center] and [right] codes have also joined this journey, but it's still not enough to make the "about me" last.
But now, now that I have far too much time to think on my hands,
I've decided to list everything here you could possibly put into an "about me", content-wise.
I have great hope that this will, one fortunate day, lead to a thing I don't have to change anymore.
(basic stuff)
- real/online name
- year of birth/day of birth/age
- zodiac
- gender
- sexuality
- main disposition
- current occupation
- pronouns
- country of origin
- welcoming
(further info)
- vague/general description of ys
- favourite things
: animal
: pokemon stuff
: general things (music, objects, food, ...)
- fandoms
- these fan-stamps
- some date that might be meaningful
- hobbies
- family
- iq value
- those 4-letter personality tests
- ""meaningful"" lyrics
- current mood
- motto
(links)
- link to friends
- link to plushies
- current favourite song link
- link to diary
- link to hunting sheet
- other active site links
- server time
- stuff I'm buying rn
(ph-related)
- collection status (nuggets, pd, summons, ...)
- 'train' widgets
- username chain
- pal pad status
- short term goals
- friendlist status
- rules of conduct/conversation/sales (personal rules)
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[center]Lei | student (soc/phi) | PH +2
I'm a loner who likes crushing on people.
I take delight in music, memes and video games.
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[center]Lei | student (soc/phi) | PH +2
I'm a loner who likes crushing on people.
I take delight in music, memes and video games.
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Posted: Tue, 22/08/2017 19:43 (6 Years ago)
more stuff to do
(＼／)
/|＼(｀∀´)/|＼
⌒⌒ΨΨ⌒⌒
₍˄·͈༝·͈˄₎ own hoard; done~
fighting gems (20k) (halfway)
done
Posted: Mon, 28/08/2017 13:02 (6 Years ago)
♡♡♡
Ever fallen in love, in love with someone
You shouldn't have fallen in love with
no matter what the outcome is I'll go back to school, and maybe even w/ company. I've got mixed feelings about him joining as well... From all the people from the past he just seems to stick.
A lot of hurting happened and I'm unsure if I'm able to forgive.
also fallout 3
hello oblivion w/ guns and w/o trees
Posted: Sat, 02/09/2017 04:39 (6 Years ago)
tired of all the promises
I bet there are people out there who can look at your favourite pokemon and find out which deep rooted issues you have.
I'll start working soon and I've got to see how I can manage rl and this game. If I feel that I can't go on w/ both things at the same time I change my name here back and leave.
I'm not leaving behind riches (((if you don't count some friends oooo))) or anything valuable nor spent I real money on here. It would be like I never happened, which is good.
I can't say for sure how I'll decide, I'm not making promises. So don't celebrate too early yo
got a feeling that I'm going under
especially when feeling weak and/or being intoxicated I think back to your vicious intelligence and the way you used to talk and carry yourself; I felt intimidated by your maturity.
I still do, even while reminiscing. I had some of the best/worst experiences while being w/ you.
But I don't regret anything.
I'm happy I was able to meet you when I did, even if I took some really bad habits from you. Now we're apart and it's for the better, maybe 9 years really are too much.
I can't help myself but thinking about you when I feel bad.
it hurts when I see you struggle
Posted: Wed, 06/09/2017 05:31 (6 Years ago)
notes on sep-oct
(I'm taking notes about this time since I'm working full time in sep and part time in oct but w/ college (and from that on out it'll stay that way) it's more or less a log on if maintaining ph and irl obligations is possible for me)
--6/9
morning of 3rd day; I can log in on my phone in the break(s) for a long enough time to reply, change out eggs and other small things. I have the mornings when I wake up and wait for stuff in the oven, too. I come home in late in the evening and have about 2-3 hours left for myself, ph included. Maybe that'll change w/ the oct-onward shedule but I'll see. Rn, I can manage like this.
--8/9
I am done, oh god. Full time is draining the life force out of me x.x
I can still manage but I am too tired for clicking a lot and that kinda sucks. My mood is also kinda sour after the first week. Gladly phelous uploaded recently and his video cheered me up quite a bit x)
--9/9
((thanks phelous for getting me out of this hole of sadness and misery.))) I need the weekends for interaction marathons, recharging me reserves, clean the house and reorganize everything.
--10/9
hello anxiety
only working or only school should be doable, but now that I find out that it is quite complicated to create a shedule I'm shaking. I get my working plan before I can even create my stuying plan, which sucks. Also it's kinda wonky and not easy to understand. My head is pounding. Thinking about going to work again tomorrow makes me sick. This was all a particularly bad planned out bad plan, eh--
--13/9
Time's flying when I have actual work to do and coming home is a gift.
I feel sick since I'm away from home for almost 12 hours, I can't wait 'til september's over.
--14/9
on a scale from 0 to 3 cold cheeseburgers, how much do you miss homemade food?
--20/9
dawn of the 20th day.
being around people all the time makes my health stagger around which I don't really appreciate much. Here' s me hoping this works like a flu shot and I'll get used to it so I'll be never sick again.
--21/9
I had a nervous breakdown when I got home and started crying uncontrollably.
Yea
--24/9
I don't want the weekend to ever enddd
--25/9
real life crushing is hnnggggggggggggg
am I imagining things or do these entries grow more and more unorganized w/ time
--27/9
gg for working w/ people but hating people
--5/10
I'm slowLy getting into that working rhythm. Since I'm not allowed on the telephone anymore I have email and chat only, which is easy. Maybe I can really do this for a few years. It already feels like I've been there for my whole life... Next week school reall starts amd I have no clue how to manage all that. It is all really scary to me.
--11/10
last post.
My worries are gone. Maybe the drugs have finally kicked in or I just pondered enough upon everything for now.
I'll manage.
morning of 3rd day; I can log in on my phone in the break(s) for a long enough time to reply, change out eggs and other small things. I have the mornings when I wake up and wait for stuff in the oven, too. I come home in late in the evening and have about 2-3 hours left for myself, ph included. Maybe that'll change w/ the oct-onward shedule but I'll see. Rn, I can manage like this.
--8/9
I am done, oh god. Full time is draining the life force out of me x.x
I can still manage but I am too tired for clicking a lot and that kinda sucks. My mood is also kinda sour after the first week. Gladly phelous uploaded recently and his video cheered me up quite a bit x)
--9/9
((thanks phelous for getting me out of this hole of sadness and misery.))) I need the weekends for interaction marathons, recharging me reserves, clean the house and reorganize everything.
--10/9
hello anxiety
only working or only school should be doable, but now that I find out that it is quite complicated to create a shedule I'm shaking. I get my working plan before I can even create my stuying plan, which sucks. Also it's kinda wonky and not easy to understand. My head is pounding. Thinking about going to work again tomorrow makes me sick. This was all a particularly bad planned out bad plan, eh--
--13/9
Time's flying when I have actual work to do and coming home is a gift.
I feel sick since I'm away from home for almost 12 hours, I can't wait 'til september's over.
--14/9
on a scale from 0 to 3 cold cheeseburgers, how much do you miss homemade food?
--20/9
dawn of the 20th day.
being around people all the time makes my health stagger around which I don't really appreciate much. Here' s me hoping this works like a flu shot and I'll get used to it so I'll be never sick again.
--21/9
I had a nervous breakdown when I got home and started crying uncontrollably.
Yea
--24/9
I don't want the weekend to ever enddd
--25/9
real life crushing is hnnggggggggggggg
am I imagining things or do these entries grow more and more unorganized w/ time
--27/9
gg for working w/ people but hating people
--5/10
I'm slowLy getting into that working rhythm. Since I'm not allowed on the telephone anymore I have email and chat only, which is easy. Maybe I can really do this for a few years. It already feels like I've been there for my whole life... Next week school reall starts amd I have no clue how to manage all that. It is all really scary to me.
--11/10
last post.
My worries are gone. Maybe the drugs have finally kicked in or I just pondered enough upon everything for now.
I'll manage.
/finished/
Posted: Thu, 14/09/2017 16:59 (6 Years ago)
shiny landorus hunt
>>102 summons collected before beginning the hunt<<
I actually only want one of those, but if the hunt goes well and entertains me enough I use up all summons I can get and try to get more to trade for stuff.
(1 Shiny hatched in total.)
Imma call the shiny after revolver ocelot, Adamska
He kinda resembles landorus when he's aged, from the moustache to the colour scheme heheh
milestones
-safari chain broke at about 70 b/c some vivillion soared into my way-
let us think back to all the shinies and cool things I let slide during this hunt
Posted: Thu, 05/10/2017 18:40 (6 Years ago)
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I'm writing this in candlelight b/c my
room's electricity was cut short.
My laptop is bricked and now I need a new one - I didn't realize how dependent I am on that thing.
There's a guy from work that can't stand me for some reason and he keeps lowkey bullying me into submission which I don't like. Idk how to handle being pushed down by a superior tier 2 like that. I don't hate that job but I do hate some aspects of it... It's one thing to sit in front of the computer til kingdom come if it's your own stuff but for working purposes I barely manage.
I feel on the verge of sickness most of the time b/c I don't eat or sleep properly. I hope the training phase is over soon so I can get more humane working hours.
One of my snails died and I decided to bring all of them into the woods to release them. I cant even take care of myself, I shouldn't be responsible for other living beings.
My laptop is bricked and now I need a new one - I didn't realize how dependent I am on that thing.
There's a guy from work that can't stand me for some reason and he keeps lowkey bullying me into submission which I don't like. Idk how to handle being pushed down by a superior tier 2 like that. I don't hate that job but I do hate some aspects of it... It's one thing to sit in front of the computer til kingdom come if it's your own stuff but for working purposes I barely manage.
I feel on the verge of sickness most of the time b/c I don't eat or sleep properly. I hope the training phase is over soon so I can get more humane working hours.
One of my snails died and I decided to bring all of them into the woods to release them. I cant even take care of myself, I shouldn't be responsible for other living beings.
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I feel so useless and without any
purpose.
I've done that, been there before... Even though I haven't really gathered much experience in my life so far I think that situations keep repeating themselves all the time; time goes on but nothing changes.
I don't want to admit it but I feel so lonely, w/o anybody to talk to or to understand me. Hell, I can't even understand myself most of the time. I'm keeping myself from drowning by filling the void w/ useless things, but I keep realizing that I can practice that for much longer.
I'm tired of the way life is atm. I'm tired of myself and the thoughts in my head.
I've done that, been there before... Even though I haven't really gathered much experience in my life so far I think that situations keep repeating themselves all the time; time goes on but nothing changes.
I don't want to admit it but I feel so lonely, w/o anybody to talk to or to understand me. Hell, I can't even understand myself most of the time. I'm keeping myself from drowning by filling the void w/ useless things, but I keep realizing that I can practice that for much longer.
I'm tired of the way life is atm. I'm tired of myself and the thoughts in my head.
Posted: Mon, 16/10/2017 19:17 (6 Years ago)
enthymema
This took me time to realize.
Not everything has to make sense.
Some of the most beautiful things don't make any sense.
In the long run, nothing makes sense.
Maybe it's a better waste of time if you spend your life doing stuff you enjoy; as long as it doesn't harm anyone it's more useful than lamenting about the things you can't do or that caused hurt in the past. It's useful to learn from your mistakes, but it's something else entirely if you get tangled on them and struggle to move forward. The world doesn't change, you have to change first to make a difference for yourself.
> name+description for all of them; check if all refs are on dropbox
donatello
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I can't get there on my own
You can't leave me here alone
I’m just trying to do what’s right
Oh a man ain’t a man unless he’s fought the fight
I could never point you out
Waste of space in a faceless crowd
Tell me what I have to say
If you know what’s right, then you’ll walk away
4x When the walls come down
One by one I've seen them fall
Some just don’t show up at all
I’m just here to fight the fire
Oh a man ain’t a man unless he has desire
You can't leave me here alone
I’m just trying to do what’s right
Oh a man ain’t a man unless he’s fought the fight
I could never point you out
Waste of space in a faceless crowd
Tell me what I have to say
If you know what’s right, then you’ll walk away
4x When the walls come down
One by one I've seen them fall
Some just don’t show up at all
I’m just here to fight the fire
Oh a man ain’t a man unless he has desire
Posted: Fri, 20/10/2017 04:57 (6 Years ago)
shiny mega heracross
doing this a little prematurely, but why not, as long as I feel like it.
visario/jovanka
[i][b]Congratulations![/b] A shiny Heracross
hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #)![/i]
[i][b]Congratulations![/b] A mega able Heracross hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #)![/i]
[i][b]Congratulations![/b] A mega able Heracross hatched out of one of your eggs (Chain #)![/i]
mile stones;
24.10.17
29.10.17
02.10.17
glad you noticed fam
05.11.17
hit chain #1000
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11.11.17
three shinies hatched almost in a row
event log;
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the end
13.11.17
Thanks to all people that put faith and gems in me so I
can actually achieve this goal.
Posted: Wed, 25/10/2017 11:51 (6 Years ago)
LIGHT
mixed feelings all around. Feeling sick but yet hopeful. Being alive is an odd thing.
The absence of love
Behold what's blinding you
Serpent or dove
Between uncertainties
Tethered wings and captive dreams aren't worth the suffering
Open your eyes
Devotion deprived
Deny the very thing that you've accepted this life is about
Listen to my words
Defy devotion
Sick from the fall behind the wall
So I demand of you, stand up and see
Before they saw what I was becoming
Before it kept me form reaching
The light
Can't seem to understand it
Can't seem to know
Listen to the vacant soul
The child has lost his way
Posted: Sun, 29/10/2017 10:10 (6 Years ago)
take the time to waste a moment
[space for lines I found provoking and/or interesting]
I won't be satisfied 'til I'm under your skin
But it’s all I can do to carry on, it brings all I fear to life
CARPENTER BRUT - "TRILOGY" EVEN IF IT IS AN INSTRUMENTAL ALBUM
And why won't you hear me, when I'm screaming at the top of my voice?
Now I remember why I'm alone
You're so much more endearing with the sound turned off
So give me reason to prove me wrong, to wash this memory clean
Let the floods cross the distance in your eyes
You drained my heart ♥ and made a spade ♠
I never bite off more than I could chew but then she came and bit me
And now I'm just numb, I don't feel a thing for you
we're gonna show this town how to kiss these stars
If you still care don't ever let me know
Posted: Wed, 01/11/2017 09:33 (6 Years ago)
Posted: Mon, 06/11/2017 20:31 (6 Years ago)
thoughts on vocals
is this diary a mangled mess? yes.
on "summer romance (anti-gravity love song)" Boyds voice is really clean and he hits every note perfectly, I wonder why there are not more songs like that one. The track is really smooth and could even fit on one of the newer albums. Mega-polished.
I like "light" a lot, it's deep burning and hurting, but I have to admit that prefer Barrettos vocals more on that track as they're rougher and grittier. Sotelos voice is awesome, but it's too clear and perfect for that track.
I don't like Levines voice that much (too sour) but I love the album Songs About Jane as the sick guitar riffs on it fit well w/ his voice. I don't know why their sound got more pop-y w/ the years but that cd is awesome (shiver + harder to breathe aaaa)
"Run" is like an acid dream on drugs. I can't get enough of that song and I listen to it until I get nauseous.
I don't like rap much but I lowkey love Kanye Wests albums, I got them all. Some tracks are extremely clever and the beat is infatuating.
Caleb Followills voice gives me such great vibes, no matter the song. Makes me feel warm and fuzzy, like hot raspberry sauce. And the slow burners make me cry 9/10.
Most say phelous has a stupid voice but I love listening to him, especially when he tries singing, talks on the bootleg zones or is being serious
Burnleys voice has an unique texture and flavour to it, especially on "saturate". I never heard his range of voice anywhere else.
"talkshows on mute" hits me right in the feels for some reason. It's not that sad of a song, but the delivery makes this song. Everytime I hear the guitar intro when skipping through songs in shuffle, I let that one song play.
if I ever had to go gay for a voice it would be McGlynn, the female voice for almost every sung Silent Hill track. Her voice is really dreamy. Soft, yet powerful at the same time. "I want Love", "Tender Sugar" (sick bassline) and "Room of Angel" are especially great.
Posted: Thu, 09/11/2017 19:07 (6 Years ago)
broken
Day 70-something;
my mental and physical health are further deteriorating. Maybe I'm not made for school and work at the same time. I'm often sick and very low energy. I'm thinking about regulating my own internet time a little so I can finish stuff, I am behind in lots of aspects.
I even stopped making my usual plans and schedules as I am not able to conform to them anyways.
I feel like not accomplishing anything, yet feeling overworked all the time.
I have to make a lost of things I need to change, so I an go on. Right now I am not able to anymore.
I'll update this when I found a solution for myself.
Mindless, I'm fading
First thing I need to fix is not worrying for the days to come.
I always wake up on monday and worry about saturday already, and I worry every day of the week until saturday comes.
Rinse, repeat.
It ruins most of my week, I actually love monday and tuesday a lot.
